this is mainly a blog for my ocs, and doing some x reader content with them. for the most part the reader will be gender neutral so that everyone can enjoy, but sometimes it could lean into something more specific since some ocs sexualities have preferences. i will not write anything involving rape, pedophilia, or anything involving scat or beastiality, and amongst other things. for fandom stuff, go to my main page @lu-dao-writes.
⥠rules
donât be weird about my ocs, donât be racist, ableist, homophobic, transphobic, xenophobic, or islamophobic. if youâd like to do anything with my ocs, please ask me for permission. minors and ageless blogs will be blocked if you interact with anything nsfw.
trigger warning: brief mention of mental health issues.
So! Iâd like to think that Iâm getting out of this bad rut Iâve been in! Yesterday I actually started drafting Oubaitori part 2 and wasnât unhappy or stressed about it. Very sorry for the wait you guys, my overall health hasnât been the greatest. To keep it very brief, Iâm fightin demons and trying not to put myself in a mental facility, but Iâve been feeling better thankfully.
So, now Iâll need to force myself to do the final draft when Iâm done with the rough draftđ . But anyways, I think Iâll be focusing on trying to post Oubaitori part 2, and High Heels and Leather Boots (my first lesbian one-shot). Iâll try to post little sneak peeks too.
danny ur one of my fav writers....... ITS SO HARD TO FIND A BOTTOM MALE READER STORIES. ur like a hidden gem. please never stop!!!!!! i would die/hj but anyways, is there any other writers here that you know that also has similar male bottom reader focus like you?
anyways, i absolutely love your work and always look forward to reading ur posts. <33 have a great day!!
Aw man thanks, I love being someoneâs favorite it strikes my ego
I havenât been reading on tumblr as much though so I donât know much blogs that arenât just my moots lmfao
@lu-dao-writes @izaarcc @carnalcrows are good, but carnal does do top reader occasionally
Hate to say it but I think Iâm gonna go on hiatus. I havenât been well lately and I havenât really had the drive to write content for my blogs. Everything isnât good enough in my standards, and I havenât little to no energy after work. My mental health is kinda in the shits but at least I finally have professional help. Hopefully I can come back soon â¤ď¸.
(Smut idea) A/B/O. Bottom male reader. A reader who was seen as an alpha before even differentiating. Your childhood friend was also seen as an omega, the perfect vision of one⌠until you both differentiate at the same time, you as an omega, and he as an alpha.
Your childhood friend was from the Gu family, an influential family in your city. His two fathers were a rare alpha x alpha couple, defying the stereotypes about AA couples. However this of course meant they couldnât have biological children.
They had three children, the first two being children they adopted, while the last one was surrogacy with one of the alphaâs trusted friend, an omega male. That last child being your childhood friend.
Gu Xiaowen.
A child many awed at just how beautiful he was. Certainly an omega.
You in comparison? You were unruly, son of the Gu familyâs butler. Your father and a fellow maid fell in love and got married. When your parents were prepared to quit, Xiaowenâs parents were surprisingly supportive and allowed them to keep their job, even letting them raise you in the house.
It was a large villa, one other kid wasnât much for such a rich family. Others mightâve thought you wouldâve viewed Xiaowen like a big brother (heâs only ten months older than you) but you werenât treated the same as him.
Jealousy arose in many of the other butlers and maids, leading to you be occasionally mistreated, but you never said a word. You were already seen as a troublemakerâwhy would an adult believe you over another adult?
You never even told Xiaowen, never seeing the point.
But to you it didnât matter. You already had your life planned out in your head.
By age fifteen, youâll have differentiated as a handsome and smart alpha, while Xiaowen as an omega.
By age twenty, youâll ask Mr. Liu and Mr. Gu for Xiaowenâs hand in marriage, wow them with your business skills to show that you would be perfect for their company.
Bam, age twenty-five, youâll be halfway through your ten kids plan with a happy and beautiful Xiaowen in your arms.
Thatâs what alphas are supposed to want. Usually. Your father was a beta while your mother was an alpha, quite the rare combination. Alpha females would always mostly birth alpha children, as it was difficult for them to get pregnant in the first place.
Why did you like Xiaowen? Well it was simple, everyone wanted him, and his best friend, wouldnât it make sense if you called dibs?
Not the best thought process but you were only ten when you decided to make Xiaowen yours. You even told him soâkissing him on the lips in suddenly in front of everyone at breakfast.
You were grounded, of course. Xiaowenâs older sisters thought it was silly, the twin alphas liked you so they were okay with the idea. Your parents almost had a heart attack and envisioned themselves in prison as if they were in Ancient China, being flogged for daring to touch the delicate âdaughterâ of the emperor.
While Xiaowenâs parentsâŚ. Were the most confusing sight. Liu Ming, the more calm partner, often seen as the âwifeâ by others, didnât view as what you did as anything serious. While Gu Zhan looked as if he was about to murder a ten year old.
Letâs just say you werenât allowed to play with Xiaowen without supervision.
Xiaowen himself didnât seem affected by your actions. He was always so nonchalant it pissed you off.
As time passed and you grew up, something was strange about the both of you. Everyone would normally differentiate by age 9-11.
But you and Xiaowen were 14 and hadnât even shown any hint of your second genders. Your parents, with their limited money, could only take you to the doctorâs once and be told that you might just be a beta.
Xiaowen would be constantly taken to the doctor and have test run on him like a lab rat. You began to pity him. But you could also only really feel upset that you wouldnât become an alpha. So you selfishly hoped Xiaowen would be a beta too.
However everything came ahead at a business gathering at the Gu villa. Someone got too close to Xiaowen, muttering in nonsense about how pretty an omega like he was, asking when his next heat was.
You were angry and told the kid to back offâonly to punched right in the face. What happened next was still a blur for you. Only that you had to pull Xiaowen off the kid, holding his bloody fists as you pleaded with him to stop.
It was then you smelled pheromones. Which was strange, betas canât smell pheromones. You felt feverish, the need to sleep taking over. Xiaowen hugged you tightly. His teeth grazing and nibbling at your neck, he had torn down your collar for easier access.
The adults struggled to pull you two apart.
You stayed in your room for a week, realizing that you were now an omega⌠and that Xiaowen was an alpha.
The next few years, you grew distant with Xiaowen. Sure you were disappointed at first about being an omega but it wasnât even that. It was the fact he himself distanced himself from you.
Anger filled your thoughts toward him. Was you being an omega upsetting to him? Not that you could really do anything about it. But you gave him spaceâdeciding on what college you wanted to go to.
Then you found out Liu Ming and Gu Zhan would fund your college tuition⌠only if you go to the school Xiaowen was going to.
Your parents quickly answered for you and you were set to enroll into the college no matter if you wanted to.
But free college wasnât something to scoff at so you kept your mouth shut.
Until a certain breaking point.
Everyone was at the dinner table. Xiaowen had joined a little late. You glared at the man, he was still beautiful, his features having not changed despite now being an alpha. He just lucked out with being taller than you.
âXiaowen, you had something you wanted to talk about,â Gu Zhan suddenly spoke, staring at his son.
The air was silent and all eyes turned on Xiaowen.
Xiaowen didnât seem startled. He coolly nodded his head and turned his gaze solely on you. A first in what felt like years. You watched as he stood up, his steps quiet as he stepped over to you.
He reached down and grabbed your face. You thought he was maybe about to punch you when he pulled you into a kiss.
In front of everyone.
You were sure you heard your parents shriek in shock.
Xiaowen pulled away, his eyes narrowing in on Gu Zhan. But he soon looked over at your shocked parents.
â(Name)âs parents, I want to ask for your permission to marry (Name).â
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âJust because my parents said yes doesnât mean I will.â You muttered, sprawling out in the bed. To think that the apartment you both moved in only had one bedroom. Terrible. âYou can sleep on the couch. Me being an unmated omega means I should keep myself safe from the scary alpha,â you closed your eyes, smirking slightly to yourself.
This whole marriage thing was just a scam anyway. Xiaowen would never want to really room with you.
Your body flinched at the sudden cool fingers that brushed against your stomach. You opened your eyes to see Xiaowen hovering over you. Your shirt had ridden up, giving him easy access to your stomach, his fingers gently pushing down on the soft skin.
His eyes, eyes that always held an air of indifference was looking at you as if you were a meal. A meal he so desperately wanted to devour.
âGu Xiaowenâ!â A gasp left your throat as his free hand grasped your right thigh. He leaned back and pressed a soft kiss on the skin. Your eyes were watched, hands gripping at the bedsheets.
Xiaowen looked away and lifted your leg to rest on your shoulder. Teeth nipping and grazing your skin. He slowly made his way to your thighs, eyes focused on every movement you made. His lips pressing against your stomach.
âXiaoâŚwen..â you weakly muttered.
He bit down on the waistband of your shorts. You only watched as he threatened to pull it down. Despite yourself, you didnât fight back, hands reaching up to cradle his head, as if encouraging him to continue.
But suddenly, you heard a snap.
He pulled away.
And in his left hand was a tag.
From your shorts.
âYou forgot to take off the tag.â He simply said.
Your body went limp as he got off the bed.
âIâll go sleep on the couch. Good night.â He left without another word.
While you silently screamed that he didnât need to do all of that to take a fucking tag off.
Need to stop calling these Drabbles lol. Whatcha a think? An idea to expand for a full fic or nah? Havenât written A/B/O for tumblr in awhile. Been doing it for Desire the series on my AO3 tho lmao.
This was mostly in readerâs pov, but Xiaowenâs pov of everything is very veryyyy different
I MISS OUBAITORI.... anyways HOW ARE YOU ?!?!? I hope you're doing well :3!!! its been a while and I just wanted to check in !!
Ello!! Iâve been doing okay! Iâm so sorry for not updating OubaitoriđŠI promise I will at some point! Iâm just cycling through different ocs so as to not get bored or stressed! But Iâm glad you enjoy it!!
Not to be rude or anything but can u make the requested fics not desi implied? Some people aren't indian but they enjoy your content so maybe don't make requests indian but make like the ones you write normally as you like
hey so this wasnt a requested fic lmao, you should have SEEN the rant i had while making this character, one of my moots was concerned for my mental health lmao.
REGARDLESS, i see people writing with black readers, white readers and east asian readers ALL THE TIME, but the second a brown person does it??? hello??
this is lowkey fuelling me to make more of my readers desi coded lmfao.
Lowkey⌠Use your imagination. Like I read so many things where reader is implied to be pale/fair skinned, and I literally just fix it. Just edit it in your head đ¤ˇ. Sometimes even if the reader is a female, I sometimes change it.
(Smut Drabble) bottom male reader. Reader getting hit by a car when biking home and instantly dying. As you take your last breath, you thought bitterly about the fact that the MC from the bl novel you read went for the vampire bad boy and not the sexy vampire hunter! Only for you to wake up in said novel as the MCâs friend.
Youâre shocked, confused, but soon upset when you realize you reincarnated as the friend who died in the beginning in the novel! No even remembered that bastard, he always acted like the Mc was crazy about the whole supernatural things happening.
With the knowledge that you were simply going to die again as a useless side character whose sole purpose was to give the MC trauma, you knew what you had to do.
You would influence MC, Ohm, to go for the vampire hunter, Gemini. Things were pretty easy at first as you were lucky enough to transport not even half way through the novelâs first ten chapters. So Ohm had no attachment to devilâs incarnate yet.
Youâd do simple things based on your knowledge of how things would play out, pushing Gemini into spots the bloodsucker was supposed to be. Which worked great⌠until said nuisance now technically had no punching bag to bother.
So⌠he turned to you. His name was Seua but you hated him too much to really say his name.
â(Name), youâre wearing a low v-neck shirt, are you trying to tempt me?â
âYour glares are just too cute.â
Youâd occasionally punch him⌠but heâd only laugh in response.
âWas that supposed to hurt? You should train a bit more, babe.â
It was the most annoying thing ever. Not to mention the fact he loved trying to bite you at every opportunity. You started wearing long sleeved sweaters due to him.
There was an incident in the art room when you had to change your sweater due to a paint spill. As soon as you took off your shirt, Seua pushed you against the wall, holding your hands above your head.
âWhat are you doing?â You cried out, glaring at him.
âYouâre so tempting,â he whispered, his fangs teasing your bare neck. âA clean canvas for me to paint, how can I just ignore it?â
He almost took a bite when Ohm entered the room. You swiftly kicked him in the balls and broke free.
You tried ignoring the bastard after that incident and continued on trying to push Ohm and Gemini together. It went so good that you were able to get them to agree to a date.
Unfortunately⌠you forgot the date of said date.
April 4th.
The day youâre supposed to die.
You were stressed the entire day, knowing that you were supposed to sacrifice yourself for MCâtraumatize him so heâll get pushed into his love interestâs arms. Even though you didnât want to die, you sincerely hoped it would be Geminiâs arms Ohm ran to.
However, due to the date, Seua was bothering you all day. He wouldnât leave you alone! Wherever you wentâhe was two steps behind you talking all sorts of nonsense. You tried tuning him out, wondering where exactly your soul would go after you die here.
There was so many thoughts in your head that you hadnât even noticed Seuaâs vampire friend had joined you both. But.. he wasnât supposed to be here yet. The whole scene was that said friend and Ohm got into an argument, then Gemini showed up which angered the vampire since Gemini killed his friends.
