DCFS

Destroyers of a Child and his Family's Story

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If you remember sometime ago I posted about getting a great job but just as fast as I got it I lost it TWICE due to pretentous METROPOLITAN FAMILY SERVICES BS I didn’t want to say anything and hope that I would get my job back and I didn’t want to cause any friction w/ them for my friend who got me the job, it was her program and then I was offered the SAME job again by another agency i already work for and cleared the SAME background check and still got refused. my frustration level is to the roof with METROPOLITAN FAMILY SERVICES they cost me a great financial gain that would have helped me out of my homelessness when it started UNDOUBTEDLY!

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Once i became homeless the financial arrangement with Breeze the rideshare car lease company that leased me the Prius became a true albatross. It was only supposed to be short term. If i could get rid of that $1000+/month bill i could really save some money but i needed it to sleep in at one point. it had a convenient trunk space and comfortable seats they just about laid straight but there was no way to replace that income which was decent if i could lighten my overhead. If somebody, by somebody i mean a dealership, would trust me with the same deal i could've bought the car that's why i was so pissed that Breeze wouldn't offer us a chance to buy the car when the business failed. In the 1yr and 1m i had it I'm sure i had it a 3rd paid off.

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Just a reminder for those just joining my story… which is mostly about the shelter these days but how and why I’m in the shelter is just as important as putting this raggedy shelter on blast m Dysfunctional DCFS was sicced on me by my megalomaniac roommate

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So part two of yesterday's breakfast Babble so that you can know why I am the one that has to end up buying groceries so people could have dinner and then as a bonus have some FRESH milk for cereal in the morning. this shelter does not try to feed you properly even when you ask the director is driving around in a shiny BMW but can't find $5 so i can go to the store and complete the dinner that she planned.

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So normally I would be upset if they told me there was cereal for breakfast one because its always stale, probably not my type of cereal and three they usually serve it with frozen milk with a big block of Ice in the middle whatever melts first floating around on the edge but since I had to buy milk last night so we can make cornbread for dinner I was able to have me a nice bowl of Raisin Bran with the banana this morning the simple things that you really learn to appreciate living in the shelter life.

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Trying to wrap up the loose ends from the last video but only hit as far as my roommates sagas. One is upset at me for what I’m not sure not being her friend? Mad I suppose of my new homies which is confusing because she is the one that said “He said it’s either him or you” “E'a I can’t be your friend anymore”…remember that happened after i tried to defend her from her abusive boyfriend….the other is an alcoholic who is as funny as she is annoying when she gets drunk but it’s her and her son’s lack of hygiene that wakes me up out my sleep as well as her drunk shenanigans…

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I have no words just watch the video this shelter is a SCAM POINT BLANK the founder is a reformed heroin crack addict turned pastor wrote a book and tried to sell it to us is riding around in a shiny brand new BMW and we can’t even get fresh fruits and vegetables or protection from sexual predators…..

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I did a drum circle with the children in the shelter over the winter break and I had three large Djembes and a mini Djembe I wasn't worried about the large drums they would be too hard to walk out the building but I left the mini Djembe out just as a test of character to see if even a good person someone who has helped you would be mistreated when I left the drum out and disappeared for days...

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Hey sorry for the looong video just trying to catch you up on all the days of my shelter life I’ve missed a couple because I have stowed away in my friend’s basement as a staycation to get away from the “Sheltered Asylum” and grab some mental peace and Clarity before my son comes back and I’m back to adulting full time I did get a lot of things sorted out you won’t find out about that here but I’m just saying… but I needed to get the voices out of my head for a while I was starting to feel a little crazy a lil manic but I came back to losing a friend do to her drunkenness undoubtedly the reason she’s homeless in the first place and then my other single serving friend/ roomate who I lost to domestic disputes which is one reason I needed a break from that place…

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Drumming helps keep me sane brings me joy and moves my stress and depression there's a lot of that around these parts. No place for a quiet/ private moment, no community room or space to spread out for the kids and the parents. School is out and there is no programming in place for the kids so it's a mad house. I called on the community to lend a hand. Not to my surprise and consistent, the response was minuscule comparatively to the amount of likes to my fb status asking for TALENT donations. But 3 (my fav # & divine) rose to the occasion. SOOOO thankful for the drums LOANED to me when they should have been rented and glad the shelter gave me permission...

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Got caught on my way to work this morning 4 a ride to Walmart thought I would take the opportunity to try and catch up a little bit on this blog you don't really have any private space to do this inside the shelter.

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I passed on breakfast this morning even tho Ms S. is the best cook in here she really tries to MacGyver the food and ingredients around here so we can get decent food. She was also kind enough to bring us coffee n hot chocolate and strawberry jelly that disappeared, like many donations that come in the door and never make it to us😤, and was replaced by more nauseating grape. Anyway her gift for making brown n serve sausage not so horrible i still can't eat it it's still super fake meat. Honestly the prison food combinations around here are making me thick in the thighs. 😔My roommate noticed and called me out 😟... oatmeal and toast, sausage rice and toast ... grits sausage & toast... plus all the eating out to supplement the generally horrible meals I have put on weight and lost muscle mass...imma get it together...

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You're not really supposed to bring in outside food they don't have any place for you to store it in the first place and so you have to get creative with your contraband unfortunately my refrigerator plan that I remember from college didn't work for the Chicago weather. It froze my milk for my tea this morning but the water will work out perfectly and be thawed in time for dance class...

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So they say they provide 3 meals a day and they do. But depending on who’s working depends on if you’ll eat anyway. Either because food ran out, some RA’s will cook more food if that happens others be like ’ oh well you shoulda got down here, or it’s just plain disgusting, like the bottom right picture. One of the ladies called it Alpo 😂 it’s supposed to be dirty rice. The grease wasn’t drained from the super cheap meat and rice waaay over cooked and no seasoning to be found. THANK God for sriracha it fixes all bland food. I don’t drink cows milk in the first place but they will freeze milk and sometimes it’s out of date when thawed what happens then🤔 and never in time to be completely thawed. So what thaws first the water in the milk or the cream?? What is the block of ice still floating in the middle of the gallon made of…..

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During this most humbling transition in life you can't help but to be thankful for every day that feels like normal life. As i reflect back this Monday morning about the long holiday weekend I give thanks to my friend who opens her house to my son and I to get our air B&B on she even thought ahead about our next visit and bought my son some chocolate chip pancake mix that I prepared for him with cheesy eggs and orange slices on this last day of luxury before we head back to the shelter where I can't cook breakfast or anything and usually have to buy something because they ran out before I got some or it's just plain GROSS like this morning...unthawed with ice crystals past date milk (which even if it was perfect I still wouldn't eat... don't do cow mucous😝) and cereal...

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I have to admit it was a pleasant surprise when I got home and saw this little care package sitting on the bed. now i arranged it so you could see it it came in Ziploc bags. the washcloth was right on time all mine were dirty...my son ALWAYS need socks...was out of toothpaste... who doesn't love church mints...i will skim through the book might be something in there I don't know😆 but the potted meat weeeell I'll be redonating that and the soap cuz of my too sensitive skin but I googled the Dermasil. I can never have enough emollients for this eczema sounds like i should give it a try especially since its at the dollar store. They got it right with the SPRING WATER I hate purified water & I'm not a fan of hand sanitizer but I do like the wipes...

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I was going through my storage looking for somethings and ran into these bags of Essentials that I had packed for a homeless initiative that I was a part of how crazily ironic and I actually needed to make use of some of the stuff that was in them…crazy and shared the rest with the shelter I’m in…