decided i needed to make a intro post as this blog is basiclally my main now so, yeah!
hi, my name is demise! I also go by zed in some corners of the internet. My pronouns are he/him, they/them, and i am bisexual. And im proud to call myself part of transgender tumblr!
I'm a scholarly person, but my main focuses lie in creative writing, US history, and agriculture. I do art and writing most of the time on my blog!
i am really into hermitcraft, and my favourite is tango tek. I'm also into things like tales from a stinky dragon, doctor who, the MCU, total drama, and ace attorneys!
important things to note about me:
I'm not super into tag games, or like, tag asks so uh, send them my way and all, its just not 100% i'll do them!
im very sensative to things like vomit, so i would appreciate moots to tag those things. Im also very sensative to bright colours.
additionally, due to past trauma, I would prefer if the F term (weather used derogatorily [ew] or in a reclaimed way) to be sensored when talking to/at me.
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Spoilers for Episode 41 of Grotethe, however the events proceeding this fic are slightly made up because of the cliffhanger given
@demis-alted, as requested
Trigger warning for mentions of infertility and unhealthy family relationships!
The ringing in Ellga's ears didn't seem to stop, dispute them all practically beating their way through the threat. The danger that her own sister called on them. She was currently being held in the library with the Countess and Qwuifly as they kept talking behind her back. She looked around the room, the mess she had caused. The mess Evenna had caused. She silently tore away from the group, locking herself in her room.
"Just separate yourself." The count always said, even if Evenna was to blame. After all these years, it was the only advice she was ever given. It was always her fault, she always felt so alone. If only she hadn't met them. They saved her, they showed her how she deserved to be treated. How could she ever go back?!
Meanwhile, Chip was still shaking out of the charm. It made him sick to his stomach to see how Ellga was treated in this house. Her mother didn't care, her sister was seemingly crazy, and her father was completely gone. Seemingly on trial. He sighed, sitting down on the couch.
Barney sat next to him. "I tried to snap you out faster...this whole place is evil." He pulled out a small ball of yarn and unravelled it as his brow furrowed. "But Ellga isn't. This entire place is cursed and full of danger, but I still care deeply for her. I would protect her with my life." The cleric sighed, his eyes glowing blue. "Maybe she just reminds me of my own family. Maybe it's because her own isn't supportive. I don't know. I just want to get her, and Marnie, and the boys...I want to get them all out of here."
Chip rubbed his temple, eyes on Ellga's locked door. "She seemed so uncomfortable with them. Trying to prove herself to...I don't know." He moved to gently rubbing the base of his horns. Something Carol used to do. Even if it was still raw, still painful, he was coming to terms with it. He needed to focus on Ellga right now. Be the parent in her life she didn't have. "Someone should check on her."
"You should check on her." A voice called from the door. As both men looked up to them, Mathide was standing in the doorway, arms folded and wings puffed out. Not much shook the bird to the point their wings needed preening, but the alarm terrified all of them. "Barney is too emotional with his family, and...I'm not great with this mushy feely stuff. She trusts you, Chip." As they moved closer to the couch, their hands mindlessly ran through the puffed up feathers. JJ (Gee Gee) rested on their shoulder, nuzzled against their neck. They shook as they sat on the couch, squishing Chip slightly. Almost as if saying he should go in another way.
He sighed. "Fine. Fine. I'll go, just expect us to be out of commission for a while." Pressing on his knees, he pushed himself off the couch. His tail swayed a bit as he regained his balance, still dizzy from the spell. Barney put a hand on his back to keep him from fumbling.
"Up you go, up you go." A few small pats sent Chip forward to the locked door. Healing word gave him a few more health points and the shaky confidence to try and be a father.
No matter how hard they tried, they never managed to conceive. Of course, it makes sense because Carol was a hag. She couldn't have a child in the normal sense, no matter how badly they wanted to. No matter how many times they tried. His heart broke every time she told him she wasn't pregnant. It only hurt more knowing they never could have a baby anymore. He gulped back the pain and softly knocked on the door. Even if Ellga wasn't his real daughter, he didn't care. Family was family, even without blood.
Sadly, Ellga wasn't in the space to talk. The knock just got a loud, painful sounding hiss from her. It was between sobs as she held Boris. Evenna wasn't the same, it was clear she wasn't ever really welcome here. The Count loved her, but he was on trial for some reason. Mother had left so long ago she didn't even feel love towards her, and she just wanted to run away from this stupid tower.
Another knock.
She hissed louder, but it strained her throat and caused her to cough pretty loudly. "G-go away! I don't wanna talk!" She curled around herself on the bed, hiccuping weakly. "I-i know you didn't come back for me or Evenna! And i-i-i know you don't really care about me!" She couldn't fight the rage forming in her chest, nor the tears streaming down her face. Oh, how she hated crying.