The vampire would try to attack Gemini but would get killed, however another vampire was waiting in the shadows. It would reach out to attack Ohm first as Gemini and Seua was too busy with the other vampire⌠then you (or the original character) would step in front of Ohm, getting violently slashed by the vampire before Gemini was able to kill it.
Then blah blah blah, death speech and he died. But the vampire that was supposed to originally kill Gemini didnât look upset like heâs supposed to be. Heâs even joking with Seua⌠youâre confused to say the least.
Even as Ohm and Gemini joins you all after their date, the vampire isnât upset at the sight of Gemini. In fact⌠the two donât know each other. You thought back to the fact youâve been forcing Gemini to abandon any previous actions he was supposed to complete to hang out with Ohm.
Did that mean he didnât get the time to kill those vampires?
âHey, why are you thinking so hard?â Seua asked, teasingly pulling at your cheeks. He smiled at you, his fangs peeking out. Even Seua had changed a bit.. he was less grumpy as he was in the original novel. It took almost the entire novel before he gave Ohm a small smile after they had sex.
You tried thinking, wondering just how much did you change the plot when an angry hunter approached you all. You couldnât even remember who his character wasâbut you didnât even get the chance to think as he began shooting bullets at Seua and his friend.
He was a terrible shot and you practically saw in slow motion as one bullet was heading right for your head. You werenât even protecting Ohm this time.. just caught in the crossfire for standing close to the vampires. Gemini disarmed the hunter but it was too late.
You closed your eyes, ready to die once more. Hoping that your death leads to Ohm and Gemini dating and maybe having hot trauma bonding sex later, like in the novel with him and Seua. Only you realized you were being hugged tightly. You slowly opened one eye to peak up and see Seua standing in front of you⌠and an open bullet wound in his brain.
You collapsed onto the ground with him limp in your arms. Your mind was blank as you slowly processed what happened. The tears happened immediately as you clutched his body tightly, having not expected him to do something so risky.
âSeua⌠Seua, that canât have killed you, câmon, he.. he didnât use a silver bullet did he? Seua? Here, drink my blood, please. Donât..â you reached up and pulled open your shirt, pressing his face against your neck. The way his body was limp in your arms was sending you into a panic.
âSeua, stop teasing the poor guy,â the vampire suddenly said, shivering at the sight. âItâs embarrassing, really.â
Ohm and Gemini nodded, a slight frown on both of their lips.
You blinked, glancing down at Seua. His body shook slightly before he began laughing. His once limp arms found themselves wrapped around your waist as he pulled your impossibly closer to him.
âSo you do care?â Seua whispered against your neck, his fangs running against your bare throat. âWho knew I just had to die for you to finally stop hiding behind that little bravado of yours?â
âYouâ?! Ngh!â
He sunk his fangs deep into your neck, a hand gripping the back of your head as he kept you still. The pain was almost unbearable until an odd sense of arousal began to affect you. You had read about this in the novelâwhen Seua had to drink Ohmâs blood.
You head lulled back as he tightened his grip on your waist, taking his fill of your blood. A strange almost loud moan left your lips. Your pants began to feel tight, fingers gripping tightly at his jacket as you tried to ground yourself.
Seua pulled away a moment later, his eyes blood red while his lips were coated in your blood. He smirked at you as he took in your eyes that were clouded with lust.
âIt looks like you have a little problem⌠need my help?â
Yeah, this is too long to be a Drabble but shhhhhhh. This is basically like those Thai bl pilots they be posting on YouTube that just tells you the whole plot lol.
Anyway, I just like the thought of vampires getting their victims horny when they drink their blood. A full fic would definitely include a blood kink⌠and a manipulative OC, he literally played dead just to upset you
I was thinking about a fanfic plot, the reader is the popular guy in the class who wants to make fun of the nerd, he creates a fake account and pretends to be a woman and creates a relationship with the nerd until they decide to meet, the reader laughs and makes fun of the nerd, and with that happens hate sex, I don't know if I managed to write the plot well, but you just need to see if you find it interesting, it's just an idea
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warnings âş bottom male reader. Reader last name is Shen. Reader is not a native Japanese speaker, so there will be purposeful grammar mistakes when you speak. Blue is mandarin. (G.Name) is Girl Name.
kinks âş hate sex, dacryphilia, spanking, lite feminization, praise kink, lite dubcon
words to know âş ĺ ç (Xian Sheng) in Chinese means Mister, but ĺ ç (Sensei) in Japanese means teacher. ĺ°ĺ§ (Xiao Jie) means Miss in Chinese.
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âSo? Are you gonna do it?â
You glanced over at the supposed target of your friendâs prank. Haruki Kenji? You couldnât remember his name well enough. Japanese was still a little hard for you after only moving here three years ago. While your motherâs grandma was from Japan, you lived in China for most of your life due to your fatherâs job.
It took a second for you to think, mentally translating what your friend had just said. Slang was always the hardest part for you.
âSure,â you answered. âHow much you pay me?â
Your friend, Hitoshi, the little leader of this college group of popular kids leaned in closer. âHow ever much you want.â
âOooh, Toshi is rolling in money, huh?â Maya, his girlfriend, laughed.
Siyi, a foreign exchange student from Taiwan glanced over at you, inching closer. âDid you really comprehend what they just asked you to do?â She whispered in mandarin.
âOf course!â You pouted. âI just text him as a girl. It shouldnât be too bad.â
âYeah⌠then youâll laugh in his face when he finally meets you in person, isnât that a little cruel?â
âOi, stop whispering amongst yourselves.â Hitoshi kicked at your chair, glaring slightly. âSpeak Japanese, we donât speak Chinese.â
Siyi glared at him. You had a feeling Hitoshi and Siyi could never really get along. In all honesty, she only hung out with him because you did. You didnât even remember how you started hanging out with him.
He was the first person to talk to you and didnât make fun of your accent. So you just attached yourself to him.
âAnyway,â Hitoshi smirked, clapping his hands together. âYou gonna do it? Me and my other friends are gonna bet on whether that nerd is smart enough to figure it out.â
âYeah,â you answered, nodding your head. âI can do it. How will I get his number?â
âLeave that to me.â Maya smirked. âI have a girl friend who owes me a little favor.â
Maya and Hitoshi began talking about the plan while you tuned them out.
Siyi grabbed your shoulder, forcing you to face her. Her grip was harsh as she glared at you. âDonât come crying to me when you get caught.â
You scoffed. She was acting like this wouldnât be a quick and done little prank. Though you wouldnât know that it would end up lasting almost two full months.
With you falling in love with said nerd.
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
Hasumi Keiji. That was his name. You were recently given his LINE ID, having created a side account to pretend to be Mayaâs friend. The girl was half Chinese so luckily youâd be able to get away with not sounding like a full native while texting.
Maya had said it was such a hassle to even get Keiji to pay her any attention. It took two full weeks until he finally allowed her to get his LINE ID.
He didnât seem to care at all that a pretty girl was into him. Didnât even ask for her name.
So you were lying in bed, dressed in a fluffy cat onesie, wondering what to say. He probably wouldnât like small talk. But what would a guy like him like?
You didnât even remember what he looked like. It didnât seem like he liked having fun.
His username was just his full government name!
You sat up and huffed. This wasnât supposed to be stressful. Maybe you could just talk about stars. His profile picture looked to be of a shooting star. He must be obsessed with them.
Your profile picture was of a cat. Even your username meant kitten. Girls liked cats.
ĺçŤ
Hi, itâs me ^^
Shen (Name)
You panicked and quickly deleted the last message.
ĺçŤ
Haha typo sorry, Shen (G.Name) (^С^)-â
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
Do I know you?
ĺçŤ
Ouch, hhhhhh
Maya gave me your LINE ID
I thought you were cute and wanted to get to know you
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
âHhhh?â What does that mean?
ĺçŤ
( ďźÂ´Đď˝)
I forgot⌠Japanese donât use that.. you use wwww? Or lol? Aaaaah
Iâm laughing! Itâs haha, Chinese text slang! Iâm not making fun of you
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
I wasnât upset, donât over explain yourself
I didnât think someone like Maya would make friends with someone like you
Ok, is there something you wanted? I was doing something
ĺçŤ
Oh! Were you looking at the sky?
Stars must be your favorite, right? (ââĚ´Ěá´âĚ´Ěâ)
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
Why would I be looking at the sky? You can hardly see stars here
If I wanted to I would go to the countryside
ĺçŤ
Oh
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
I was preparing my tsunami simulator for the science fair
Itâs supposed to be a realistic depiction. I created a whole toy town that will die out due to a tsunami. Showing how it wipes out different types of buildings, as well as how to see it from afar while on the beach
Anyway. Bye
You stared at your phone in confusion. That was terrible. There was no way heâd answer you if you texted him again. How could you even get a guy like to like you?
You werenât going to see a cent from Hitoshi and friends at this point.
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A full week passed and you werenât sure what to do. After his very blunt âbyeâ you were scared to even text him back. That felt a little too final. Maybe he was a nerd that focused solely on schoolwork and never ever wanted a girlfriend.
Fuck.
âI take it you havenât gotten anywhere with him?â Siyi poked your face with a pencil, causing you to look over at her. âTake it as a sign and leave it alone. Thereâs no need for you to continue.â
âWhy? Only a quitter would give up so easily! And Iâm no quitter!â You answered with a wide grin, suddenly feeling energized.
Siyi only sighed in disbelief. âDo you even know what he looks like?â
Your brain short circuited for a second at her sudden switch back to Japanese. âOh, uh, I guess I donât. You have a painting of him?â
âPicture.â She corrected you, shaking her head. âNo I donât. But I have a class with him. Weâre both competing in the science fair next month. I heard he was making a realistic tsunami simulator.â
âHe must be really smart,â you sighed, frowning slightly. âThen.. heâs probably really busy with the project. Thatâs why he hasnât texted me again!â
âMaybe. You could always text him first. He could also, rightfully, think you were just pranking him about being into him.â
You hummed, nodding to yourself. Well, there was only way to know for sure. Youâd have to text him first again.
ĺçŤ
Hi ŮŠ(ËĚśÍĚ௰ËĚśÍĚ)Ů
Itâs been a while~
Howâs the project coming along?
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
Oh
You actually came back
So you werenât joking
The project is going okay, my dog, little brother, and his friend ruined half of my town so Iâm rebuilding it right now
Of course, I mean they are rebuilding it while I supervise
A picture was sent right after his last message. Your eyes widen at the sight of him. It was a selfie that showed a small dog sitting with its head down beside a younger boy dressed in a high school uniform, having his head down as he glued back a miniature house.
The guy holding the camera, Keiji, wearing a white sleeveless shirt. He had on rectangular glasses sitting on the bridge of his nose. Black hair messy, a large and prominent nose with plump lips. His gaze was lazy as he stared up at the camera with little to no expression.
He sent a video next.
You quickly pressed play.
Keiji hummed at the camera before flipping it to show his little brother and dog. âSay hello, guess who wouldâve been able to play LOL if he hadnât decided it would be smart to start throwing the family dog like a football with his friend? Right, Ken?â
Ken, his younger brother, sighed and shook his head. He continued gluing a house together. The dog laid beside him, as if it was time out. Keiji only chuckled before turning the camera over and showing another boy continuously wincing as he used a hot glue gun.
âHis little boyfriend,â Keiji said just as he turned camera over to face himself. A slight smirk pulled on his lips as Ken began yelling that his friend wasnât his boyfriend. Keiji simply ended the video.
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
So I can talk to you properly today
What are you doing?
ĺçŤ
Nothing really, hehe
I was really nervous texting you⌠that last text was really blunt
Didnât think youâd wished to speak to me anymore
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
You have a habit of putting words into my mouth
I never said that I didnât want to talk to you
Iâm just busyâyou can always text me throughout the day
Iâll answer when I can
I still donât understand why youâd want to suddenly speak to me
ĺçŤ
Well! Youâre handsome (Ëśâžáˇ âťĚŤ âžáˇ Ëľ)
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
Thatâs it?
ĺçŤ
Uh
Well I also want to learn more about you! You seem cool
I think we can, yâknow, get really close
ĺ çď˝
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
Sensei? Weâre both students
ĺçŤ
Oh! I mean ĺ ç in Chinese~
Xiansheng â ( á ăâ )ďźż
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
I just searched it
Mister? Why are you so formal?
Youâre already pretty formal even while texting
ĺçŤ
Xiansheng! Iâm flirting~
Donât some guys like being called sir or mister?
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
I donât care for that stuff
ĺçŤ
Oh
I wonât call you that anymore
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
No need
Iâll just call you ĺ°ĺ§
You blinked. Did he search for how to say miss in Chinese? You couldnât help but grin slightly. Though you thought youâd have more of a problem being called that. You glanced around your bedroom, taking note of the traditionally girly stuff decorated around.
All the plushies and teddy bears youâve had since infancy. The big pink fluffy feather lamp you had. Only Siyi had been in your bedroom. No way were you going to allow Hitoshi and his âbrosâ ever visit your house.
You shivered at the thought.
For the rest of the night, you and Keiji talked about random things. He blabbered on about his tsunami simulator. He even sent his first ever voice note that was around four minutes long to better explain the mechanics to you.
Did you care? Not really. But if this was going to get him to let his guard down with you then so be it.
âSo, first I had to calculate how much water I was going to use and the mass of each building I created. In a real tsunami, the amount of water that comes in is more than a hurricane. Itâs said to beâŚâ
You fell asleep while listening to his voice note. His voice was surprisingly calming.
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
?
