THE FOOL .

𝙸'𝙼  𝙰𝚂  𝙰𝚃𝚃𝙾𝙽  𝙰𝚂  𝙰𝚃𝚃𝙾𝙽  𝚆𝙸𝙻𝙻  𝙀𝙑𝙀𝙍  𝘽𝙀 .

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𝙳𝙴𝚂𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁   :   private, selective, and plot heavy atton rand of star wars : knights of the old republic II.   est. 2016, rebooted 2025.   18+ only, triggering content will be present but always tagged.  exploring themes of corruption, reinvention & atonement.  heavily affiliated with @ecsile​       by taylor   [  21+,   she/her,  ].

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[desrter]

he's anything but surprised by kreia's little bait and switch, even if it hadn't come about in the way he'd expected. in truth he's been waiting for her to get the jump on him since telos, when she'd wriggled her bony fingers into the dark recesses of his mind and dragged his true self writhing into the flourescent light, but the key word here was on him, and not tid. tid, who had always been this untouchable, near deific figure even in kreia's eyes--you'd have to be a mynock flying in dark space not to see it. so even if he had been anticipating a vibrosword in the back any day now, he knows their leader must be reeling from the shock of it all.

a swivel of his pilot's chair in her direction, a haphazard ankle over his knee. jaw slackening slightly as he takes her in. space, he's never going to get tired of seeing her sillhoueted in the door like that, with the nebulous glow of hyperspace painting her in shades of blue. he goes for humor, deflection and it's maybe not what both of them need right now, but it feels the most natural to settle into.

“ you really should have let me space her back on peragus and saved us all a bit of trouble. ” he checks the console with a flick of his gaze. ( 6 hours left until they breach the malachor system , and come to blows with whatever the force has in store for them there. ) “ not that you're never a welcome sight in my cockpit, but we've got time before we clear hyperspace. sure you don't want to try to get a bit of rest? or meditate. force trance with your eyes open. whatever it is you jedi please. you look dead on your feet, tid. ” and the (albeit concerned) jab comes a bit wry and hollow now that there's a cyllindrical weight at his belt with an entombed orange kyber crystal, or that he'd been sandwiched between visas and bao-dur in a meditation session led by tid just that morning. but semantics. playing at atton rand is a hard habbit to break.

@ecsile : " it's like she wants to turn the whole world upside down. "

[desrter]

atton lives to slut it up on nar shaddaa another day

[casanovawrites]

random sentence prompts  ━ from various tv shows, part 11

you’ve been such a pain in my ass.

you’re the most fascinating person i’ve ever known.

can you stop needing to be the hero here?

people don’t just disappear. 

we are saying goodbye. just not to each other. we’re saying goodbye to everything else, our old lives.

everything that kept us safe is gone.

i would rather prepare for the worst before the worst happens.

i am basically 100% headache right now.

you’re the only one who ever let me feel normal.

maybe i suck too. i just don’t know how yet.

i’m not choosing anyone. i’m choosing work over play.

doesn’t it feel like everyone wants us to be someone we’re not?

a sleepover? am i invited?

it has to be you. you’re all we’ve got.

you know me. we know each other.

it’s called keeping up with the times, asshole.

but fuck all of you, and i mean that.

people don’t usually follow my lead, if you know what i mean.

there’s nothing wrong with us.

i want your point of view on things.

you’re killing me. you get that, right? that’s what you’re asking me. to die for you.

i’ll follow your rules. that’s all you get.

i’d love to trade witty one-liners with you.

you’re the worst. you know that, right?

today is the first time in my life that feels like the right time.

there is a point to everything. there are answers.

god doesn’t just play games with people for fun.

the sun just keeps coming up every day, and you can’t cry forever. 

you have to have hope, don’t you? because who knows. maybe tomorrow.

you don’t get to decide what matters.

a lot of what’s happening is us being scared, and alone, and bored. so we do scary things to each other, we hurt each other. 

it’s like she wants to turn the whole world upside down.

who’s been there for you more than me?

bullshit. we’re not the same person.

you didn’t pick me. because you didn’t think i belonged.

if i had to pick anyone in the world when things got bad, i’d pick you.

this isn’t about us. this has nothing to do with us.

there is no us. because of everything.

i love you. i know i don’t always show it, but i do. i love you.

the universe does not care about your love life.

i’m not sad. i’m pissed off.

you say too many things you don’t mean.

i’ve thought a lot about dying. i’ve gotten used to that. but i don’t like to be afraid.

sometimes when i’m angry, i want to hurt people.

i’m worried that i’m not real.

all you can do is have an advantage, and this is mine. it’s all i have.

what i did is not the worst crime in the world.

given everything, can’t i get a tiny break?

why? what’s so special about me?

