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Danse_Macabre_Ballerina
@danse-macabre-ballerina
Just feeding my hyper fixation by writing some Ghost smut.
She/Her 40+
All my smut is also on AO3 here: https://archiveofourown.org/users/Danse_Macabre_Ballerina
Don't be fooled by the goofy memes...This blog is mostly 18+ Explicit NSFW horny-ass shit, so NO MINORS
*All of these and more are also on my AO3*
MY ASKS ARE ALWAYS OPEN! (As long as you don't mind waiting 6 months for me to answer) Ask me questions, give me feedback, make special requests, feed me prompts, or aimlessly ramble about whatever.
Just please be kind, I am from the 1900s and I am fragile.
I'll write about any Papa, Mary Goore, or even the occasional Ghoul. (I'll happily write about TF too if you ask, but I don't post rpf fics here.)
I am most comfortable writing for female main characters or readers, but I'll do gender neutral if you prefer. And as far as kinks go there is almost nothing that makes me too uncomfortable, but I will respectfully decline if it's something I don't know enough about to do it justice.
And let me know if you want to be added to my taglist. You can request specific Papas or tropes too.
Full list of fics under the cut...
Click on the masterlists for fic summaries and links
Primo/Papa I Masterlist
Bleeding Heart (971 words) TW Blood
Summer Rain (1,260 words)
Eyes On Me (2,031 words) TW Anxiety
Tossed Salad (1,361 words)
Our Love Is Perennial (2,151 words)
Fiore Di Neve (1,055 words)
Secondo/Papa II Masterlist
Stay With Me (3,384 words)
Bookmark (1,609 words)
Sound Check (815 words)
A Close Shave (643 words)
Mia Ragazza Tosta (902 words) TW Dom/Sub, BDSM, Rough Stuff
Blood Moon (2,539 words) TW Blood
Giveth And Taketh (2,435 words) TW Rough Stuff
Romanzo D'Inverno (3,092 words)
Terzo/Papa III Masterlist
An Unholy Proposal (7,402 words)
Sacrifice On The Altar (4,660 words)
Moonlight Cenotaph (6,725 words)
Bound To Him (5,318 words) TW Past S/A
Lamb To The Slaughter (4,416 words)
Exploring The Dark (7,457 words)
Hello, We Are Ghost (5,648 words)
Body Language (1,444 words)
Hold Me Now (858 words)
Sky Is Falling (977 words) TW Earthquake, Blood
Behave (1,282 words) TW Sub/Dom, Rough Stuff
Use Your Pretty Words (909 words) TW Sub/Dom
Red Venus (1,588 words) TW Blood
Papa Terzo (1,557 words) TW Pregnancy
Stella Matina (2,265 words) TW Childbirth Complications/Surgery
Yours To Lose (2,925 words) TW Rough Stuff
Just As You Are (1,568 words) TW Body Image Issues/Weight Gain
Overtime (1,785 words)
Bella Afrodite (1,874 words)
Wait For Me (1,126 words)
Colomba Del Mattino (1,120 words)
Stall Tactics (1,521 words) TW Sub/Dom, Rough Stuff
Thigh High (1,461 words) TW Sub/Dom, Collaring
Hands Are The Heart's Landscape (900 words) TW Con Somnophilia
On The Hunt (1,548 words) TW Mild Sub/Dom
My Sweet Adversary (4,525 words) TW Rough Stuff, Dub Con
Cure Amorevoli (3,980 words)
Break The Arrow (3,303 words)
Dust And Shadow (3,080 words) TW Masterzobation?
Cardinal Copia/Papa IV/Frater Imperator Masterlist
Pour Your Pain Into Me (6,332 words)
Blood Lust (2,251 words) TW Blood
Embracing Infatuation (6,655 words)
Surrender To Temptation (6,003 words)
A Lesson In Sin (6,406 words)
You Are Mine (4,844 words)
Second Chance At Ascension (4,104 words)
Rite Of Passage (5,628 words)
Eruption and Absolution (1,255 words) TW Con Non-Con, Rough Stuff
Growing Pains (1,514 words) TW Con Non-Con, Rough Stuff
Bleed For Me (3,054 words) TW Blood
Bath Time (1,226 words)
Negotiation (409 words)
Negotiation 2 (778 words) TW Rough Stuff
Papa Down (1,253 words)
Game Over (1,045 words)
Eat Your Words (910 words)
Take Five (1,275 words)
Wild Ride (6,939 words)
Mia Dea (1,050 words) TW Pregnancy
In The Heat Of The Night (4,523 words) TW Rough Stuff
Just A Crush (2,508 words)
Duty Calls (1,150 words)
Attrazione Immediata (7,075 words)
Time For Two (1,423 words)
Be My Forever (2,250 words)
Benvenuti A Casa (3,626 words)
Love Long Distance (7,338 words) TW Intoxication
All Work No Play (6,690 words)
Tell The Truth (6,249 words)
Date Night (1,446 words) TW Intoxication
Another Date Night (1,568 words)
Scary Movie (625 words)
Worship With Me (1,796 words)
The Cardinal's Cane (883 words)
Attitude Adjustment (1,030 words)
Bella Ghuleh (2,856 words)
Ready For My Close-Up (1,294 words)
Dream Weaver (3,778 words) TW Mild Somnophilia, Voyeurism
A Special Request (2,871 words)
Standoff (1,793 words) TW Rough Stuff, Con Non Con
Too Shy To Say (2,564 words)
Untamed Pleasure (2,038 words)
Animal Instincts (1,412 words)
Brava Ballerina (1,702 words)
Read To Me (1,649 words)
Wet Dream (1,256 words)
Victory Lap (6,290 words) TW Mild Somnophilia
Fallen Petals (572 words)
Frater Ephemerus (1,681 words)
The Taste Of You (1,373 words) TW Autism/Arfid
Here Comes Frater Cottontail (3,039 words)
Perpetua/Papa V Masterlist
Purple Rain (2,323 words) TW Blood
The Calm During The Storm (839 words)
Gazza Ladra, Part 1 (1,681 words)
Gazza Ladra, Part 2 (1,446 words)
Creature Crush (1,251 words)
Your Eyes Only (1,487 words)
Hide and Seek (4,055 words)
Coffee Break (1,647 words)
Mine To Protect (6,474 words) TW Attempted SA, Violence
Tummy Troubles (646 words)
Non-Fiction Friction (1,354 words)
Any Way The Wind Blows (4,350 words)
Closing Time (1,934 words)
Tender Confession (1,305 words)
A Score To Settle (1,594 words) TW Rough Stuff
Evening The Score (654 words)
The Papa Who Could Fly (4,804 words)
Time Out (1,066 words)
A Happy Homecoming (1,091 words)
A Tender Reprimand (2,400 words) TW Light BDSM
A Reluctant Goodbye (1,889 words) TW Rough Stuff
You Hold The Key (2,780 words) TW Terzo is Dead, Rough Stuff
My Sweet Boy (845 words)
Midnight Snack (992 words)
Love On The Road (5,897 words)
Backstage Pass (2,056 words)
Home Cooking (1,643 words)
Salvation In Submission (2,411 words) TW Dom/Sub
Play It Again (5,260 words) TW Blood
A Free Heart (3,124 words)
Love To Keep Me Warm (2,291 words)
What You Need (2,438 words) TW Gratuitous Rough Stuff
In My Eyes (1,694 words)
Tutor Privatus (1,836 words)
Rainbow Tour (1,201 words) TW Mild Somnophelia
Playing Doctor (1,008 words) TW Sub/Dom, Inspection Kink
The Monster Inside Me (3,254 words) TW Blood, Dub Con
Room Service (4,106 words) TW Mild Somnophilia
Creature Comfort (1,390 words) TW Menstruation
Cardinal Peep-petua (2,191 words) TW Voyeurism
Travel Companion (2,905 words) TW Monsterfucking
Sweet Dreams (869 words) TW Somnophilia
Multi-Papas, Pick-Your Papa, and Miscellaneous Masterlist
*Multis involve gangbang and tag-team scenarios, never any of the Papas sexually engaging with each other. If you are into that, that's fine, this is a judgement-free zone...but I a not into that myself.
Tango For Three (5,030 words) *Copia, Terzo TW Dubious Con/Non-Con, Rough Stuff
Resolution (5,695 words) *Copia, Perpetua
The Game (3,664 words) *Copia, Primo, Secondo, Terzo
All The Time (5,232 words) *Copia, Terzo
Night Watch (719 words) *Terzo, Perpetua TW Accidental Voyeurism, Non-Con Masturbation
Sushi Night (1,984 words) *Terzo, Copia
Pas de Trois: Adagio (895 words) *Copia, Perpetua
Pas de Trois: Coda (4,012 words) *Copia, Perpetua
Completely Pleased (2,048 words) *Copia, Dewdrop, Rain TW Tentacle Sex
Dangerous Curves Ahead (1,807 words) *Terzo, Copia
Perfect Pet (5,521 words) *Perpetua, Secondo TW Sub/Dom, Rough Stuff, Blood/Injury
It's A Beautiful Sky (2,713 words) *All Papa and more! SMUT FREE!