Xiaojie?
Night
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8ć10ćĽ 8 A.M.
ĺçŤ
Today I ended up tripping into a wall
Hhhhhhhhh
It doesnât hurt as much
Kinda
Xiansheng, what should I do?
ĺçŤ
If I suddenly started typing to you Chinese, would you be able to understand it?
Japanese has borrowed characters
And youâre smart
Oh I just dropped my bagel
You snapped a picture of your fallen bagel. It fell right on your sneakers. The only pictures you really sent Keiji made sure to show any of your body parts. You were even hesitant to show your hands.
8ć11ćĽ 12 A.M.
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
You had an eventful day
Maybe if you didnât text and walk you wouldnât have tripping into a wall
Be more careful
I might be able to understand some of it, Iâll spend some more time learning Chinese for you
Also isnât this the fifth time youâve texted me a dropped bagel?
Night, Xiaojie, sleep well
8ć13ćĽ 2 P.M.
ĺçŤ
I passed my biology exam ŮŠ(ËĚśÍĚ௰ËĚśÍĚ)Ů
I was so scared, but the notes you sent me really helped
Is science your favorite?
I remember you mentioned if you wanted to see stars, you go countryside
Are there many stars there?
8ć14ćĽ 3 A.M.
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
Good job
Science is my favorite, if I had to have one
Thereâs little to no light population in the countryside Youâd have an easier time seeing the stars out Have you ever tried it?
Xiaojie, Iâll take you to a good spot to see them. Would you like to go?
8ć17ćĽ 12 P.M.
ĺçŤ
Xiansheng
you always reply so late at night (･ Ě︿ Ě･)
Are you overworking? How many classes do you have?
Should I stop texting you so much? Itâs probably bothering you⌠right?
8ć17ćĽ 12:04 P.M.
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸
Donât stop
I told you already
Iâll respond when I can
Xiaojie,
Can you wait for me?
8ć20ćĽ 10 A.M.
ĺçŤ
Xiansheng, look, isnât it pretty?
You sent a picture of a small round strawberry cake.
ĺçŤ
Pretty, right? Maybe I can send you one?
I overheard that you stay really late in the science lab
Maybe some sugar can keep you energized!!
8ć20ćĽ 10 P.M.
čŽčŚ ĺĺ¸ sent a voice note.
âCake to keep me energized?â He let out an amused sigh. âSugar is not what I need. Drinking a protein shake would be healthier for me. In any case, I already have my daily dose of sugar. Youâre quite sweet each day you send a message. Even if itâs about mundane things.
Iâd like to hear your voice sometime. Hearing you talk about your day would be better than reading it. Hm, anyway, the simulator is almost complete. I brought it to the science lab so my brother wonât destroy it again by accident. I can⌠show you it if you come to the fair. Yeah, only if you want. Night.â
8ć31ćĽ 12 P.M.
ĺçŤ
Todayâs the fair right?
Youâll do great, Xiansheng
I believe in you~
Iâd go but I have class during the time!
Keiji stared at your message, sighing to himself. He placed his phone on his desk. The fair ended an hour or two ago. He hadnât found it in himself to respond to your text yet.
Because he wasnât stupid.
You werenât who you said you were.
Youâve been texting him for almost a month and yet you havenât sent him a single selfie or voice note. He had been constantly sending you voice notes because you had offhandedly mentioned that you fell asleep quick listening to his voice.
He only had one working theory at the time. You certainly werenât a friend of Mayaâor at least not the friend she was trying to set him up with.
It was a prank. Mustâve been.
The thought angered him to no end. He shouldâve trusted his guts the first time he talked to you.
âBro,â Ken poked his head into Keijiâs bedroom, a grin on his lips. âHow are you and that girl doing?â He wiggled his eyebrows suggestively.
âI think Iâm being pranked.â Keiji said bluntly. He glanced over at Ken. âIf someone youâve been chatting with for over a full month now hasn't so much as sent you a voice note or picture, then itâs obviously not a good sign.â
Ken joined Keiji on his bed. âHah? What would someone gain for faking a relationship with you? Are they bullying you?â
âItâs more than likely Hitoshi.â
âYamada Hitoshi?! Is he still mad about that thing in high school?â
âMust be. But whoeverâs texting me must be a lackey of his I donât know. Their Japanese isnât native and they managed to keep up this facade for a month.â
âYou think itâs not even a girl?!â
âProbably.â
Ken cursed, biting his lip. âWhat are you gonna do?â
âWhat is there to do?â Keiji raised an eyebrow. âIâll just block them. Iâm not in high school anymoreâI donât have time for these childish jokes.â
âArenât you a little upset? Iâve seen you while texting them, you smiled a lot.â
Keiji scoffed. âObviously whatever I was feeling for them was fake. Iâll be fine. It wasnât like we were actually dating.â
Ken shrugged as he got up. âOkay, okay. Whatever you say⌠if you need help beating them up, I have some friends who are bored.â
Keiji only waved his brother off. Once Ken left the room, he grabbed his phone and clicked on your contact.
He was upset. Really upset at the thought that everything he had was fake. Sure, it was just a month. But he enjoyed looking at his phone at the end of the day and seeing the random bullshit you sent him.
He didnât mind creating the voice notes for you to sleep with.
Did he like you? He wasnât sure.
It didnât matter now. He wasnât going to let you continue to string him on. You probably sent pictures of your texts to your friends, laughing at him.
The thought pissed him off.
ĺçŤ is video calling you
Keiji stared at his phone even as the call went to voicemail. He blinked multiple times. He even took off his glasses and rubbed the bridge of his nose. It mustâve been a hallucination.
But no, you called him again.
He was confused. Was this your attempt at keeping him reeled in? Maybe you noticed he was pulling away nowadays.
He answered right on the last ring, ready to see who was behind this childish prank.
In the camera, it was a manâsomething he expected. But he didnât expect a man⌠this cute?
You grinned at the camera, letting out a surprised burp. Oh, you were drunk. Your moves were sluggish as you fixed the camera to show more of yourself.
And you were only in a pink bathrobe. Your hand seemed to have trouble holding up the phone as you yawned before leaning in close to the camera.
âXiansheng,â you whispered out, your voice light and coquettish. âAre you.. happy to finally see me? Itâs (G.Name).. no.. (Name)~ hehehe.â
Keiji could only stare. You were easily embarrassing yourself in front of him just because you were drunk. He almost laughed. The sight was a joke.
He thought back to what Ken said. Maybe⌠he could level the plane field. He turned on his screen recording. Then he just waited, wanting to see how far you would go.
âXiansheng,â you whined out, âyou didnât answer me? Are you not there?â You brought the phone further from your face, showing your lower body. The bathrobe was slipping down. Your bare chest was now showing.
Keiji huffed. âYou were finally brave enough to call me, huh?â He couldnât help the bitter laugh that escaped him.
âIâve always wanted to call you!â You giggled. âBut if I did⌠youâd get mad at me.. cuz I only started talking to you cuzzz of a pet.. prank..â
âHuh, so it was a prank? Hitoshi put you up to it?â
âMhm.â
âWhat did he want?â
âI dunno.â You sighed. âI donât care about himmmm. I want.. you⌠only you. Talking to you everyday.. so fun.. I only have you and Siyi really!â You plopped down on your bed, staring straight at the camera.
Youâre so blunt.. and maybe a little mean.. but I like talking to you. Even hearing you talk about that tsu..Tsuki? Hm, yeah, that thingie was nice.â
âReally?â Keiji questioned. âIf youâve been lying to me the entire time, how can I really believe that you like me now? What if you are acting right now?â
You pouted. âUuuuh, Xiansheng.. Iâm sorry, a relationship built on lies⌠itâs bound to break!â
âWhat? What did you say?â
âDidnât you say youâd learn Chinese for me? How can you not understand me? You didnât keep your promise⌠guess we both lied, hehe.â
â(Name).â Keiji sighed. âI donât know what youâre saying.â
âOooh, you learned how to say something? So handsome.. youâre so sexy when speaking⌠and the way youâre glaring at me.. hmmm. Keiji.. can I call you Keiji?â
âCan you call me that?â Keiji shook his head. âNo. Itâs Hasumi to you. Why would I give you the privilege of saying my first name when youâve been lying to me this entire time?â
âIt wasnât the entire time.â You replied, the drunkish grin on your lips long gone. âIâm sorry. I shouldâve never agreed, but then I would have never met you.â
The phone suddenly jolted as you sat up, pulling up your robe to properly cover yourself. âI should⌠go.â You whispered, not looking at the camera.
Keiji raised an eyebrow. âWhere are you going? It's around 2 am. Hey. Shen (Name).â
You weren't responding anymore. Keiji could only see that you were walking somewhere. The sound of a door closing and slippers against concrete told him that you were now somehow outside. He sat up and tried to see where you were going.
â(Name)? Where are you going? Answer me. Hey, hold up the phone. I canât see anything.â Keiji stood up, grabbing a jacket.
His Chinese, even if it was a bit clunky, seemed to catch your attention. You lifted your phone, showing your face as if you had forgotten you were talking to him just a minute ago. A slight grin pulled on your lips as you hummed.
âYou canât see? Ai ya, it's so hard to maneuver a phone. Can you see now, Xiansheng? Xiansheng, you can actually see a bit of the stars, even if it's not that many.â A little laugh left you right before the phone skid across the concrete.
Keiji stopped right by his front door at the sound. He had rushed to get dressed and run out the front door to hopefully try to reach you. â(Name)? What was that?â
âHurts.â You sighed out. The phone was facing the dark sky as you moved to lean over it. âXiansheng, I tripped. What should I do? Uhhhh, ooooh, you canât understand chinese.â You whispered, âsorry, it's just.. Easier,â a wince left you as you moved to sit against a railing, holding the phone across from you.
Your eyes were red and puffy. Were you crying earlier? Keiji didn't think to ask you that right now. He took note of the background and knew immediately what bridge you were at. The one only five minutes away from the university. Did you live that close to school?
âDonât move.â Keiji said just as he booked it on his bike out of his house. He lived at his family house, since it was only a twenty minute walk from campus. But he could easily make it in under ten if he biked fast enough.
âHasumi,â you giggled, âyour tones.. Theyâre so cute. You sound like my baby cousin. He also struggles with tones right now. But, context clues, help!â You shivered and glanced down at your clothing, taking note of the bathrobe and pajama pants you were wearing. âWhy did I come out with no shirt?â You murmured to yourself.
âWhat was I doing?â Your voice low as you tried to think but it was hard with the brain fog you were experiencing with all the alcohol you drank just two hours ago. Hitoshi and his friends were really pushing you to drink. Soon you started drinking of your own accord. Right after coming from the bathroom, you overheard Hitoshi and his friends.
âHis Japanese is ridiculous. Do you even understand him half the time?â
Itâs not easy learning a new language.
âNow youâre exaggerating. What really bothers me is how cutesy he tries to sound!â
But thatâs just how I speak.
âYeah, did he learn Japanese from those porn videos? Why does he sound like that?â
Itâs not an act.
âMaybe that's how he's been able to fool Hasumi for a month straight.â
Fool? ButâŚ
âIs he even a boy?â
âCareful, Hitoshi, he might be gay! He might've even fallen in love with Hasumi.â
In love with Hasumi?
âHeh, serves that glasses wearing freak right, canât wait to see the look on his face when he says he was texting a guy this entire time. He might even fight Shen.â
âNow that's something I'd pay to see! Nerd versus a homo. Who are you betting on?â
You leaned against the wall, staring straight ahead as each person began to say who they were betting on. Hasumi got the most bets. You tried thinking maybe you were misinterpreting what they were saying. Maybe your Japanese really was that bed.
But you caught sight of Siyi as she left the table, almost walking right past you. She was holding her and your bag. Her face was screwed in anger before she caught sight of you. Any anger in her fizzled out. She couldnât remember ever seeing a look of pure devastation on your face in the two years she got to know you.
Just by the look on your face, she knew what you were thinking.
What you were pleading for.
She could only frown, breaking eye contact with you.
Siyi had brought you home but you couldnât remember what else happened after.
All you knew was that you wanted to talk to Keiji to feel better. Maybe you drank a couple of your dadâs beers as you psyched yourself into calling him. But he wasnât responding anymore. You sniffled, letting out a stuttered sigh. Your throat burned and your face felt wet. You reached up and rubbed at your face. When did you start crying again?
âDid you leave too?â
You placed your shattered phone on the ground as you curled into yourself. He didnât want to see it after all. And you could only blame yourself.
â(Name)!â
Your body froze, your eyes widening as you glanced up. You looked to your right to see Keiji. He was biking down towards you with insane speed. His eyes narrowed just as he was reaching close to you. Thatâs when you realized he wasnât wearing his glasses.
And that he wasnât slowing down despite being only a few feet away from you.
Even being drunk, you had enough sense to sluggishly sit up just as he skidded past you. Keijiâs bike went flying as he hit a curve, tumbling off his bike. You gasped in shock, watching the scene in horror.
Keiji, despite practically face planting into the concrete, sat up quickly. There was a cut on his right cheek as he abandoned his bike and immediately rushed over to you. He squinted his eyes and grabbed at your face, leaning close enough to where your noses touched.
âWhy do you not have your glasses?â You whispered, surprised he even had the time to put on a helmet. Your hands reached up and touched the top of the helmet, noticing a small chunk of it had broken off.
