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deerna • 30 • they/them.

[deerna]

there’s no other way out of it, you’re going to have to decapitate me.

welcome to the main blog of deerna, where you’ll find a miscellaneous gathering of their unhealthy obsessions: various fandoms, illustration and music and writing, jokes and shitposting, linguistics and languages, and the struggle of doing one’s best (and not always succeeding).

currently into a certain vampire (I don't even go here) the witcher, disco elysium, the raven cycle/the dreamer trilogy, the locked tomb, fiddle irish music, russian rave, watercolors of the same camaro over and over and over.

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[watchpoob]

Winter has arrived on Poob.

Start your 7 day free trial of Poob today, and watch smash hit Martin Scorcese's Goncharov.

[recurring-polynya]

me (crazy eyes, covered in blood): I NEED to finish writing my fanfic. so I can start writing a different fanfic.

[velnna]

and remember

[velnna]

How do you avoid AI? I am trying to quit it, but genuinely it is EVERYWHERE, to the point of absurdity. Every job I apply to is trying to make me use it; I regret even putting my own stories out there because it might get used by someone for AI. And if I even use it, I am becoming a hypocrite and fucking up the environment by giving the corporations money and wasting water. But then if I don't use it and make it known that I don't, the companies I apply for refuse to hire me. 😭 I can't even find anyone to RP with, and it is hell on earth.

It's impossible to fully avoid for sure. I honestly mostly made changes to give myself some peace of mind and see it less, but bear in mind I'm self-employed and genuinely never felt the need to touch it for anything either related to my job or personal life.

I changed my email provider from gmail to protonmail (they have an AI agent but so far it's a separate app and not a part of the actual email app) and the google drive to proton drive (again, separate AI agent). I switched my browser to Vivaldi (Firefox allows you to turn off AI I think, so I still use it sometimes if Vivaldi doesn't work, but I'm also trying to make a point to use more European tech idk) and I'm trying to switch search engines too but it's hard I'll give you that 😔 I also try to avoid apps that advertise themselves as pro AI (Ellipsus instead of Notion, etc)

Does this actually change anything? Not really but it keeps my daily life a little less stressful. When it comes to people I don't have a solution, either. I stick to being loud about how I feel about it and hope it keeps the idiots off my back and filters the good ones through

It's rough out there and you gotta do what you gotta do - as individuals we're not gonna be able to stop anything or even properly avoid it but we can stay true to what we feel and believe in, and that's worth something. There will always be people out there who see through this AI bullshit and gather around each other even if it doesn't feel like a loud majority 🖤

[podcastwizard]

LIKES TO CHARGE REBLOGS TO CAST

[the-goddess-of-annoying]

you people aren't CASTING

[the-goddess-of-annoying]

NO

[biocrafthero]

[heyfruitcake]

Now that everyone is discussing Nolan's Odyssey movie, I feel like it's a good time to let non-Italians know that the production dumped plastic props into the Italian sea. Weirdly enough I could not find any article in English about it but it's a fucking problem nonetheless.

I might translate this article later today. This one was the most complete one, even in Italian news it's not talked about that much.

L'Odissea di Nolan tra "scheletri spazzatura" e relitti: Arpa al lavoro in Sicilia, che succede

Non è la prima volta che la produzione solleva un vespaio in Sicilia. A Lipari una squadra di sub sarebbe però già impegnata a bonificare i

[ignitelimelight]

They dumped plastic skeletons in environmentally protected areas, against the literal contracts they had to sign to get the permits to film in environmentally protected areas. Like they not only did a bad ecological thing that freaked out some divers, they literally broke environmental protection laws and their contract with the Italian government

[spin-the-wheel-polls]

You are an adventurer in a generic fantasy world and you use this weapon!

Do you like it?

YES!!!!!

yes

Eh it's okay

No

NO!!!!!!!

Remaining time: 19 hours 52 minutes

[kragehund-est]

sex isn't sexy unless it's a little bit gross. have you forgotten that you are a divine ape? plastic smooth skin, plucked hair, painted faces, scripted reactions, scrubbed til only the smell of perfumed soap remains, proportions that are conflictingly cookiecutter yet unattainable, none of this is even a little bit interesting.

you can laugh at napoleon's "home in three days, don't bathe" letter to his wife, but there's more sexuality in that one line then there is in the entirety of the hypersexualized but painfully unsexy internet.

[the-ghost-of-jetstream-tormod]

What are your thoughts on musk?

[kragehund-est]

i hope he dies

[wrvqre]

Armand de Leyendecker

[berryinnit]

t-shirt with the words “high-functioning corpse” printed on it

[thirdity]

“You write the beginning and then you go back and rewrite the beginning, and you never got off page one. It’s kind of a syndrome, and I have a rash piece of advice which is — Go on, page two, page three, and never look back. Get something finished, no matter how lousy it is. […] Perfectionists cannot get going unless they kind of do violence to their own instincts, and just blast ahead.”

— Ursula K. Le Guin, The Last Interview and Other Conversations

[bleekay]

[blatherin-blatherskite]

If you want a poorly written fanfic don’t ask ai ask me I’ll do it

[hussyknee]

If I tell you this is a horror dance number it still won't prepare you. That last move was so terrifying even the judge was like "Let go! Let go!" If you told me they're actually possessed I'd believe you.

The music is a remix of the song Mere Dholna from the Bollywood movie Bhool Bhulaiyya, a remake of the classic Malayalam horror-comedy Manichitrathazhu. It's about a young bride that seemingly becomes possessed of Manjulika, a dancer of the ancient royal court whose tragic death has turned her into a vengeful spirit, one who evokes the wrath of the goddess Durga Kali. In the iconic scene that is repeated across remakes, the groom and his family discover his bride dancing in the dead of night in a manic, disassociative fugue, wearing a moth-eaten dancer's costume and a face smeared in kohl, ash and vermilion. She's hallucinating that she's Manjulika dancing carefree for the court with her lover. The upbeat music is deliberately incongruous with the pathos and creepiness of the scene in reality, especially as it crescendos in the bride's head to the moment when the king decapitates Manjulika's beloved in a fit of jealous rage.

This specific number is by the all-male troupe B Unique, performed for the Indian reality talent contest Hunabaarz. It's a modern fusion based on Bharatnatyam that turns up the creep factor by 200% and is basically a showcase of contortionism and synchronicity. One of the most perfectly choreographed and executed dances I have ever seen. Truly incredible!

The group is still taking their work across the world's talent shows. And yes, that guy is hypermobile enough to do that with his neck. XD

[so-many-ocs]

revising your writing is just like "is this weird. is this a weird sentence. is this the weirdest most poorly-worded sentence ever written by anyone" and the sentence in question is "he walked across the room"