I ONLY LOVE THE THINGS THAT I CAN HURT

desiderare (meaning “to long for”)

[desiderareing]

PRIVATE || SELECTIVE || LOW ACTIVITY || FANDOMLESS OCS

OC RP blog, starring Dr. Souma Mishio, and Blue Leavelle. Beta editor only. Pfp by ParasiticBun on twitter. Written by Jasper <3.

RULES || MISHIO BIO || BLUE BIO

[dragonstamed-writes]

impulse for @ockissweek featuring iggy/mishio (mishio belongs to @desiderareing)

It’s quiet on the bed. The curtains are muffling the sounds of beeping coming from the other room. One of Mishio’s experiments, wasting away on life support. Iggy wouldn’t be surprised if that particular subject is fed to Minako soon.

The bed is comfortable, mattress carefully chosen to be the perfect blend of softness and support for Mishio’s ailing body. Iggy spared no expense, dipping into her personal coffers for it. Several thousand years bartering souls means she never wants for money or luxury. The sheets are soft and warm and an obnoxious baby pink, so Mishio would think they were for Iggy.

He’d have never let her place a bed here if he had known she had wanted to do it for him.

She’s pulled the clip out of his hair. It spreads around her like an ever shifting pool of blood as she gently runs her fingers through it. His labored breathing has slowed and deepened some. He’s fallen into as deep a sleep as he gets when he is in the midst of a episode.

She knows it is a bad one based on how tightly he is clinging to her, preferring to keep his distance when he feels himself.

Iggy is careful to never overstep her bounds with him. She cherishes each bit of contact he allows her. Still, she cannot stop herself from pressing a soft, gentle kiss to the top of his head. He won’t notice in his sleep.

[fabledresources]

‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ i'm not a good person.‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ i'm barely a person at all.

[crownmemes]

Fringe Sentences, Vol. 1

(Sentences from Fringe (2008-2013). Adjust phrasing where needed)

"The department isn't a massive fan of office romance."

"It would be nice to think that your tenacity in this case is a by-product of remarkable and robust professionalism, but I can't help but think otherwise."

"Genetically, humans and cows are separated by only a couple of lines of DNA."

"I picked that up reading books. You should try it sometime."

"I'm so sorry that I can't offer you a less dangerous solution."

"No, I don't want to do that. In fact, I'd rather not! I'm just saying that I can."

"I still think this is deeply irresponsible - and believe me, I would know!"

"Your skin tone suggests you might be suffering from arterial hypertension."

"Whatever punishment you think I deserve, I swear I have already endured it."

"Look around. Do you see all these people going about their lives, no idea what's happening around them or what they're in the middle of?"

"I don't think you can go back to the way it was before."

"I consider myself a fairly intelligent guy, but I'm not following you here."

"I thought you had a way with women?"

"When was it that you lost your imagination?"

"The corporate mind always looks for quid pro quo."

"You're a smart boy, but there is much you don't know."

"What is the optimal voltage for cardiac resuscitation?"

"One of the inherent pitfalls of being a scientist is trying to maintain the distinction between God's domain and our own."

"You're self-medicating with homemade drugs?"

"I like to consider myself a fairly good poker player, which requires me to read my opponent's tells and know when he's bluffing."

"Forgive me, I like to have an open mind, but I have a hard time accepting your theory."

"This little task force that you and I call our day job sometimes requires some, shall we say, bureaucratic manoeuvring to keep it alive and free from political modelling."

"If I'm going to do this job, I need to know what it is I'm dealing with."

"Why would there be metal in his blood? That's not normal, right?"

"I suspect someone has continued my research."

"Of all the possible career choices, how did a girl like you end up in law enforcement?"

"You know, they say the psych profiles of cops and criminals are pretty much identical. Ever considered a life of crime?"

"I think it's time for some intracranial penetration."

"This won't hurt. It'll just feel a touch odd."

"Turn around and put your hands in the air now!"

"I'm sure you can understand why I don't want to go through the other channels."

"If I know you at all, this isn't the only reason you're here."

"I don't do well staying in one place. You know that."

"Must you always be such a smartass?"

