One Way Or Another
Note: Back from my haitus again all thanks to daredevil born again season 2 who cheered. This for @milkysea-02 who encouraged me to finally post this. This has dark content so scroll if uncomfortable. Originally this was meant to be Dex General yandere hcs but I uh strayed too far. The writing is all over the place cause its been a while myb
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Your neighbor Tony was always friendly and helpful, but little did you know that he was one of New York's most wanted fugitive nor his most recent obsession aka you.
Tags: female reader, canon divergence, yandere, obsessive behavior, toxic relationship, power dynamics, co-dependancy, manipulation, stalking, voyuerism, brief smut, Dex is a warning himself
Before, Dex was thought to be dedicated, hardworking, and diligent, the kind of man who earned respect even when coming off as stiff and socially awkward. His life was carefully constructed, with a vigorous structure and order. The most interesting thing with Dex is that his yandere tendencies werenât something he developed, itâs already woven into his character; obsessive and a stalker by design.
Throughout his life, Dex has always attached himself to someone from Mercer to Julie to even Fisk. To become his north star, to become his moral compass. But after everything he went through, Dex has finally embraced the vicious nature he spent many years suppressing. Still, he pretends normalcy not for his own sake, he long gave up on that. To you, he is Tony, just your friendly neighbor.
He was the neighbor who paid the rent on time, who never received a noise complaint, never had guests coming over. His apartment squeaky clean, everything he owned carefully organized, routines followed like clockworks. Dex greeted those who passed him in the hallways, fed the cat that lingered near the stairs, helped carry the grocery bags for the older ladies. There was nothing for Dex to lose anymore, nothing for him to fight for other than that one good deed, until you came along.
You lived one floor above him. Dex couldnât quite pinpoint when he found himself watching you. Of course, he noticed you from the start; it was impossible not to. You came up and down those stairs frequently. Heâd pass you a polite smile, which you would return or just simply nod in acknowledgement. Such brief interactions that anyone would forget a mere minute after, but no, not Dex.
Even this version of Dex, who let himself free from the restraints, from the confinement he once accepted, the expectations laid upon him. He was still very much dependent on that structure, itâs not a thing he can just remove with a flick of his finger, itâs hardwired into his very being. And once again, Dex finds himself falling into those old, familiar habits.
Dex senses those same feelings creeping back whenever he watches you. The same feeling when he was watching Julie. But you couldnât be his north star. The north star was meant to be his moral compass, to guide him to do good, to give him a purpose. His older self pretended to be this functioning hardworking man, who was devoted to his legitimate work. Took his meds and attended psych evaluations. But now? Now he is a man that society - no you would deem as a criminal, a murderer, a monster even.
He will be the good neighbor just for you; a role he plays quite easily. But Dex knows it wonât be long before he reveals his true nature. And shall that moment arise, you will have no choice but to accept him the way he is. Dex has mapped out your routine. Even from inside his apartment, he can identify your footsteps whether you are ascending or descending the stairs either in a hurry or taking your time.
Sometimes you see him. In the evening as you climb up, clearly exhausted from a long shift or in the early mornings clutching a coffee in your hand, heading to work or for a walk. Dex conveniently notices how much you skip breakfast, rushing not to be late. How he thought of waking you up early himself to the smell of breakfast. Heâll prepare the eggs exactly how you like them, if you like your pancakes soft with syrup, or your waffles crispy. Dex would do it with no complaint, because taking care of you will be as natural to him as breathing the same air as you.Â
He can also tell when you are having a bad day. Sometimes youâd be wiping away your tears as you climb up the stairs, sniffing quietly. On occasion, he would comment, his poor attempt at cheering you up. âItâs hard, really hard working in customer service.â Youâd freeze for a second cause you don't ever recall ever telling what you did for work. But the human brain has a knack for dismissing such concerns, seeing it as a lucky guess.
Or when you are limping from an injury such as tripping and hurting your knee on some uneven pavement. Dex had to restrain from compromising himself and had to watch from a distance as you struggled to get on your feet, embarrassment clearly written on your face. Later when he sees you slightly limping toward your apartment, he offers advice. âMake sure to clean it well before applying antibiotic ointment and cover it with a bandage.â You mumble a thanks, appreciating his concern.Â
When you struggle with grocery bags, Dex offered to carry them for you. It feels like you couldnât refuse, that would be rude. You thanked him by opening the door just wide enough for him to place the bags on the floor. Dex is tempted to offer if you want him to organize them, put everything in its proper place. He has been inside your room many times, he knows it like the back of his hand. Instead he says it was no problem, watching as you close the door.Â
You also encounter Dex when you are carrying your laundry basket or checking your mailbox in the lobby. He has become a familiar face. And just like Julie, you too have cemented as a part of his everyday life. Intertwined with his very ability to function. He had once again attached himself to someone, but this was unlike anyone, not like Mercer, not like Fisk, not like Julie. This has consumed him whole.Â
Dex was certain on one thing; he couldn't afford to lose you. If he did, he would spiral even further than was believed to be possible. He needs you safe and happy. The irony, of course, is that Dex will be the very thing that corrupts you. His version of your happiness and safety comes with much sacrifice and control. Dex wants your full attention, your approval in a way. He needs constant reassurance, needs your presence at every moment. Dex cannot go days without seeing you, even if only from a distance.
