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2016 - I know I know
it’s been 2 weeks since the fireworks make a fuss in all over the world
but still I want to write how amazing 2016 have been, because why not
I really felt the whole game of ferris wheel (the excitement to start, how does it feel in the low and high position, the anxiety, the sadness, everything. literally everything)
at the beginning it was a very tough time for me
everything messed up
the dissent between me and my friends that ruin our friendship, my daddy was hospitalized for his pancreatitis, the preasure about my study, been in the long distance relationship (a-aw) till we decided to stop
well, the hard thing is not to deal with our distant and time, but our faith
you know what I mean, eh? we’re not a Cathedral and Istiqlal that could always stand together. it’s the longest relationship evah. aham OK skip.
so yaaa but thank God I still have some friends to hangout with
yes, just hangout and spent a time for happy thingy. since I am not an open person about my privato problemo. I used to think I am my own hero #superwomen
till the next month I have to done my school duty, it was to live 2 months in the village
with no proper signal, no proper pathway, no proper electricity, no gadget (well I allowed, but it have no function there) andddd with everything that so different with the city life
at the first I really can’t deal with it. I kept complaining about the weather, the dirty things, the food, the house, I was really unthankful
till the days and the weeks passed
I realized how bad I was. to be disrespectful, not so thankful
the chance to live in that situation taught me about life. how I gain a new perspective about life.
then I have be back to reality
I fall again.
until God really grab my hand
the time when I really felt, He doesn’t let me walk too far from Him
since the moment that I felt the divine sorrow
I have no doubt to step away from my bad life
but fellas, repentance is not an insurance to get the happy life
wheels keep spinning
in the mid-year I was so frustated about my study and can’t stop blamed myself for what happened
but again when I fall, I fall, but my Dad up there never let my face hit the ground
He send me some people who help me to raise
the self-blame, the worries, the unfaithful heart, that were the intimidation from the devil that don’t like me ‘to be back’
also in 2016 I accept Jesus by my own decision
not because I came from Christian family, or the religious thing that obligate me to declare it
what a beautiful feeling to fall in love more each day with that Person
thank you Lord for 2016, the incredible year ever so far
for the double happy vacation I have
for the uncountable go-home ehee (which I usually find it hard to have a time for my family)
for the new mini family in my not-so-little-family
for Your promise that I keep in faith
for the new challenge You gave me for this 2017 :’) oh God strengthen me
for the responsibilty You put on me
for every people who stand by me, who pray for me, who gave me some lessons
JESUS❤❤❤❤❤
thank you for the heart that you made with a new perspective
the heart that always be sure and believe You have prepare everything that is good for me
Father, thank you❤
PS. I’m writing this with no negative purpose (whatever it is)
PPS. hope this could bless you
PPPS. thank you for spent a time for this “pubby curry” haha. cyber hugs!
