dolly's diary

26. random thoughts, sad posts, basically a public diary. feel free to send asks/dms but don't be weird

[selfcarereminder]

the version of you from five years ago would be genuinely amazed by what you’ve handled since then. sit with that for a second

[depressed-dollposting]

the version of me from five years ago would kill herself if she knew what was heading her way.

[depressed-dollposting]

if i'm not your everything, i don't want to be your anything.

[depressed-dollposting]

if i have to beg for your attention, i don't fucking want it at all

[depressed-dollposting]

you ever just become achingly aware of the fact that you're not anyone's favorite person?

[depressed-dollposting]

tired of never being anyone's first choice. i'm the backup plan, second string, the one they only reach out to when there's nothing else to do. when do i get to be someone's priority?

[depressed-dollposting]

i've been saying "that was the last straw" for way too long. eventually i have to run out of fucking straws. right?

[depressed-dollposting]

i honestly never thought i'd live this long. some days i wonder why i even bothered.