Even before you got together, Dex was incredibly attentive. He remembered details that most people would never notice. The specific shoes you like wearing often, the lingering scent of your perfume, the way you take an extra large step at the end of the staircase, the way you hum when you are in a good mood. He listens intently with everything you tell him; the long exhausting shift you had, your complaints of the weather, the plans you had the next day.Â
Dex is ever devoted, but it comes with a fixated obsession that borders on almost being cannibalistic. Dex starts to not see you as a separate entity but a part of himself. Like puzzles, he will remove many pieces of his to make space for you to fit inside so perfectly that removing you would leave a gaping hole. Dex wants to be your provider, your lover, your soulmate. He is convinced that no one cares for you more than he did, no one shall look after you like he does, no one can protect you like he does. Not even your mother who carried you in her womb. Even if it comes at the cost of your happiness, even if it feels more like a cage â at least your cage is pretty, maintained and you don't even have to lift a finger. Dex will do all you want and need.Â
Dex can be careful, very careful. He is seen as an assassin, a mercenary; swift and silent. The old Dex would have been content to watch you from afar, to be so cautious about not alarming you; to leave no trace. But this Dex, oh he wants you to know he has been in your apartment. Not too obvious at first, he didnât want to frighten you too much.
He walks around and takes his sweet time while you are at work. Your schedule was a standard 9-5, which gave him all the hours he needed. There was no reason for you to come home early, no emergency, no sickness. Dex opens your closet, letting his hand run through your clothes, feeling the fabrics. He examines the skincare products and makeup scattered across your stand. âSuch a mess.â Dex thinks. Noting your clothes on the floor from you rushing to leave and the dishes on the sink. He will surely one day clean them up for you. Dex opens your refrigerator and kitchen cabinets. Lamenting the lack of proper ingredients, the many takeout containers, never mind the fact some of the food in your fridge are expired. Dex bought a cooking book a week ago, already planning the many meals shall you eat together.
Dex would purposefully make minor changes during those visits. Moving your chair slightly, reorganizing your cups in the cabinet, picking up your clothes from the floor. Youâd walk into your apartment and perhaps never notice these small changes and even if there was a hint of doubt, a simple excuse of it being youâd forgotten that you did them was enough to suffice. Over time, Dex made his presence more known. The loose cabinet you had been meaning to fix was suddenly secured with proper screws. Your window left open wind blowing in. Things started to move, appearing in places you know you didnât place there.Â
Youâve become a pit paranoid. Sometimes turning around suddenly, expecting to see someone there, but no one was there, just you. When you swore you heard noise outside, peeking out of your door into the hallway, seeing nothing but the vacant corridor staring back at you. And the more anxious you become, the more you encounter Tony.