âWhat?â Keiji questioned, âwhat did you say?â He was rubbing your face before his hands trailed down to your robe, pulling it up and properly covering you up.
âGlasses.â
âI forgot them. Why would you walk out here so late at night? And the bridge no less? Are you crazy? Were you planning on jumping?â
You blinked, trying to understand what he just yelled at you a mile a minute. âJump?! What are you talking about?! I wanted toâŚâ you look up at the sky and point at the moon. âIt's a full moon today. I wanted to show you the full moon⌠Siyi and I walked past here earlier and I thought you could really see the moon from this spot. I thought if I showed you, youâd be less mad at me.â
Keiji looked to where you were pointing. He glanced back down at you. âYou should've just said that.â He pulled away from you. You tried not to frown. Right, he had every right to still be angry at you.
You watched as he walked back over to his bike and made it stand back up.
âCome on. Iâll take you home.â
âBut you hit your head.â
âIâm fine. You shouldnât walk with your injury.â
Injury? You glanced down to see the right leg of your pajama pants was ripped, your knee scraped and bloody. âIâm bleeding⌠howâ?â
âHurry up. Itâs almost 3 am.â Keiji yelled out, getting on his bike. You hesitantly walked over to him, sitting right behind him. Your hands laid at your sides until he reached back and pulled your arms to wrap around his waist. âI donât want to deal with you suddenly flying off.â
You simply hummed. âUhm, Iâll give you the directions.â
The bike ride was awkward. Keiji was obviously still angry and possibly seething at the fact he had to take care of you. You knew that as soon as he dropped you home, you'd never see him again. The thought was already making your eyes water. You didnât even notice that you leaned into Keiji, resting your head on his back. If this might be the only chance you get, you wanted to enjoy the short ride.
But it seemed the bike ride was longer than it should be.
It felt like Keiji was going in circles.
âHasumi?â You whispered, pulling back a little as he suddenly slowed down.
Keiji reached up and unclipped his helmet, tossing it off. You flinched at the loud clatter on the ground.
â(Name)... Iâm going to need you to call an ambulance.â
âHuh?!â
You watched in fear as Kenji began to go limp in your arms.
âHasumi?!â
âItâs only a minor concussion. The helmet protected his head. He just needs to rest for a couple of weeks. No bicycling or any exercise in the meantime. If he starts to feel dizzy for multiple days, come back. Luckily we found no internal bleeding. He can go home in an hour or so after we finalize the paperwork.â
You nodded at the doctor, sighing in relief that she mostly spoke words that were easy to understand. Though you had to translate concussion. Keiji was sitting on the hospital bed, holding an ice pack to his head. He looked pissed to say the least.
âKeiji!â A voice yelled, the room door opening to show a teenage boy and an adult woman. The older woman quickly rushed over and grabbed Keijiâs shoulders, maneuvering him around as if he was a doll. âAre you okay?! What were you doing out so late at night? Do you know how worried I was about getting a call at 4 in the morning?!â
The teenage boy, while worried, strolled in slowly. He raised an eyebrow at you before focusing solely on Keiji. âThat was gnarly. Were you speeding or something? You usually ride a bike like a sloth.â He laughed.
âImagine my shock when the hospital called and said that you were emitted into the emergency room with a concussion!â The older woman, who you assumed was his mother, cried out.
âYeah.. and that your partner was the one that called the ambulance for you.â The teenager said, causing Keijiâs and Ms. Hasumiâs gaze to finally turn over to you.
You immediately sat up straight at their gaze. Keiji huffed. You expected him to quickly deny that and maybe drag you through the mud a little when Ms. Hasumi grinned.
âSo both of my sons are gay!â Ms. Hasumi laughed, clapping her hands together as if it was the funniest news she could ever learn. âIâm so sorry that this is how we first met. Iâm Hasumi Nana.â She walked over and easily pulled you over into a hug.
You awkwardly hugged her back, unsure of what to say.
âIâm not gay!â The teenager cried out, a look of embarrassment on his face.
âSure, Ken. Haruto is just a really good friend of yours.â Ms. Hasumi shook her head. âAnyway, your name isnât Japanese, are you a foreigner?â
âObviously he is.â Ken muttered, crossing his arms.
âKen, I donât think I asked you to speak. Iâm sorry, he gets cranky if he doesnât get his eight hours of sleep.â She gave you a wide grin.
âOh, uhm, yes.â You answered, glancing over at Keiji. You were waiting for him to say something but he only looked at you with an amused smirk. Was he finding this funny?
âThis is good news, I was worried my Keiji wouldnât find anyone in this life.â She nodded solemnly to herself. âThen you can take care of him for this week.â
âPardon?â
âPâ? Haha, was that Chinese?â Ms. Hasumi seemed to never stop grinning. âI have a girls trip to Thailand already planned, we leave tomorrow. Ken was going to spend this week with Haruto so Keiji is going to be all alone. Itâs perfect if you can take care of him. Then you both donât have to⌠sneak out at 3 am to hang out.â She laughed.
âUhm, Hasumi wouldn't want that..â You whispered.
âHasumi? You guys arenât even on a first name basis yet?â Ken raised an eyebrow.
âKen.â His mother warned, a harsh glare in her eyes.
Keiji hummed. âWho said I wouldn't want that?â You looked over at him as a wide grin pulled on his lips. âWhy wouldnât I want my sweet boyfriend taking care of me?â
Oh.
You were screwed.
âOh and I know itâs none of my business..â Ms. Hasumi pursed her lips. âBut why are you only in a bathrobe and pajama pants?â
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âI think this punishment isnât all that bad.â Siyi said on the phone. She was clearly not surprised that Keiji got back at you. âIf I was him, I wouldâve embarrassed you in public. Embarrassing you in private is quite nice of him.â
You whined, scrubbing at the toilet Keiji told you to clean. âButâŚâ
âThere is no but. You essentially led him on for a full month. A week doing his bidding is nothing in comparison to what you did. Besides, he did get the concussion because he was worried for you.â
You stopped. âHuh? Worried for me?â
âUh, yeah. Why else would he have biked to you in under five minutes, moving so fast that he couldn't stop himself in time. At 3 am in the morning. He cared a little bit.â
Youâve only been at Keijiâs house for two days so far. He had made you clean the house spotless while he just did school work or laze around. You basically did anything he didnât want to do. Doing so many chores right after classes was tiring but you didnât think about what Siyi said until now.
She was right.
Even if right now, every gaze he gave you was of contempt. He cared enough that night to rush to you.
He cared for you that much in just a month.
âAnyway, stop complaining to me and clean that toilet. I told you to not come crying to me once you get caught.â She quickly hung up the phone.
In all honesty, he could have been meaner. He was really just ignoring your existence half the time or telling you to do something for him. But somehow, you wished he was still paying attention to you. Even if it was to yell at you.
The next two days flew by quickly.
And by now, he didnât ask you to do anything.
You sat on the couch, basically twiddling with your fingers as Keiji did his homework. He was sitting on the ground, his homework sprawled all over the coffee table. The air felt tense. Only the sound of pencil meeting paper was heard. You were too nervous to turn on the TV.
Your gaze was on him, watching his every move. His glasses sat on the edge of his nose. He made no attempt to fix them as he focused solely on his homework. It looked to be something advanced. Nothing you could understand with a simple glance over.
âCursing me out in your head?â He suddenly asked, not even looking up at you.
âWhat? No! Sorry, I wasâŚâ You clamped your mouth shut. It took a full minute before you decided to get the courage to say something. âWhy are you ignoring me?â
The sound of something snapping caused you to flinch. His pencilâs tip was completely broken. Keiji didnât say anything for a moment. Your stomach began to tighten as you silently cursed yourself out. Why did you even ask him that?
Wasnât being ignored better than anger?
âWhy? Iâm sorry,â Keiji placed his pencil down. âI didnât know I owed you anything.â
âI didnâtâI mean, I expected you to be more angry⌠maybe do more stuff?â
âI did for the first few days but then I got tired of it. Because thatâs the difference between you and me,â he looked back at you, his eyes devoid of any emotion. âI donât gain any satisfaction from hurting someone.â He gathered his papers and stood up, walking away to his room.
You stared at his retreating back. No, you couldnât let it stay like this. You wanted to at least try⌠if he pushed you away again, then youâd listen.
You quickly rushed after him, holding the door before he could close it. Keiji stared back at you with wide eyes, probably wondering where you had gained the audacity.
âHasumi, I know I hurt you but I did really start to enjoy talking to you.â
âSo? Was it funny when I called you Xiaojie? Did it hurt you to call me Xiansheng? You seemed to say it with ease. Did you do this to other poor ânerdsâ to make fun of them with Hitoshi and his friends?
âNo!â You frowned. âI never did this to anyone else but you.â
Keiji scoffed. âI guess that makes me special.â
âHasumi.â Your voice was shaky. âI know why it's hard to believe me. I know you should hurt me back and I can handle it but donât ignore me. I canât handle that.â
âWhat? You want me to hurt you like you hurt me?â Keiji got into your space, cornering you until you pressed against the now closed bedroom door. âI bet thats what that little fucker wants. To see me lose my cool and beat you up in front of them. Theyâd bet on it.â
Your eyes widen. Just how well did Keiji know Hitoshi? However, Keiji took your silence as confirmation. He rolled his eyes and moved to pull away but you quickly wrapped your arms around his waist, pressing your body against his. Keiji grabbed at your shoulders and began pushing you away.
âLet go of me. You have a fucking death wish or something?!â
âNo!â You cried out. âThis past month, it was so easy to talk to you. I started waking up and wanting to text you immediately to tell you anything that popped in my head. Anything mundane or exciting that happened those days, you were the first person I thought of. I stayed up late to see your response when you could finally answer. I loved your voice notes, even if I sometimes struggled to understand you because you talk so fast whenever you get excited about all that science talk.â
These past few days without you, I canât go back. I⌠IâŚâ
WÇ xÇhuÄn nÇ.
You shuddered, your hands gripping at his back. You hadn't even realized he had stopped trying to push you away. Just as you were about to speak, his hand grabbed your chin, pushing your face back. His gaze was filled with anger but also something else deep down.
âYou canât go without me?â He laughed cruelly, âdid Hitoshi prepare this script for you? You can handle my anger? Do you know what youâre wishing for, Xiaojie?â he spat out the title as if it was venomous. âBecause if I start, Iâm not stopping.â
Tears welled in your eyes as you only nodded. âI can. I can. I want your anger, please.â
Keijiâs features softened, just for a tiny moment before he glared at you. He pushed you away and grabbed your arm, shoving you onto his bed. You fell down with a cry, staring up at him as he stood at the edge of the bed, right between your legs.
As you stared up at him, you wondered if you could truly handle whatever he was holding deep inside.
You cried out, fingers digging into the bedsheets beneath you. Your teeth were biting into the pillow as your body shot forward once more. The sound of skin slapping filled the room. Keiji didnât wait a second as he spanked you once more. He didnât count or keep a steady rhythm. It was all done so you couldnât get too comfortable.
At this point you didn't know how long he had been spanking you. Your ass felt sore and sensitive to touch. Keiji stopped again for a second. You waited for a moment, waiting for whenever heâd finally spank you again.
But he didnât as something wet and slimy was suddenly touching your lower back. The cool liquid burned against your sensitive skin as you let out a muffled cry. His long fingers rubbed the lube across your skin before sliding down to your ass. He didnât wait a second as he slipped in his middle finger.
The stretch caused you to gasp, leaning down further into the bed. Keijiâs free hand grabbed your hip and pulled it up more. His refusal to talk was both hot and terrifying. Each touch was a shock.
âXianshengâŚâ You pitifully whined out, a stray tear sliding down your cheek. Would he even listen if you asked him to be gentle? You decided to bite back into the pillow, shutting yourself up.
Keiji didnât respond and continued to rub at your warm walls. He slipped in another finger, stretching you out. His fingers reached in deep until it rubbed against a certain spot inside you. Your eyes widen as you let out a miffed cry. Keiji stilled for a moment.
He experimentally pressed down on the spot. The two fingers gently massaged and rubbed around the edge. Your legs twitched as you struggled to keep your moans down. Each touch earned a gasp. Your hands were practically tearing at the bedsheets now as your cock was leaking precum.
Your eyes rolled to the back of your head as you grunted, cum coating the bedsheets beneath you.
Keiji let out an amused huff. A spank to your right cheek caused you to gasp. Your body immediately collapsed, your legs giving out. You whined into the pillow as Keiji delivered another harsh spank to your left cheek. Despite the pain, your cock was already twitching alive beneath your stomach.
âYou look pathetic.â Keiji finally spoke, pulling his fingers out of you. You whined at the loss. âThis isnât really a punishment since youâre enjoying it so much. Maybe you wanted this type of punishment all along.â he leaned over you, his lips teasing the tip of your ear.
âSuch a slut. You only wanted sex in the end.â
âNoâŚâ A choked sob left you as you felt his cock slowly push inside of you.
âNo? But look at you, so tight, I canât even fit.â He pressed down on the curve of your back as he continued to thrust his cockâs full length inside. âYou couldâve just asked if all you wanted was a quick fuck.â
You whimpered, burying your face into the pillow at his words.
âBut,â he laughed into your ear. âI wouldâve never said yes to someone like you. You disgust me.â
Your eyes widen. His words were ringing in your ears as he began to slowly thrust in and out. He gripped your waist, lifting your lower body up so he could keep you still. But even as your body shook with each thrustâyou couldnât feel it.