Three Tiny Titty Ditties (2,164 words) *Terzo, Copia, Mary Goore
Blood Monday (1,611 words) *Pick-Your-Papa TW Blood
Bedside Manner (1,929 words) *Copia, Terzo
Wild Horses (853 words) *Pick-Your-Papa TW Sub/Dom, Pain
And Papa Makes Three (2,120 words) *Perpetua, Dewdrop
Blood Brothers (1,682 words) *Copia, Perpetua TW Blood
Blood Brothers: Epilogue (324 words) *Copia, Perpetua
Tender In Tandem (3,753 words) *Mary Goore, Perpetua
Chasing Waterfalls (1,507 words) *Pick-Your-Papa
Take Me To The Bone Room (801 words) *Dewrdrop
A Lesson In Mating (4,151 words) *Copia, Perpetua
On A Hot Summr Night (2,469 words) *Copia, Perpetua
Mary Goore Masterlist
Bloody Mary (1,795 words) TW Blood
Haunt Me (1,196 words)
Haunt Me Again (1,880 words)
Silent Treatment (491 words)
A Bad Trip (1,681 words) TW Drug Use
House Chores (1,199 words)
Sweet Revenge (2,034 words)
A Very Mary Christmas (1,805 words) TW Unplanned Pregnancy
Christmas With The Goores (1,787 words)
Nyårsafton (713 words)
Snötäckt (2,208 words)
Breakfast For Dinner (1,547 words)
Addicted To You (3,887 words)
Back Together (1,604 words)
Modersmjölk (1,106 words) TW Lactation
My Bloody Valentine (1,385 words) TW Blood
Mogen Persika (3,401 words)
Vattensporter (1,742 words)
Broom Service (1,277 words)
Födelsedagsöverraskning (2.043 words)
Morgonöverraskning (1,368 words) TW Mild Somnophilia
Mary Godmother (1,601 words)
Beneath The Blood (1,644 words)
Hitting Snooze (2,248 words)
I Varmt Vatten (3,870 words) TW Domestic Violence
Min Lilla Blodkorv (2,230 words) TW Blood
Old Faithful (1,032 words)
Manèges Renversées (3,916 words)
Bakdörr (1,369 words)
Kundservice (2,734 words)
Vargens Kläder (2,459 words)
Take Me Tonight (1,980 words) TW Mild Sum/Dom, Degradation
🌔Moon Over The Ministry🌒
January 3rd: Wolf Moon (5,632 words)*Werewolf!Perpetua x fem!afab!reader TW Kidnapping, Dub Con, Monsterfucking
February 1st: Snow Moon (1,975 words) *Secondo x fem!afab!reader
March 3rd: Worm Moon (1,540 words) *Primo x fem!afab!reader TW Blood, Dub Con
April 1st: Pink Moon (2,642 words) *Dewdrop Ghoul x fem!afab!reader TW Tentacle Sex
May 1st: Flower Moon (3,917 words) *Deacon!Terzo x fem!afab!reader
May 31st: Blue Moon (3,727 words) *Cardinal!Copia x fem!afab!reader
Random Ghostie Thoughts
⚪ Sore Sex ⚪ About Me ⚪ Papa Boners ⚪ Lube ⚪
⚪ Skeledancers ⚪ My Kinks ⚪ Poopoopetua ⚪ OCs ⚪
⚪ Mira ⚪ Terzo and the Female Orgasm ⚪ 2025 Recap ⚪
⚪ Mary "Dry Humping" Goore ⚪ 'Tesora' Is Not A Word ⚪
⚪ Pussy Eatin' Papas ⚪ Public Sex ⚪ Ministry BBQ Day ⚪
⚪ Happy Birthday!...Love, Papa ⚪ C and V Like Boobs! ⚪
⚪ Satanic Stories From The Streets ⚪
Warnings: Body Worship (okay, turned out less body worship and more just worship in general but fuck it, I wanted to write it this way lmao); fingering; vaginal fingering; cunnilingus; marking; piv; vaginal sex; unprotected sex; praise kink; y’all this is soft soft, and I love it; religious symbolism; corruption kink; hair pulling; multiple orgasms;
Author's Note: This is a continuation of October 3rd, so if you haven’t read that, please go and do so before you read this! Thanks!
Recommended listening: Chase Atlantic with their self-titled 2017 album.
🔞 MDNI 🔞
Under the cloak of night, he crept through the ancient cobblestone streets of Rome, heart pounding in his chest like a drumbeat of impending doom. The Vatican’s towering walls loomed before him, a fortress of faith and secrets. Driven by a love forbidden by both church and society, he had come to breach the sanctum’s impenetrable defenses.
His leather-soled shoes barely made a sound as he approached the towering stone wall that guarded the Vatican’s secrets. In the moon’s pale glow, he could make out the shadows of security guards patrolling the perimeter. He crouched low, his heart racing with each passing second, and carefully assessed their movements.
Timing was everything. With the precision of a cat, he found his moment when two guards turned their backs, engaged in hushed conversation. In one swift, heart-pounding motion, he scaled the wall, fingers gripping the rough stone edges, and muscles straining with urgency. His breath held, he cleared the top, dropping silently to the other side, where the hallowed ground of Vatican City stretched out before him. It was almost as if he could feel the soles of his feet burning as it touched the hallowed ground, and forced him to move forward quickly.
Silent as a whisper, he navigated the maze of corridors of the Vatican’s residential quarters. The opulence and history that surrounded him seemed at odds with the clandestine nature of his mission. Portraits of pontiffs from centuries past stared down at him from gilded frames, their judgmental eyes seemingly aware of his transgressions.
He moved with caution, avoiding the gaze of any servants or clergy members who might cross his path, clutching onto his Grucifix pendant in his thick hand in an attempt to shield his true identity. His knowledge of the Vatican’s layout was limited, but the urgency of his desire propelled him forward.
Finally, he found himself outside a front door, familiar to him only by the number he’d been given. He knew this was where you resided, his forbidden lover, a cardinal of the church with all the responsibilities but none of the titles or accolades. With trembling hands, he reached for the doorknob, his heart pounding louder than the sacred hymns echoing through the Vatican’s hallowed halls.
The room was bathed in the soft glow of candlelight, casting dancing shadows on the richly adorned tapestries that lined the walls. He had finally found your apartments, and with a mixture of apprehension and longing, he pushed the door open, revealing the inner sanctum of the Pope’s daughter.
Inside, you sat at a writing desk, the dim light revealing the weariness etched into your features. Your modest dress hung off your frame just as pristine as you liked it. You looked up from your work, your eyes widening in shock and disbelief as they met his.
Time seemed to stand still as your gazes locked. Words failed you both, as the weight of your forbidden rendezvous hung heavy in the air. You stood from your seat slowly eyes fixed on the now cocky Secondo whose arms were outstretched as though he wanted you to run to him and welcome him into your home. Run to him you did, but no words of welcome were exchanged.
Your palms reached his shoulders and with a force, you pushed him, anger now taking hold of your body. “What are you doing here!?” You hissed, clearly livid by his intrusion. This was not how he wanted things to go. “My father will be here any minute! What do you think he’d do if he found a Cardinal of the Satanic Church in his daughter’s room?”
Secondo grinned, his black upper lip stretching into a lacivious smile. “Hopefully he’d understand my intensions and close the door behind him.”
Your hand connected with his cheek, a red mark forming instantly. Just as you were about to lay into him, you heard a familiar voice sounding from the entryway. “___?” Your father had arrived.
Secondo’s eyes widened, now understanding the gravity of the situation. Though the Catholic church was supposed to be a pinnacle of moral upstanding, it wasn’t uncommon for Popes to take drastic measures to protect their Papacy, even if it meant defying their God’s wishes. Thou shalt not murder - unless of course they pose a threat to your power and need to be eradicated. Secondo knew that given he was a footsoldier of the Devil, a Satanic rat sent to plague the people with “immorality”, your father would have no problem crucifying him on the steps of St. Peter’s Basilica.
“Hide!” You shout-whispered, your panic even greater than Secondo’s.
Secondo wasted no more time, diving into your bedroom and throwing himself under your bed, thankful that you didn’t use it as storage. He did so at just the right time, because while he couldn’t see your father from his position, he could hear him and he was right where Secondo had stood just thirty seconds prior.
“What are you doing in here?” Your father asked, his tone certainly suspicious. “Why didn’t you come when I called?”
“Sorry, father, I was doing some work. Correspondances.”
Your father hummed in acknowledgement. “There’s a meeting tomorrow morning at ten o’clock. We’re gathering officials to discuss how we’re going to remove the vermin.”
Secondo didn’t need to visit the Vatican often to know that the vermin your father was referring to was the Satanic Church. He rolled his eyes and contorted his face to childishly mimic and mock your father - though he knew no one could see him, it was a knee-jerk reaction and he thought it was funny.
You hesitated before you spoke. “Yes, father.”
“Something you want to say?”
There were, in fact, several things you wanted to say to your father and none of them were kind. After spending as much time as you did with Secondo, you had grown to understand that they weren’t the monsters you used to fear and that the way your father and other members of your church talked about them was terrifying. You wanted to yell at your father for not treating you as you deserved, as well. How you were always promoted within the church, but could never retain the title as “women didn’t hold powerful positions”. But he had no problem using you to benefit his politics and Papacy. But all your thoughts would fall on deaf ears, and so you settled on a, “No, father.”
“Excellent. I’ll see you tomorrow, then.”
“See you tomorrow.”
