my fics | translation | AO3 | linktree the look on your face is somewhere between let’s start a revolution and i want to set this world ablaze — after further consideration they could possibly be the same; all i know is that if you ever looked at me that way, i would follow you anywhere.
Yaho, I’m emica! Longtime fandom enjoyer, currently in my 30s. I am bisexual and genderfluid; my pronouns are she/her.
I’m originally from the USA, but I’ve been living in Japan since 2009.
I’m fluent in English and Japanese. Since 2022 I’ve also been taking classes in Ancient Greek!
I’ve been active intermittently on this Tumblr account since 2014, originally for the Shingeki no Kyojin/Attack on Titan fandom. My fav is Erwin and my main ship is Eruri/Rivaeru.
Since 2022 I’ve gotten into Greek mythology, specifically Patrochilles and any & all Achilles- and/or Patroclus-related myths & retellings. I find them all to be fascinating (I’m particularly fond of the Iliad and The Song Of Achilles, among others) but currently it’s the Hades video game version of the characters that have captured my attention & imagination the most, so you’ll see them here (and other characters from Hades & Hades II) a lot. I also have a big fondness for Zagreus and PZA (Patzagchilles) as well as Zagchilles & Patzag.
I’ve done translation, event blogging, & merch activities for fandom; nowadays I’m mainly into writing, and also occasionally doujinshi/zine activities. My AO3 pseud, as well as my doujinshi circle name is ninnananna.
Other places you can find me:
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Pixiv
Website formerly known as the bird app
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Currently, my Asks are open!
This Tumblr blog as well as my other social media accounts are FUB free, though I’m always delighted to talk to people & make new friends ♡
I often reblog, create, & discuss suggestive/explicit sexual content across all platforms, so I kindly ask that 18+ adults only follow/interact.
Group/Anthology Zines & Doujinshi I’ve contributed to:
Vow (AOT Eruri, 2016)
DIRTY (AOT Bottom Erwin Anthology, as a member of ETFC, 2022)
Strip Down (AOT Bottom Erwin Anthology, as a member of ETFC, 2023)
Beach Episode (Hades, 2023)
Rewrite the Stars (AOT Mobuhan, 2024)
Doujinshi I’ve produced as ninnananna:
The Upper Hand/ライト・ハンド・マン (AOT Rivaeru, 2022)
Closest To My Heart/だれよりも心を許している男 (Hades PZA, 2025)
Here is a complete list of my posted fics as well as my WIPs & their statuses:
Works In-Progress 📝
Where The Dead Forget (Hades Patrochilles, M-E, Ongoing) [Current Status: Active*] Patroclus loses his memories of Achilles, & as they struggle with ghosts of their past while rekindling their bond, nothing is as it seems for either of them.
*Though the fic is still active, I’m currently behind-the-scenes working on completing the draft for the entire rest of the fic before resuming updates; aiming to resume in 2026 ⭐︎ Feel free to follow the dedicated tumblr tag for the latest news & updates ♡
Breaking the Rhythm (PZA, E, Ongoing) [Active] A spicy PWP in which a happily reunited Achilles & Patroclus have a gentle side as well as a dangerous one, and Zagreus is keen to rile up both :3c
Other Patrochilles fics 🌿🏹🏺
Upon A Lazy Bed (TSOA, M, 4.7k) After Achilles withdraws from the war, Patroclus struggles with his guilt as the nature of their relationship is scrutinized & blamed by the other, increasingly frustrated Myrmidon men.
Once More (Hades, G, 1k) Zagreus discovers that Achilles has written a newer, happier entry about Patroclus in his codex after their reunion.
Sea Of Love (Hades, G, 3k) Written for the Hades Lounge Beach Episode zine. As living children, Achilles & Patroclus summon Zagreus to the surface for a playdate at the beach.
See No ****, Hear No **** (Hades, E, 6.4k) Gift fic for the Hades Lounge Holiday Gift Exchange 2023. Dual POV PWP with sensory deprivation, bondage, voyeurism/exhibitionism, & help from a couple of anonymous exalted shades.
PZA fics 🍕
Flourishing Into Greatness (E, 6.7k) Fluffy PWP. Achilles teaches Zagreus exactly why Patroclus was the comrade he loved more than any other—like his head, his heart, himself.
Closest To My Heart (E, 14.4k) Achilles & Patroclus are soulmates who were divided in death. Zagreus wants to ease their heartache & help them find their way back to one another… unfortunately for him. Accompanying comic by RIPTIDE.
Liminal Spaces (E, 46.7k) Dedicated tumblr tag here. Modern AU Hades/Iliad mashup based on the film The Dreamers. Zagreus strikes up a transient yet intense relationship with Achilles & Patroclus amidst social and personal upheaval. A Patrochilles-centric side story, My Heart’s Your Future (E, 3.2k) features lots of contextual easter eggs & foreshadowing for the main story.
