Mind

My little thoughts

[deeptruthreallity]

If a person is really your friend they wouldn’t just come to you when they want and need your help

[deeptruthreallity]

You try so hard to be someone you are not.

[deeptruthreallity]

One upon a time you were my everything.

[deeptruthreallity]

I deleted our messages, I wonder if it you knew would it hurt you ?

[deeptruthreallity]

I would move mountains for you but would you do the same ?

[deeptruthreallity]

I’m stuck in between of “I really want to talk to you” and “I need to get over you”.

[deeptruthreallity]

All day I think about you. Them when it’s time to sleep I can’t sleep because I’m thinking about you. If I end up falling asleep I eventually start dreaming of you and all the what if between us. Even if we haven’t talked in 6 months.

[deeptruthreallity]

save me

i go days not knowing what to feel.

when I’m driving its like I’m not fully awake.

i walk the streets with my eyes open but they feel shut.

i want to ask for help but i ask myself if i really need it.

i write all my feelings down, and for the moment everything feels like if its getting better.

hours later i cant say the same i feel like shit once again.

i don’t know if its something that will go away over time or something that i need to get help with.

I’m hurting and i know that i can ask for help but my pride get in the way telling my head that i can get through it like every other time.

i can’t run from myself

i don’t want to hurt anymore

i can’t get u out of my mind

i don’t talk to you

so why, explain to me why you are alway on my mind

i want to believe that I am strong but its so hard.

i keep holding on to something that happened to me and can’t let it go

four people know, once upon a time my friends, no longer are, they are going to have to live with my dark secret for life, till the day they die.

Everyone has a friend, yeah they all have friend but are they people that can be trusted

i thought that i had people that i can go to, and honestly it dose’t feel like that.

i’m so lonely 

do people actually mean what they say

why do i close up 

is it because so many people have fail me because they left me

am i afraid to be left?

[deeptruthreallity]

How long as it been since I wrote this ? Because I still feel the same. 4/21/2020

[deeptruthreallity]

I’m just tired of being everyones last option.

[deeptruthreallity]

I wrote about how I wish you can just sent me one little kind of message. Almost a week later I saw that you followed me. I said “you just keep comeone back”. How can I say that when I practically asked for it. I didn’t follow you back because I was afraid of what was going to happen next. What I didn’t know is that 2 days later you would unfollowe me because I didn’t follow you back I guess. And well it broke my heart. So now I don’t know what I want and don’t know where my mental health is at. I feel mentally numb.

[deeptruthreallity]

We don’t talk no more but you still manage to hurt me.

[perrfectly]

“I guess that’s just part of loving people: You have to give things up. Sometimes you even have to give them up.”

— Lauren Oliver (via perrfectly)

[thepersonalquotes]

[talesofmaya-deactivated20200114]

Read this when you're feeling worthless.

Talesofmaya_

This is for the days when you'll stop loving yourself. This is for the moments that will make you feel like you're not enough, that you are not being heard and perhaps these little moments will make you believe that you have no place in this world. I know these days are inevitable. I know there will always be a moment that will pull you down, maybe someone who will make you question your abilities and situations that will make you doubt life itself. Whatever the situation is, remember that you're you, and that's enough.

Talesofmaya_

If you ever find yourself in such situations, keep on reading. I know, no matter how much I will tell you that your enough, your mind will always take you back to that one moment when you felt like everything was slipping from your hands. When it felt as if you're just nothing. When it felt as if you were just worthless and incapable of being the best. I want to tell you that it's okay not to fit in. Its okay not to be the best. Its okay to be a wreck and darling, I hope you embrace this mess.

Talesofmaya_

I know sometimes you feel empty, you feel like no matter how much you do, you'll never be able to satisfy them. I hope you will always remind yourself to walk away from everyone who makes you believe that you're not enough. Walk away from everyone who doubts your love. When people make you feel that you're not worth of anything in this world, I hope you let them go. I hope you find the strength to see them go. Because darling, these people will burn your wings and question why you can't fly.

Talesofmaya_

With a heart like yours, you deserve the world. I hope you believe in your strength, I hope you will try to love yourself enough to stop doubting your worth. Darling, when such days creep in, I hope you'll always try and try, that you'll always let your love shine through your soul. I hope you'll never question why certain things happened in a certain way and when things go wrong again, I hope you'll never doubt your existence and even when you feel like no one is listening, I hope you'll always remember that you're enough, over and over again.

Talesofmaya_

[deeptruthreallity]

“You give yourself up to him and later on he dismiss you”

[the-sad-boy]

““But who prays for Satan? Who, in eighteen centuries, has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most?””

—

- Mark Twain

This is honestly my favorite quote. It’s changed how I look at life and religion.

(via the-bitchextraordinaire)

[teenagecrush]