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inactive, too low energy to upkeep this blog

[hyungwon-remade-deactivated2019]

this is a “we fucking love ourselves and if we still don’t we will manage somehow because we are worthy of it and we will live a fucking happy life” zone

[celihime]

how do i feel like you feel

[celihime]

how do i feel like you feel

[hpd-hanschen]

anyone else really jealous of people who don’t have to fabricate a new personality every time they have a conversation with someone

[b4dc0de]

tszpdfw the anhedonia is kicking it up a notch and you realize the few things you enjoyed are being dissolved in the apathy and you’re not even sad or angry you’re just like Ready For A Bad Time

[b4dc0de]

yeah ofc i have feelings

they’re inaccessible i cant understand process or express them but sure buddy

[transhinsou-deactivated20181204]

do you ever feel yourself slowly losing your current hyperfixation but you’re not particularly interested in anything else rn so you have nothing to fill that void and ur just bored and ready for death

[shoggoth-the-bitch]

This is uncomfortably accurate

[duskyhuedladysatan]

i feel so called out rn

[gwschoolhiatus-deactivated20161]

saying “sorry im out of it today” as if im not like this all the time is my fav lie

[183times]

You ever feel as if you’re not fully awake?

It’s like I’m constantly absent mentally

[b4dc0de]

szpd protip #1: write things down

when your emotional permanence is for shit, keeping a record might serve as a helpful point of reference in the future. i can never remember how i feel about things, so written evidence is a good reminder.

i’ve been keeping a journal for about 3 years now (not super consistently, though) and at the very least it’s interesting to have a glimpse of who i used to be. if you, like me, want to be committed to self-improvement, i think it’s good to know your starting point.

and even if you never read what you write ever again, just putting something on paper is still a good exercise of assessing how you perceive things and how you feel about them.

[183times]

Me: I need some alone time

*submerges myself in solitude till death*

Me: nice

[tre-cool-swallovvs-deactivated2]

Am I Being Too Sensitive Or Are People Treating Me Like Shit: a debut novel by me

[potato-w-a-weird-haircut-deacti]

And the sequel; Am I Overreacting Or Am I Supposed to be Angry

[rottenhikigaya]

me: tells person about my szpd

person: “oh that sucks! but im an exception right?? haha”

me:

me: just to shut this dumb motherfucker up “oh yeah, of course”

[rottenhikigaya]

me: tells person about my szpd

person: “oh that sucks! but im an exception right?? haha”

me:

me: just to shut this dumb motherfucker up “oh yeah, of course”

[jadedjudith-deactivated20180922]

Me: *does something and doesnt get immediate validation for it*

My avpd: You should not have done that. You Should Not Have Done That. YoU sHoUlD nOt HaVe DoNe ThAt.

[schizodissociativereading]

From the Psychodynamic Diagnostic Manual

[actuallyschizoid]

An interesting view on schizoids. Mostly seems to be true, though a few statements sound way too unambiguous, especially the last one.

[grin-and-fox-it]

DAMN. That ENTIRE first couples of sentences. Well, the whole thing, actually.

[soup-erb]