It was as if you were frozen in time. Just hearing his words over and over again.
You hadnât even realized you were wailing until he pulled out. Your body shook with your heavy cries as he flipped you over to lay on your body. Much to your shock he pulled you onto his lap and made you rest your head on his shoulder. You eagerly clung to his warmth, nails digging into his skin as you wrapped your legs around his waist.
âIâm sorry. Iâm sorry, that was too much.â He whispered, his hands rubbing comforting circles on your back.
âXiansheng⌠do IâŚ?â You couldnât even finish your sentence.
âNo. You donât. Iâm sorry, I got too angry.â Keiji sighed, gently pushing you up from his chest. You fought against that, using all your strength but he won in the end. He stared up at you as you looked away, knowing that you must've looked like a mess.
â(Name).â He said, his voice soft. You finally looked down at him, surprised to see him gazing up at you with a fond expression. âIâm angry. Iâm hurt. I hated finding out that this past month was a prank to you.â
âIt wasnâtâ!â
âBut I also liked reading your messages. I liked reading through the nonsense you sent me after a long day. I liked seeing the rare pictures you sent me, hoping youâd hopefully send me one of yourself. Sending those voice notes to help you sleep was fun. Youâre the only notification I'd get on some days. These few days without it, I realized I didnât want everything to go back to how it was before. So, yes, Iâm hurt, and it may take me a while to truly forgive you⌠but I donât want you gone from my life.â
He patted you on the back, his expression suddenly neutral. You blinked, shocked at how fast he could change expressions. But when you stared at him a little longer, you could see the slight embarrassment in his eyes.
âHasumi,â you whispered, âreally?â
âDo I need to repeat myself? Because I wonât.â He said, his softness all gone within seconds.
But you didnât care. You grinned despite the tears staining your face as you leaned down and pulled him into a kiss. Keijiâs eyes widened before he easily returned it. The kiss started out as a simple peck, slowly turning into a hungry kiss as Keijiâs hands gripped your waist. He guided you to lay back down on the bed, hands sliding down to grab your legs and push them up.
You moaned into the kiss, gripping at his hair as he tilted your head back, sucking on your tongue.
He struggled to find your hole without pulling away from the kiss before, thrusting back inside you, the now dried lube no longer offering an easy thrust. You groaned, pulling away from the kiss as you moved to grip at the bedsheets.
Keiji watched you as he leaned back, moving one of your legs to rest on his shoulder. He gripped the other leg tightly as he slowly began to thrust inside of you. Now you could truly pay attention to the stretch. His cock stretching you full as he teased the same spot from earlier.
âHasumi,â you sighed out.Â
âKeiji.â He responded, pressing a kiss to your calf, biting at the skin. He smirked as your leg jerked at the bite. âIf youâre going to be screaming my name out, it needs to be my name⌠or Xiansheng.âÂ
Your face felt hot as you stared up at him with wide eyes.Â
âKeijiâŚâ The name felt a little foreign on your tongue.Â
Keiji tightened his grip on your thigh as he began to keep a steady rhythm, thrusting into you. You whimpered and gasped at each thrustâthe slight burn from earlier no longer affecting you. Your ass stung whenever his hips slapped into you. Somehow the pain only made you cry louder.Â
âKeiji, Keiji,â you uttered his name like a prayer, reaching down to grip his hand. Keiji released your legs, moving them to wrap around his waist as he grabbed both of your wrists. One of his hands easily engulfed them both. You whimpered, flinching as his thrusts slowed, purposely pushing them in deep.Â
At this pace, his cock was stuck at rubbing that spot. You werenât even sure what that spot was but it had to be something sensitive. The constant teasing sent you into a frenzy as you arched your back, crying out. You needed to cum at this point, your cock leaking dejectedly on your stomach.Â
âXiaojie?â Keiji questioned, a teasing glint in his eyes as he leaned in close.Â
You tried to glare at him but he only hummed.Â
âScream as loud as you want,â he said, a serious look in his eyes as he leaned back. His grip suddenly tightened as you tried to comprehend what he could be doing.Â
The sudden force caused you to gasp, your body shaking as he slammed into you. Then, he began to fuck into you with a sudden rise in stamina.Â
Loud, choked moans left your throat as you watched his hips slam into you with no hesitation. He was silent with a hungry glint in his eyes as he kept a tight grip on you.Â
He kept you close to him even as you tried to pull away for just a second. Your moans being punched out as your back arches up from the bed.Â
You couldnât even say a word.Â
It didnât take long for you to cum, an almost pained cry leaving you at the pleasure. But he didnât slow down even as you whined at the overstimulation.Â
Your sensitive cock bounced against your stomach as your body shook with each harsh thrust. It was almost hard to breathe at this point.Â
This had to have been a punishment.Â
âStop squirming.â Keiji grunted out, using his free hand to push down on your chest, keeping you still. He pulled all the way out before slamming right back inside.Â
You shrieked as warm cum began to coat your sensitive insides. Your body went limp once he finally slowed down. It was a struggle to breathe.Â
âYou think Iâm done?â Keiji suddenly said, taking off his glasses. He placed them on the nightstand. You watched with weary eyes as he slowly slipped off his shirt, his gaze filled with hunger.Â
âI still have a lot of pent up anger, Xiaojie. Didnât you say you could handle it?âÂ
You gulped.Â
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âThatâs him, isnât it?â Ken asked, watching as you and his mother began talking outside of the hospital room.Â
âMhm.â Keiji simply hummed.Â
âYouâre really gonna allow him in the house? Why didnât you beat him up?âÂ
Keiji rolled his eyes. âNot everything needs to end in a fist fight.âÂ
âHmph. So youâre just gonna use him like a slave for the week? I guess thatâs somethingâŚâÂ
âNo.âÂ
âNo?âÂ
Keiji looked over at his brother. âThat wouldnât hurt him.âÂ
âWhat will?âÂ
âIgnoring him. Making him feel like Iâll leave him. Thatâll make him understand the hurt he has caused me.âÂ
Ken shook his head. âOof. Psychological. Youâre scary, bro.âÂ
Keiji simply smirked. âItâs only fair, donât you think?âÂ
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You winced, burying your face into the pillow. Keiji muttered an apology as he continued rubbing your sore ass with numbing cream.Â
âWhat you said earlier,â Keiji said, looking down at you. âWÇ? WÇ shÄŤ?âÂ
âWÇ xÇhuÄn nÇ.â You corrected, looking over at him. âYou learned some of the basics but not that?âÂ
âWhat does it mean?âÂ
You smirked. âXiansheng, are you stupid?âÂ
âDid you just ask if Iâm stupid?âÂ
âSo you know that but not xÇhuÄn?!âÂ
âTell me.âÂ
You pointed at his phone. âUse the translator.âÂ
Keiji rolled his eyes but grabbed his phone, putting on a translator. He moved to hand it over to you but you grabbed his wrist instead of the phone, bringing it close to your lips.Â
You gazed up at him as you pressed the mic. Your eyes focused solely on him.Â
WÇ xÇhuÄn nÇÂ
I like you
The translator repeated after you in Japanese. Keiji blinked as he stared down at you. You briefly wondered if he was angry when he dropped his phone and surged forward, pulling you into a kiss.Â
You grinned into the kiss, giggling. A sudden moan left you as his hand trailed down your back to your ass, squeezing the sore muscles. You winced and pulled back to stare at him in shock.Â
âOne more round.â He simply said, already leaning forward.Â
He easily flipped you to lay on your back as he moved to straddle you, folding your legs upward.Â
You didnât put up much of a fight as he claimed you again⌠and again for the rest of the night.Â
Ken closed the house front door, holding the house dog, Kokoko, in his arms. He looked back at Harutoâhis not-boyfriendâand sighed.Â
âCan I stay over⌠for a few more days? Please?âÂ
âUh, yeah⌠it doesnât sound like theyâre stopping any time soon.âÂ
I wrote so many notes on what was gonna happen and then end up not using any of it lolÂ
I wish someone could make a fanfic about beefy bottom male readers. Seriously! like...call me delusional or whatever but the idea of a beefy bottom or bottom dilf reader just makes my whole body go to overdrive!!! not just that but also bottom Alpha with the omega as top, brat taming that arrogant alphađ. please. please someone make my dream come true!đŤđŤđŤ
So.. I think Iâm back for a lil bit now that I got birthday gifts done. I think I might share face claims Iâve used for inspiration for some of my characters, and eventually art when I have any to share.
warnings âş bottom trans male reader. Slight horror/gore elements. Body switching. Death, lots of death. Blood drinking and blood bathing. Use of pussy, clit, and hole used interchangeably. Mentions of top surgery scars.
plot âş A town isolated from the rest are forced to honor a ritual every reincarnation, a mishap leads to it not being fulfilled. The town soon suffers the consequences for fifty years until a person suddenly moves in, saying he knows the solution. You need to surrender yourself to him; mind, body, and soul.
kinks âş blood, public ritual sex, dubcon, oral sex, creampie
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At the age of sixty-five, youâve suffered more than what normal people would consider impossible.
At the age of fifteen, your friend was murdered and the killer was never found. Soon after your small town began to suffer freak accidents each year.
At twenty-seven, after marrying a woman, she soon died in childbirth to your daughter.
At forty-five, your daughter mysteriously gives birth to a baby girl, stating she had no idea who the father was. That same night, she disappeared into the forest without a trace.
That same granddaughter soon became your grandson. You didnât understand it at first but you were honestly just happy that at least one family member hasnât left you tragically.
You babied him, everyone in town knew. Treating him as if he was ten and not a twenty year old man.
He was your only family at this point beside your mother and father. Though you never talked to them much, not after your brother was stabbed through the heart by his own wife on New Yearâs Eve at the ripe age of twenty.
They seemed to blame you for some reason. You were right beside the wife when she pulled out the knife. Maybe if you had pushed her, grabbed her hand, even said something so you brother would notice.
No matter. The Shen family felt like a curse.
In a sick sense, you were happy the town seemed to suffer from a similar fate.
Every year, without fail, someone would die a horrible, horrible death.
And somehow, it would always happen in front of a group of people.
Didnât matter how old you were.
Last year, the victim was a fifteen year boy. From what you heard, he was standing on the balcony of his house and the flooring just⌠collapsed.
Wood, metal, and glass pierced his body. You hoped for his sake that his death was quick.
You wondered who would it be this year, it was December and no one had died yet. Wouldâ
âGrandpa.â
You glanced up from your tea to see your grandson standing in the doorway, his face expressionless.
âJianwei?â You whispered, patting your chest as you coughed a bit. âDid something happen?â
Jianwei blinked. âYour mother.â
Oh.
The sight was gnarly. Her head was completely severed from her body. It looked to be an animal attack. Slashes all over her body. A shoe was found a couple of feet away from her. Her left arm bent unnaturally.
At least her death didnât happen in front of you. You pitied the unlucky few who had to watch.
Whoever cursed your town had a twisted sense of humor.
Her funeral was held the next day, no fanfare. Your father didnât even spare you a glance. He was coughing violently throughoutâwrinkles covered his face and his thin white hair struggling to stay attached to his head.
A couple of strands fell down into his lap as he was hunched over near her urn. The townspeople gave their condolences. Only a few even paying you any attention.
âGrandpa,â Jianwei patted your back, a slight frown on his lips. âWe should head back now. Itâs getting dark.â
âAh,â you straighten your back as much as possible. A slight pop could be heard. âYes.. father, I should help himââ
âNo need.â Jianwei shook his head. âHeâll refuse it anyway.â
You didnât argue, knowing he was right. Seeing no sense on proving him right, you simply nodded and followed Jianwei back home.
Back at home as you got ready for bed, Jianwei stood by your bedroom door. You glanced over at him and gave him a slight smile.
âGrandpa,â he started, his voice low, âwhat if the talk about those lovers are true? Maybe the murder of that boy really cursed the town?â
âThe boy? You mean Wu Bi?â
âNo, not Wu Bi. Iâm talking about the one fifty years ago. Xu Hei, after his death, isnât that when there is a freak accident that kills someone each year?â
You frowned, remembering Xu Hei, your friend. âMaybe. But if, the lovers that reincarnate every few years, and one was killed prematurely, it can never be fixed, yes?â
âYou were alive longer than me,â Jianwei said. âThe only people who can remember anything about a ritual or the lovers are either dead or too old to remember anything clearly. Iâve been trying to look them up at the library but all of the writings have been burned or locked away.â
âPerhaps for good reason.â
âGrandpa.â
âReally, Jianwei, donât believe what theyâre telling you. That whole ritual nonsense of the past wasnât real. Someone wouldâve spoken about it already.â
âUnless they did it on purpose.â
âHuh?â
âUnless they killed one of the lovers on purpose so they donât have to do the ritual anymore.â
You sighed and sat down on your bed, your body aching. Being old wasnât easy. âJianwei, stop reading about those silly stories. Thereâs no ritual.â
Jianwei stared at you before humming. âOkay. Good night.â He walked away without you being able to respond.
That kidâŚ
It was a New Year, meaning everyone was now tense as they moved about the town.
Jianwei was acting differentlyâstill learning about that ritual nonsense. You didnât understand but didnât attempt to try to stop him. So long as he didnât stop his work, who cared about what he did in his free time.
What was more important was your body. You felt as if you were deteriorating so quickly for a sixty-five year old. Even your father could still move faster than you.
You feared you might be the victim this year. However death wasnât what scared youâit was leaving Jianwei all alone. Heâd essentially be the only Shen left in this godforsaken town.