As the Pope finally left the room, you sank back against the door you had closed behind him, your emotions in turmoil. You closed your eyes and took a deep breath, trying to collect yourself. That was the moment Secondo had been waiting for. He emerged from his hiding spot, his presence a comfort and a promise in the midst of your forbidden… whatever this was. The silence between you was palpable, broken only by the flickering candles and the distant echoes of Vatican life outside your apartment. He watched as you composed yourself, trying to calm yourself of the anger your father had left you with only to feel it flare up when you saw the Satanic Cardinal standing in your bedroom doorway.
“Why did you come here?” You quietly shouted at him, anger ever present in your voice. “You know what would happen to you if someone saw you - what would happen to me, too!”
You stood there, lecturing him about his behaviour, hands flailing about the room in your frustration and a small amount of hatred dancing in your eyes. As you unleashed your fury, your words cutting through the air like a storm, he couldn’t help but be mesmerized by the raw beauty of your anger. Your eyes blazed with intensity, your voice resonated with passion, and your fierce determination only made you more captivating. In that moment, your rage seemed to enhance your allure, and he found himself irresistibly drawn to you. Never had he seen a woman before so beautiful than you in that moment.
He thought back to when he first met you, how your anger and hatred towards him had fuelled his lust, and how it forced him to act against his better judgement to take your virginity on a desk that didn’t belong to him in the bowls of the Ministry.
Caught between the tumultuous emotions swirling around them, he took a step closer, unable to resist the magnetic pull of your presence. Your anger had laid bare the depth of your relationship, and he knew that your illicit connection was a flame that refused to be extinguished. As you continued to vent your frustrations, he reached out, gently taking your face into his hands and pressing his lips against yours, silencing you, a fervent promise that he would stand with you against all odds, consequences be damned.
You pushed against him at first, not because you didn’t want to kiss him, but because he had the nerve to silence you when you were talking. But the more you melted into his arms, the less resistance you put up, and allowed yourself to be caught by him as you began to fall from grace. Though your descent from righteousness started when you gave yourself to him, it was that kiss that solidified your feelings, and made you realise that however much you loved your God, you were sure you loved Secondo more.
Passions grew when he pressed you against your door, trapping you between him and the wood. His hands moved from your face, down your arms, and tickled at the bare skin until he finally settled at your hips. Your hands gripped at his cassock, holding on tightly and pulling him as close as he could possibly be to you, but even then that wasn’t close enough. His kisses ignited a fire in you that shouldn’t have been lit in the first place, and had you submitting and bending to his wishes willingly. When his fingers tightened on your hips and began lifting your dress, you let him. When his tongue begged for entrance to your mouth, you let it. When his hand found the gusset of your panties, you spread your legs to allow him easy access. When he dipped below the waistband, and stroked a tentative finger over your clit, you moaned into his mouth to encourage him to do it again.
In this moment, he wasn’t a servant of Satan. He was yours. Your ardent and eager slave, a genie sent to grant all of your wishes even if you didn’t know that he had them. His lips travelled South from yours, roaming over vast expanses of your body in search of a single destination. He moved to your jaw, your neck, your clothed dress, your stomach, hips, thighs. He dropped to his knees in front of you, his glove-covered fingers pulling your panties down with him as he knelt before you. You watched him hesitate for a moment, before wide eyes stared up at you as if to plead with you to grant him permission. His eyes were mismatched and popped against his Cardinal paints, a gentle yet emblazoned fire in his eyes as he waited for you. You couldn’t say no; you simply didn’t want to. You needed him probably more than he needed you. You nodded.
He gently lifted your leg in his hands and kissed it from ankle to knee. The higher up his lips went, the more passionately he kissed, and once more he played using his tongue. But now, in addition to kissing, he started sucking, leaving a trail of numerous dark brown hickeys on your thigh. No one would be able to see them here, but every time you caught a glimpse of your naked body, you would be reminded of them. Of him. Of what he did to you and the shame that was supposed to come with it. Shame that you refused to feel because that would imply you regretted letting him have his way with you. But even when you were worshipping your Lord, when you were in the confessional booth, you couldn’t bring yourself to regret your actions.
He immediately dove in and started licking and sucking at your clit. He forgot to take it easy and instead allowed himself to just take from you what he wanted because he was so desperate and needy for your taste. He was encouraged to continue his movements by the faint and low whimpers that escaped from your partially opened mouth.
“Yes! Just like that!” Due to the strong suction he applied, you whispered, ending your sentence with a particularly breathy moan.
One of your hands flew to his head, gripping onto his hat and throwing it to the side allowing you to rest your hand there, pushing his face into your heat. Your hips bucked in pleasure, riding his tongue and taking what you needed from him. “Secondo!” The hand that wasn’t resting on his head flew up to your mouth, covering your exceptionally desperate moans as you came on his tongue, silencing yourself as much as you could so the Clergy wouldn’t hear your pleasure from the other side of the door.
When your orgasm had completely subsided, Secondo released you from his suctioned hold, his chin glistening with your juices and a small grin on his face. That grin altered your brain chemistry and instilled a confidence in you that you didn’t know you had. You pulled him by his cassock back to his feet and crashed your lips against his, kissing him much harder than before. You could taste yourself in his mouth, your own essence moving onto your tastebuds and heightening your arousal. Your hand gripped onto his and pulled off the first glove, still with your lips attached to his, and once it was off his hand, you threw it somewhere in the room. The second glove met the same fate.
You pushed him away from you and pulled at your zipper, undoing the dress and letting it pool around your feet. Your bra was the next to go, falling to the floor and exposing your breasts to him. You stood completely bare in front of him, looking at his face as his eyes ran over your body, drinking in every part of you he could see and committing it to memory. You then took his hand and walked him to the bedroom.
Before today, all your secret meetings had taken place after or during official meetings between your churches, sneaking off while representatives met to discuss peace or something redundant that both sides would ignore. Your meetings had been limited, but over the course of that week had been frequent. Yet for each of your encounters together, Secondo had taken charge. Despite how much he degraded you, how disrespectful his words were, you had grown to trust him entirely. He would never push you passed your limits, or do something to deliberately hurt you that you hadn’t already asked for or expressed your wish to try. Though he always used his experience to heighten yours, you were very much the pace-setter.
This was never more evident by his willingness for you to push him down onto the bed once his cassock and underwear was on your bedroom floor. How he happily lay on his back and watched you crawl up his body, tongue laving over his hairy stomach and chest and driving you further upwards. In your hubris, as your mouths connected in a passionate kiss, you took his length into your hands and lined him up with your sopping entrance, preparing both of you for the stretch you were about to experience. You felt Secondo’s hands move to your hips, supporting you as you sunk down onto him, taking him inside you in one fell swoop. This motion had you both breaking the kiss, mouths falling open in a perfect ‘o’ and your eyebrows raising while his furrowed, darkening his eyes.
You sat up, taking him even further down, and when you bounced for the first time, you ripped a growl from his throat. His back arched, his fingers tightened their grip on your hips. “Fuck!” He gasped when you did it again.
Your inexperience made it difficult for you to find a rhythm, your hands falling to his stomach to support you but failing to give you both the pleasure you needed. Secondo changed your motions for you, instead of helping you bounce, he used his hands to move you back and forth. “No, grind on me, little lamb.” He told you. You found a rhythm pretty quickly. “Just like that. Good girl.”
This position had your clit rubbing against his pubic mound and his cock moving inside you perfectly. The slight upwards curvature of him meant that each time you moved back, he hit that sweet spot inside you and caused you to cry out.
The more you moved, the more confident you became in your ability and allowed you to relax and just feel him - feeling the way he felt inside you, hitting your walls with each movement, his hands gripping onto you tight enough to leave more marks for you to admire later. While your eyes were closed in pleasure, his were wide open, drinking in every inch of your body and admiring you from below. He got to see you in your full glory, breasts bouncing with each thrust, thighs jiggling, mouth agape in ecstasy. The placement of your bed in the room in contrast with the overhead light created an ethereal glow, almost giving you a perfect halo around your head.
An angel.
You were an angel - you were his angel. The once good, Catholic girl who he loathed to look at, who made his life Hell in all the wrong ways. The righteous child who preached to those who didn’t want it, who was so sure in her decisions being the right one, now warmly accepting her mortal enemy into her body without much of a second thought. Now giving into temptation and pleasuring herself, against the will of her Lord, with the very man her book warned her about. The daughter of God using the son of Lucifer to commit sin after sin within the walls of the most hallowed building. It was almost as if he could feel your soul tainting with each thrust of your hips, your purity disintegrating along with his willpower each time a moan fell from your lips.
“Please,” you whimpered, “talk to me. Like you normally would.”
Degrade you? Now? He couldn’t possibly. He couldn’t find it within himself to tear you apart when you looked as you did: red-faced, sweating, panting and gasping for air as you felt him all the way up in your stomach. “I can’t.”
“Please.”
“No.”
“Why?” He didn’t answer at first, hoping you’d drop this crusade. But you were determined to get what you wanted and so, you stopped moving. “Why?”
“Little lamb, move.”
“Why?”
He lifted your hips a little more and tried to thrust into you, but you fought against him. “For fuck sake!” He sat up, his nose mere centimetres from yours, his eyes burning with anger and lust, pupils blown so far out the colour had disappeared entirely. His hand moved to the back of your head and pulled at the roots of your hair, lips brushing against your neck as he spoke, “Because you are divine. Move, please.” When he lay back down you picked the pace back up exactly how you did before you stopped, working towards your orgasm. His eyes remained on you the whole time. “You want me to tell you how sinful you are, hm? How much of a bad girl you are for defying your Lord?”