"If I attempted to explain it, you might think me mad!"

"Must you always be so small-minded?"

"Whatever it is you want, I don't think I'm going to be able to give it to you."

"What's the most pain you've ever felt in your life?"

[desiderareing]

" What a nasty wound you have there! " the doctor exclaims, " Seems like the kind of thing you may need the help of a medical professional for. "

Seemingly out of nowhere, Mishio brandishes a large bag. He opens it to pull out a large suture, proving that it is indeed filled with medical supplies.

" I do sincerely hope you are not above begging for my help, because that is the only way you shall receive it! "

[dragonstamed-writes]

Ada take a few deep and shuddering breaths. A task honestly sounds really nice. Everybody has been so careful with her. Mostly they've been scared of loosing their luck.

She has been on thin ice with her superiors lately. Maybe helping out their newest contact will help smooth things over.

"What did you need help with?"

[desiderareing]

" Well, aside from our usual work, the doctor and I had been doing quite a bit of personal research and experimentation. " he tilts his head slightly to the side as he looks down at her and questions, " Tell me, did you have much contact with the doctor as he was dying? Did you have the chance to watch him deteriorate? It was not a pretty sight. "

The memory is forever burned into Mishio's mind. He was treated to a front row seat to the entire show from beginning to end. The disease Locklyn had succumbed to was all too familiar to Mishio already. He'd heard stories of his parents' death and read numerous papers on its effects while growing up. But watching his beloved mentor fall apart sticks in his mind much better. The only thing that could compare to the agony of watching his slow death, was knowing that in only a matter of years, he would be in the same place.

He continues speaking, clearly not caring enough about her answer to wait and hear it.

" His illness...It was a hereditary condition. As such, it is incredibly difficult to treat and currently impossible to cure. But, he insisted to me many times that between the two of us, we could discover something. Clearly, we failed to do so in time. But still, I hold that goal of his very tightly. " Mishio explains, " I could achieve it much faster if I had someone who could help me get my hands on supplies. Or more importantly, test subjects. Surely you have enough strength to accomplish that much for me. For him? "

[ratbastardacademic]

hey babygirl, want to come back to my place and I'll inject you with this totally safe, definitely not toxic, chemical substance?

[mcflymemes]

"TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue for demanding answers, adjust as necessary

say it again, slower this time.

i don't have much time to explain, but i'll try.

you need to tell me what's going on.

i can't help you if i don't know what's happening.

you said something earlier, but i think i missed it.

i'm not hiding anything. i'm just trying to protect you.

what were you trying to say to me?

there must be more to the story than this.

you're not telling me the full story. you're leaving things out.

why do you have to be so secretive about this?

i wish i could tell you the truth. i really do.

why can't we discuss this now?

what's preventing you from telling me the truth?

you know what happened, yet you're just going to keep it from me.

don't i have a right to know?

i'll never forgive you if you keep this from me.

you're just going to have to find out for yourself.

don't leave me in the dark.

since you don't want to tell me, you leave me no choice.

i want you to talk to me, tell me what happened.

i don't like it when you're evasive.

you're hiding something.

all right, i'll tell you what i know.

you have to promise to take this with a grain of salt.

if i could tell you the truth, i would.

some things are better left unsaid.

you wouldn't believe me if i told you.

i don't know the truth.

i can't remember what they told me.

the last time i tried to explain it, you laughed in my face.

there's no getting through to you, is there?

tell me what's happening. tell me what's going on.

i can't do anything without your information.

you're the only one who knows how to fix this.

there's always something more, isn't there?

what else did they tell you?

what did they whisper to you when you were leaving?

you're keeping something from me.

you've never been a good liar.

look into my eyes and tell me the truth.

i wish you would just be honest with me.

something happened, and i'm going to get to the bottom of it.

if you won't tell me, i'll find someone who will.

that doesn't help me, you know.

you could try to be a little more helpful.

you never answered my question.

were you ever going to tell me the truth?

i'd like you to be honest for once in your life.

if you really loved me, you'd tell me what happened.

i won't judge you. i just need to know what happened.

just let me warn you... you're not going to like what you hear.