Days passed as you debated telling Jianwei to leave for Taipei. No one really knew what happened to those brave enough to leave the town. Itâs why you havenât left. But maybe itâd keep Jianwei safe.
It wouldnât hurt to try.
âDid you hear? Someone moved here.â
âAre they insane? How old are they?â
âThey looked no more than twenty.â
You glanced back at your basket of fruits, overhearing the two older women gossiping. Someone moved into the town? Who would be foolish enough to possibly trap themselves here?
Someone Jianweiâs age at that.
The thought was confusing as you finally made it home, groaning at your weaken knees. You placed the basket on the ground as you slowly moved to the living room. There, Jianwei was standing with his back to you.
âAh, Jianwei,â you muttered, rubbing at your eyes. Even your damn eyesight has gotten worse. âI thought youâd be at the library until dinner. Whatââ
You froze, noting the other man in the room.
The man was holding a butcher knife. Your body froze, the similar feeling of dread as you watched your sister-in-law pull out a knife on your brother. You felt twenty all over again.
A weak twenty year old man just watching as the killer brandish the knife. Jianwei glanced back at you, his face expressionless as he paid no attention to the man in front of him.
âJâJianwei..â you managed to stutter out.
âGrandpa.â Jianwei smiled slightly. âItâs okay, Iâve known this was my fate since I was born. Just let it happen.â
âWhat areâ?! Stay away from my grandson!â You yelled out, feeling a sudden rush of adrenaline. The need to protect your only blood powered your old and weary bones as you managed to rush forward to the killer and Jianwei.
âGrandpaâ!â
There was pain in your heart.
You glanced down and saw the blade right in your chest, piercing your heart. A strangled gasp left your throat as blood began to coat your white shirt. Blood dripped from your lips. Your eyes shifted over to Jianwei to see a look of fear on his face.
âYou didnât say youâd hurt him!â Jianwei said.
The killer only hummed, reaching forward and gently caressing your face. âTrust me, it hurts me more than itâll ever hurt you, Shen Jianwei. Besides, his body needs to die for it to work.â The killer stepped forward as the sunlight finally highlighted his face.
Even after all these years, you recognized that face. It was a little older. But it was him.
âXu.. Hei..?â You grunted out, coughing more blood that ended up coating his face.
The killer wearing Xu Heiâs face grinned, âeven after all these years, you remember this face? It really was your favorite.â He wiped away a stray tear from your face. âShh, itâll only take a minute. Itâs better than seeing Jianwei die.â
A sharp gasp left you as he pulled out the knife, releasing your body. You collapsed to the ground, blood pooling around you. Your eyesight was dizzy and your hearing was muffled.
You expected a scuffle. For Jianwei to put up some type of fight. But only the sound of a thud filled the room. Jianweiâs lifeless eyes staring right at you.
As you took your last breath, tears pooled your eyes. Jianweiâs eyes had never looked so lifeless before. You had always thought you wanted him to be the last person you saw before you diedâŚ
But never like this.
Life was unfair to you since the age of fifteenâŚ
People had always said Jianwei looked like a carbon copy of you as a teenager. Even more so after he transitioned. It was like a blast from the past was something older folks would say.
You had never seen it until you pulled up old photos you had one day. He was just a carbon copy. Genetics were so strong.
When you had pulled out those photos, you came across ones with you and Xu Hei. He was always a handsome boy back then. A sharp mono-lid eyes and strong eyebrows. Staring contests with him would never result in someone other than him winning.
You often compared him to a black cat.
There was this look he would always give you whenever he came over your house. Youâd be sitting across each other on your bed, doing homework. When youâd suddenly glance up and see him staring at you.
His lips would quirk into a smirkâas if he was just waiting for you to catch him. You would always feel your face heat up and quickly kick at him to focus on his work.
Then one night your father caught you two too close. He had yelled at you and kicked Xu Hei out.
That was the last time you saw Xu Hei alive.
The next time, you were cradling his bleeding corpse as you wailed out for him to wake up. It was a crime of hatred. Whoever had killed Xu Hei made sure the process was excruciating and painful.
Those sharp eyes were slashed multiple times. Pieces of his flesh carved out. Stabs all over his body. They made sure Xu Hei had no chance of surviving.
Even as you got married and moved on, Xu Heiâs body would haunt you as you tried to sleep. He had etched himself into your heart and it was the most painful thing youâve experienced.
So you knewâŚ
That the man staring down at you couldnât be Xu Hei.
But he looked exactly like him.
You let out a heavy gasp, suddenly realizing that you could breathe. You could swallow your spit. You could look around. Your fingers could flex around. Your hands gripped at your chest as you coughed heavily.
You were alive?
The past body aching wasnât there anymore. But that was the last of your worriesâyou shouldâve bled to death. No human survives a stab to the heart.
â(Name), shh,â the fake Xu Hei whispered, his hand gently brushing against your cheek. âItâll feel weird at first⌠but itâs normal. Youâll get used it.â
âYou⌠Youâre not Xu Hei.â You whispered out, moving to sit up.
âMhm, Iâm not. Iâm Xu Haiyuan.â
Your body froze, your eyes staring up at him. Haiyuan grinned as his thumb gently pressed against your lips.
Those words once whispered by you and him, but you canât remember when. It felt as if you had said those words to him ages ago. Forever promising your soul, mind, and body to him centuries ago. A promise to him from your soul.
But that didnât seem possible.
Jianweiâs past words about the whole ritual nonsense rushed back to you. Was he right? But then⌠that would mean you were one of the reincarnated lovers.
Would that⌠explain why your love never worked? You were never supposed to be anyone elseâs but Xu Haiyuanâs.
You shook your head, pushing Haiyuanâs hand away. âWhereâs Jianwei?â If you managed to survive, maybe, hopefully, he could be awake.
Haiyuan didnât give you the satisfaction, however, as he quickly explained. âHeâs dead. He gave up his soul for the ritual. He wasnât supposed to have been born anyway.â He walked over to the nightstand, grabbing a glass of water as he held it up to your lips. âHere, drink, Baobei.â
âBaobei..?â You whispered, shocked at the fact this.. thing man or whatever had the audacity to call you baby after saying your grandson wasnât supposed to be born. âYouâexplain what the hell is going on! You kill my only family and expect me to accept your roleplaying of being a happy couple?â You harshly slap his hand away, the glass shattering to the ground.
Haiyuan stared down at the glass before glancing up at you. He leaned in close as you froze, remembering how he had killed you with ease moments ago. His eyes softened at your terror as he pulled away slightly and sighed.
âYou werenât supposed to marry Li You, which is why she died in childbirth. Then, your daughter, Shen Yue, reproduced asexually to create a new body for you, unfortunately the body came out as a girl at firstâbut nothing that couldnât have been fixed.â
You blinked. âJust what the fuck are you talking about?â
âShen (Name). You canât have children with anyone else. What Li You birthed⌠wasnât a human.â Haiyuan sat down on the bed, watching your expression. âYouâre destined to be with meâany deviation leads to dire consequences. Like Li Youâs death. Iâm sure you remember how it looked as if Li You wasnât even pregnant those nine months, because she wasnât growing a human baby.â
She was growing a copy. Though the copy was unsuccessful at first. So Shen Yue had to create another copy that was Jianweiâhis body was exactly as yours, except being born female. You donât believe genetics could make someone look exactly as you, did you? My Baobei is smarter than that.â
You glared at him. âWhatever nonsense youâre spewingâI donât care. I just want to understand what are you.â
âIâm your lover. The reincarnation was strained when I was murdered as Xu Hei, the town didnât get to do their ritual. Unfortunately since this was the first time this has happened, it took me awhile to properly reincarnate to join you.. so you unfortunately aged.â His hand slowly reached out and cupped your cheek, rubbing the smooth skin.
When has your skin been so smooth?
âI simply fixed it so weâre similar ages again. Your older body was dying out because it wasnât supposed to reach that age and the fact you were spreading your soul into Shen Yue and Jianwei for them to even be created.â
âSo.. what..? Shen Yue and Jianwei was just created from myself? No one else?â You whispered, still trying to understand what this truly meant. Did that mean⌠Jianwei wasnât a real person..? He was just.. you? But..
Haiyuan hummed. âJianwei had a bit of his own personality. Shen Yue, she had no personality as she was the first ever copy you createdâby accident no less. Itâs why she came out as female as well, you just kept thinking that you wanted a daughter.â
You flinched, eyes widening. How did he know that? When Li You was pregnant, you prayed every night hoping for a daughter. This new information made you sick.
So all this time, all of your crying and sadness was towards.. copies of your soul? Then you only truly lost Li You. You caused her death because you were never supposed to be with her. The thought made you sick.
âBaobei, itâs okay, you still thought of them as real people, and thatâs okay.â Haiyuan said, gripping your hands together. You flinched and tried to pull away but his grip was strong.
âLet..â Your voice trailed off as you stared at your hands.
They werenât wrinkly.
You gasped, finally taking notice that your voice was higher pitched than the low pitched that came from your old age. You could even yell without hurting your vocal cords.
Haiyuan grinned, âfinally noticed? Come, take a look.â He easily tugged you to stand up. You tried to fight back as he dragged you to the attached bathroom in the bedroom. He flicked on the lights as your stared straight ahead, eyes slowly widening as you took yourself in.
You were⌠twenty again.
âHowâŚ?â
âJianwei gave you his body. Well, itâs technically yours.â Haiyuan smiled slightly, gazing at you through the mirror with a slight hunger. âHe knew from the start who and what he was. Heâs known about me longer than you have.â
You glanced over at Haiyuan and glared at him, âyou coerced him into doing this!â You yelled, managing to free your hands as you gripped Haiyuanâs shirt.
âIf thatâs what you believe.â Haiyuan hummed. âItâs okay, I know itâll take you awhile to understand. But right now, what matters, is that we can finally complete the ritual.â
âRitual..?â
âYes. Your little town believed that by killing me they wouldnât have to complete the ritual anymore so I cursed them to suffer painful deaths each year. I wouldâve done more than one person each year but then the population wouldâve died out in two years.â He said nonchalantly, his hands gripping yours and easily prying them to release his shirt.
âWhat does this ritual even entail?!â
âThey have to sacrifice five people to us and then weâd die together peacefully, giving the town a good life for fifty years until we reincarnated again.â
You blinked. âSo.. itâs like⌠praying to a god for a good harvest..?â
âThatâs how it started, yes. Itâs a long story, really, you were always the one that would forget whenever we got reincarnated. I still remember telling you over and over again.â Haiyuan chuckled, bringing your hands to his lips as he kissed your knuckles. There was a fondness in his gaze that you couldnât understand.
It didnât look fake.
Your ears began ringing as a sight filled your thoughts. Haiyuan had long hair and was kissing your knuckles again, he was dressed in traditional clothing.
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âDonât resist,â Haiyuan suddenly said, catching your attention. âLetâsââ
ââCollapse together anyway.â You finished, staring up at him.
Haiyuan blinked as a wide grin pulled on his lips. âYou do remember.â He pulled away slightly and stared down at you. â(Name), I understand youâre confused and that you donât understand, but can you trust me⌠You know Xu Haiyuan, you know me.â
You frowned. You should feel angry, possibly upset. Confused at how youâre still alive. But you have this feeling of love towards Xu Haiyuan. Xu Hei⌠you know him, or at least, your body and soul seems to know him well enough to keep calm despite your mind rushing a mile a minute.
It seemed your mind just needed to catch up.
âItâs true..?â You whispered, slowly moving your hands to actually entwine them with his. âThen, Shen Yue and Jianwei, are theyâ?â
âTheyâre apart of you,â he squeezed your hands. âNo matter the truth, if you truly cared for them as if they were their own people.. then so be it.â He said, you could almost tell that he was simply saying this to placate you.
It was understandable. He was essentially telling you the past fifty years was a lie. That you were at fault for Li Youâs death. And if you wished to be cruel to yourself, everyone elseâs death was your fault.
But why did the town not want to go through with the ritual? Surely five people dying is better than the fifty years spent waiting for your untimely painful demise.
Haiyuan tilted his head, leaning down as he kissed your forehead. âShh, letâs enjoy our first night together. The ritual will happen in a month.â
âWhy wait so long?â You whispered, unable to push him away as he trailed kisses down your face, inching towards your lips. âDonât you want to save them..? Theyâve suffered long enough, Iâm sure they wonât do it again.â
âYou really care for them.â He simply said. âBut itâs a month because it needs to happen the first night of spring. That was when we first became one.â His lips pressed right at the corner of yours, his tongue teasing your skin before he pulled away.
You hummed. âOkay⌠Okay, I understandâŚâ A stuttered sigh left you as his hands trailed down your body, gripping your waist.
Haiyuan pulled you close, your chest pushed against his as he stared down at you. He pressed another kiss on your forehead. âGood. Since itâs our first night, Iâll focus on you.â
âHuh?â
He didnât say anything else as he guided you back to the bedroom, gently pushing you to lay down. You didnât fight back, staring up at him with wide eyes. Why werenât you putting up more of a fight?
His hands gripped at your pantsâyour body twitching at the touch. He didnât wait a second as he pulled them off in one fluid motion. You shrieked, shocked at his actions but also at how your voice sounded so high-pitched just now.