“Yes!”
“I won’t. I won’t use the same words that they do. Fucking shit! I can’t use those words when Lilith herself blessed you with ethereal beauty. When she placed her most beautiful creation on this Earth to walk amongst the mortals; art amongst the rats. I will not degrade one who was made to conquer men.”
You were breathless, both from the exertion and his words. “I c-conquered you?”
“Body, mind, soul,” he gripped hold of your hand and pulled it to his rest on chest, “and heart.” Your eyes met his in surprise, and your body shook as though electricity was running through it. “Conquered and enslaved. I will forever be yours, and worship you like the goddess you are.”
His large hand that had completely covered yours moved up your arm and began to rub both of his around your body, gripping onto pieces and stroking gently.
“Secondo!”
By the way your walls were fluttering around him, he knew you were almost at your peak. “Cum for me, little lamb. Bless me with your holy water.”
This orgasm was much more intense than your first, your body shaking and your eyes glazing over. Your back arched as it washed over you, your fingers digging into his arms and leaving half-moon prints in his skin. “Fuck!” You screamed softly, like your body had just been plunged into cold water.
“That’s it. That’s right. Give it to me.”
“Secondo! Oh my God!”
He pushed you off his cock and put you on the bed beside him, turning you to lie flat on your stomach. Your hips were lifted just enough for a pillow to sit below you, then you felt him mount you from behind, draping his entire body over you. His lips found their way to your ear as his cock lined up with your hole once more. “Your God doesn’t deserve you.” He told you as he entered you again, pressing you against the mattress. His hand found yours and interlocked his fingers with yours as he began to thrust into you, moving at a similar pace to when he usually fucked you. Hard, fast, dirty. But this time there was something new, something tender in the way he touched you, the way his other hand rested atop your hip.
“I will forever get on my knees for you,” he told you between grunts, “and worship between these hallowed walls.” He kissed your shoulder blades. “I will thank you for all that you give me. I am yours.”
“I’m yours, Secondo.” You turned your head to capture his lips and give him a deep kiss, his tongue sliding into your mouth as his cock continued to slide in and out of your tight, wet heat.
He surrounded you, every inch of his body running against yours and trapping you between him and the mattress in a way you’d never felt before - making you feel safe. His words told you that you were loved, despite the violent speed they ran through your head as he occupied every inch of your mind. His scent, woody and musky, filled your nose. His grunts and growls swallowed by your mouth in your unbroken, needy kiss. He loved you. He’d risen to catch you as you’d fallen for him. In that moment, nothing else mattered. God and Satan be damned. They’d ruled your lives too much, you both deserved this.
“Cum for me.” You whispered into his lips. “Give it to me, give me everything.”
“Where can I cum?”
“Inside me. I wanna feel you inside me.”
“Fucking hell!”
His hips snapped faster and more erratically until eventually he pushed himself as far as he could inside you, painting your walls with his cum. His eyes were tightly shut and a growl escaped him. He could feel his heart in his throat. His fingers tightened around yours when he came, gripping onto you and never wanting to let go.
As he came down from his high, he peppered your skin with kisses, black Cardinal paints very much wiped away at this point and his body exhausted from the exertion. He stayed inside you, softening with each passing second but not wanting to leave the warmth of your body just yet. You didn’t want him to, either. But it had to happen eventually. He rolled off you, but kept his hand on your hip as he did and rolled you with him, wrapping you up in his capable arms and holding you close.
The later into the night it got, he knew he’d have to leave the Vatican and wait to see you for who knew how long, and that thought hurt him more than he could possibly. He did everything he could to commit you to memory; how you looked, felt, smelled. He needed something to see him through until the next time you managed to see him. And so, he held you close, doing his best to fight off sleep.
That was until your voice broke the silence. “How would the Ministry feel if I left with you tonight?”
Warnings: Hate sex; mean dom!Secondo; virgin!Reader; catholic!Reader (for now); degradation; piv; unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it); semi-public sex; corruption kink; cunnilingus; multiple orgasms; dubcon; choking; breeding kink?; cum eating (because I’m a slut for it okay? I’ll see you in the goddamn parking lot); vaginal sex; loss of virginity;
🔞 MDNI 🔞
Your father becoming the Pope was not something you anticipated, but it was definitely a dream of his. As his daughter, you had your own responsibilities to the church that you had to maintain, as well as making sure your father’s reputation and standing in the Catholic church remained good and respectable.
You had made it your mission to save as many souls as possible, but only one you had given up on. He was the second son of a man named Nihil Emeritus - a lowly man who called himself Papa and claimed to be the anti-Pope for the Satanic Church. The leader of the opposition. His second son, known simply as Secondo, was cardinal to his father, and was a real piece of work.
You had, in previous years, tried to show him the way of the light, the way of the Lord. But he would always counter you with ridiculous quips and notions about Him that made your blood boil. How can one person be so blind to the rulers that oppress them as much as Satan did? How can they follow a beast so blindly and stray so far from all that was pure?
Constant talks between Satanic and Catholic churches would happen to set specific boundaries both physical and spiritual, but once a year, the Vatican and the Ministry would meet to set an example to followers on both sides - though everyone hated these meetings and wanted them to end, it was important for your church to be seen at the very least converting the dark ones with kindness and love that our Lord had shown you and taught you to be.
This year, for the first time in a hundred years, the Ministry were to host the talks and you were nervous to say the least. You were uncomfortable entering such a sinful building, filled with demons and lost souls, covered in pentagrams and statues of the Devil. As you walked through the white marble halls, you clutched onto your crucifix necklace and prayed quietly for the Lord to keep you safe.
Outside, they had a press conference and photo opportunity. Your father and the blasphemous Nihil had their pictures taken together, shaking hands and pretending to engage in important conversations for the sake of the press, before the rest of the churches were invited to take photos together like a NATO Summit. He was placed next to you.
His ungodly mismatched eyes hidden underneath layers of thick, black paint making him look like a bald panda. Not a single hair underneath his zucchetto, instead the only hair on his head coming from his eyebrows and his moustache. It would be unseemly to compare his aesthetic to a certain kind of video, but he definitely looked like he came straight out of it. You were both in our twenties but his choice of appearance made him look so much older than you. Yet there he was, confidently standing in a respected Cardinal’s uniform, soiling it with a grucifix and a perverted smile.
For the photograph, he put his arm around you, and rested his large, leather gloved hand on your bicep. Though your face was smiling like you were happy to be there, your insides were crawling with disgust. You shoved him off you as soon as the cameras had switched off. “Get your filthy hands off me, you creep!”
“Only for the photo, dipshit. Believe me, looking at you makes my dick soft.”
“Must you always be so vulgar?”
“Must you always be a prude?”
“You know, you are such a-”
“Children,” You heard your father’s voice and immediately silenced yourself, “come.”
“Yes, father.” As you walked towards your father, you brushed passed Secondo’s shoulder hard and held your head up high, preserving what remained of your dignity. You knew your father would force you into penance later for your emotional outburst.
The day was seemingly endless, and you often found your mind drifting away with itself thinking of other things. At first, your mind went to lunch - what would those hellish kitchens serve you? No doubt ground up fetus spaghetti. But when your eyes met Cardinal Secondo’s, your thoughts drifted to him instead. If he wasn’t so brutish, he would be attractive. If he was Catholic he would be attractive. But he was Satanic, an abomination. He needed saving.
Finally, you were granted a break and ran to the restroom as quickly as you could. Coming out, however, you ran into Secondo again.
“Oh, look! It’s the little snob.” He said, his face as stoic as usual. “Probably pissed out the holy water she drinks.”
“Go stick your face in it, see how it feels to burn.”
He raised his eyebrows. “I didn’t know you were into that.”
“You should repent. Beg the Lord for forgiveness. Turn to the light.”
“I’m much happier under the watchful eye of the fallen archangel, thanks.”
“You’ll burn in Hell.”
“That’s the idea.”
“Filthy sinners deserve to rot there. You and your family will suffer if you don’t-”
He moved towards you and grabbed your chin with his index finger and thumb, his eyes filled with anger and hate. You felt your heart rate spike in fear, yes, but there was also something else you couldn’t identify. “Listen to me, you stupid little sheep. I couldn’t give a fuck about your Lord, your God or the idiots who follow you. I don’t care about that fucking book you live and breathe by and I don’t care about you. You dare to come into my house and dictate what I do? I’ll do what I please, and worship who I please. Maybe you should repent, Sathanas would appreciate how you looked on your knees.”
“Get off me!” You shoved him as hard as you could and freed yourself from his touch. “You vile, filthy pig!” You hit his shoulder. “You sinful, disgusting cockroach! I would never get on my knees for evil bastards like you or your deranged goat god!”
“But you would get on your knees. Unless of course, you’re a virgin.”
You hit him again.
He gasped. “You are!” He laughed. “Saving yourself for marriage, huh? Keeping yourself pure and holy for a god that would kill you with no thoughts of regret.” He grasped onto your chin again. “I could save you, you know? Show you a better way of living. Worshiping a god who worships you back, and sends you the greatest pleasures you’ve ever known.” As he spoke, his face got closer and closer to yours until he was a single inch away from you. You could feel his breath on your face, smell the coffee from his break just moments ago. “Tell me to stop, little lamb, and I will.”