Daylight Express (E, 9.1k) 1920s AU. Zagreus flirts with two different men before boarding a train. He discovers not only do they know each other but they’re both going his way. Anonymous 3-way sex on a train ensues.
King of All the Dead (Zagchilles, E, 7.7k) In which Achilles, full of guilt and missing Patroclus terribly, has been tasked with being a tutor to a willful but extremely lonely Prince Zagreus… but Zagreus has another use for him in mind. Heavy angst and non-con elements.
Under the Influence (Patzag, E, 1.7k) Patroclus gets drunk and finds one very particular thing about Zagreus that reminds him of Achilles, and it is too alluring to resist…
Favored (PZA x Reader, E, 3.4k) Reader is a shade who dwells in Patroclus’ glade, and unexpectedly gets more than they bargained for while witnessing goings-on…
Other Hades ships🩸🌙
In Full Bloom (Persephonyx, E, 2.8k) MILF cuddling fic. After her homecoming to the underworld, Persephone considers motherhood while seeking comfort in the arms of Night—someone she had missed & who was with her all along.
What We Had Waited For (Megthanzag, E, 3.9k) Fluffy PWP written the Hades Lounge Holiday Gift Exchange 2024. Meg helps encourage Than & Zag through their first time together.
Last Gasp (Thanzag, E, 3k) A thank you gift fic for 3000 kudos. Angsty, early game Thanzag first time/goodbye sex.
The Boy Next Door (Waxwitch, E, 1.2k) Modern AU. Icarus brings home his girlfriend Melinoë and they spend the night together in his former childhood room.
Eruri/Rivaeru fics ☕️🫀
Stomach & Heart (G, 900 words) Written for the Vow zine. Erwin & Levi discuss Levi’s promotion to Captain over tea, and Levi considers their relationship up to that point. Japanese version here.
Pressed Flowers (T, 6.6k) Written for Erwin’s birthday 2021. Inspired by a fanart by simibraun. In the midst of making preparations for the Wall Maria Reclamation operation, Erwin commissions a portrait of himself & Levi.
Nonbiri-Ya (T, 2.2k) Modern/Sukiya AU. Living in modern Tokyo, Erwin & Levi meet up after work, go out for drinks together, and then confess their feelings for one another.
The Upper Hand (E, 9.2k) Canon-divergence AU PWP. The royal government arrests Levi after his shoot-out with Kenny & think to use him to humiliate Erwin into submission—completely underestimating how devoted (& freaky) both of them are. Japanese version here.
Harmony (G, 487 words) Written for the A Word Of Encouragement project. Erwin and Levi make it to the ocean, along with all of their comrades. Accompanying art by ackbang.
Strain (E, 10.2k) For Eruri Matchmaking 2022. Ackerbanging fic. Erwin takes aphrodisiacs to keep up with Levi’s super-human stamina, while Levi considers the true nature of their bond. Accompanying art by KitschAfterDark.
Ameliorator (E, 3.4k) A completed version of the first eruri fic I wrote in 2015. PWP based on the hospital scene from manga chapter 51, with shotgunning & hurt/comfort. Erwin, bedridden after losing his arm, asks Levi to help him heal.
LoveSick Arrows (E, 5.3k) A Hanahaki disease hurt/comfort fic in which Erwin is afflicted by a mysterious STI whose only effective treatment is sexual contact. Levi is all-too willing assist him—no matter the consequences.
Other AOT ships ⚔️🪽
Odd One Out (Mikeeruri, E, 4.9k) Erwin’s former right-hand man Mike has turned into a reluctant messenger between Erwin & Levi. It becomes even more unbearable for him as the pair’s professional & personal bond deepens.
Pray, Love, Remember (Mobuhan, G, 4k) Written for the Mobuhan zine, Rewrite the Stars. Moblit & Hange spend the day together in the capital while waiting to receive word about Titan research funding.
The stereotype of the nerd girl taking her glasses off and suddenly she's beautiful, but in reverse. A cold tough mean office lady who glares at everyone until she gets glasses and suddenly becomes sweet, approachable and friendly since she no longer has a constant headache over not being able to fucking see, doesn't need to squint at everything, and actually remembers individual people by name now that she can tell them apart at all.
*widely praised poetic quote in a foreword by a usamerican translator voice* see this language.... it's not like other languages. sometimes it has metaphors. or abstract thinking. sometimes a word has several meanings. sometimes a lot of meaning can be condensed into two words. sometimes those words even have etymologies. sometimes if you translate idioms or break down the components of words you can get something pretty cool in english. and naturally this gives us essential insight into the timeless national character of its people
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When I turned 17, we ordered a cake at the grocery store for my party, as we’d done many times before. If you wanted something written on the cake you’d write it into a section of the order form. We requested, very simply, “Happy Birthday Courtney”. When we went to pick it up the day of the party, this is what we got.