are we going to fight each other over food? that’s fucking crazy.

you can live wherever you want, just not with me.

we should get some food, before it’s all gone.

what if things don’t go back to the way they were?

don’t give me a fucking speech. you have no idea.

i guess i can learn to get along with a few more people.

what’s so hard about being honest with yourself?

it’s been ten days. i’m not the same person i was.

if there are things that need to be done, i want to do them.

there are no sides anymore.

you’re the best decision i’ve ever made.

we’re the same. you have to stick with your own.

i’m scared, and i have to take care of myself.

i live in your shadow, and now you suddenly want to disappear?

you know that you’re the love of my life? and whatever comes after this.

if this is it, this is where i want to be. i mean not here, but with you. you’re where i want to be.

i was a different person before we fell in love.

thank you. for loving me. 

right now, we could use all the love we can get. 

you get scared, and you get mean.

is this how you want to spend the time you have left? always looking over your shoulder?

you’re giving me a headache instead of having my back.

it’s just, sometimes i know what i want, i just don’t know how to say it.

the only feelings that anyone cares about are yours. 

people keep dying around me.

i feel really lucky to have you. you’re my rock.

the end is none of your business.

i like you exactly the way you are.

i’m so sick of feeling different from everyone else.

after “fuck you,” i don’t have much.

i think about you too much.

i don’t think about you.

i’m not scared. i’m just realistic.

it feels like i’ve been starting forever.

no one cares about the best player on the worst team.

i’m tired of losing. i just don’t know what to do.

that’s hopelessly romantic. and this isn’t hopeless.

i haven’t been happy all year. why start now?

i’m sorry i can’t turn off my feelings whenever you want.

seems like everything i do hurts your feelings.

i care about you. i just don’t know how to prove it.

i like who i am in your eyes. i like how you see me.

i’m not sure i like myself in a relationship.

i’m way easier to replace.

when it ends, it’ll hurt.

the right thing is just to be here with you.

death is not beautiful, it’s final.

i keep failing everyone, and i don’t know what to do.

i don’t feel sad. i feel numb.

i ask people if they’re all right too much.

you never needed me. you needed someone.

i made myself sick to make you feel better.

this whole time i thought it was dying, but it’s living what scares you

you’re afraid to commit, and i need constant validation. 

you don’t belong here. not after what you did.

there is no mystery here. nothing to avenge.

i made a wish, and it came true, and i couldn’t take it back.

he was a bad person and a worse father. the world is better off without him.

you never know when to stop, do you?

you do whatever it takes to survive. or you die.

you think i didn’t try everything to get back to my family?

[desrter]

“    𝚝𝚑𝚎   𝚓𝚎𝚍𝚒…   𝚝𝚑𝚎   𝚜𝚒𝚝𝚑…   𝚢𝚘𝚞   𝚍𝚘𝚗’𝚝   𝚐𝚎𝚝   𝚒𝚝,   𝚍𝚘   𝚢𝚘𝚞 ?   𝚝𝚘   𝚝𝚑𝚎   𝚐𝚊𝚕𝚊𝚡𝚢,   𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢’𝚛𝚎   𝚝𝚑𝚎   𝚜𝚊𝚖𝚎   𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 :   𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝   𝚖𝚎𝚗   𝚊𝚗𝚍   𝚠𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗   𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑   𝚝𝚘𝚘   𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑   𝚙𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚛 ,   𝚜𝚚𝚞𝚊𝚋𝚋𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐   𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛   𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚒𝚘𝚗 ,   𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚎   𝚝𝚑𝚎   𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝   𝚘𝚏   𝚞𝚜   𝚋𝚞𝚛𝚗 .    ”

#DESRTER.     private .  sel . atton  rand  from  star  wars  :  knights  of  the  old  republic  II    //  est. 2016 - rebooted 2025.    written  by  taylor

[desrter]

is anybody paying attention to the high republic. this baby can fit so many kotor references in it

[ecsile]

𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐓 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒:  𝐊𝐎𝐓𝐎𝐑 𝟐  ————–  personals do not reblog

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[greelin]

brunette man disorder

[greelin]

bisexual brunette man disorder

[desrter]