[science-bastard]

sorry i made the autopsy sexual. it will happen again. :(

[crownmemes]

Detective Sentences, Vol. 12

(Sentences from various sources for detectives and/or muses that like to solve mysteries. Adjust phrasing where needed)

"Not a word about this to anyone until you hear from me."

"You had me under surveillance?"

"Murder does more damage to the living than it does the dead."

"Don't try to be a hero!"

"I didn't think I'd get caught!"

"Answer my question: did you kill him?"

"I need to ask you a few questions about a murder that took place earlier tonight."

"I want you to take your time, and I want you to write down everything that happened."

"Since when did you hate to interfere?"

"Having pictures of hot chicks isn't a crime."

"How dumb do you think I am?"

"That's incredibly illegal!"

"I don't know if you should be exposed to crime scenes and dead bodies."

"Do you think he'd want to deceive you?"

"You really get that from just this?"

"Try not to get so giddy every time we go to a crime scene, okay?"

"We will solve this case, and it will have nothing to do with little green men."

"Are you pathologically incapable of telling the truth?"

"Does there have to be a reason?"

"If I had to guess, I'd say he was tortured before he was killed."

"You're a low-level dirtbag. You're not a criminal mastermind."

"You see, every time you say something like that, it makes me think that you have something to hide."

"Do you know I can arrest you for that?"

"Is that stuff dangerous?"

"Wow, you are a very distrusting person!"

"When someone is trying to kill you, I think you have every right to complain."

"I didn't lie. I just neglected to say anything."

"We don't yet live in a world where passion is a crime, do we?"

"While I do love kissing you, it's just a little bit creepy when you do it in front of a dead body."

"Is it me, or is this just... Wrong?"

"Where I come from, it's rude to point a gun at a man."

"Don't get lost in worst-case scenarios."

"Really, that's your line?"

"You do realise that this is still a crime scene?"

"When you had him killed, was it for art or money?"

"Well, I'm sure you'll figure it out eventually."

"How come we're partners when I'm chasing down bad guys, and as soon as there's paperwork I'm on a solo mission?"

"Will someone tell me what's going on?"

"Do you have any idea how to diffuse a bomb?"

"Come on, haven't you ever wanted to do something with your handcuffs other than arrest criminals?"

"Your behaviour is not funny. It's wasting the time of the federal government. "

"We'll start from the beginning and, this time, we're going to find the answer."

[desiderareing]

Playing dnd as Mishio is really good actually because he knocks every investigation check out of the water but then can only take like 3 hits and he's down. Bro almost died to a bird.

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝑺𝑨𝑪𝑹𝑰𝑭𝑰𝑪𝑬𝑺 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

GENERAL ❛  run! i'll hold them off for as long as i can.  ❜ ❛  i can buy you some time. go, now!  ❜ ❛  i cause this, and i'll be the one to fix it. no matter the cost.  ❜ ❛  it's the only way!  ❜ ❛  no matter what it takes, i won't let anything happen to you.  ❜ ❛  i need to make this right. this is my only chance.  ❜ ❛  i'll go through this so we have a chance. it's a risk worth taking.  ❜ ❛  you're more important than me. so let me do this to save you.  ❜ ❛  putting your needs ahead of mine is the only way i know.  ❜ ❛  can't you see i'm trying to save you?  ❜ ❛  i'll promise to keep you safe for as long as i can.  ❜ ❛  you know i'd jump in front of a bullet for you, right?  ❜ ❛  there are some people worth dying for ...  ❜ ❛  i trusted you with everything, and this is how you repay me?  ❜ ❛  i promise, i'm gonna do everything in my power to protect you.  ❜ ❛  i'm willing to do whatever it takes to prove my worth to you.  ❜ ❛  you don't have to sacrifice yourself for me. we're in this together.  ❜ ❛  are you sure you want to give up your only chance at freedom?  ❜ ❛  go! i'm not sure how much longer i can hold on ...  ❜ ❛  forget about me and save yourself. please.  ❜

