blunt little instrument

nobody’s a virgin

[dean-interrupted]

— An Unknown Color

[dean-interrupted]

— An Unknown Color

[dean-interrupted]

You have not disappointed me so far.

supernatural 4.16 // the alchemy of wolves and sheep: a relational approach to internalized perpetration in complex trauma survivors, harvey l. schwartz

[wincestwhispers]

Your perfect innocent Sam is a pervert for his son btw

[deanwincesterinmascara]

@dean-interrupted wait I actually love this in regards to Sam’s OCD in that the constant am I like dad was dean hurting me was I hurting dean will I hurt dean jr will ultimately shape his relationship with his son

and then of course sam won’t get close to dj just in case and won’t hug him or comfort him which drives dj to crazy attention seeking behaviors :)

[dean-interrupted]

exactly. and if you put this in a universe where sam was at least somewhat aware of johndean as a child (because frankly it would have been hard to hide) and saw dean during/after he was raped, young and hurt, i feel like it would make the entire thing a lot more scary and real for him. dreaming about those very real memories but now he is his father and his son is in dean’s place. shifting between one and the other. and it’s not even completely irrational of him (not like when a straight person with OCD gets intrusive thoughts about getting involved with someone of the same gender, or when a parent with OCD worries about hurting a child they only want to protect) because as much as sam loves his son he is actively projecting dean’s memory onto dean jr. and he knows it. and he picked the name for a reason and he chose to have a child for a reason and dean is the reason for nearly everything he does now.

and he might not want dean jr but he doesn’t not want him either, right? he will never do anything to him because he loves him and he refuses to be like john, but the desire is not non-existent. something is there.

[wincestwhispers]

Your perfect innocent Sam is a pervert for his son btw

[wastemanjohn]

i sometimes like to think sam never Found Out about john, and dean quite literally took his secrets to his grave

[nymphalidaze]

Today on funny bad takes I have seen: young/teen Sam wouldn't consider topping Dean because of their age difference. Lol. Lmao, even. Say you've never interacted with a teenage boy without saying you've never interacted with a teenage boy. I assure you, (most) boys are very much all about what their dick can do, and if a teenage boy can want to fuck an adult woman (like a celebrity crush, say, Anna Nicole Smith) he can also want to fuck a boy a few years older than him. Even if that boy is at that time bigger than him.

[birdwinter]

[dean-interrupted]

An Unknown Color — read on ao3

Dean felt further away from his father than he had ever been, yet he was wrapped in the ghost of him, caught in the web of all the instants they had shared, every embrace, his father's hands around him, on him, in him, the weight of the past impossible to lift. Sam's hand was running through his hair, gentle.

"[…] with a certainty that he recognized and wasn't about to ignore, he knew that his father had hurt him. In a deep and unimaginable way, of which the bruises and cuts and the bump on his head were merely slight, superficial vestiges." — Our Share of Night, Mariana Enriquez

• recommended song

[dean-interrupted]

daddy’s little girl

supernatural: johndean // father-daughter incest, judith lewis herman

[prokrst]

My little sammy

[dean-interrupted]

In My Father’s Arms: a son’s story of sexual abuse, Walter A. De Milly III

[dean-interrupted]

— our share of night, mariana enriquez

part 1 - part 2 - part 3 - part 4

[dean-interrupted]

— our share of night, mariana enriquez

part 1 - part 2 - part 3 - part 4

[sasquatchandleatherjacket]

[dean-interrupted]

I love your writing so much. I reread An Unknown Color so many times already. So here I am with the questions for spn.

Are you a native English speaker?

When did you start writing a novel or fanfiction and how do you practice/improve your writing.

Do you plan the plot beforehand?

Do you think Lucifer will be less fucked up if Chuck loves him(aka being a good father) and actually feel sorry for all of his creations?

What do you think about Castiel's possibility of being Dean Love interested, what do you think of their dynamic? (I think they're cute.)

ps. I am Sam/Dean OTP fan.

thank you!

are you a native english speaker?

no, i’m french. when i first tried to write in english about five years ago it was terrible lol, but i think i’ve improved a lot!

when did you start writing a novel or fanfiction and how do you practice/improve your writing?

eh, that’s complicated. i first started writing fic when i was about 10-11, so 9 years ago, but i barely wrote and i didn’t finish anything. then i discovered literary role play in french at 12 and for years that’s how i truly learned how to write. and then i tried different projects (original fiction and fanfic) for the past five years or so, in english this time, but i always abandoned them. now i’m finally figuring out how to finish projects, and i’m trying to be more consistent because so far i’ve had a tendency to write a lot for a few days then give up on writing for many months.

i improve my writing by reading, mostly. especially since i don’t write in my first language, books are the best way to absorb vocabulary and syntax. and as of 2026 i have a few wonderful writer close friends who are not into supernatural but talking to them about our writing process, looking at their works, or asking for advice has helped a lot.

do you plan the plot beforehand?

i don’t outline, but i think about my general idea and i figure out what i want to do with the fic. usually i have the main scenes in mind but it can always change, for example an unknown color was supposed to be a lot shorter but as i wrote it made sense to add scenes and more details.

do you think lucifer would be less fucked up if chuck loved him and actually felt sorry for all of his creations?

probably, yeah. i’m not really interested in this sort of hypotheses because i feel like chuck being the way he is is the entire point, he’s God (modeled after christianity) and he is unfair, he’s not loving, it’s what makes it interesting. but yes, all the angels would be different if chuck were different. everything would be different.

what do you think about castiel’s possibility of being dean’s love interest? what do you think of their dynamic?

i’m not interested in castiel being dean’s sole love interest but i am interested in him being one of them. i think castiel is in love with dean. i’m interested in exploring different ways dean might feel about him—friendship, fear, love, sexual attraction—but it matters to me that sam remains the center of dean’s life and that castiel is aware of that, he knows no one will be as important as sam for dean. and he respects that, their bond is part of why he loves them, though exploring jealousy here can be fascinating. there are different dynamics of castiel/dean/sam that i find compelling, and there’s a lot of potential for angst there. i don’t plan on writing about castiel yet because i don’t think i would do it very well, but i enjoy thinking about all of this sometimes.

[dean-interrupted]

would love to see you write more johndean. the way you portrayed their relationship in your fic was so well done and i haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since. it’s so hard to find johndean fics that align with my view of them and your fic is perfect. but i will read anything you want to write!

thank you very much, that means a lot to me! i’ve had a hard time finding johndean fics that work for me as well (but i have a post with recs if you want), so i really wanted to write my own. i’ve been procrastinating on writing anything since i posted that fic, but i will go back to my projects soon and there should be some more johndean!