At times you went up to the buildingâs rooftop just to clear your mind. And there he was, climbing all those stairs just to stand beside you. You would pass him a polite smile as you both stared at the view. Either the sun blinding in the late afternoon or the wind blowing against your face or the way the city that never slept looked at night with all its light on. Dex didnât say anything, heâd just lean against the edge, hands resting on the railing. Sometimes heâd glance at you when he thought you werenât paying attention.Â
Still, Tony was impossible to suspect. As said, he was nice and helpful. Unaware from an apartment across the way, Dex leaned with his binoculars, a clear view of you moving around your apartment. Eventually, it leads to him implementing surveillance. Oh donât worry he identified all the optimal spots to install those little cameras, which he can access anywhere and anytime. A technology he stole from the many AVTF agents.Â
Sometimes heâd be sitting at the table or lying in bed, watching you move through the day on his phone or laptop. Dex doesnât look away even when you undress. He takes it all in, the scars, the beauty marks. How nice it must feel to touch your breasts and of course nothing beats the view between your legs. You remain as clueless as ever and itâs all just further proof to Dex that he needs to keep you safe. Now imagine if it was someone else watching you this way. Itâs a blessing in disguise that it's him and not some creep.Â
Dex watches even when you masturbate, your soft moans barely audible, trying to stay quiet because of the thin walls. His eyes refuse to leave the screen, transfixed by the sight of your fingers working between your legs. How he wishes it was him instead. He would gladly be eager to please you, make you orgasm over and over. Dex would have to kiss you to muffle your moans. He imagined the wet sounds that would fill the room as he pumped his fingers in and out of you, picturing you so clearly gripping his arm desperately searching for something to hold onto. And Dex would even be more eager to push his face between your legs, longing for the taste of you.Â
Sometimes his hand reaches for his cock as he watches, moving up and down syncing with your movement on screen. But most often heâd stop himself, frustrated because it just doesnât feel the same. There is no real satisfaction there. He wants it to be your hands. Dex wants nothing more than to be inside you, to feel you squeeze so tightly around him.Â
As expected, Dex notices all those who interact with you. For someone like Dex, a healthy relationship is an impossible feat. You are a part of his core now, essential to his functioning. Dex belongs to you as much as you belong to him, in body, in soul, in every damn way that matters. Dex notices how you speak to that one elderly woman from the third floor, how you greet the delivery driver, how the man from three floors down would pause to speak with you in the hallway. The friend who comes over at the weekend which in particular bothers him the most.Â
There is an odd feeling in his chest to see you laugh so freely with others as you recall memories or told stories. He wants to be that person for you. Wanting you to tell him everything about yourself, every fear, every loss, every aspiration, every person who ever wronged you. Dex will tolerate your friends and family because he understands it is a line he cannot cross if he wanted you content at his side. Last thing he wants is for you to fight and lash out. That quickly gets tiring and it will cause your refusal to comply with his expectations. No Dex couldnât have that.Â
But any exes you had, any hookups, even a single date, none of it matters to Dex. They will be eliminated even the man who catcalled you on the other side of the street. Dex has no remorse even as they beg for their lives.Â
Dex plays the long game. He carefully thinks of every word, every step, every move. Sometimes things slip, a few inconsistencies, a crack there and there but they didnât rouse any suspicions. Naturally you felt more at ease with him, beginning to reveal pieces of yourself to him. Details he already knew but alas. And when you tell him you feel as if youâre being watched, he offers reassurance and implies it must be you watching too many horror movies.
Dex doesnât really care about things that donât directly concern you. Your friend is in the hospital? Dex only cares that it upsets you and offers fake sympathy in hopes it makes you talk to him more. He doesnât care when you recall fond memories with your family, only remembering what matters such as you loving your motherâs lasagna or how much you adore the beach.Â
Dex doesnât plan to meet your family, his only minimal concern is you simply caring for them. Though he thinks of the benefits. Getting to see your childhood photos, charming your mother enough so she recounts stories of your younger self even the embarrassing and awkward stags. He hopes he would find an old journal as he looks through your childhood bedroom.Â
But Dex is thinking too far ahead, for now he is still your friendly neighbour. You need something fixed? A missing ingredient for dinner? Calling him to pick you up? Needing comfort after a long draining shift? He is there. He is always there.Â
Dex restrains himself more than you could possibly know. There is an endless urge to touch you, to hold you close to him. Sometimes he indulges, fingers brushing against yours as you walk together or your shoulders touching when sat beside each other. But mostly he lets you initiate it, resting a hand on his shoulder to get his attention, leaning against him when you are tired. It wasnât long before you found yourself looking forward to seeing him, giving him those huge smiles that reached your eyes. Giggling awkwardly at his badly timed jokes (ones he overheard from other people).Â
He enjoyed bringing you to diners. Dex couldnât help the smile that creeps into his face when you burn your tongue on coffee and blow on it or when you let out a satisfied hum when the food is good. Eventually you had to give a label to whatever was developing between the two of you. It all started with Mrs. Smithers mistaking you for a couple, Dex didnât correct her., Leaving you to awkwardly explain you are not dating despite returning from a night out where you did indeed look like a couple to everyone. The idea played around in your head and it didnât sound too bad. Tony was handsome even with the scar on his face, if anything, it made him all the more attractive.Â
When the two of you finally become official, Tony seemed like the most attentive boyfriend youâd ever have. Your exes could never compare or mayhaps itâs just the honeymoon phase. You know that phase where couples canât seem to go a second without touching the other or without accompanying the other. But you remain unaware that with Dex, itâs not a phase. It will be all you will know. Till death do us part, the saying goes.Â
Your exes were cheaters, liars, assholes. But Dex? He made you feel like you were the most important person in the world, you have never felt safer, never felt more seen than with him. Tony would walk you to your door after dates, text you every morning, check on you during work hours, listen to your complaints with his solution being to leave it all behind and only be with him. Still, he gives you the illusion he cares about all your mundane problems. He brought you flowers, ones that happen to be your favorite.Â
Sure Dex has accidentally let out certain details that he should have never known. Like the old place you used to work at, the pet you had that passed away, somehow knowing your auntâs name. But for the sake of this semi-paradise, you ignored that gut feeling in your stomach. Telling yourself heâs merely observant, that he pays close attention because he cares for you.Â
When you finally found the courage to ask him to come inside one evening. Dex paused for a moment before agreeing. The two of you shared a look, understanding the unspoken intention of this invitation. Before you know it, his mouth was on yours, clothes shed and Dex having your back pressed against the mattress as he thrusts in you â you dig your fingers into his arms, trying to muffle your moans to not wake up your neighbours.Â
And you have learned quickly Dex is very giving in bed. The many times where his head is between our legs, tongue lapping at your folds. Dex ate you out like a starving man and youâd clutch his hair grinding yourself against his face. Dex didnât complain, if anything he seemed to relish it. You spent many nights at his place. Your legs would be too sore to walk back upstairs and Dex would offer to make you breakfast in the morning. How can you refuse? As you're seated at the table, watching him cook while wearing one of his shirts.