LOVE / RELATIONSHIPS ❛  i love you, but you deserve better than what i can offer.  ❜ ❛  your happiness means more to me than my own.  ❜ ❛  i have to let you go, even if it breaks my heart.  ❜ ❛  i'll support your dreams, even if it means letting go of mine.  ❜ ❛  if this is truly what you need, i'll go.  ❜ ❛  you're worth waiting for. no matter how long it takes until you come back.  ❜ ❛  this is going against everything i stand for, but i'll do it for you.  ❜ ❛  you will always have my unwavering support.  ❜ ❛  your smile is worth the sacrifices i'm willing to make.  ❜ ❛  sometimes, there are more important things than me. you, for example.  ❜ ❛  i will always love you, but we're not good for one another. so i'm letting you go.  ❜ ❛  you deserve to find happiness with someone who isn't as destructive as me.  ❜ ❛  you will always be my first choice, but i know i'll never be yours, and that's okay.  ❜ ❛  no matter what happens, you will always hold a special place in my heart.  ❜ ❛  i'm gonna do whatever it takes to make you smile again.  ❜ ❛  you make me wanna be better. you make me wanna be good.  ❜ ❛  you don't have to sacrifice your dreams just to fulfill mine.  ❜ ❛  if you don't want to be with me anymore, just say so and go.  ❜ ❛  i won't let you make any more decisions for me!  ❜ ❛  remember, i'm doing this because i love you.  ❜

[crownmemes]

Mean Sentences, Vol. 4

(Mean sentences from various sources. Adjust phrasing where needed)

"What do you know about fair or right? You're a coward."

"You're going to Hell, just like I am."

"I don't care where you go, but I want all and any part of you gone."

"I don't have enough respect for you to be scared."

"I'm proud of what I am. I believe in what I do. Can you say that?"

"I have seen my share of the hideous, of the disgusting, and the repellent, but you are the most perfect expression I will ever see of all that is vile and hateful in life."

"If I could get up, I'd kick your ass."

"I think there's another possibility here, and that's just that you're a bitch."

"I bet you're the kind of guy who makes girls want to hang themselves."

"You mean nothing to me."

"I'm sensing you are a control freak."

"I'm not your friend. What gave you that idea?"

"You have big daddy issues."

"Your future is a fucked up joyride."

"I don't think you can do it."

"I see your renowned arrogance has been left quite intact."

"Are you jealous? It's most unbecoming."

"Most people would rather stick their fingers in a wall socket than spend a minute with you."

"You come off so rational, but maybe you know less than you think."

"You're only a rebel from the waist downwards."

"They never question it, do they? Your power and authority? When you're really such a coward."

"I sometimes expect too much of you."

"Do you know why you're not afraid to die? You're more afraid of living."

"You know what you're like. You bury your head in the sand."

"You have no shame."

"You are gentle, and that is a grave weakness. "

"You must be so lonely."

"You don't understand what it is to live."

"My first impression was correct. You are a barbarian."

"You're clinging onto me because there's nothing else going on in your life!"

"I can't tell you how wrong you are. How wrong you've always been."

"You fear the world too much."

"Is that how you get girls to like you? By bribing them?"

"You don't fit in. You don't fit anywhere that's normal."

"You're a bully, and all bullies are cowards."

"I was an emotional statement. I don't expect you to understand it."

"You can't tell the difference between fantasy and reality."

"You damn me for my secrets, but you're afraid to speak the truth."

[plagued-by-visions]

[shisasan]

29 August 1904 James Joyce to Nora Barnacle Joyce Letters of James Joyce [originally published 1966]

[desiderareing]

Hiatus Notice!

Ah...this was inevitable, I'm so sorry. I've got a lot more work stuff going on than I thought, I'm so stressed if I don't spend all my free time trying to relax I feel like I might just pass out. I've been trying really hard to find a balance between trying to motivate myself to write and not pressuring myself but all I do is make myself nervous and feel bad.

I'll try not to be gone too long! I don't want to lose too may followers, I have really loved writing my boys with everyone. I'll be lurking around, as I love to read all of your headcanons and posts and such ;; and I'll honestly still be staring at my drafts.

I'll be around to message here or discord still if you want to chat about anything at all or if you need me! Thank you for understanding.

[theircurse-archive4]

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