[ ecsile​. ]

a breeze of truth can either extinguish a fire,  or set the entire forest aflame.  the exile resides within the belief if the former,  and set sights on a clear day for her silver tongued companion.  nar shaddaa was not known for clear days.  ever stepping upon the surface,  tidreen had felt the solid shadows of the city,  the running current of living souls,  the diverse streets cluttered with those with no one left to turn.  ( he was telling her about running here once.  perhaps all these people were running too.  –  but from what? )  like the young girl whose eyes twinkled under the explosions beyond the atmosphere,  killspree finds herself enthralled with the feeling of chaos,  which atton extends an offer to join.  with the riddling crone pressing the ever growing dark threat of the galaxy,  tidreen hadn’t indulged in the rest of the galaxy since her return.  atton looks at her and sees the human below the layers of force destiny,  gives her an escape to simply not think of the pressing mission.  ( or maybe he needed an escape of his own. )  

tidreen stands with her arms crossed beside the loading ramp of a ship that found its way to her.  even giving it away to its rightful owner only proved hazardous,  allowing for the ship to reside again in her custody.  she’s no captain,  and without atton aboard the ebon hawk,  it truly wasn’t going anywhere.  tidreen considers this before her lips curl.  the charm of his voice,  the shaking jitters,  the way he looked with the city lights surrounding him like an aura.  as if he belongs of this planet.  and atton’s offer is accepted silently,  with the way her body saunters toward him with a giddy smile aboard her lips.  but the fool continues speaking,  and his terms remind her of an earlier conversation.  it would be a lie to say her sunshine smile hadn’t faltered.  ❝  – YOU KNOW,  I THINK I MIGHT ACTUALLY TAKE YOU UP ON THAT. ❞  who knew stirring trouble on the smuggler’s moon could be so exhausting?  arms uncross,  and a single hand rests upon her hip,  chin lifting to expose the nearly perfect smile she’d been fighting to keep.  ❝ WHO KNOWS? MAYBE OUR REPUTATION PRECEDES US,  WE COULD GET FREE DRINKS. ❞  glass half full.  petite form begins toward the docking bay. 

𝙷𝙴 𝙱𝙻𝙴𝙽𝙳𝚂 𝙱𝙴𝚂𝙸𝙳𝙴 𝙷𝙴𝚁  as  they  walk  in  the  direction  of  the  night  scene  ,  and  it’s  easy  to  match  his  pace  with  her  own  despite  the  bredth  of  their  heights  .  easy  to  mold  himself  to  her  aura  .  or  maybe  he’s  always  been  adaptive  .  funny  she  should  mention  reputation  .  there  are  a  few  joints  in  walking  distance  that  he’s  been  musceled  out  of  and  permanately  banned  from  ,  but  that  was  years  ago  .  no  way  they  could  pick  him  out  of  a  line  of  other  lanky  brown  haired  human  males  that  get  tossed  out  of  clubs  the  galaxy  over  .  right  ?      ❝  that’s  the  altruistic  jedi  in  you  talking  .  if  you  expect  any  sort  of  gratitude  from  this  moon  ,  you’re  sorely  mistaken  .  but  don’t  worry  -  i’m  buying  .  ❞    this  last  offer  is  posed  nonchallantly  .  his  gloved  knuckles  inadvertantly  brush  her  arm  as  they  move  in  tandem  ,  and  he  broadens  his  gait  ,  fingers  curling  into  his  pocket  to  light  a  cigarra  instead  .  the  added  scent  is  barely  distinguishable  from  all  the  other  noxious  fumes  that  pollute  the  atmosphere  ,  but  the  familiar  motion  calms  his  agitated  nerves  .    

❝  so  ,  we’ve  got  a  wide  variety  of  options  here  -  seedy  shithole  ,  seedy  shithole  and  uh  ,  shitty  seedhole  .  jedi’s  choice  .  ❞

[ohisms]

↪     𝑫𝑰𝑹𝑬 𝑺𝑰𝑻𝑼𝑨𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵𝑺  .    (   a  collection  of  dire / urgent situation  sentence  &  action  starters .   adjust  phrasing  +  ʳᵉᵛᵉʳˢᵉ  as  necessary .   )

𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐔𝐄 :

hide .   hide now .

shh !!  there’s somebody in the house .

i’m not gonna hurt you !  see ?  look ,  i’m putting down the  [ weapon ] .

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?!

you’re being followed ,  pretend you know me .

stop , stop !  just put the  [ weapon ]  down !

drive ,  just drive fast !

you seriously think i could’ve done this ?

can you walk ?  i need you to walk for me ,  okay ?

let me handle it ,  just go !

what was your plan ??  you could’ve gotten yourself killed !

you’re just going to leave me here ?!