You should have. You don’t know why you didn’t. Maybe there was a part of you that hated how controlled you were by your father. Maybe there was a part of you that wanted to be tempted by a servant of sin. You weren’t sure about the reason, but you knew that when his lips touched yours and he pulled you in for the most passionate kiss you’ve ever had, or the only kiss you’d ever had, you were tasting a glimpse of the pleasure he offered you. His tongue immediately sought entry to your mouth, and you granted the permission, letting him take the lead and teach you what to do. It felt so good. You had to stop. This was wrong.
You pushed him off you one final time and slapped his face. No words were spoken, there wasn’t anything to say. He didn’t look offended by your slap, nor did he look put off by it. He still looked at you with the same lustful expression he had moments ago. And you couldn’t stop yourself.
Your hands gripped his cassock and pulled him back in for another kiss, this one more violent and desperate than it was before. It was messy, all teeth and tongues and no finesse to it whatsoever. His hands moved to your waist, pulling you closer to his body, before gripping onto your ass. The feel of his covered hands clutching onto you sent a thrill through your frame you’d never felt before. Before you knew it, a moan had escaped from your lips and caught up onto his, which made him smile.
The sound of people approaching made you both pull away from each other. You began to panic. You were sure you looked disheveled enough from the kiss alone, and the Cardinal’s cheek was beginning to redden where you slapped it. In a panic, you grabbed hold of his hand and ran into the first unlocked door you could find, keeping the lights off and shutting yourselves in as quietly as you can. Secondo was chuckling at you, but you simply held a hand over his mouth and kept as quiet as you possibly could. You couldn’t be seen being intimate with a member of the Satanic church! It would ruin everything. When the people left, you sighed in relief.
You had unknowingly pulled both of you into an office of some kind, but you didn’t know whose office it was, or if they’d even be back. It was in the silence of the room that you realised what you’d just done. And how close you were to Secondo. Before more doubts could sneak back in, your lips found each other’s again. You don’t know who started it, but now that you had, you couldn’t keep your hands off each other. His zucchetto was the first thing to hit the floor, followed by your own hat and your heels.
Secondo’s mouth travelled to your neck and began placing open mouthed kisses there, driving you mad with want. You couldn’t think of anything else other than him. You loathed him, he was evil. But he felt so good.
He backed you up against the desk in the room and continued to kiss your neck, his hands roaming all over your body. His were the first to touch you in so many places: your shoulders, your arms, your waist, your stomach, your breasts and now your thighs.
Your legs opened for him automatically so he could slot comfortably between them. Your sun dress hiked up over your thighs, giving him perfect access to your panties which were now drenched in your arousal. It wasn’t long before his hands made their way under your skirts and stroking over your vulva. He barely pulled away from your neck to utter his words, “the good Catholic girl, soaking wet for the Devil’s son. Do you think your god is watching, little lamb? Hm?” His fingers moved your panties aside. “Do you think he’s disappointed in you giving into temptation?”
“Yes.”
He stood up straight, his forehead touching yours as his finger rolled over your clit. You released a strangled noise at the new sensation, and your hips bucked. “You’ve been a good girl up until now, haven’t you? Keeping yourself pure for your god. My god sent me to you,” he pushed one finger inside your wet heat tapping upwards immediately, “I am His gift to you. Tell me, little lamb, will you accept His gift, even just for today? Will you let the one you hate the most defile you?”
“Yes!”
He kissed your lips again as his fingers hooked into your pure white panties and pulled them off you. He got onto his knees and directed your legs to rest onto his shoulders. You couldn’t help it. “I hate you so fucking much - ah!”
He silenced you by wrapping his lips around your clitoris and sucking hard, not giving you any chance to ease into this. You could feel him smirk into your cunt as he lapped up your juices, shaking his head and licking away until he was convinced you were seeing stars.
Your hands flew to his head, holding onto him as if you were about to float away. The pleasure was so overwhelming, and nothing like anything you’d ever felt before. Sexual pleasure of all types was a sin - and you had never indulged at all. You were too scared to. You were an adult, so sheltered about adult things you knew nothing of what your body could do. But now here you were, legs spread with the son of the anti-pope licking up your arousal like he was eating his first meal in days.
That same son was now inserting a finger inside of you again, tapping up and making you cry out. Your noises were uncontrollable and loud, but there was nothing you could do about it. Silence didn’t feel like an option. You needed to make noise and you couldn’t explain why. You gasped when he added a second finger. Your hips moved on their own accord and you bucked into the pleasure, simultaneously wanting to escape it but also get as close to it as physically possible.
“W-wait!” You said. Your words were slurred and your voice full of panic. “S-something’s happening. You - mmm - you have t-to stop please!”
He ignored you entirely, refusing to stop his ministrations no matter how much you squirmed. “Stop, y-you sack of sh-shit. Oh my God!” His other hand, somehow so powerful, stopped your hips from wriggling away and pinned you to the desk. You were helpless when you toppled over the edge, seeing black as you came for the first time. Secondo worked you until you were overstimulated and collapsed back onto the cold wood of the desk. Your body covered in sweat and your breathing laboured. Your head was spinning from the intensity and you could barely move.
Secondo stood, his hand on his crotch moving his cassock out the way to free himself. His cock was big, or to you it was anyway, girthy and as long as his hand. He gripped your hips and pulled you towards the edge, making sure you were easy access for him. He lined his cock up to your vulva once more, but instead of pushing inside he rubbed himself against your folds, groaning at the feel. “This is your last chance,” he told you, “tell me to leave and I will. If you don’t, I will sodomise this virgin cunt of yours.”
The feel of his cock against your folds was torturous. Your hole was clenching around nothing, screaming for him to enter you and have his way with you. There was a small voice in your head telling you to run, leave now while you still could. Your whimpers and the sound of your wetness was now the only noise in the room.
“What do you want, little lamb? Do you want me to stop?”
“No!”
He stopped his ministrations and placed the head of his cock at your entrance and pushed in the smallest amount, not enough to completely penetrate you, but enough to drive you insane. “Tell me what you want.”
“F-fuck me.” The request tasted weird but you meant it.
Secondo nodded. He grabbed hold of your hand and held it. “Look at me.” He told you.
For a second, you looked vulnerable and it made his dick throb. You sat up and placed your hand on his chest, nervously pushing him away with no force. “Will it hurt?” You had always been told that it would hurt, and now you were scared you’d be in pain.
His own tough facade dissipated briefly, and the hand that wasn’t gripped in yours went to cup your face. “No.” He said gently. “You are wet enough and my fingers stretched you. But if it hurts too much you must tell me.”
You nodded.
With you now concentrating on him, he began to push into you. His thick cock spread your walls a little further than his fingers did, and the pressure was a lot. Both of your hands moved up to his neck, grasping onto him, as your eyebrows worried and your mouth fell open. Every time you thought he would stop he just kept going.
“You good?”
Your body was on fire. There were too many things to feel. “Yes. Oh God!”
The toughness returned to his demeanour and there was a dark glint in his eye. “Your god can’t help you now, little lamb.”
Before you had the chance to process his words, he pulled out of you and then slammed all the way back in, causing you to scream It felt Earth-shatteringly good to have him inside you. He did it again. And again. “You sadistic bastard!” You exclaimed in between moans.
He laughed but said nothing, instead concentrating his gaze on where your bodies met. Every rough thrust sent you a little further across the desk, and your back couldn’t remain upright. You allowed yourself to lie back down again, your body jiggling violently with every movement. You had to bite your finger to keep you from screaming again.
“Look at you,” Secondo began, “lying there with your - fuck - your legs spread like a c-common whore.” You tightened. “The whore likes being reminded of who she is, hm?”
His hips moved faster and faster as he got more into his head, watching your tits bounce as he defiled you.
“What’s the matter, little lamb? Devil steal that tongue? Mm, shit. No smart remark? Wh-where’s that snobby cunt who keeps telling me to repent now?” He pulled out of you and manhandled you off the desk, spinning you around and bending you over it slightly. He slammed into you once more. His hand wrapped around your throat. “Oh, that’s right, she’s booking herself a one way ticket to Hell.”
“Fuck you!” You hissed.
“Giving yourself willingly to the son of Satan. Oh, how the righteous fall from grace.”
His other hand ran seductively down your body, and as his teeth began to bite your ear, his finger stroked your clit in circles. His breath in your ear, his hand on your clit, his cock in your cunt, it was all too much. You were surrounded by him, breathing him. He was everywhere and difficult to escape. But you didn’t want to escape. This was the most free you’d ever felt, the best you’d ever felt. You came around his cock this time, tugging at his cassock and gasping for air, collapsing back onto the table.
In your mind, you saw the crucifix within your private quarters at the Vatican - the very same one that was gifted to you by the previous pope. You could see Jesus as if he were right in front of you. The look of disappointment present on his face as he watched you give into temptation and gift your most sacred gift to the Devil. The disappointment didn’t make you feel guilty for once in your life.
With that thought in your mind and the fog cleared, you began taking control, meeting Secondo’s thrusts with as much passion as he was giving which stole a guttural moan from him. “Oh, fuck, just like that. Let me fuck this tight, virgin cunt. Take my cock, you fucking whore.” Both of his hands grasped your hips with such tightness, you thought he would bruise you. “You’re gonna make me cum. Is that what you want, little lamb? Shit! You want me to cum deep in this cunt? Knock you up with the fucking Antichrist, hm?”
No. It was too risky. “Fuck, fuck, fuck! Cum inside me. Give me your filth!” You heard yourself say.
