I really do hate Dazai but this one scene in the 15 light novel during the fight with Randou kinda destroyed me
For a moment, Chuuya stared blankly at Dazai, as if he didn't understand what his partner was saying. "...are you serious?"
"There is a way. But it can't be done alone. You and I need to work together... Do you trust me?"
Chuuya stared directly at Dazai for a while. Then opened his mouth.
"Tell me why you changed your mind. Didn't you want to die?"
"Will 'I don't know why' not work?" Dazai smiled as if he was in trouble.
Dazai continued to smile and nodded. "Then I'll tell you."
Dazai looked at Randou, at the entire scene of the subspace, and at a distant city that couldn't be seen, and said.
"Just a little bit— I'm interested in the mafia's work." Dazai said. "In the surface world, the world of light, death is generally kept hidden from everyday life because it's unpleasant. But in the mafia's world, it's different. Death is just an extension and a part of everyday life. And I think that's probably right. Because 'dying' isn't the opposite of 'living', it's nothing more than a feature incorporated into 'living'. Breathe, eat, fall in love, die. You have to observe death up close to understand the whole picture of living."
Chuuya intently looked at Dazai's expression, as if he was searching for something human deep inside him. "In other words, you... want to live?"
"I didn't say that." Dazai smiled as if he had given up. "I might not find anything, but I thought I'd give it a try. Finish this job safely, join the mafia. Defeat him. Also—"
"I haven't fulfilled my promise to use you as my dog."
Chuuya looked at his face, then broke out into laughter. "You really are the worst. Don't let your plan fail and kill us both or I'll kill you, Dazai."
Dazai laughed as well. "Sounds good. Let's go, Chuuya."
Btw I if I'm not mistaken this was part of
Darkestjay.868 translation which you can find on Instagram
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