DaxTheMan 🏳️‍⚧️

Trans man still in the process of coming out. ADHD, OCD, bipolar survivor

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[daxtheman]

Then and now. FTM 10 year difference

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Y’all know what’s one of the worst symptoms of my ADD that I don’t see discussed very often? My Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RDS). It’s a common symptom among people with ADD/ADHD. Basically meaning we handle rejection or perceived rejection harder than most people. The word “Dysphoria” means “hard to bear”, meaning it’s almost impossible to cope with rejection or criticism whether it’s real or just perceived.

Most people with RDS tend to avoid situations where they may be rejected or criticized and many also are people pleasers, bending over backwards for everyone so that they feel needed. I definitely fit in both of those categories.

I get extremely anxious when I see someone read a message I’ve sent but don’t get a response back, I panic almost immediately thinking “shit, they’re mad at me” or “oh God I must have said something wrong” even 99% of the time that isn’t the case. But because I perceived rejection, I get anxiety just over the thought of it. This is a big reason why I struggle with relationships, I tend to avoid them all together because the thought of not being loved or rejected hurts me more than being lonely.

Criticism is a big trigger for me as well, whether it be something small or menial to something more extreme like insults. It’s the reason I struggle with trying to achieve something higher, because the fear of failure and criticism is so extreme to me that I don’t try.

This is just a small tangent I went on because I honestly don’t see it discussed hardly at all. I’m feeling perceived rejection from someone right now and I don’t feel good at all. I’m shaking and I feel really heavy, it sucks. I know that they are probably busy but my mind doesn’t work like it should. I’d love to know if anybody else experiences these feelings too.

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Wait. What. This is scarily accurate

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ADHD culture is never feeling proficient or skilled enough in one single hobby/niche due to constant shifting of interests, but having enough random surface level knowledge to win an episode of Jeopardy.

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Edit: going to clarify that I made this meme to reflect MY personal experiences with being dismissed when I asked for help! these symptoms are also present in other conditions like depression or anxiety, and aren’t necessarily proof that you have adhd

please do your own research and seek professional help (if possible) if you believe you have adhd. don’t rely on posts online, since nobody has the exact same experiences and you won’t be getting the full, accurate picture

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So I’ve just started taking ADHD meds to help and even on a low dose right now things are a lot better. So I have something to say.

ALL THIS TIME TASKS WERE EASY FOR NEUROTYPICALS?! I’m sorry?! I spend all the time feeling INFERIOR and like absolute garbage because people could do tasks better than me and it turns out its because for them it’s EASY?!

WHAT THE FUCK?!

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My mental disorders greeting me as I wake up every morning.

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My obsessive thoughts trying to get past the ssri

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I found a good one. A truly amazing one. But, as she moves closer my chest tightens and the feeling of fear overcomes my entire being. I breathe deeply and tell myself it’s all okay. It’s okay to let go. I am safe. The fears eventually leave me and a feeling of peace replaces it.

Don’t get me wrong it can still be hard at times, but this is how I’ve learned to cope. Sometimes the breathing doesn’t even help at all, but patience and understanding within myself gets me a long way.

Slowly one by one I’m breaking these walls down, and I’m learning that no one can do it but me. I want to love again, and soon I will. After all, she deserves it more than anyone else ever has. I’m just waiting for my heart to realize it too.