With a growl, Secondo stilled and emptied himself into you, letting his own body fall forward and pin you down to the desk. You had no choice now, you were forced to take all his cum whether you wanted it or not. How would you beg for forgiveness now that the Devil’s seed was spilling into your willing womb?
Despite his exhaustion, Secondo dropped to his knees again and ran his tongue through your folds, collecting his cum from your pussy and working you towards your third and final orgasm. This was bordering on pain, but it felt so good. Your knuckles turned white from how hard you gripped the desk. Turning to look behind you, you saw him practically worshiping your cunt, and that alone was enough to tip you back over the edge.
When all had finished, and you were both redressing in silence, you realised the implications of what had just happened. You had committed the ultimate sin… and you didn’t want to go back…
come on now, you're not just a hole. please don't sell yourself short. you're three holes that need to be used and abused, whether you like it or not. never forget that.
18+ Explicit (5,695 words) Copia x fem!afab!oc, Copia x Perpetua x fem!afab!oc
Ongoing brotherly drama between Frater Imperator and his twin Papa V Perpetua collides with a growing attraction between Cardi and the new choreographer
What happens at the cast party...stays at the cast party I guess?
Also Cardi & Pet aren't together together in this...that's fine if you're into that, I don't judge, but incest doesn't do it for me.
[Religious Imagery & Symbolism, Brotherly Angst, Smut, Semi-Public Sex, Public Hand Job, Fingering, Gangbang F/M/M, Oral Sex, Cunnilingus, Blow Job, Doggy Style, Missionary Position, P in V Sex, Multiple Orgasms, Romantic Fluff]
Read on AO3
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Frater Imperator paced back and forth along the hallway outside the rehearsal studio, his heels clicking against the marble floors in an erratic rhythm. He felt petulant, agitated, like he did most of the time these days. He tried to tell himself that, logically, he should be very pleased with how the rehearsal had gone, that any success for Ghost was a success for him and a sign of his strong leadership, but the constant all-consuming heaviness in his chest said otherwise. Mira had done a wonderful job with the choreography and the addition of that layer brought up the level of the entire production. It was a bonus that the Ghouls and dancers seemed to get along so well and that Mira and Perpetua had a real creative rapport...but he didn't have to like it. He knew he was getting worked up about nothing, quite literally hot under the collar. He decided to duck into the communal dressing room to splash some cold water on his face in an attempt to cool his temper. Don't have to worry about ruining the face paint anymore, he thought with a heavy sigh.
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When he opened the door he could hear the sound of a running shower in the background along with a faint, almost angelic voice...a song he knew all too well, but had to admit he hadn't been able to bring himself to listen to in a while. He found himself humming along as he leaned over the sink, a little louder as he grabbed a handful of paper towels, dabbing at the water he'd sprayed across his smart jacket.
"You'd never want me to appear...you'd never want it to be over..."
The singing from the shower stopped abruptly, mid-verse when two voices were so clearly echoing off the tiles. He heard the water turn off, and a tentative head peeked out from the shower curtain, nervous at first but then beaming with an affectionate smile.
"Why Frater, how lovely to hear you sing again," Mira said with genuine enthusiasm.
"Didn't think I still had it in me, eh?", he said, studying his tired-looking reflection in the mirror.
"Nonsense," she chuckled, wrapping a towel around herself before stepping out. "You know, I would never say this in front of Perpetua...but you were always my favorite Papa."
He scoffed, "Not fucking V?"
"No really," she continued, stepping in closer. "You might be surprised how many fans are still not over your promotion."
"Promotion...huh." He sat down on a nearby bench, visibly deflated. "Right."
She observed his vulnerable state, not something she was used to seeing. She was still such a new addition to the Ghost project, but she could tell he was going through...something, sitting down timidly next to him on the bench, pausing for a moment to collect her thoughts, to find the right words that might comfort him. "You know, when I retired from dancing, it hit me really hard. It took me almost a decade to feel like myself again because I couldn't wrap my head around who I was anymore without that being my whole identity. I was really sad, really lost for so long. I pulled away from my family and friends and I felt like I couldn't enjoy anything any more. But gradually, other things filled the holes in my life that were left empty. And now I get to do things that I never would have gotten to do before...like all of this."
He was quiet, visibly considering what she was saying.
"What's the expression...," she continued. "When God closes a door he opens a window?"
"Let us not bring him into this," he said, raising his hands in mock-offense.
"Sorry," she giggled. "No, I mean we don't exist in a vacuum. When something that's such an important part of ourselves is taken away, something inevitably takes its place. When you thought your purpose was one thing and suddenly it's gone...it just takes a while sometimes to find your new purpose. It's okay to feel a little empty, a little aimless...but you can't keep punishing yourself for it."
He took in her words with a shaky sigh and she could see his shoulders relax slightly. "Maybe it is you should be Frater."
"No, thank you. I am quite happy in my current position," she chuckled.
He took her hands and squeezed them earnestly. "In all seriousness, Mira you give very sound advice and you have given me much to think about. Thank you."
"Anytime...Papa," she said with a wink, standing and heading to find a clean set of clothes, seeing him out of her peripheral vision making his way to the door.
"Oh, Mira," he turned back to her just before exiting. "I would like to host a proper cast party this weekend, for you and your dancers. The Ghouls have their own typical way of celebrating that I fear would be...inappropriate. Do you think that would be something they would enjoy?"
She flashed an enthusiastic smile, "I think that's a wonderful idea, Frater. It will be so good for morale."
"Good. Good stuff. I will make that happen," he mumbled as he made his way out the door, suddenly a little self-conscious that such a long conversation had transpired between them with her only in a towel. "And Mira...thank you again."
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Frater put together quite a subtly elegant affair, hosting a lavish meal with the company of dancers sitting at small round tables scattered around the ballroom, music and dancing, and most importantly a fully stocked bar. He usually found it a tedious chore constantly having to make the plans for the debauchery that was a big part of life at the Ministry, but his new-found friendship with Mira in recent days gave him extra incentive to put extra effort into making it an evening that would express to her how much her support was helping him, better than he ever could in words.
"Is Perpetua not joining us tonight?", she asked as the first course was being served.
He flinched slightly. He hated to hear that name come from her mouth, hated to think that he was on her mind. "No, he is joining in the Ghouls' celebration tonight at my request. They require...supervision."
"Ah, I see," she giggled. "So, you get me all to yourself then?" He looked up suddenly from his plate, taking in her playful, flirtatious expression, a wry smile spreading across her tempting lips. She chuckled to herself at how easy it was to take the wind out of him. It was gradually becoming her favorite pastime.
As dinner wound down, the glow from the chandeliers dimmed giving way to the flashing, colorful lights over the dancefloor in the center of the room. The tempo and volume of the music changed and glasses of wine were replaced with lines of shots. Mira and Frater sat at their table in a dim corner, sipping cups of coffee, observing the writhing, groping bodies of the other guests that seemed to make the entire room sexually charged, an electric buzz hanging in the air that was infectious.
"Are they always like this at a cast party?", he asked, leaning in to Mira's ear to be heard over the loud thumping of the music.
She rolled her eyes and sighed, "I'm afraid so, Frater. I did ask them to try to keep it professional tonight, but once the drinks start flowing...let's just say I hope you have a sturdy lock on the wine cellar and your clean-up crew isn't easily shocked."
He laughed, leaning in closer. "Perhaps I was being naive to worry about keeping them separate from the Ghouls, eh? And please, Mira...we are off the clock, no more of this Frater shit...call me Cardi." He punctuated his last words, placing a hand casually on her bare thigh and for a moment they were both frozen. For the first time all night they were both silent, faces almost close enough to make contact. Even though there was still the leather of his gloves as a barrier between them, the heat from his hand felt scorching hot against her skin.
He was the first to break the stalemate, dropping his focus to her lips, letting his hand drift higher and slightly between her thighs, gripping gently as if he were afraid she might try to escape. "Everyone can see us," she whispered, her voice low and husky, and he could feel her breath hot and ragged against his lips.
"I do not give a shit. Let them see how much I want you." He slid his hand higher, barely grazing her clit through her lace panties and even through the leather of his gloves he could feel the heat radiating off of her. The sudden contact made her gasp, shifting slightly in her seat and spreading her legs to give her better access. It was all the cue he needed, dipping his hand under the thin fabric to run the tips of his fingers through her wet folds. "Look at me, Mira. Stay with me and no one will know that we are having anything more than a conversation...unless you want to give them a show, that is." He circled her clit in lazy, teasing circles, watching her circling her hips slightly, itching for more pressure.
She could feel the heat building within her quickly, the leather against her tender flesh a new sensation that left her feeling both vulnerable and exhilarated. The room around them seemed to fade away, leaving only the two of them. He smiled watching how responsive her body was to his touch, how eager. He slipped a finger inside her, curling it to hit the spot that sent sparks of pleasure coursing through her, through her limbs to her fingertips that gripped the edge of her seat, white-knuckled and shaking. "You are so wet, Mira," he murmured, his voice a low growl against her ear. "I can feel how badly you want this." Before she could respond, a second finger joined, pumping in a steady, relentless rhythm, driving her closer and closer to the edge. She could feel her orgasm building, her body tensing as his thumb pressed against her clit. "Come for me, Mira," he commanded, his voice a husky whisper. "Let me feel you come." With a final thrust of his fingers her body shuddered as waves of pleasure washed over her and he caught her lips in a searing, possessive kiss to stifle her cries. He held her in the lingering kiss as she rode out her orgasm, her body trembling in his embrace. When she finally came back to herself, she looked up at him with heavy-lidded eyes and smiled at him affectionately.
