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Hey, You

Because of my anxiety I feel odd saying certain things to people because I dont want to seem too ‘much’. So I am going to use this post as my years long outlet. Feel free to read if you want to see me act like a thirsty bitch

#excuse my thirsty ass #fuck me zaddy #im trash and so are you

Rant

I sexualize myself whenever I reach a low point mentally. I fear I will never find love so I desperately reach out for any attention and affection I can get. This usually leads to lots of casual interactions with people in my life that will never go beyond just that. I try going on dates but with my anxiety and residual effects from my accident its hard for me to find people i really connect with both personally and sexually. The few times I do it still doesn’t work. The last almost relationship I had we had to end things because he had to move back to south africa and wasn’t sure when or if he would ever come back.

Oh well.

I just want someone to think im pretty and want to hold my hand. Someone that understands the issues I can’t fix and hate about myself and doesn’t make me feel worse about them.

This feeling will fade over time as it tends to come and go in waves. But it still sucks to go through.

#drowning my sorrow with good sex

god I haven’t been on here in a while.

I can’t remember who almost any of these people are

WHO ARE YOU ALL