resilience-tinged saccharine

vent blog!!!!!! she/they minor. if you know me no you don't!!!! warning possibly triggering content um. in recov!!!! from an-r

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[piperclouded]

something wrong with me disorder

(THIS IS NOT A MUD this is meant to describe people's everyday experiences ty)

can be shortened to "something disorder"

a flag for when there's definitely something wrong with you but you have no damn clue what it is! or if you do know what it is, you're not diagnosed. inclusive of all self diagnosed and undiagnosed people, and disabilities of any sort, both physical and mental/emotional.

the purple stripes describe when you feel really bad and "oh yeah there's definitely something wrong with me lol"

the orange stripes describe when you're feeling better and "there's nothing wrong with me i'm just faking"

the black stripe describes a flareup, meltdown, crash, breakdown or shutdown

[detachedfromthepresent]

STAWPPP witht he weight loss talk. literally stop

[goldcrescent]

and not to sound like a conspiracy theorist but another reason I hate the return of 2000’s th*nspo shit is bc starving does make women frail and has longer term consequences like early osteoporosis, brittle bones/teeth, insomnia, ect. Your muscles will start eating themselves. It also makes you extremely emotional and severely lowers your capacity for critical thinking not bc you’re a girl but because your brain isn’t getting any fucking nutrients so idk I just feel like its very convenient that every time there’s an uptick in fascist rhetoric and women’s rights are being stripped suddenly it’s peak fashion for women to be starving, weak, and exhausted

[yourfavisproendo]

All the eeveelutions are pro Endo!

All the eeveelutions are pro endo!

[anglaised]

i feel like a bitch cracking down on it but after all ive seen working in this field i have almost no tolerance for the “perma skinny no eating” culture invading everything, u r literally giving urself brain damage, u need to get help, u r damning urself to torture when u become old, im gripping ur shoulder eat the fucking cupcake

[tornprince]

One thing about getting a job after months of being stuck in my house is I forgot how frequently people just talk about counting calories and starving themselves and stuff. Fucked up....I'm eating cookies and ice cream and slapping my bellyyyyyyy

[detachedfromthepresent]

i like someone a LOT -> i attach myself to them -> they get annoyed -> they distance themselves -> i panic -> i attach myself to them more -> they get more annoyed & start to dislike me -> they take more distance -> i panic more and acknowledge this but can't help attaching myself due to the hole in my heart that will only fill itself by their presence -> attach myself even more -> they get annoyed

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if it's a control thing why do i keep doing it after i've lost control and if it's an approval thing why do i keep doing it after i don't have approval anymore and if it's a health thing why do i keep doing it even though it's destroying me and if it is a pleasure thing why do i keep doing it even though it brings me no pleasure

[calware]

i really love this genre of image

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tried to tell her chickened out again

[dumplinglove]

[looking into the mirror and grpping the bathroom counter and visibly shaking] i must not count calories. calorie counting is the happy-and-healthy-life killer. calorie counting is the big death that brings bad vibes and hurt to urself and those u love. i will eat the foods and not mentally add up the numbers. i will permit the food to pass thru my digesstive system and feed my cells and fuel my brain. and when it has gone past I will feel energised and healed. where the calories have been counted there will be nothing. Only I will remain

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for me

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thing s egetinng Bad again need to inevst in mindfulness and healing and therpay

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bad moment i think. need to talk to someone but i obviously don't have the courage so i think we're just gonna be stuck in limbo. shaking my head distractions and escapism here i come.

[detachedfromthepresent]

so i DID start trying to properly recov and i DID somewhat succeed am def still recoverING but it's going. well! mostly not tracking cals because like what the fuck my body nees a different amount of energy every day and my daily intake should NAWT be the same every fucking day also my body is messed up in terms of like. metabolism and hunger cues and shit probably so. idk what im trying to say but like. it's going pprettyyy well sometimes im confused sometimes im afraid im overeating sometimes my brain goes whatthefuck but. fighting thru it <3<3

[detachedfromthepresent]

outsider in my own skin intruder within my kin