"I think perhaps we should get some air," he whispered, leading her out into the night.
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The moon was full so the paths through Primo's garden were well lit even at this late hour. Mira and Cardi walked hand-in-hand in a comfortable silence in spite of the passion they had shared just minutes before.
"Cardi, can I ask you something?", Mira finally started quietly.
"Mmm hmm," he answered, lost in his thoughts.
"Why is it that you dislike Perpetua so much?", she asked, her voice full of concern. "I mean, I know you're not happy about him replacing you in the band, but...he is your brother after all."
"Brother....humph," he huffed. "I never even knew I had a brother before. What good does it do me now?" She waited silently for him to continue, seeing the pain wash over his face. "I was not raised by my mother, my father never wanted me, and even my own twin was kept from me. It was so damned...lonely."
"Oh, Cardi...I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have-" Her thought was interrupted by the sight of a slender black-clad figure in the distance, instantly recognizable. "Speak of the devil..." she said, waving him over before he could stop her.
"Are you not supposed to be watching the Ghouls?", Cardi hissed.
"I just now stepped away, C," Perpetua said indignantly. "I am not a fucking babysitter."
"Alright, that's enough. Both of you." Mira stepped between them. "Can we just call a truce already? You're both acting like children."
They stood in a tense silence, tempers smoldering with an underlying pain that was palpable.
"I just...I just do not understand...why you hate me," Perpetua finally said quietly, a slight tremor in his voice.
Cardi's angry expression softened. "I do not hate you. I know none of this is your fault any more than it is mine."
For the first time in the months she'd been working with them, Mira saw the brothers letting their guards down around each other. "It seems to me, that whatever happened to both of you in the past, the people responsible are no longer around to be held accountable or to give you the explanations you're looking for. You have to find some way to heal without that kind of closure. And you have to stop taking it out on each other."
They paused, considering what she had said until Cardi extended a hand to Perpetua, who took it tentatively before an impish grin spread across his face and he wrapped his arms around his brother's waist, pulling him in for a bear hug. Cardi pat his back a few times with a roll of his eyes and Mira giggled at their endearing awkwardness.
Perpetua pulled away abruptly. "Oh shit...the Ghouls. I need to get back before they wreck the place."
"We should head back too," Mira said. "Who knows what kind of mischief the dancers have gotten into by now."
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As they got closer to the ballroom, Cardi, looking visibly more relaxed, much to Mira's satisfaction, released his grip on her hand, taking a few steps ahead to open the door for her. When he did, his eyes widened dramatically before closing the door quickly.
"What is it?", Mira asked, rushing to catch up to him. "What did they get into this time?"
He cracked the door for her. "Oh, sweet Lucifer!", she exclaimed, clasping both hands over her mouth.
Perpetua ran up, out of breath, a rare look of worry on his face. "We have got a problem, C," he panted. "The Ghouls...they are gone...I do not know where they went..."
"I think we found them," Cardi said, trying his best to be dead-pan, opening the door again. Perpetua peered inside at a sea of pink and grey bodies writhing across every table, chair, and available surface, the unmistakable sounds and smells of sex hanging heavy in the air. Both brothers broke into unrestrained, hysterical laughter at this point, the kind of full-body laughter that made Cardi's usually stern eyes sparkle and Perpetua's sharp teeth reflect the flickering candlelight of the corridor. "So much for keeping them separated tonight," Perpetua chuckled.
Mira still stood, mouth agape. "I...I can't," she stuttered. "Should I be worried about this? Like how dangerous are these Ghouls when they're drunk and frisky?"
"They are mostly harmless, really," Cardi replied, wiping a happy tear from his eye, months of tension and anxiety finally melting away. "Actually, after what I have seen tonight I think they are perhaps in more danger around your dancers."
Mira dropped her head into her hands before throwing her hands in the air, exasperated. "So what do we do now?"
"Join them?" Perpetua's eyes twinkled with mischief and Cardi rolled his eyes.
"Fuck it, I'm in. Let's do it," Mira said and Cardi shot her a look of amusement and surprise. "This night can't get any more bizarre, so why not?"
Perpetua clapped his hands enthusiastically and Cardi relented, "Alright, alright, but back to my chambers, okay? I am past the age of enjoying fucking on a table. A bed, if you please, for our...fun"
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"How come your tv is so much bigger than mine?", Perpetua whined indignantly.
"Because I am Frater, and you are not-er," Cardi quipped, busying himself lighting candles throughout his small bedroom. "You are perfectly capable of buying yourself one that is larger. Besides, you are about to be away on tour for a year anyway, so what does it matter?" Perpetua huffed.
"And stop getting distracted, you are supposed to be picking out music to put on," Cardi scolded, suddenly aware that Mira was still standing in the center of the room and hadn't spoken since they arrived. "Are you alright, Mira?", he asked gently.
She seemed to snap out of a trance, mumbling, "Hmm?...Oh yeah...sorry...it's just..." She trailed off and Cardi removed his gloves, taking her small hands in his, skin to skin. "...I've just never done anything like this before. It's actually been kind of a long time since I've been with...anyone. I know this is just part of life at the Ministry but...I'm a little nervous...excited, but nervous." Her face burned with embarrassment, nervous tears threatening to wet her cheeks. She was used to being an authority figure next to these powerful men and she was suddenly overwhelmed but the vulnerability of the situation she'd put herself in.
Cardi cupped her cheek, lifting her head to make eye contact with him. "You have nothing to be nervous about. We will not do anything you do not want to do. You know you can trust us."
"We will take care of you, baby," added Perpetua, finally starting the music playing in the background.
Cardi's thumb brushed her cheek as he leaned in, capturing her lips in a passionate kiss. His hands explored her body, tracing the curves of her waist and hips, pulling her closer to him. Perpetua approached from behind her and slipped his hands under her dress, his fingers finding the sensitive spots on her thighs, making her gasp into Cardi's mouth. He broke the kiss to look at her, a seductive smile on his face.
"Do you like that?" Perpetua whispered, his fingers inching higher. Mira nodded, her breath coming in short gasps. Cardi's hands moved to her breasts, cupping them through the thin fabric of her dress, his thumbs circling her nipples. Perpetua's hands found her clit, rubbing gently through the damp lace of her panties, making her moan. "You are already so wet, baby," he murmured, nuzzling into the nape of her neck. "You want us to take you, don't you?...To completely surrender to us?" Mira nodded again, her eyes heavy with desire. Cardi's kiss was fierce, demanding, as Perpetua's fingers moved faster, making her body tremble. "We are going to make you feel so good, Mira," Cardi promised, his hands guiding her to turn around.
Perpetua grabbed her face roughly with both hands and pulled her in for a quick, fiery kiss before dropping to his knees in front of her. Cardi reached down to the hem of her dress, skillfully peeling it off over her head, the beading only briefly getting stuck in her hair, making them all giggle, easing the tension for a moment. Perpetua pulled off his gloves with his teeth before hooking his fingers in the waistband of her panties, sliding them down her shapely legs. They both took a moment to admire her lean muscles and supple curves and she blushed, feeling especially naked in front of their hungry eyes.
Cardi wrapped his arms around her, letting her lean back against him and Perpetua gripped her thighs, parting her legs to give him better access. Cardi's fingers traced circles around Mira's nipples, his thumb brushing over her sensitive skin, causing her to arch her back slightly. Perpetua had settled between her legs, his tongue tracing lazy patterns along her folds, making her moan quietly. Every so often his pointy teeth would catch on her sensitive flesh and make her jump and squirm at the sensation. Cardi chuckled, charmed by her responsiveness, leaning in to kiss and nip at her neck, his breath hot against her skin. Mira's breath hitched as she felt Perpetua slide two fingers into her, pumping and curling them slowly in sync with his tongue stroking her clit. "Oh, wow...fuck," she gasped, her head falling back onto Cardi's shoulder as waves of pleasure washed over her, raking her hands through his hair. Perpetua could feel her inching towards release, her inner walls quivering around his fingers so he increased their speed and his tongue's pressure on her clit. Cardi's fingers pinched her nipples gently, shocking her senses and making her let out tiny yelps. "Do not fight it, Mira," he whispered against her ear. "Let it overwhelm you." The climax hit her like a tidal wave and Cardi held her tight, supporting her weight when her knees buckled underneath her. Perpetua kept his fingers and tongue moving slowly, drawing out her orgasm as long as possible and easing her down gently. When it had passed, she was breathless and limp in Cardi's strong arms and he gathered her up, carrying her to the bed. Perpetua wasted no time unbuttoning his shirt, wriggling out of his tight jeans so that as soon as she was placed on the bed, he was ready and waiting between her legs.
After depositing her on his bed, Cardi set about undressing himself, never taking his eyes off her. Perpetua leaned forward, kissing her softly, taking his time to explore her mouth with his tongue. He broke the kiss to whisper, "Are you ready for me, baby? I will go slow." and she nodded breathlessly. He sat back up, lining himself up with her entrance, gripping her thighs just below her hips and she rested her hands on top of his, silently urging him on. He pressed into her inch by inch, groaning from the strain. "Mmmm...she is so fucking tight," he growled, holding himself still inside her, letting her get used to the feel of him stretching her walls. Cardi stroked her hair, looking down at her with approval and affection, and she bought her hand on top of his, pressing her head into his gentle touch.