It wasnât long before Dex became the most consistent, inescapable presence in your life. You barely had time for friends or family or anything outside of him. Your mornings were spent in his bed after spending another night where he fucked you so good that your eyes rolled to the back of your head. Nearly every breakfast or dinner was him making what you liked or taking you to your favorite place to eat.Â
Youâd head to work leaving his apartment, leaving most of your clothes at his place, even your work uniforms. It was just easier this way instead of heading all the way up besides Dex would wash your clothes and lay them for you to wear the next day. It warmed your heart, telling him he shouldnât have. And youâd come back to him after long shifts and god forbid some rude customer made you cry. Dex will mentally note to deal with them later. It will all be good, you would never have to see them again.Â
Slowly, Dex suggests you leave your work or at least go part time. The work is clearly stressing you out, that canât be good for your health. He is just worried about you, canât you see that? Dex also plants the idea you should move in with him. At this point you are just paying rent on a place that is collecting dust. Dex insists he doesnât mind, it wonât be much of a difference from what you were already doing. Hesitantly, you agree even when your friends insist itâs all too sudden, too fast, too rash, in a relationship that would still be considered relatively new.Â
Moving in with Dex felt like a blessing at first. Youâd insist on paying half the rent, but Dex told you it wasnât needed. Just let him do what he does best, kay? Youâve learned to do things in a certain way; mugs placed in a certain cabinet, sorting your makeup and skincare products in a certain order, folding your clothes to their designated drawers. It didnât bother you much, it felt good to come to an apartment that was spotlessly clean. You did add some color and life to the place. It felt voided, sterile almost. Bringing in your favorite carpet, the plants you wanted to care for, your scented candles, the framed paintings. Dex didnât seem all that bothered. He built a shelf to put your books, nailed up the frames, and installed the curtains you were eyeing at the store.Â
Still, it wasnât all a perfect paradise. Dex would disappear for long hours. Youâd call and text him, sometimes getting little to no answer for a period of time. Heâd come home late with a faint smell of gunpowder, sweat, an almost copper like smell. Dex would head straight to the shower within a minute of stepping inside the place. Youâd ask him what he has been doing. Itâs just business, he excuses. You try to pry for specifics. Where did he work, what were his coworkers like, who is his boss, but you were left frustrated with his vague answers. Sometimes he brought in a generous amount, other days it would be a large sum, triple what you made in a month.Â
As said, your friends and family matter little to none to Dex. Every time you suggested visiting or making plans to meet up, Dex would always come up with an excuse. Sometimes he bluntly tells you, he hoped youâd spend the rest of the day with him. What about that favorite restaurant or that new park you said you were curious about? Or how about a night where he has you naked and all pretty for him in bed, doesnât that sound tempting? Your work took you away from him long enough.Â
Besides, you never know when he might receive a call and have to leave for however long the job requires. Dex tries to hide his annoyance even when you answer phone calls. How rude of them to interrupt you both as you pull away from him to stand up to focus on the conversation. And if your job calls you, asking for you to come in on your day off, you know the answer you must give is a no.Â
Even if you had doubts, even if there was this persistent uncomfortable feeling residing in the pit of your stomach, even when every sensible part of your brain screamed at you. Even when you stare at the mirror and can see yourself slowly changing, molding into a person you are not entirely sure you recognize. You push all of it to the side all for the sake of the love you have now.Â
Dex is fully aware you will never feel so strongly as he feels for you. You arenât like him. You werenât born with that endless void, the urge to commit such acts, you didnât have a vicious streak that was supressed many years. You were raised like most surrounded by family, with friends, with people who loved and cared for you. A whole life that existed long before him. And Dex wanted you. He wanted you to be yourself of course, after all there is a reason you are where you are now. He just wants to chuck bits and pieces, anything to make himself the absolute center of your world.Â