"Kiddo, I do care about you." A familiar Midwestern accent called out from the hall. "This family may not, but we sure do." His voice cracked a bit as he choked back tears. "Mathide loves you like a little sister, Barney sees you as his own granddaughter and-" he could hold back the tears for much longer as he tried to say the most important part. "You're my kid, Ellga. Even if your blood is horrible to you, I will always give you love and safety and-" Chip weakly sobbed out, leaning against the door. "You deserve to be happy..."
Small footsteps ran over and unlocked the door. Chip took a step back before the door swung open. The two of them stood for a moment, both crying. Hurt in different ways, but almost the only people who could heal each other. Chip dropped to his knees and opened his arms for her, and Ellga quickly ran into them. She still just hugged Boris, as Chip's strong arms gently hugged her and scooped her up.
"i-i-i just wanted everything to be normal, b-b-b-b-but I love you guys more than them, I don't wanna stay, I don't wanna stay!" She hiccuped painfully, shoving her face into his neck.
Chip hushed her, rubbing her back. "I know Kiddo. I know." He headed back to the couch with the rest of their party. "You don't have to do anything you don't want to." He forced himself back into the center of them all. He carefully loosened his grip, eyes soft. "I promise."
She weakly nodded, shifting to give Mathide a tight hug. After getting the squeeze she wanted and a soft hair ruffle, she shifted to hug Barney. He also squeezed her tight, kissing her forehead. Finally, the vampire settled back against Chip's chest. Still crying a bit, but calmer.
"...Chip?"
"Yeah, Ellga?"
"I love you."
Tears pricked at his eyes again, but he just hugged her tighter. "I love you too, Kiddo."
@demis-alted , the man asked to be tagged so you better not complain if tears come
~~Spoilers for Episode 37 of Grotethe~~
Trigger warning: slight suicidal thoughts? Maybe?
He went in as a joke. Of course he did, he would never actually go into a coffin without just being silly. After Carol, after everything, it has been so hard to have a genuine smile. His neck still burned from the arrows, his body still weak from the blood lost. But now that he was in it, it felt like home.
He couldn't explain it, it just...felt right. Maybe it was the thoughts growing stronger, the will to live just gone from his body, he wasn't sure, not anymore. It strangely took all of his energy to push back out.
Make it jokey Haney, you have to make it funny.
Of course, on his way out, he stepped on a nail. Pain shot through his body, the last 1 hp he had drained in a moment. Chip fell limp on the ground, his mind in Limbo. Everything felt warm. He could almost feel her hands reaching for him.
Meanwhile, Ellga was panicking. Ever since Carol had died, she had been feeling a lot of emotions she wasn't used to. This was one of them. They were already pushing their luck with being here, she couldn't remember her way back to her own house, and worse of all
HER BASICALLY FATHER IS DEAD KN THE FLOOR!
The vampire ran her hands across his neck, feeling no shallow breathing or heartbeat. Her eyes darted to Barney. They may have been butting heads, but he had spells that could save Chip, save him from his own stupidity. "Barney! You have to heal him!" Her voice cracked, tears briming in her eyes as she gripped the stupid shoodie she had made fun of silently for the past few weeks. She had never left her home after being turned, she knew nothing but riches and safety. Here, she was treated like her own person, with people who cared so much about her, enough to stick with her even after finding out she was a horrible monster. She had found genuine friends and even family.
She started to shake Chip harder. "Come beck!!! Come beck!!!" Her voice was shrill, the tears starting to roll down her cheeks. Last time she cried was during the turning process.
But she didn't want to think about that.
Barney gently pushed Ellga to Mathide, pulling out the book that now everyone recognized. It was the one thing he had, the one thing he could remember. His wrinkled hand reached out to gently touch Chip's shoulder as he muttered a spell.
"Chip....honey..."
"I'm coming Carol... don't wait for me..." He weakly muttered, only making Ellga cry harder as she shoved her face into Mathide's plumage.
"Chip, it isn't your time. You have to be there for them."
Before Chip could even fight, he suddenly shot up with a pained gasp. 5 hp, given by Barney of all people. As the cleric got up, he gave the same gift to Mathide, who rattled off some joke.
Everything was fuzzy, he didn't want to be here. He didn't want to be here, he wanted to be with Carol, this life held nothing fo-
His thoughts cut off as Ellga gripped onto him and weakly sobbed. This wasn't normal for her, tears or the hugging. He scooped her into his lap, gently rubbing her back. It's not his time...maybe because of her. He hadn't met the count yet, but Ellga had hooked onto him rather easily. Maybe he needed to stay to be her support, to be her father when she needed it most.
He'll stay for now. He kept her held as he stood, calming her down slowly just as his mother used to. "I'm alright, just a little stupid."
She hit his horn, but very gently. "Very stupid. Now put me down." When Chip set her to the ground, she gripped his hand for dear life, but wiped her remaining tears.
"Let's keep going. We still have a reason to be here."
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