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[delxeo]

❣!!!

Send in a ❣ for a random kiss.9.) a bleeding / bloody kiss -- randomly generated

Benji has been in his fair share of fights and every single time he welcomes the feeling of pain. he can’t remember what started the brawl and the blows he receives from the other doesn’t help at all. at this point, he’s barely even fighting back--and his reluctance shows. it’s not as if he doesn’t want to get back at him, but there’s this alarmingly loud voice in his head screaming:

you deserve it--!

when Edgar stops his assault and grabs the front of his shirt, Benji lazily swings his head up so he can meet his gaze. half-lidded, hazy eyes meet Edgar’s surprisingly alert ones and Benji does the one thing he probably shouldn’t, but the only thing he knows how.

he reaches forward and kisses him, blood--either from his nose or the split lip, he isn’t sure--smearing onto the others lips and face. the metallic taste of blood hardly bothers him, but he’s not sure he can say the same for his companion. he pulls away and licks his lips, ignoring the sting from the cut.

his head lolls to the side a bit as he smirks.

“You can knock me out for that. I deserve it.”

[delxeo]

antheiin replied to your post: ❣!

A very nice kiss, yes.

feel free to knock him off his bar stool later, miri, he deserves it :^)

[delxeo]

❣!

13.) a blown kiss -- randomly generated

he spots her as soon as he walks in the door. the bar isn’t crowded and she stands out as someone he knows rather easily. he supposes any normal person would call out to her, get her attention, or just sit next to her, but-- she hasn’t noticed him yet.

why not have a little fun?

he sneaks up behind her, putting a finger to his lips to shush the the bartender who glanced in his direction. when behind her, he reaches out and tickles the spots just above her hips with an accompanying boo!

before she can retaliate, he walks away towards the jukebox, winking at her and blowing her a kiss.

“You love me.”

[delxeo]

✮

send one for my muse’s reaction to your muse ---✮ = stargazing 

he didn’t know people still stargazed, especially in such a large city, but there someone was, totally enamored with the “twinkling” lights in the sky. he smiles, albeit a sad one, as he remembers sitting on the roof with Cecilia so many years ago, looking up at the same stars. he’d point out clusters of stars and claim they were a constellation, then laugh and claim he knew nothing about astronomy when she believed him.

he misses her, even the way she’d swat at his shoulder playfully for messing with her.

“Can you even see anything?” he says, squinting up at the sky. “They’re just lights.”

[delxeo]

♒ = lying to them . eDGAR....WHY YOU ALWAYS LYIN'

send one for my muse’s reaction to your muse ---

being lied to is something he’s used to. people always think they can pull a fast one, pull the wool over his eyes and get away with it. what they don’t know is that Benji always has ways of knowing the truth. he doesn’t typically like to confront the offender when he learns the truth, either. he will wait for them to come to him, tell him the lie. he lives for the look on their face when they think they’ve gotten away with it. sometimes he might even play dumb for a while.

they’d catch on once on of his guys roughed them up outside later.

unfortunately, Benji had to deal with his own problems in this city. when he catches his newfound companion in a blatant lie, Benji remains calm. he merely sighs.

“It’s not like I ever trusted you to begin with, but...you really thought you could lie without consequences?” his tone is devoid of the usual playful lilt. “Edgar, you wound me.” 

he sends his fist flying towards the others jaw without another word.

[delxeo]

☂ - headcanon about rainy days✈ - headcanon about traveling☼ - headcanon about sunny days

headcanons!

When he’s in a good mood, you’ll find Benji inside on rainy days, just chilling out. If he’s not, he’ll probably be outside...standing in it.

Benji loves road trips! Or, he used to. Any other way of travel, like flying, makes him kind of nervous, though.

Sunny days actually make him kind of sad, unfortunately. They tend to remind him of his ex. Also he’s not super fond of the heat!

