Take a Bite

trauma blog - not a minor - he/him - system introject

[rottenbratty]

I deserve to bleed // Sushi Soucy

[deadddove]

All I ever wanted was to be worth caring about.

[deadddove]

I never understand what I've done wrong. When will I learn?

When will I stop trying?

[deadddove]

I'm incompetent.

Sure, I can write a really nice paper, and I can teach you anything you want to know with decent efficacy if I have a chance to prepare for it. But what does that matter?

What do I have to offer outside of what little benefit I can offer to society?

I'm SUPPOSED to be good at talking to people, and every time I try, I either clam up or I just absolutely destroy what I had. I don't know what's normal, I don't know how to talk to people...I can tell I've said something wrong because they just freeze up on me, and I can tell with relative certainty the reason they did that based on context, but never why. Never, ever, why.

Am I going to be a pariah for the rest of my life?

[deadddove]

I'll never learn my lesson.

[aiishiite-deactivated20220114]

do you want to kidnap me? take me away, far from the reach of people who could hurt me? make me solely dependent on you? i’d let you if you wanted to

[dying-weeds]

[deadddove]

Fuck you at least the vermin in my wall think I'm funny

[deadddove]

I'm not built to express myself.

[kornyo]

[ankhors]

[deadddove]

Yeah me too :/

[exhaustedborderline]

[exhaustedborderline]

[ijaazat]

[deadddove]

Bussy bower

[phleb0tomist]

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