I love hearing how ppl my age get drinks. Its a whole ass story and method. I went to a function and would drink haft a Pepsi and pour 3 shots in it. Then id put it in my car loll
For once I finally have the power in the relationship with my bf. Im just emotionally done. He can tell. Usually im the needy one and hes distant.
I feel so much satisfaction just letting go while watching him feel and do exactly what he put them through. Watching me as I never compliment him, ask to call, call for long, everything I did before. Now for once hes giving me all the affection I wanted but its too late. It should take 4 months of communication and cycles of pain for him to change.
Im not breaking up yet. Feeling finally in power for once is so liberating. He has no power over my feelings.
Yes.. another rant about my bf every time its ok something goes wrong.
I stumbled across roblox condo games, most of them were so stupid and hilarious. I was showing him and we were making fun of it but he was mostly busy with hw during the call (I found a gacha condo game lol)
I found one where you sword fight and when you kill someone there is a CRAZY animation of s*x. My bf joined to see for himself as I noticed sharing my screen made me get banned off the games. It was so crazy ill insert a video.
I didnt realize they could force you to do that. The moment I joined I added 18 years old female, and after spawning in i had a ton of guys after me killing eachother. So my bf was unable to pick me up. I later found out I can just ignore answering so nobody can do anything to me.
It was upsetting because it triggered my cptsd, then my bf couldnt help.. it happened so fast lol I didn't realize you could force that
Bc of it I was quiet and distant, my bf kept asking why and every time I told him that the condo games we saw was messing with me.
Later he said it was just a game, that most people don't struggle as much as me. Even before I found those crazy condo games it felt like he was degrading me. Ik he means we'll but the stuff he said hit me where it hurts.
I use to always tell myself to not tell anyone my issues bc others have it worse and im lucky. That destroyed me. When I was complaining about hating having to eat he said the same thing and so on that entire call and after the condo games where we both played eating sushi game.
Im autistic and told him I was my favorite show 3 times now. He said that was femcel behavior. I told him its my autism, that show is comforting. He said thats an excuse. May e he was joking like rage bait and sarcasm I cant see.
All his remarks hurt. Im still really upset at him.
I told him he doesnt seem to understand. And i dont wanna sound manipulative by going "do you have any idea how everyday I just wanna end it. But I dont, im in so much pain im trying so hard".
I feel cheated on, idk. I didnt know it would be this way. I just feel so sick. I know hes probably talking to other people. I told him it would be ok to please him. He's barely spoken to me, I can see his snap saying "just now" constantly when it wasnt ever like that before. He only ever texts me in snap. Im not exciting anymore, I feel so so replaceable.
I dont know how to tell him I cannot handle this.
Ive been so depressed and suidal just bc its another episode. But I cant lie that what has been happening between me and my bf wasnt a cause.
i feel worse in our relationship than I ever have been. I put every picture of him in a secure folder, changed my phone screen, etc.
I have no friends to talk to. It feels so lonely, my only friend is my bf but my brain is so done. I just feel emptiness and pain towards him. Its a cycle of loving him deeply, something happening, then going the opposite.
So he will do something I adore,
I will shower him with my love then be barely reacts,
He does things that triggers me, I start going numb snd think about breaking up,
Bc im not acting normal he then treats me how I want to be, like baby's me. Attentive.
Like today after.. the thing ill tell you he keeps trying to talk to me, sending selfie which he doesnt often, asking to call, even a video..
This time what triggered my numbness is this: it is odd out of context.
"Oh yeah the other question I had was if you thought I should use an app to find guys/femboys or not "
Then he said
"Like a dating app"
We're long distance im unsure about being poly, I dont want to date anyone else. But when he said that it really upset me. And ive just been so numb.
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