dear mikey chapman...
For the past few months, I’ve kept quiet about this. I’ve not said a word publicly about what I’ve been through and what you’ve put me through, but I can’t keep quiet. In an attempt to keep this dignified on my behalf, I’m posting this anonymously as, this is simply to show the world the truth about you, I don’t want anyone to know that this has come from me - but you will, and I’m sure you’ve been waiting for this to happen. You know how I said, ‘your good guy act won’t stick…’ this is when the mask slips.
You do not deserve to walk around carefree whilst I am struggling on a daily basis to come to terms with what you have done to me and what I am going to have to live with for the rest of my life.
Now, this isn’t some ‘hook up’ that went sour. Instead, this is coming from a girl who was never a crazed fan, nor obsessed with him in any way… This is coming from someone who is hurting bad; someone who has sank so low into daily anxiety attacks and depression that this is the last straw.
You have destroyed me to a stage that you will never understand.
This is not to personally attack you, Mikey. This is not to go out of my way to hurt you. This is to educate your fans on the person that they spend so much time looking up to. When I see people tweeting about you, or posting photos of you online, saying how wonderful you are and how much of a ‘good guy’ you are, it honestly makes my heart sink into my stomach. You don’t deserve that. You shouldn’t be admired… Certainly not by young girls.
Any man that manipulates a girl into getting an abortion, and then not be supportive when it comes down to it, is an asshole. It’s that simple. You were not there when you promised you would be. You’ve left me alone to deal with it, and you know that I did that for you. I could’ve coped without you in the long run. I could’ve done this on my own, but you wanted me to do this. And now where are you?! No where to be seen… No where. You promised me that you’d be there for me. And you’re not.
You promised me that you would be present and supportive during the abortion, in fact, you deliberately asked me to wait until you could be there.. But instead, you chose to go on holiday with your ex girlfriend and left me alone to deal with things myself. I had to go through that on my own and you will never know how much that killed me... To do something that I never wanted to do in the first place. You convinced me it was the only way and, feeling lost in this, I went ahead and did it.
To be honest, after the message you sent me about the sort of relationship that you would want with the child, I realised that you certainly are not fit to be a father, if you honestly think that is the sort of environment for a child to grow up in. You manipulated me and left me with no other choice.
I trusted you, Mikey. I really did.