The bakery employees had absolutely no explanation for this. The order form, attached to the box, very clearly did not contain any of those extra names. Whomever had done the writing was no longer in, so there was no one to ask how this had happened. The fact that the name ‘Juan’ is misspelled bewilders me to this day. (I’ve never seen ‘Miley’ without the E, either, but it’s believable that someone might spell it that way.) Did this cake slip in from an alternate universe where I’m one quarter of a set of Hispanic quadruplets? Dyslexic Hispanic quadruplets, maybe?
This cake became the focal point of my party. At least two of my friends regularly called me ‘Courtney Mily Jaun Pablo’ for years to come. My siblings and I still reference it sometimes, eleven years later. It is probably the funniest thing ever to occur at any birthday celebration of my life, and may well remain so for the rest of my days.
one time me and some pals spotted one of those big cookie cakes in a store. it was done up with red icing and little X's for kisses and in the middle it said
No One Like You
now, it took us a while to realise it meant "(there is) no one like you". at first, we all parsed it as a botched "no one like(s) you"
for ages after when we'd wind each other up we'd declare "NO ONE LIKE YOU ☹️👎"
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“Achilles Mourning the Death of Patroclus” by Cy Twombly, 1962
This is one of my very favorite Achilles & Patroclus art pieces ever created, by Cy Twombly from 1962. I saw it for the first time in a book put out by the British Museum for a Troy-related exhibition they held in 2019-2020. Their blurb about the work described it as “two clouds […] forever linked together”.
There is also a guardian article that was reviewing a Cy Twombly retrospective exhibition, and here’s what the author had to say about it:
For Twombly, the story of Achilles and Patroclus is a sex tragedy. Homer takes it for granted these two warriors shared a bed – that’s just what Greek heroes did. Twombly makes their love a passion that blazes through eternity. In another 1962 work, Achilles Mourning the Death of Patroclus, two gory flowers of pain are connected by a slender umbilical cord of blood. Achilles cannot let go of Paroclus: their bond is mightier than death. The ghostly rose that was Patroclus is tied forever to the pulsing heart that is Achilles.
I mean, right? They look like connected blobs of weeping, bleeding flesh, like conjoined twins or soulmates. It’s just so visceral and painful in a way that affects me like few other Patrochilles works do (and I am deeply affected by most of them!) The simplicity of the work itself is incredible.
Here’s also a sketch version where you can see the handwriting more clearly:
Cy Twombly has a lot of pieces inspired by the classics and the Iliad in particular, here’s another one of my favorites (which was also in my Troy exhibit book), “Vengance of Achilles”:
Just one big bloodied, phallic spear-tip (I’ve also seen it interpreted as a letter A, for Achilles.)
“Achilles Mourning the Death of Patroclus” by Cy Twombly, 1962
Esta é uma das minhas obras favoritas de Aquiles e Pátroclo, de Cy Twombly, de 1962. Vi-a pela primeira vez num livro publicado pelo Museu Britânico para uma exposição sobre Troia que realizaram entre 2019 e 2020. A descrição da obra era "duas nuvens [...] para sempre ligadas". Há também um artigo no The Guardian que analisava uma exposição retrospectiva de Cy Twombly, e eis o que o autor disse sobre ela: Para Twombly, a história de Aquiles e Pátroclo é uma tragédia sexual. Homero parte do princípio de que estes dois guerreiros partilhavam a cama – era assim que os heróis gregos faziam. Twombly transforma o seu amor numa paixão que arde pela eternidade. Noutra obra de 1962, Aquiles Lamentando a Morte de Pátroclo, duas flores sangrentas de dor estão ligadas por um fino cordão umbilical de sangue. Aquiles não consegue separar-se de Pátroclo: o seu laço é mais forte do que a morte. A rosa fantasmagórica que era Pátroclo está ligada para sempre ao coração pulsante que é Aquiles. Quer dizer, né? Eles parecem manchas conectadas de carne chorosa e sangrenta, como gêmeos siameses ou almas gêmeas. É tão visceral e doloroso de uma forma que me afeta como poucas outras obras de Pátroclo e Aquiles conseguem (e eu sou profundamente afetado pela maioria delas!). A simplicidade da obra em si é incrível. Aqui está também uma versão em esboço onde você pode ver a caligrafia com mais clareza:
Cy Twombly tem muitas obras inspiradas nos clássicos e na Ilíada em particular; aqui está outra das minhas favoritas (que também estava no meu livro da exposição de Troia), "A Vingança de Aquiles":
Apenas uma grande ponta de lança fálica ensanguentada (também já vi interpretada como a letra A, de Aquiles).
Due to its surprising popularity on the many places it's been posted and reposted to, I decided to finally complete this little wlw sketch that I had kind of given up on. I'm hoping to have it riso printed soon !
getting fixated on something is funny because the first like week i have an insatiable need to tell everyone i know about it and spread the good word but by weeks 2 and 3 it becomes so intense and personal that even hearing it mentioned in public makes me sweat as if a dark secret was alluded to
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