[delxeo]

 ❣

Send in a ❣ for a random kiss.10.) assertive kiss -- randomly generated

being pushed around always triggers something within him to want to fight back. call it an instinct, given his often dangerous profession. of course, he had people to do the fighting for him, but it never hurt to know how to defend yourself a bit. it was not as if he needed to defend himself from this, though. as much as he sometimes loved to sit back and let the other take control, to be putty in his hands, he was feeling a bit feisty today.

Benji takes advantage of a slight lapse in Nikkari’s focus to turn their situation around, twisting and pushing Nikkari against the wall instead. once there, he places his hands on the other mans cheeks and closes the gap between them, pressing his lips rather forcefully against his. when he pulls away, his teeth graze Nikkari’s bottom lip.

“It’s a never ending battle between us, isn’t it?”

[delxeo]

❤❣♥

Describe a physical action that shows complete trust.

Honestly? Just a genuine hug. Although complete trust is something far and few between from him these days, most physical contact that’s not sex is a sign of trust! Also, him allowing someone to touch his face/head/temples is a good sign. Since he needs to place his hands on someones temples while erasing their memory, it just kind of makes him nervous that someone out there might have the same ability as he does and try to take his away.

Describe a way that will earn affection (whether platonic or romantic) from them.

Just...be there for him, I suppose. He pushes people away a lot but persistence is key! He’s trying to push people away because when they leave him alone, he feels justified in thinking he’s a bad person. So...if you keep at it and keep checking in on him, he’ll grow to think of you as more than just someone to be used. This is strictly platonic, though.

Romance isn’t an option for him anymore!

Name one thing about the way their emotions work that they despise.

Pretty much everything? Because he has pretty extreme anxiety, his mind throws everything out of whack often. Though, if he had to pinpoint something, it’d be that he usually yearns for attention, but for some reason he never allows himself to get close enough to people in order to get it.

[delxeo]

"UNF"

Send “UNF” to pin my muse against the wall with DESIRE

this time it was Benji that had started the teasing. after all, he had to make up for the others incessant teasing last time, right? it had started off small, with him casually brushing too close to Nikkari, but grew to include prolonged eye contact, innuendos, and prolonged, suggestive syllables wherever possible.

he didn’t get very far, however, before Nikkari had him flush with the wall, a hand firmly keeping him there. Benji’s brows shoot up in excitement and he whistles, long and low.

“Impatient, are we?”

[delxeo]

send a symbol

☂ - headcanon about rainy days

✈ - headcanon about traveling

☼ - headcanon about sunny days

☁ - headcanon about dreams

❄ - headcanon about winter

☆ - headcanon about stars

⌚ - headcanon about schedules

☎ - headcanon about phone calls

✉ - headcanon about letters

✓ - headcanon about friends

✗ - headcanon about enemies

☹ - headcanon about sorrow

☺ - headcanon about happiness

☤ - headcanon about health

✐ - headcanon about writing

✿ - headcanon about plants

♥ - headcanon about love

♫ - headcanon about music

[veilled-deactivated20160315]

send one for my muse’s reaction to your muse ---

[onyovrleftarchive]

veilled :

alternatively send ‘ + ‘ after the symbol for the roles to be reversed where possible !

✘ = hugging them . Δ = playing with their hair .  ❤ = kissing them .  ₪ =  asking them out for dinner . ☀ = giving them a gift of ___ ( asker’s choice ) . ♘ = stabbing them . ♕ = bowing down before them . ♒ = lying to them .   ✿ = buying them flowers . ☾ = being found shirtless . ♢ = reading them a story . ☂ = giving them their jumper to keep warm . ✎ = speaking in a different language . ✏ = teaching them a different language . ▄ = telling them a joke . ♬ = singing to them . ☹ = insulting a loved one . ஐ = slapping them . ✂ = threatening them . ❃ = dancing with them . ▤ = falling asleep on them . ☮ = waking them up after a nightmare .  ♣ = discovering them crying .  回 = patching a wound .  ✮ = stargazing . ▓ = caught stealing their belongings . ☽ = wandering alone at night . ♡ = complimenting them . ≡ = offering a place to stay overnight . ☢ = falling over . ✦ = being well-dressed . ❂ = wiping blood off their face . ◎ = taking care of them while ill . ☁ = being caught in the middle a storm with them . ⇕ = holding their hand . ↱ = being lost with them . ☠ = pushing them against a wall .

