Diary on Display

Hello, if you are reading this I'm sorry in advance.

[deadsky1999]

I’m just so tired…

[deadsky1999]

Is it okay to be sad with no reason? To feel down without cause? To desire to go home when you already are?

Because right now, I just want to go home.

[deadsky1999]

“What’s wrong?”

“Are you okay?”

“Is something going on?”

“Why aren’t you your happy cheery self?

……..

Sorry, I’m just tired.

[dr3amoon]

“you look sad today”

bro im sad everyday I just didn’t have the energy to hide it today

[deadsky1999]

You can act like I’m crazy if you want, but I know what I see and I know what I hear. She wants you and you have no problem letting her. I’m not jealous, I’m just not ignorant. Make it about me if you want, but this ship was going to burn whether or not I was on it.

[deadsky1999]

People used to think I cut myself for attention… No, I could care less if you see. It’s for me. So I feel on the outside the same that I do on the inside.



[deadsky1999]

You must think I’m stupid darling, all the little games you play.

You must think I’m foolish honey, not caring what you say.

But I see the way you look at her when you think that I’m not looking.

And I hear the way you talk about her when you think that I’m not listening

You look down at your phone and smile when you see her name pop up.

But all the while you say you love me, say she’s nothing, just a friend from work.

So I’m not stupid, or foolish, or blind, or deaf, oh no I read you loud and clear.

You can fool me once but that once is enough and I’m exiting the scene my dear.

So have fun with your little games and your intoxicating grin, cuz soon enough, 6 month for sure, they will all see who you are within.

[deadsky1999]

You are like a drug to me. Every time I get a little I want more.

If I quit cold turkey it hurts badly for a while but I get better. When you aren’t around I eventually go back to thinking like a normal human.

But man… when you come back around, you hit hard and fast and know exactly what buttons to press to make me fall each time.

You’d think I would have learned by now, but I never have been good at quitting.

[remanence-of-love]

[deadsky1999]

I will go weeks, months, sometimes years without feeling this way, but as soon as you come back into my life I can’t help but feel sad, alone, unloved, and unwanted. Because you are the one I want to be with. I can trick myself into believing otherwise, but the moment I hear your voice my resolve goes crumbling to the ground.

[remanence-of-love]

[deadsky1999]

#perpetually sad and alone

[deadsky1999]

Why do you keep doing this to me heart? He leaves and you get sad. He pulls you back in and you get happy. You fall for it every single time. You know you’re being used. So why? Why keep beating for a heart that will never beat back for you? Why give out your love for scraps in return?

[aidashakur]

[deadsky1999]

Have you ever had such an intense desire to be loved that it feels like it is eating you up inside? Someone who chooses you and would choose you again and again. Someone that makes you feel like you’re a dancing flame that the world can’t put out.

Yeah, me either. Couldn’t be me… 👀

[deadsky1999]

PSA: Do NOT stop taking your meds.

You’ll forget how badly you use to feel and think you’re cured but that is a lie.

[deadsky1999]

You never realize how much work your antidepressants are putting in until you stop taking them for a few days and remember how dark of a place your mind truly is.