elijahkeohane:
An apology. The great Declan fucking Montgomery, grade a fuckboy and asshat alike, apologizing to Eli. Mentally, he laughed, because an ‘I’m sorry’ from Dec was like Haley’s Comet - you see it once in your life and if you miss it, oh well. With a sharp inhale, Eli dropped the things in his hand and turned to face the other, looking tired and pissed off all in one. “Listen, Dec. You’re right, you’ve been a really shitty friend. And not just about the hospital. I’ve been avoiding you for nearly a month and you noticed, I know you did, and said nothing. No, it wasn’t because I’m fucking jealous of you and Ikea, or whatever you had, like you thought. He’s not innocent, either, no, but at least he came to fucking see me. And he made sure I was okay. Every member came to my room, and my best goddamn friend didn’t. Even Al. Al came and I was stuck wondering where the hell you were. You didn’t even text me, for fuck’s sake!” He sighed, shaking his head. “And to hear the things you’ve said about me. About how I was weak to overdose. Clearly, you just don’t fucking get what happened to me.” The blonde paused. “But you know what? Apology accepted. I’m trying to turn over a new leaf. I don’t want any grudges. Thanks for all your help.” It was a half sincere thank you, seeing as Declan was the only reason Eli was even in Welton again, but he would be lying if he said he wasn’t still seething underneath his skin.
Dec dropped his head and tongued his gums as Eli pretty much scolded him for not being there. He was right, he should have been there and he was selfish to not have been. He listened, allowing Eli to rant at him, knowing he probably deserved it and he frowned as Eli wound it up by accepting the apology, though it sounded kind of sarcastic. Dec swallowed, looking up at his roommate. "...Shit like this, doesn't happen to people like us." He replied slowly, his voice a little choked. "...so..the fact it happened to you? ....I- ....I didn't know what I'd say to you if I did see you, and honestly I stopped myself from seeing you cause I knew I'd fuck it up. Now we're all fucking sober like fucking nuns, I didn't want us to get to this point, man. Nothing feels the same, it's fucked. I wanted to see you okay? But I couldn't and...and I figured when Matti told me you were alright that...I'd see you back here soon anyway. It was shit, okay? I get that, but how about you fucking explain why you were avoiding me in the first place, huh??? That's what I don't get."