[ohmyaranea]

Send in a ❣ for a random kiss.

a shy kiss. 

a forehead kiss.

a cheek kiss.

a nuzzle kiss.

a neck kiss.

a hand kiss. 

a hug + kiss combo. 

a dying kiss. 

a bleeding / bloody kiss. 

an assertive kiss. 

a nonchalant / uninterested kiss. 

a kiss to your muse’s shoes. 

a blown kiss. 

a sad / crying kiss. 

a quick kiss. 

a happy kiss.

a teasing / sensual kiss. 

a platonic kiss. 

a clumsy kiss

a kiss of your choosing! ( requested by the sender! )

[rpmemestbh]

Personality Starters

(as requested by anon)

Starters:

❝Why do you have to be so stubborn?❞ 

❝I know you better than you know yourself.❞

❝You don’t have to be so rude.❞

❝You’re so dynamic, that’s what I love about you.❞

❝You need to learn to put yourself first.❞

❝Fuck love.❞

❝Well that was brutally honest.❞

❝Perfectionism only ends in disappointment.❞

❝I have to be perfect.❞

❝You don’t have to act so tough.❞

❝Why do you pretend not to care?❞

❝Don’t you believe in me?❞

❝I don’t think you’re as apathetic as you think you are.❞

❝I love your zest for life.❞

❝You’re really brave.❞

❝That took a lot of courage. Thanks.❞

❝Life really isn’t as great as you make it out to be.❞

❝Life really isn’t as bad as you make it out to be.❞

❝I don’t understand you.❞

❝You don’t understand me.❞

❝I know you’re only mean because people were mean to you but is this really what you want?❞

❝Your smile is contagious.❞

❝Why are you so self-critical?❞

❝Thanks for trusting me.❞

❝Of course I trust you.❞ 

[delxeo]

Watch Out!

watch out--!

the words coupled by the strong grip on his upper arm had him snapping back to reality just in time for a car to speed by right in front of him. he’d zoned out again, it seemed. had it not been for her quick thinking, well...he’d have been in a world of hurt-- or dead. he’s speechless for a moment before muttering a quiet thanks and taking a step back.

[delxeo]

🗹

fun fact

He doesn’t have his drivers license...which is probably for the best.

[delxeo]

 “🗹”

fun fact

Benji has a tattoo of a spine...down his spine. It hurt like hell.

[memestockpile]

therapy / talking about trauma / post - trauma starters. feel free to change things as necessary. 

would you like to talk about it?

please tell me what’s bothering you.

hey, are you okay?

i don’t have to know everything. just what you’re comfortable telling me.

i’m your friend. of course i care.

there’s nothing bad about going to therapy.

would you like to try a different approach?

i – i didn’t know that. i’m sorry.

is this helping?

i’ll try not to ask a lot of questions.

i’m always here if you need me.

shh, it’s alright. shh. 

we’re safe now. you’re safe now.

it was just a nightmare.

sweetheart, you have to tell me these things.

you know i’d never judge you for that, right?

i’m worried about you.

is something going on? 

everything you say will just be between you and me.

what method do you prefer?

do you need help falling asleep?

anything i could do to help?

why are you like this?

i understand. 

sweetie, is there something you aren’t telling me? what’s wrong?

let’s get you cleaned up.

this is good. this is important. 

you’re healing, and healing takes time. 

we can do more tomorrow.

how about you get some sleep, hm?

bedtime.

it’s ok not to be ok.

tomorrow is another day.

hey, hey, hey. look at me, look at me. it’s okay.

breath in for seven seconds, exhale for eleven …

do you need some space?

remember, look for things that you can touch. ground yourself.