Perpetua's hips began to move, slowly at first, as he watched Mira's face, reading her reactions. She bit her lower lip, her eyes fluttering closed as she adjusted to the sensation of him filling her. His pace quickened, his grip on Mira's thighs tightening as he thrust deeper into her. She moaned, her body arching off the bed, her hands reaching for Cardi, pulling him closer. "Cardi," she gasped, her voice breathy. "I want to taste you." He didn't hesitate, lowering himself to her level on his knees, his cock inches from her face. Perpetua felt her body tense with anticipation and slowed his thrusts, giving her time to adjust. Mira looked up at Cardi, her eyes filled with desire, and took him into her mouth, her tongue swirling around his tip, before sucking his entire length into her wet heat. He groaned, his fingers tangling in her hair as he guided her movements. "You are doing so well," he murmured, his voice deep with approval. Perpetua picked up his pace again, his thrusts deep and steady. The room filled with the sounds of their moans and the wet, slapping sounds of flesh against flesh. Mira's body tensed, her orgasm building as she felt Perpetua's cock swell inside her.
Abruptly, he stopped thrusting and pulled out of her, panting and beaded with sweat. Mira let Cardi's cock slip out of her mouth with a loud pop. "Are you okay?", she asked, propping herself up on her elbows. "What's wrong?" Perpetua chuckled, "Absolutely nothing...you are just so damned tight and I am not ready for this to be over so quickly."
They shifted positions, Cardi rolling her gently and lifting her up to her hands and knees, lining himself up with her dripping pussy and gripping her hips, clenching his jaw in restraint and anticipation. Perpetua stood at the foot of the bed, his erection bobbing at her eye level, resting on her open lips, stroking her cheek tenderly. Perfectly synchronized, they both eased into her and she let out a shuddering moan from deep in her chest that sent vibrations through both of them. "Fuck," Cardi growled. "She is so perfect."
Mira shifted her weight to one arm so she could use her hand to assist her mouth and tongue stroking the length of Perpetua's cock and he held her shoulders firmly to stabilize her. Cardi started thrusting into her slow and deep, letting her feel the delicious friction of every vein, every ridge with each roll of his hips. He kept his tempo steady, allowing her time to concentrate. She was starting to see stars, Cardi teasing her g-spot with every thrust combined with the angle of her neck that was starting to make it hard to breathe, when she felt Perpetua start to pulse against her tongue. "I am close, baby," he grunted. "Where do you want me to come?" She tightened her grip on him, sucking harder, leaving no doubt and he cried out, running his fingers roughly through her long brown hair, pumping load after load down her throat before slumping to the floor in front of her with a whimper.
Cardi stroked her ass tenderly, giving her a moment to catch her breath. He leaned forward, trailing small kisses across her back before pulling her upright, lifting her slightly until she was pressed tight against his hips, resting comfortably on his muscular thighs. "Fuck," she sighed. "It's so deep."
"Too much?", he asked, studying her face for any signs of discomfort.
"No, it's wonderful." He smiled against her neck, tightening his grip around her waist. She kept one hand gripped tightly around his arms pressed against her stomach. The other she snaked around his neck, pulling him in for a feverish kiss, whimpering with a deep longing.
Perpetua watched her with a quiet reverence from where he landed on the floor, stroking her shaking thighs with his finger tips, admiring the way she undulated with every roll of Cardi's hips, both of them desperate to keep as much contact as possible. Even with such small movements, the tip of his cock stroked her g-spot relentlessly until her arms and legs were trembling with overstimulation.
"I am so close, Mira," Cardi panted against her ear. "You are gripping me so fucking hard. I cannot last much longer."
Perpetua reached up, circling his thumb around her clit with just enough pressure to send her over the edge, spasming and arching in Cardi's arms with a hoarse, desperate wail. The clenching of her inner muscles around him was more than enough to push him past the breaking point, bucking against her with a primal roar. They clung to each other for who knows how long, sweat drenched and trembling, like they'd just weathered a violent storm together.
Perpetua stood, leaning over Mira with an affectionate smile, smoothing her tousled hair off her face before pressing an appreciative kiss on her lips. "You were incredible, baby." He started making his way to the bathroom, feeling like a bit of a third wheel all of a sudden, calling back over his shoulder, "I am going to get cleaned up...if anyone would like to join me."
"Start without us, V," Cardi called out to him, his voice hoarse and sore. "I think we need a minute."
"I am not ready for this night to be over. I do not want this feeling to end," he said weakly.
"Mmmm hmmm," she hummed, nuzzling against his neck.
"Look at me, Mira." He lifted her head to meet his gaze with a gentle nudge under her chin, her lids fluttering open and closed, barely able to keep them open. He brought his hand down her stomach to rest on her clit, pressing just slightly, making her flinch. "Shhh, I just want to feel you." He tightened his grip around her waist, holding her still, pressing his forehead against hers as he started gently circling and stroking the sensitive bud. Her nerves were still raw and buzzing from her orgasms and she was on the verge of release in what felt like seconds. His slowly softening cock was still buried deep inside her and he could feel every reaction of her body through his hypersensitive skin. She came with choked sobs and he felt every ripple of her pussy, every tremor shaking through her.
He held her in silence while her body continued to shiver, overcome with sensation and emotion. "No more...Fuck, Cardi." Her voice was a barely audible whimper.
"No more, my angel," he whispered, letting his cock slide out of her with a wince, both of them sore and sated. He eased them both to lie down on the bed, bodies still clinging to each other.
"Hey, lovebirds, are you going to come before the hot water runs out or what?", Perpetua called from the bathroom. When he peeked around the door he saw them spooning, tangled, already sleeping deeply.
He chuckled to himself. "Looks like I am sleeping on the couch tonight," he said with a knowing smile, blowing out the last of the candles on his way out.
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When Cardi woke the next morning, Mira was still sleeping peacefully next to him. Her blissful expression made his thoughts drift back to the events of the night before, the sight of her lovely face awash with pleasure, her total surrender in his arms. He gave her a tiny kiss on the forehead before creeping out of bed, careful not to jostle and wake her before heading to the kitchen. Perpetua had already been up for a while and was pouring fresh coffee into three mugs.
"Ah, C...you are finally awake," he said jovially. "I thought you two were going to sleep the day away."
Cardi rubbed his eyes, taking a steaming cup from his brother's hands with a grateful smile. "Yeah...uh...we were a little worn out, I guess."
They sipped their coffee for a few moments in silence. Perpetua was the first to speak. "So, last night was...a lot of fun."
"Yes, it was."
"Pretty intense too."
"Yep."
"So, when are you going to tell the girl?" Perpetua was grinning now.
Cardi froze, mid-sip. "Tell her what?"
Perpetua rolled his eyes dramatically. "That you are crazy stupid in love with her, of course. I know you and I still do not know each other very well, but a blind man could see it."
Cardi rubbed his temples, a headache setting in from last night's revelry. "It is...complicated, V. We work together. I do not want to jeopardize that."
"That is exactly the problem," Perpetua said, stepping in closer. "If you do not tell her, she will finish this job and leave and you will have missed your chance."
Cardi took another sip of coffee, considering Perpetua's words.
"I just do not want to see you end up like our everyone in our family...alone. If you can find happiness with Mira, you need to hold onto her like grim death. Do not be an idiot." He made his way to the front door, giving one last glace back and a wink at Cardi before exiting. "But what do I know?"
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"Good morning, beautiful," Cardi said as he opened the blinds to let in the morning sunshine.
Mira stretched and snuggled back under the cozy blankets. "Mmmm...`Morning. I can't believe how late I slept. You should have woken me."
"Not a chance you looked far too enchanting." He sat on the edge of the bed next to her, handing her a steaming mug of coffee. "V left this for you."
"Oh, is he already gone?" She took a large sip, relishing the feeling of warmth that spread throughout her achy body.
"Yes, he needed to go check on the Ghouls, see how much damage they did last night."
"It seemed to me they were too busy with other activities last night to get into too much trouble." She smirked over the rim of her cup.
"I don't know. The last time they got that rowdy we had to spend the next month's budget on stained glass repairs because they decided to set off firecrackers in the Chapel."
She almost spit out her coffee and he laughed affectionately at her genuine response. As the room fell silent, Cardi noticed a change in her demeanor, like she wanted to tell him something but was trying to find the right words, placing her cup down on the bedside table and fidgeting with her hands nervously in her lap.
"Listen...about last night," she started, staring down at her hands. "I'm sorry I got so emotional. I'm not sure what got into me."
"Do not dare apologize for that, Mira." He leaned in to brush a stray wisp of hair behind her ear. "It was a very intense evening. The emotion...I felt it as well."
She looked a bit stunned, taking in what he'd said. He interrupted his own train of thought, feeling suddenly self-conscious that he'd said too much. "I should give you some privacy now, so you can dress for your day." He was almost at the door when he heard her speak again.
"It's just...These days I never stay anywhere for long. Stage a show here, teach a few classes there...then move on to the next city."
He turned back to face her, taking a few steps closer.
"I'm not used to it mattering to anyone whether I stay or go," she continued quietly, a slight tremor in her voice. "But would it...matter to you?"
"My angel," he whispered, running to her, wrapping his arms around her. They tumbled together into the tangled sheets and he pulled her in to his chest hard enough to knock the wind out of her, promising himself that he would spend every day proving to her how much he wanted her to stay.
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