All that remains is for Dex to reveal who he truly was. He grimaces at the name Tony slipping from your lips, wanting to tell you to just call him Dex. You love him, you spend many hours waiting for him and doesnât he make you happy? After all, you eagerly take him, moaning his fake name so sweetly. What difference would it make for you to know what he had done, to know who he was, who he is now. He would still be your devoting and doting boyfriend. It wouldn't change how he felt about you.Â
He knows there will be a day when this disguise wonât last. Someone will recognize him, someone will discover his hiding spot. He will have to do his one final good deed and disappear before the traces lead back to him, before they lead to you. You have been brought to his inner world now, anyone will use you against him and he cannot, would not allow that to happen. You must go wherever he has to go. There is no choice in the matter. Your survival, your very life is all dependent on him. But for now, Dex will enjoy these blissful days.Â
Today was no different. Been convinced by Tony to call in sick to work, to spend the day together. He even promised to watch that awful reality show you seem to love. Your boyfriend headed to the shower as you informed him youâll head down to get the mail. When you returned to the apartment, you laid all of it on the kitchen table. Spam mail, useless advertisements and newsletters. Then something caught your eye. There you saw a face, one that was far too familiar.Â
It was Tony. Unless Tony has some twin he didnât tell you about, but no it was Tony. Except the paper didnât say his name. Instead the name âBenjamin Poindexterâ is read. As your eyes skim down further, your hands start to tremble. There it was, all the atrocities committed by the man who you once thought was your good friendly neighbour. Who you thought was your all attentive loving boyfriend. The man who you cried to, who you let hold you, who you let in your bed, who you let in your heart.Â
The crimes didn't seem to have an end. All the deaths he caused, the people he took from their family and friends. The article claims he is the most wanted man in the city and to not approach in any circumstances for he is dangerous. Yet that very danger is a few meters away from you. You were breathing too hard, your chest felt too tight. You sat there unable to process what you just saw, unable to reconcile that this man in the photo is your boyfriend. This didnât feel real as if you are watching and reading this from outside yourself.Â
You hear Dexâs voice from the bedroom, he has already finished his shower and gotten dressed. Panic seized as you acted quickly flipping the newspaper over to hide that damning front page. There was no time to dispose of it and had you - it would seem too suspicious. You just sat down where you were, forcing a smile on your face. Your mind screamed at you, to act normal, to not let him suspect you. Forcing yourself to listen to nod along. But Dex could tell something was wrong. He could always tell.Â
After all, he spent many hours just watching you, studying you, dissecting you. He could even boldly say he knew you more than you knew yourself. It was clear as day to him something was wrong, something happened. âFind anything important in the mail?â He asked casually. You utter a weak no, even you were painfully aware at the lack of your conviction.Â
And you don't resist when Tony, no, not Tony â reaches out and pulls the newspaper from underneath you. Your eyes refuse to look at him, staring at the wooden surface. Tears begin to spill down your cheeks, born out of fear of this man who could overpower you at any moment, who could stop you from taking another step. And born out of the pain and betrayal knowing he just had been lying and deceiving you this entire time. When you finally dared to look up at him, his eyes were still scanning the article. He scoffs, almost amused, "They said I killed seven agents here, but it was actually nine. The other two were in different locations.âÂ
You simply stare at him in disbelief, tears straining your cheeks. Tony, no you reminded yourself, Benjamin as they call him, seemed completely calm. As if you didnât just discover he was the most wanted man in the city, that he wasnât a criminal that you couldnât very well turn him in, destroy this life he constructed. âGuess it was always meant to happen hmm? He asks, turning his head slightly. Iâm glad itâs rather now than later. Saves me from having to sit you down-â he gestures vaguely at the chairs, âand tell you all about it myself.âÂ
This must be a dream. A sick dream. A desperate attempt to convince yourself. But you know you are very much awake, sitting in this chair, in the kitchen, in this very apartment that you both shared. The sunlight peeking through the curtains, the city alive with sound outside. And standing in front of you was him, the man you trusted, the man you loved, a man who is now but a stranger to you.Â










