Let me explain to you how someone saved my life unknowingly .
I was in a relationship for 2 ½ years , we had a child . I was treated like absolute shit . Miserable, didn’t know my worth because I was worth nothing to him. A year ago everything changed .
Oct. 2015 is when my eating disorder started .
It started with going to the gym and just trying to watch what I ate , then the calorie constriction . Got to the point to where I would go a few days on nothing but tea and a couple bites of food. Never made myself throw up or anything. All I did was run and smoke cigarettes to curve my appetite.
I went from 157 lbs to 93 lbs ( black and white picture , my lowest July 2016 ) in 8 months. My legs didn’t touch, I had nothing but bones and veins coming out from my body. My eyes had sunken bags under them, my neck was gross . My arms were gross. I went from c cup to not fitting an a cup in juniors . Mind you, I’m 5'5 and 125 is considered ideal weight . All I did was sleep and always in a bad mood, I stopped having periods and my hair was falling out …
August 2016 ; at this point I had moved up to Kansas City to live with my mom leaving my kids father . I got a job at super 8 and it was an excuse to be to busy to not eat since my mom kindle had the idea I wasn’t eating . I gained a bit of weight though from developing a drinking problem . I was 98 lbs when I got to Kansas City .
October 2016 ; 109 lbs and drinking clear liquor to curb my appetite and an immense pothead. Let me explain how my life changed for the best this month….
There had been this guy who checked into the hotel in September , fast forward to October after him staying there for that long , us occasionally having small talk. I was attracted to him yes , had a nice smile and seemed to keep to himself unlike some guys . Well anyways back to October right before Halloween , we talked one night and he tried getting my number and I turned him down but gave in a few minutes later. He wanted to go out the next night . Well some shit happened that night ( my sister getting abducted) so I blew him off technically . Next night I did go , and let me tell you I had a lot of fun and haven’t felt that good in a while . We drank , bowled, laser tag, ate , went to the airport to wait for planes , then drove around the city.
Cut to the bullshit, it’s now December and we’ve been together for about a month and let me tell you I’ve never had so much fun in my life . He made me feel good about myself, happiness , confidence…. I feel my worth.
And here I am today ( colored picture ) at 125 lbs of nothing but love and happiness.
It takes the right person to effortlessly make sure you feel content.
I now know what it’s like to feel my worth .
And sometimes you don’t realize how low you were until you feel a hint of normality.
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