[ name ] ,  can you hear me ?  get out of there !

you knew and you didn’t tell me ?!

don’t you know how dangerous this is ?

you’re not going to shoot me .

move and you die .

i’m gonna come back for you ,  do you hear me ?

we have to stop the bleeding .

can you see how many fingers i’m holding up ?

i just want to go home !

don’t move a fucking muscle .

if it weren’t for you ,  we wouldn’t be in this mess .

i almost DIED back there ,  and you’re laughing ?

you’re only making this worse for yourself .

you think this is a joke ?

if i go down ,  i want you to run .

we’re gonna die ,  so what’s the point ?

this was the ONE thing i told you not to do .

i can’t promise we’re going to make it out of here .

where’s your first - aid kit ?!

just calm down and find your phone ,  we need to call the police .

someone’s been stalking me .

just listen to me for once !

i didn’t think you had it in you .

put the gun down ,  and kick it over here .

we can’t stick around here ,  let’s go .

kiss me before we die .

do whatever you need to do ,  hurry .

i can’t breathe ,  i can’t -

please ,  please  -  let me in ,  there’s someone -

i’m gonna give you one last chance .

you have to believe me ,  i didn’t do this !

run ,  and don’t look back .

this is real ,  i’m real .  look at me .

take this .  it’ll keep you safe .

follow my instructions very closely .

put your hands where i can see them .

you can’t just let me die !

i think  …  i think i need a doctor .

we need to get out of here ,  come on .

no ,  this isn’t it .  we’re getting you out of this .

you panicking is not going to help us right now .

𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 :

[ GETAWAY ]  sender acts as a getaway driver for receiver .

[ MEDIC ]  sender arrives on receiver’s doorstep ,  badly bleeding .

[ HIDE ]  sender and receiver hide from a threat together .

[ HUSH ]  sender clasps a hand over receiver’s mouth to silence them .

[ DRAG ]  sender physically hauls receiver to safety .

[ RIGHTS ]  sender calls receiver from a police precinct .

[ REALITY ]  sender helps receiver through an episode of derealization .

[ SHELTER ]  sender and receiver must find shelter from a storm  .

[ ARMED ]  sender brandishes a  [ gun / knife ]  at receiver .

[ CRASH ]  sender and receiver survive a  [ car / bike ]  crash together .

[ SEARCH ]  sender barges into the hospital demanding to see receiver .

[ BACKUP ]   sender calls receiver panicking after committing a crime .

[ CORNERED ]  sender menacingly backs receiver into a corner .

[ UNEXPECTED ]  receiver comes home to find sender already inside .

[ BREATHE ]  sender helps receiver get through a panic attack .

[ BADGE ]  sender and receiver flee from the cops together .

[ STRANDED ]  sender and receiver become stranded in the woods .

[ EMBRACE ]  sender kisses receiver thinking it’ll be the last time .

[ STRANGER ]  sender can’t remember who receiver is after an injury .

[ TOKEN ]  sender gives receiver a lucky charm before they go into battle .

[ CHOICE ]  receiver has to choose between sparing their own life or the sender’s .

[catboyranulf]

Atton: How did you even live with yourself after Malachor? Is that why you went back to the Jedi Council? Hoping they'd kill you? Wasn't it? Maybe you thought they'd forgive you. Sure you might have thought they'd execute you, but Jedi don't kill, do they? At least not their prisonners. Maybe you were counting on it when you went back in chains. So you got off easy, you were exiled, brushed under the cargo ramp, another dirty little Jedi secret. I'll tell you-- all those Jedi at Malachor? They deserved it. Every last one of them. Because Jedi lie, and they manipulate, and every act of charity or kindness they do, you can drag it out squirming into the light and see it for what it is. The galaxy doesn't need Jedi arrogance or Jedi hyprocrisy anymore. The Jedi, the Sith… You don't get it, do you? To the galaxy, they're the same thing, just men and women with too much power, squabbling over religion while the rest of us burn. At least, the Sith are honest about what they're killing for, the Jedi are pacifists except in times of war, they're teachers except when it comes to telling their students the truth. And when they save you, it's only so you can suffer more.

[desrter]

@ecsile​

[desrter]

happy birthday kotor 2 🥳

[desrter]

hi, i'd like to talk to you about your ship's extended warranty

c’mon lemme shoot ‘em in the back, no one has to know.

[risahmed-deactivated20181109]

[crunchyncrumbly]

Unproductive team building exercises for the kotor 2 gang (and yes, I gave Mical a goatee bc why not)

Also unrelated, I’m open for commission! (DM me if you want more info/ are interested)

[desrter]

[ ecsile​ ]

❝  — NO,  NO,  I KNOW.  I JUST THINK YOU GENERALIZE,  EVEN THOUGH DROIDS ARE LITERALLY PROGRAMMED TO DO SPECIFIC THINGS.  LIKE ASSASSINATE.  THOSE,  THAT’S FINE,  YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU WANT TO THOSE,  I WON’T STOP YOU. ❞

❝    those  ,  as  opposed  to  the  ones  that  are  rolling  and  floating  around  our  ship  ,  you  mean  .  look  ,  i  get  it  ,  i  get  it  .  i  won’t  touch  a  wire  on  their  empty  metal  heads  ,  so  long  as  they  stay  out  of  my  way  .  i  just  don’t  trust  them  ,  and  neither  should  you  .    ❞