âXu HeâHaiyuan,â you muttered, subconsciously closing your thighs together to give yourself some modesty. âThis is.. really fast, shouldnât we get to know each a bit more⌠Iâve onlyââ
A loud gasp left your throat as his fingers grazed your crotch. You donât ever remember being that sensitive. You opened your legs wide and sat up to see just what he was touching.
When you caught sight of..
A vagina?
âWhereâsâ?â
âYou didnât know Jianwei didnât have a penis?â
âButâwhen he.. went up to Taipei?! I thought he got the surgery..â You whispered, suddenly realizing you never asked Jianwei anything about his surgery. You were old and didnât understand it at that point, so long as he was safe you didnât care.
âI donât think theyâre that advanced yet,â Haiyuan simply said, his thumb grazing your clit. You shivered, reaching down to grab his hand.
âIs it.. supposed to be this sensitive?â
âMaybe. The last time I had one was.. ah, over 1200 years ago.â He hummed, nodding to himself as he tried to remember.
âYou had one..? Wait, I donâtââ
âWe donât always reincarnate as men. I was once a woman and you a man. But then we were once also both women. Though there were more times of you being a woman and I a man. However, weâre mostly men.â
âIs.. being born a man our original form?â
âYes.â He gently pushed your hand away and rubbed your outer lips together. His gaze was focused on your cunt, as if he was studying it. Maybe it had been awhile since he had touched one.
âNgh,â your hips twitch at his slow touch, you almost felt like a science experiment. âWhat was your original name..?â
âYouâre still the same,â he absentmindedly replied, âasking questions as I try to fuck you. I donât know my original name. I donât remember our original life. I only remember after our second reincarnation, thatâs been⌠over.. ah, all I remember is that we didnât speak Mandarin for the first few times of our reincarnation.â
You perked up at that, forgetting about Haiyuan teasing your pussy. âWe were apart of the original indigenous people of Taiwan? Ah, wait, but we arenât now, how comes?â
Haiyuan shrugged. âNot sure. Our reincarnations only became associated with a ritual in 1729, thatâs when we would never reach over the age of twenty. Before we would live long or simply die naturally until we were both murdered.â
âWe canât live past the age of twenty..? Why?â
âI donât have the answers for everything, Baobei. I simply know this because I donât lose my memories.â
You gasped, gripping the bedsheets as two fingers sink inside your hole. Talking really made you forget what he was doing in the first place. Haiyuan paused, staring up at you. He experimentally curled his fingers, watching your reaction.
Another gasp left you as you clamp your lips shut. This was strangeâit wasnât a type of pleasure you could handle.
âUhmâŚâ you sighed, toes curling at as Haiyuan gave your clit a lick. âHow does.. how does the ritual usually work..?â
Haiyuan glanced up at you, a slight annoyance in his eyes. âThe town kills five people, using their blood to create a circle around us. We fuck in the circle. ThenâŚâ his voice was suddenly a little quiet, âI kill you and one of them kill me, it repeats in the next fifty years.â
You frowned, watching as he pulled away slightly. He hesitated for a moment but soon pulled out his fingers. His middle and ring finger were soaked as he wiped them absentmindedly on the blanket. The embarrassment from just how wet you were was forgotten by the look on his face.
âHaiyuan..â You whispered, closing your legs as you watched him. âYou have to kill me? Whyââ
âIâd never give them the satisfaction of killing you.â He blurted out, as if he had said that a million times. âItâs just easier to kill you myself.â
You slowly reach out and rest your hand on his lap, waiting for him to look you in the eye. It takes a moment before he finally looks over at you. His eyes were downcast, a look of sadness that told a story you wished you could remember.
It didnât seem fear he remembered everything while you constantly forget. You bit your lip before patting his thigh comfortingly, just like youâd do Jianwei.
âItâs okay. Iâm sure you had no better options.â You said, giving him a little smile.
Haiyuan blinked. âDonât speak to me as if Iâm your grandson.â He said, a look of annoyance on his face as he slightly sneered at you.
You flinched, having never expected him to look this annoyed. He simply shook his head and pushed your hand away, sitting up from the bed.
âSleep, Baobei. I need to dispose of something.â He said, reaching out and gently pulling at your cheek. A slight smile pulled on his lips. âIâll tell you more in the morning.â
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âAre you okay?â He whispered in your ear, bringing your thoughts back to him. His hands gripped the soft skin of your waist as he stared up at you. You mutely nodded, sighing at a particularly harsh thrust into your hole.
Your robe was your only modesty to block the others from seeing his cock deep inside you. Though you knew theyâd prefer thatâjudging by the glares they gave you. You decided to ignore them and pay attention to him.
ĺžćľŠçś â Xu Haoran
The circle of blood that surrounded you both was still wet, having been recently drawn. Five bodies lay nearbyâall killed with a simple throat slit. Haoran pulled you closer against his body, your cock squished against his stomach.
âHaoran,â you moaned out, cupping his face as you pulled him in for a kiss. He eagerly returned the kiss. His hands slipped down to your ass as he began picking up the pace. The sounds of skin slapping and your moans spilled into the empty air.
You reached a shaky hand to dip into the blood circle, coating your index finger. A wet moan left your lips at a particularly harsh thrust. Haoranâs eyes were closed as he thrusted up into you, pulling you down with the grip on your ass.
Your cock leaked dejectedly as you slowly began to write something out on his chest, stuttering whenever his cock grazed your prostrate.
There was talking around you but you didnât care. This ritual was for these people to have a prosperous life for fifty years straight. They could handle seeing you get fucked by your lover.
It took a second before you could fully write out the characters on Haoranâs chest. Your orgasm taking over at the last minute as you came with a sharp cry. Haoran came right after you, holding you down so his cum would coat your tight walls.
You both stayed still for a moment, clinging to each other. The moonlight shined down on you as you stared down at your handiwork. It was messy and if anyone else looked at it, they wouldnât know what it said.
A little smile pulled on your lips as you let out a sigh.
âTake care of it already, the sun is almost here!â
A panicked voice made you remember what this whole ritual was for. You sat up and glanced down at Haoran. He wouldnât look at you or more so, it was as if he couldnât. His shoulders were tense as he muttered something to himself.
You gazed back at the villager behind him, taking note of the sword in their hand. A soft smile pulled on your lips as you gently grabbed Haoranâs face. He flinched but immediately calmed down as you slowly maneuvered him to look up at you.
He was crying. But it felt like youâve seen this sight before. Youâve seen this sight many times.
You wiped at his tears, giggling slightly. He looked at you as if you were crazy for laughing at this moment. Maybe you were. You nodded slightly and pointed at his chest, letting him read the characters you wrote.
He laughed, âyour handwriting⌠itâs still so bad.â
âHey, donâtââ
There was a pain in your heart. You blinked once as blood dripped from your lips. Haoran let out a pained cry as if he was the one who got stabbedâŚ
And that it wasnât you who he just stabbed through the heart. You slumped in his arms, face pressed against his chest as he began to wail. He dropped his knife and hugged your body close, paying no attention to the villager coming close to him.
He didnât stop his pained wails even as the sword stabbed him through the back. It happened four more times, blood splattering against the grass as he coughed. He slowly fell to his side, arms limply holding your corpse.
Lying there, slowly dying, he thought about the characters you wrote on his chest. You didnât get to finish the sentence. But he knew what you mustâve been trying to say.
渴ćä˝ â I long for you
Maybe one of these days.. heâd make sure you wouldnât have to die by his hands ever again.
Xu Haoran closed his eyes and remembered what you said to him.
Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry, please donât hate me, please donât
Donât worry. I still like you
In 1821, he died with a smile on his lips.
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You awoke with a gasp, gripping at your chest as you took multiple deep breaths. That dream felt real. Too real. Xu Haoran⌠That mustâve been Haiyuan. And youâŚ
Your cheeks felt hot. The ritual dealt with sex? What type of ritual needed you to get fucked in front of multiple people? And why werenât you shy at all back then? You shook your head, slapping your cheeks slightly to get the thought out of your brain.
A sigh left the body next to you. You glanced over to see Haiyuan sleeping. You didnât remember when he joined you on the bed. As you stared down at him, you thought back to how he reacted after killing⌠past you.
He had to do that for many years by now, without forgetting how you would die in his arms. You got the privilege of being reborn as a blank slate.
While HaiyuanâŚ
That didnât seem fair at all. You leaned down, taking in his expression. He didnât look as scary asleep. His eyebrows were no longer furrowed and his lips werenât pulled into a straight line.
It didnât seem fair in general. Why must you two die over and over again to give the people here a good life? It only lasted for fifty years at that. Seemed worthless in the long run.
You laid back down, gently pulling Haiyuanâs arm up so you could rest your head on it. Your hand rested on his chest as you simply stared at him.
Even without your memories, you felt a pull towards him.
âDo I still look good?â
You flinched at his words. Haiyuan didnât open his eyes as his arm moved down, his hand grasping your waist. He pulled you closer to him, letting your face rest on his chest. You attempted to pull away but he squeezed your waist in retaliation.
âDonât move. Sleep.â
âI⌠Iâm not tired.â
âYou are. Old people sleep all day.â
You blinked. âHah? What do you mean??â
âYour brain is still sixty. Sleep.â
âYouââ
Haiyuan slipped his hand into your shorts, his fingers easily teasing your clit. âI can always give you an orgasm to sleep.â
âN-N-N-No need!â You clamped your thighs shut, eyes widen in shock.
He chuckled and only hummed, but he made no attempt to pull his hand away. His hand rubbed between your thighs affectionately as he let out a sigh. Only a second after he was fast asleep once more.
Old people sleeping all day⌠You rolled your eyes.
If you had to die, at least itâd be by his hands.
It was for the good of the people.
The first of spring came faster than you anticipated. Haiyuan spent most of the time preparing for the ritual and would come back to you at odd times. He didnât want you to leave the house due to.. your current predicament.
You were fine with itâit wasnât like you had much to say these days. Haiyuan was different than Xu Hei. There was an air of anger that rolled off of him whenever you caught him off guard.
It was as if he was always seething with rage deep inside. You had tried talking about it days ago but he shut that down quick.
Though it didnât matter now.
Tonight, you were going to die.
The ritual was held in the forest. A small open space with tall trees circling around. Multiple lanterns and torches were placed in empty spaces to light the area. The moon felt as if it was shining right down in the center.
In the center, there were multiple weapons.
A blade, a knife, a sledge hammer, and a sword.
You didnât understand what the sledge hammer was for but you didnât question it.
When you finally entered past the barrier of trees, you saw five bodies, leaking blood onto the grass. All of them looked to be older. Oneâs head was burst open, brain matter leaking from the broken skull.
A shaken gasp left your lips at the sight. You werenât sure what you expected for the five sacrifices but it certainly wasnât this. Wasnât simple neck slit enough?
âWhat are you waiting for?â A villager behind you questioned, pushing you forward. You stuttered, bare feet scraping against the sticks on the ground.
Right. Almost every adult you knew of was circled around the circle. Each baring an expression of either fear or anger. The ones who were closer to your fatherâs age seemed to know exactly what this ritual was for.
You wondered which one of them purposely burned the books that Jianwei tried searching for. They all couldnât have been naive enough to believe theyâd never have to do a ritual again.
âWho is that man?â
âWhy are we even here? Mom, why arenât you explaining anything?â
âIs that Jianwei? I havenât seen him or his grandpa in months.â
âWhy are people just dead on the ground?!â
âTo the younger generation,â a voice suddenly said, catching everyoneâs attention. Haiyuan walked into the circle, pulling a person behind him by their shirt. âThis might seem confusing⌠but you can all blame your parents for everything you will soon suffer through.â
Your eyes widen as Haiyuan was finally illuminated by the fire. He was bloody, his white robe caked in blood and dirt. There was blood splatter on his face and what looked to be a cut on his neck. Did someone fight back?
You gazed down at who he was holding to see none other than your father. You subconsciously stepped forward to check on him when you noticed the blood coating his face.
Haiyuan smirked as he roughly pulled your father to stand up, âlook, the bastard who brought the fifty year curse onto you all.â He loudly boasted, manhandling your father around like a doll so everyone could see.
Your father could hardly speak as he croaked. His eyes were slashed. It looked as if a blade was repeatedly cutting through his eyelids until it struck the eyes. You remembered Xu Heiâs corpse having similar wounds.
âDadâŚâ You whispered, stepping over. âYou killed⌠Xu Hei?â
Haiyuan smiled at you, âhe did. He cornered poor Xu Heiâs in the forest and stabbed him over thirty times in the chest before slashing at his eyes. Then he slit his throat just to make sure. I guess there were no tips on how to kill me.â
You could only stare at him in disbelief. To go that far⌠you tried to say something but you couldnât. A pained groan left you as you looked away.
âBaobei,â Haiyuan said, his voice soft. âWe should finish the ritual now.â
âOkayâŚâ You whispered, looking back over at Haiyuan just to see him stab your father right through the head with a knife. A scream left your throat at the suddenness. The spectators also let out their own varying degrees of fear and shock.
Blood splattered on your black robe and face. You reached up and gently wiped at it, seeing the red substance coating the tip of your fingers.
âThe ritual needs six sacrifices this time around, as an apology for what they did.â Haiyuan said. He unceremoniously dropped your fatherâs corpse onto the ground. âThe blood of the perpetrator that ruined our reunion.â
You could only watch as Haiyuan tore off your fatherâs shirt, digging the blade into his back. He little to no resistance as he dragged the blade down. Blood squirted out, some landing on Haiyuanâs face.
