Pray Until Something Happen
lately I let it all go, I surrender all my burden to God
I just can’t hold it all in my head. though I know I have a big head :p but I just can’t
I ask Him to give me the light
to open the door so I might see the light, because this room was so so dark
then this morning it’s not the alarm that wake me up, but it’s the unknown number that ask me to come overthere
he said “he is here now. you don’t have much time. come here, right now!”
which...whatttt? I just woke up!
but my body respond contrary to my brain
it ran downstairs to have a shower and get ready
and on that time I feel like a super-multi-tasking-lady
I’m printing, powdering (have no time for shampoo :p) and styling my hair, touch up, making a letter, have breakfast, and order ojek at the same time. how cool was that wkwk
afterwards I arrived on that place, do not care to those eyes gazed upon me who runs with messy hair
at the 2nd floor with the heart that could not speed down its beat
I fill the guest form, but I keep making a mistake in writting the date, day, etc. until around 5 times I think
till that unknown number guys yelling and laughing at me “easy Deborah! you still have time. he still on the meeting”
but I’m just be like, sorry but I cannot be calm.
then I finally sat in the waiting room
rolled eyes, staring to each one on the room.
God.......they’re foremost people, I might not be a priority or I even have no time to talk to him.
but I just ignore that thought
thinking that God wouldnt be just “iseng” waking me up trough that unkown number
God must be have something to tell, whether its good or bad news for me
I just prepared my heart to get ready for whatever it is
............I tried to scrolldown my insta feeds, reading the news, playing game. just find something fun to calm my mind. but none of them work.
then I just keep komat kamit and singing Jabez prayer dalam hati
one by one the other guest take turns to meet him in his room
I’m so worry to have no turns, and that’s true!
when he was about to go to his car
the unknown number guys call me and whispered “go to the parking park, meet him there”
have no time to okay-ing them, I just ran directly to the parking park
and yes! precisely I met him at the stairs
I don’t care to those around him, I just tell him my secret mission and he agree to support me!!!
and after that my mom called me with a good news
also the woman from XXX confirmed to say yes
Holy God Almighty Lord! How great You are!
I ask for one clue, He gave me more
I ask for one open door to see the light
He gave me some open doors instead.
Your love never fail me, Lord♥
actually I plan to sleep at 1 but after devotion I saw my green book at the corner of my bed
I read my handwritting at the last pages
those are about; Wordless Groans, Lead by The Spirit, Wait Patiently, Jabez Prayer, Faith of Abe, and Trust The Lord
reading those titles the tears just stream down my face
I was so emotional, what an incredible compassion
when it doesn’t make sense, when people think how crazy I am to keep striving, when the others think its impossible
there is One person that keep strengthen this weak soul
who keep speak through my heart “don’t give up”
His way is always ada-ada saja :)
thank you Lord, thank you Lord, I love youuuuu!