greater than all we seek

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27

[daraeoh]

Today, I was supposed to get hooded by distinguished faculty as a way of signifying that I can finally flee and never look back at the nightmare that is grad school. But getting hooded by my parents at home during a global pandemic with some cheap tassle/hood that we bought last minute and a gown dug up from 2012 might be a better story to tell. #ITakeModelingInquiries #AndByThatIDontMeanStatisticalModeling #ButRather #IAmTheModel #Me #mgograd #rackhamgrad https://www.instagram.com/p/B_pesWOpwwhoa7MgGL5m9xs1tcj1sCrKrdQrhk0/?igshid=1vcixijwcrilw

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Some guy has been following me for the past four months idgi https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq6JQi4BUEumzRZdu2AoGwGOWVe2auxAxXX5RE0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=qzkjpljwhgqk

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on grad school debt

“Why am I dying [in school] and then going to be in so much debt? Should I just find a sugar daddy? I’m gonna do it. Gonna go on all the dating apps. Requirements: “looking fo money.” Filter out: “sugar daddy only.” I’ll let you know the options when I get them so you can help me choose.” 

- @jojiang 2018

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Words aren't enough to express how much I care for and appreciate...this extremely fast WiFi that I'm using to post this picture #RebeccaAndWiFiForever https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp-A2tgg8_SXZwFAb-lBB4RLLRTEtGUmOkzbOk0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=oz91vkf9ipuo

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3 grad students in 3 different programs across 3 different states struggling with the same basic skill of education: reading.

Send help. It’s only day 2.

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Today was day 1 of orientation at which my 12 seemingly genius program mates and I spent all day learning to code in SAS. I felt like all of my colleagues fell off the struggle bus that I kept riding (who knows, maybe everyone was actually crying internally). Days 2 and 3 will be dedicated to 14 different math lectures, which is a field I’m more confident in but still might shed a tear. Needless to say, orientation made me lowkey stressed/scared thinking about the impending school year.

I came home in the evening and stumbled upon an old reading about the life of Dietrich Bonhoeffer, a pastor who actively fought against the German Nazi regime, was arrested, tortured, and eventually hanged to his death. His last words to a fellow prisoner was, “This is the end; but for me it is the beginning of life,” as he clung onto his one and only living hope in the midst of his great suffering. This hope was the confidence in God which had power to produce changes in how Bonhoeffer lived. His actions reflected 1 Peter 1, which says, “[God] has caused us to be born again to a living hope [...] [and] in this you rejoice [although] you have been grieved by various trials.” In no way does a master’s program compare to the pangs and anguish that Bonhoeffer had fought against, but I’m encouraged to demonstrate the harboring of this living hope and truly believing that God’s got me even through the worst. #stillscaredHAHA

[daraeoh]

the goodest doggy

*I get out of the back seat of a car and go back in to grab my luggage*

@littleliight (springs out of the passenger seat and shoves me away to grab my luggage for me like a chivalrous gentleman): I’M A GOOD BOYFRIEND!

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Frankenmuth

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this is literally just for me

photoethnography

“loosely”

idioms. lots of idioms. idioms that don’t even work in context.

“I’ll pretend that I got stung by a bee”

6:5 pride boost

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weekend proceedings and notes

None of the families sitting around me at church were of the same nationality. This pattern scattered the entire auditorium from the main floor to the mezzanine and to the balcony where there was a section for ASL interpretation. Revelation 7:9. Amazing.

Went to a Chinese restaurant with parents and ordered three large dishes. We inhaled the noms and left the restaurant within 15 minutes of getting our food. Monstrous eating runs in the family.

Electrocuted a fly and left its carcass on the ground because handling bugs is nastay and scary

Found massive amounts of my old softball gear. Even the socks.

Caught up with a friend with whom I haven’t spoken in four years

Had a discussion about Korean suicides with my dad while consuming a platter of assorted sashimi and soju

Opened a yearbook from 2009. Yikes.

Rumination is bad.

Face masks

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Cancun Part 4 | “얼마큼 똥 넜어?”

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Cancun Part 3 | “I’ve been asking God to punt me really hard into the sky, and I guess He answered my prayers?”

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Cancun Part 2 | Chichen Itza & Cenote

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Cancun Part 1

Open bars were everywhere.

[daraeoh]

The first pic is our typical 'yes ma'am, I submit to you' pose. Now you're the one who will be submitting. Congrats ajumma! #engaged #soontobeforevertrapped #MayYourChildBeLikeMe #WishIWasThereInPersonToRubYourFaceWithMySweatyHands

[daraeoh]

the sheep and the shepherd

“[The goodness of the Shepherd] will lead you to where your soul can exhale, where you don’t find your identity in anything else but His presence. When you know the voice of your Shepherd, when He prompts, when He whispers, when He speaks, [...] you know that’s the right path. When you don’t know the Word -- when you don’t know His voice -- then it’s the loudest voice on media, your family, the lies of the enemy, your past, [that we follow and] we find ourselves veering off the right path.”

[daraeoh]

The past few days were a lot of neighborhood and home tourisms, Psalms, screaming about tolls, becoming potatoes, and fighting to get more attention from my parents than @jojiang. 😍