Haiyuan glanced up at you. He held up one hand and nodded. You could only stare before finally taking his hand, letting him pull you down to your knees. He immediately continued to slash at your fatherâs back, letting the blood coat his body.
A bit of blood splattered onto you. You flinched at every drop that landed on your skin. You couldnât look.
The sounds of skin tearing and the shushed gasps of the villagers filled your ears.
âWhy canât I move??â
âIâm stuck!â
âItâs like my legs donât workâŚâ ďżź
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You opened your eyes just as Haiyuan slammed his lips against yours. A pained gasp left your lips. His eyes were wide open as he stared you down, kissing you like he was a starving man. More blood began to spray onto you both as he continued tearing at your fatherâs back.
He dropped the blade and pulled something out of your father. Your eyes widen.
Your fatherâs spine.
Haiyuan chuckled into the kiss as he tossed the spine away. He quickly gripped your face and continued to kiss you. His tongue slipped inside your mouth as you helplessly gripped at his robes.
His bloody hands run across your body, tearing open your robes. You whimper when he pushes you onto the ground. He finally pulls away from the kiss, taking in the sight of you.
You had blood all over you now. Blood coating your lips and cheeks. Blood on your chest and arms. Your robe laid torn on the grass beneath you.
âHaiyuanâŚâ you choked out, tears threatening to fall. âYouâre scaring me.â
Haiyuan seemed to pause at that, almost shocked that he could ever scare you. He frowned slightly before gazing back at your fatherâs mangled corpse. He didnât even attempt to be nicer as he rudely kicked your fatherâs body away from you.
The corpse rolled far away, slamming into a tree. A loud cry of screams filled the air.
âIâm sorry, Baobei.â He whispered, grasping your face as he wiped your tears away. He leaned down and pressed a soft kiss onto your lips. âThis is the only way the ritual will work.â
You stare up at him, staring into his eyes. With the moonlight shining behind himâyou begin to see a different version of Xu Haiyuan. A version that looks to be from a time that you canât pinpoint.
But you trust him.
You mutely nod, slowly reaching up to wrap your arms around his neck. âDo they have to look?â You whispered, knowing whatâs next in the ritual.
Haiyuan shook his head. âIâll make sure they canât see at all.â His hands suddenly cup your ears as he kissed you hungrily. You returned the kiss but struggled to keep up with his hunger.
However, now you couldnât hear the villagers suddenly screaming out in pain.
His hands tore off the remainder of your robe as he pulled away, staring down at you with a look of awe. He gently touched your chest. His thumb gently grazing the scars below your nipples.
âItâs beautiful.â He whispered, a smirk on his lips. âI think this version of you is a favorite of mine.â
Your face feels warm at his words. âStop stallingâŚâ you open your legs wide. His eyes immediately narrow at your cunt.
He chuckled. âI donât have to rush this time.â His hands gripped your thighs, blood coating your skin. Haiyuan leans down between your legs and pulls you up. Your pussy pressed against his lips as he gives a teasing lick at your clit.
You shiver at the first touch. He seemed set on teasing you. His lips kissed around your pussy, leaving bite marks on your inner thighs. Whenever he got close enough to your clit, heâd kiss it but quickly pull away.
The teasing was getting to be too much when he suddenly suckled on your clit, releasing one leg to rub two fingers between your folds. You gasped, fingers digging into the dirt. Your legs clamp around his head just as he sinks in two fingers.
You just remembered the blood that coated his fingers but couldnât exactly say anything as he fingered you.
âHaiyuan⌠please.. please,â you whine out, not exactly sure what you were pleading for. The pleasure wasnât something you ever experienced. And you didnât exactly let Haiyuan touch you for long before this. Having an orgasm seemed scary for your sixty year old brain.
Haiyuan hummed around your clit, sending a jolt in your body. He released your poor clit and slowed down his thrusting fingers. His middle and ring finger rubbed against your gummy walls. He released your other leg and used the now free hand to rub his thumb cruelly against your clit.
You let out an almost pained gasp, eyes rolling back at his touch. Haiyuan stared you down. He drunk in every moan, whimper, and gasp you let out. Watching every move your body took as it tried to escape the pleasure.
âYouâre still the same,â he breathed out, leaning down so his nose brushed against yours. âYou canât handle it without going crazy.â
âXu HaiyuanâŚâ You gasped out, feeling a strange sensation in your lower belly. âI think.. Iâm going to pee.â
âItâs not pee.â He simply answered, laughing slightly. âYouâre so beautiful in blood. You need more.â
You whined. You already felt so dirty, how much more did you need? Blood was on your pussy at this point.
Haiyuan stopped his touch, pulling away. You almost cried when he gave you quick kiss on the lips. âShh, it wonât be long. We need to follow the ritual properly.â He gave you a grin. âClose your eyes.â
You didnât question him, closing your eyes as your body heaved. The weird sensation was slowly going away.
A drip on your stomach caused you to flinch. You wondered if it was beginning to rain.
âDonât open your eyes. I donât think you want to see this.â Haiyuan said, stopping you from opening your eyes.
You obeyed him as more liquid dripped onto yours body. It began to travel up your body, dripping onto your face. You gasped which allowed some of it to slip into your mouth.
The taste was metallic.
Blood.
He was dripping blood onto you.
Your eyes opened as you finally saw what Haiyuan was doing. A shocked gasp left you. He was holding your fatherâs severed head, letting blood drip all over you. You quickly covered your body with your arms as you curled into yourself.
Though the damage was already done, the fresh blood was coated all over your body. Haiyuan only grinned at the sight of you as he tilted his head back and opened his mouth.
You watched as he began to drink the blood from the severed head.
âHaiyuanâŚâ You whispered.
Haiyuan hummed as he carelessly tossed the head away once he had his fill. âItâs apart of the ritual.â
âThe ritual?â You questioned, watching him as he kneeled back down. His once white robe was fully red by now. Blood coated his face entirely. There was no part of his body that wasnât covered in blood. And you knew it wasnât just of your fatherâs.
âYou think that Iâll just let them get off without any punishment for killing me?â
âI thought the curse was enough punishmentâŚâ
He laughed. âNothing will be enough for what they did. The fifty year curse was me being nice. Now, letâs complete the ritual. I know youâll want to bathe after this.â
You frowned. Bathe? Werenât you going to die right after this?
You didnât say anything and just opened your legs once more, waiting for him to continue. Haiyuan easily slipped himself between your thighs. He pulled off his robes, showing his nude body.
It was the first time youâd ever seen him fully nude. You bit your lip at the sight. Somehow the blood was doing something to you.
Haiyuan smirked once he noticed your hungry gaze. He leaned over you and captured your lips into another kiss. You eagerly returned it, gripping at his face. His teeth sunk into your bottom lip as his hands gripped at your waist.
His fingers rubbed at your skin before he held you up. He leaned back to sit down as he maneuvered you to sit on his lap. You didnât pull away from the kiss, allowing him to take totally control.
Your tongue tangled with his as he began suckling on it. You finally pulled away after a moment to finally breathe. As you took a couple of breaths, you gazed over at the villagers. They were so quiet.
It was hard to see in the dark, but you could tell something was wrong with everyoneâs eyes. Everyone was pawing at their face in silent panic. As if they were too scared to even make a peep.
Haiyuan glanced back at the villagers before gently grabbing your chin, making you look at him. âMhm. Ignore them. They canât see. We have to finish before sunrise, remember.â
You nod, wrapping your arms around his neck. Haiyuan smiled up at you as he pressed a soft kiss on your collarbone.
âIt always goes fast here,â he muttered, âanything time Iâm inside you, I canât hold back.â
âReallyâŚ?â You tried to hide the embarrassment in your voice, your body felt warm despite the cool night breeze.
âHm.â Haiyuan hummed, his fingers digging into your skin. âConnecting with you like this is the best feeling.â
You gasped, feeling his cock slowly push inside your cunt. Haiyuan kept a steady hold on you as he pulled you down slowly. The stretch wasnât what you imagined. It hurt more than you expected.
But it also felt amazing.
Once you were sat fully on his lap, you let a sigh of relief. âIs it all in?â
Haiyuan shook his head. âNo, just enough for me to cum inside.â He said, giving you slight smile.
You blinked. âWhat?! Just howââ
Haiyuan let out a grunt, quickly steadying your body when you tried to move. âCareful. I donât want to hurt you.â
âAh.â You smiled sheepishly and pressed yourself closer to him. Your chest rubbed against his, the blood mixing together. âItâs not just his blood on you, is it?â
âNo. Does that bother you?â He whispered, raising an eyebrow.
âAny blood bothers me.â
Haiyuan chuckled. He raised one hand that was drenched entirely in blood. His eyes stared right into yours as he pressed his fingers against your lips. You stared at him, letting him rub the blood over your lips.
You gulped, unable to stop yourself as you parted your lips just a bit. Haiyuan took that as an invitation as he slowly slipped in his index and middle finger between your lips. It didnât take any priding for you to began to suck on the fingers.
The blood coated your tongue as you suckled his fingers clean.
It tasted sweet.
The blood tasted really sweet.
As soon as he pulled out his fingers, you went straight for his other fingers. You hadnât even noticed that your hips began to move.
You began to slightly bounce on his cock, eagerly cleaning off the blood on the rest of his hand. Your tongue licked his palm before moving down to his arm.
Haiyuan finally pulled his hand away and wrapped it around your waist, pulling your body right against his. He began thrusting up into you, enjoying the shocked moan you let out. He grabbed your right hand and brought your hand to his lips.
Just as you did for him, he began cleaning off the blood from the palm of your hand. He moved downward and cleaned any that dripped down your arm. His teeth left marks all over your skin.
Your moans filled the room as your hole clamped tight around his cock, the familiar sensation coming back with a vengeance. Haiyuan moved to your chest before flipping you to rest on your back.
He folded your legs upward and thrusted deep inside your hole. You gasped in shock, your back arching against the ground. His entire cock was deep inside now. You felt stretched to the brim as he began to fuck you.
The pain from being folded was the last thing on your mind as you moaned freely, forgetting all about the people around you. The pleasure was all you could think about.
Being with Haiyuan in this moment was maddening and sent you completely over the edge.
Your toes curled as you reached down and rubbed at your clit like Haiyuan did before. It was just what you needed to cum. Your eyes rolled to the back of your head as your hole tightened.
You came with a cry, having never experienced something like this before. You began laughing, overstimulating taking over as Haiyuan didnât let up. He thrusted deep inside youâallowing each thrust to shake your body forward by the sheer amount of force.
â(Name).â He groaned, perhaps the first time he had ever said your name. You stared up at him and giggled. Haiyuanâs face was screwed up as he chased his own pleasure but he still managed to give you a slight smile.
It wasnât long before Haiyuan tightened his grip on your thighs as he cummed deep inside you. You grunted at the warmth. It felt oddly comforting.
You two stayed close like a tangle of body parts before Haiyuan slowly began pulling away. Tears began to well in your eyes as you waited for the next part.
This was it.
You almost wanted to ask Haiyuan if there was any other way.
At least you would reincarnate to be with him once more.
After a moment, you opened your eyes when you noticed Haiyuan wasnât saying anything. You shakily sat up to see him smiling at you.
âWhat?â You asked, a bit unnerved to see a bloody face smiling at you. It seemed after having the orgasm you could finally think a bit.
âI lied.â He said, laughing loudly.
âLied about what?â
âThe town is doomed.â He stood up, pulling you up with him. He engulfed you into a tight hug. âTheyâre all going to die with their souls trapped in the town.â
You blinked before pulling away a bit to look him in the eye. âWhatâŚ?â
âWhy would I willingly give them what they want?â He said. âI did complete a ritual, but it was one where they will die and simply be reborn to die in gruesome ways. Does that excite you, Shen (Name)? Itâs what you once wished for.â
His hand rubbed your cheek, a small smile on his lips. âI donât have to hurt you anymore. Weâre free.â
Your lips pulled into a grin as you engulfed him into a hug. The two of you hugged and kissed, ignoring the screams of the villagers as they began running away. Though they seemed to have trouble seeing. But you didnât care.
You were free⌠free to be with Xu Haiyuan.
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Haiyuan grabbed your hand as he led you back home. You two cleaned up, made love once more, before packing up and leaving the town once and for all.
Leaving the rest to suffer for eternity.
âXu Huang,â you whispered, tapping at the wall. A rustle was heard before he knocked back. You sighed in relief, glad the walls in the makeshift prison house were so thin.
âDid they feed you today?â
âNo,â Huang simply answered. You wished you could see his face.
âItâs okay, weâll see each other tomorrow.â
âWhen I see you, Iâll have to kill you.â
You chuckled. âDonât think about the bad. At least weâll get to feel each other before death.â
Huang was silent after that.
You hummed and moved to rest your back against the thin wall. âOne day, weâll break free from this town. Iâm sure youâll be able to figure out a way.â
âYouâre leaving all the work to me?â
âYouâre the only one who remembers.â
Huang sighed. âIâll figure it out⌠I promise.â
âI know. No matter what we have to do⌠We will be free. And when that happens, Iâll tell you I love you.â
âAi! Silence! Itâs midnight!â
You glared at the older man as he slammed at your door. You kept silence once he walked away. It was only a second later when Huang knocked against the wall to get your attention.
What he said then is fuzzy. You couldnât remember. The next night, in 1902, you and Huang died in each otherâs arms once again. Forced to repeat it in the next fifty years.
