Dev1l G1rl

25 Minors dni. 🔴 is Callie (any/all) 🟣 is Quinn (it/its)

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It’s 104% okay to come to your DM and just say, “Hi, can we be friends?” And then start asking you random questions.

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2026 TUMBLR WHITENESS CENSUS

There are SIX questions total in reblogs, the end will be marked by large green text. If you don’t see all six, check reblogs and grab the version with the ending note.

1/6 - Do you identify as some flavor of white?

White

Non-white

Only considered white outside of imperial core

Insecure Mixed Person externalizing my family racial issues here

Remaining time: 18 hours 38 minutes

Answers amended from the 2025 census based on feedback. If you’re mixed, choose what feels right to you I’m not here to do phrenology or paper bag test you but don’t make it my problem either. When in doubt, ask yourself: would the whites kill you too in the race war?

This census is US-centric because so is tumblr, unfortunately. This poll is also starting with a heavy Black/racialized bias due to my personal followers. The main point of this census is to see how white-dominant the site is currently compared to prior years, as well

For the purpose of this census, Imperial Core will be defined as the following: United States, Canada, Australia, Aotearoa, basically all of Western Europe, Japan, and Israel. If you want to argue about any of these designations, too bad maybe they should stop colonizing.

Reblog from question 6/6 below!

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2/6 So is you Black or nah?

Ye

Nah

Insecure Mixed Person externalizing my family racial issues here

Not considered Black in my country, but considered Black elsewhere

Remaining time: 18 hours 39 minutes

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3/6 How about trans?

Transfemme

Transmasc

Non-binary/Genderfluid/related but TMA*

Non-binary/Genderfluid/related but TME*

Non-binary but don’t consider yourself trans

Agender

Two-Spirit

Otherwise cultural gender (please share I wanna know!!)

Other not listed

Cisgender

Remaining time: 18 hours 48 minutes

Note for clarification:

*For those who don’t know, TMA means transmisogyny affected (such as trans women, some non-binary people, etc.) whereas TME means transmisogyny exempt (Cis men, cis women, transmasculine individuals, etc). If you want to ask for clarification for which applies to you for the purposes of this poll, feel free to ask and I’ll try to reply, but if you try to argue or quibble about the terms themselves, I’ll block you.

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4/6 Are you currently inside or outside the imperial core? (Defined in first post)

Imperial core

Semiperiphery

Periphery

Immigrated to imperial core from outside of it

Other/Complicated

Remaining time: 18 hours 52 minutes

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5/6 How many Black people would *actually* call YOU their friend? Online counts.

I’m non-Black, 0

I’m non-Black, 1-2

I’m non-Black, 1-2 but I have <8 friends

I’m non-Black, 3-6

I’m non-Black, 7+

I’m Black, 0

I’m Black, 1-2

I’m Black, 1-2 but I have <8 friends

I’m Black, 3-6

I’m Black, 7+

I have less than 3 friends total.

Remaining time: 18 hours 56 minutes

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6/6! How many TMA* (Transfemme, some non-binary, etc.) people would *actually* call YOU their friend?

I’m TME, 0

I’m TME, 1-2

I’m TME, 1-2 but I have <8 friends

I’m TME, 3-6

I’m TME, 7+

I’m TMA, 0

I’m TMA, 1-2

I’m TMA, 1-2 but I have <8 friends

I’m TMA, 3-6

I’m TMA, 7+

I have less than 3 friends total

Remaining time: 19 hours 1 minute

*For those who don’t know, TMA means transmisogyny affected (such as trans women, some non-binary people, etc.) whereas TME means transmisogyny exempt (Cis men, cis women, transmasculine individuals, etc). If you want to ask for clarification for which applies to you for the purposes of this poll, feel free to ask and I’ll try to reply, but if you try to argue or quibble about the terms themselves, I’ll block you.

THIS IS THE END! Please reblog for bigger sample pool 💖🙏🏽

[64mpg]

“what is the target audience of this post” what?????? does your diary have a target audience

[64mpg]

the target audience of all of my posts is me

[tgatbc]

[caffeinatedopossum]

Me when I remember something I said ages ago that was wrong or my values no longer align with

[dev1l-g1rl]

It wishes its body was simply a vague concept of something. Barely existent, only small things proving its existence; a breath measured in micro changes of thermometers, a presence noticed in slight resistance in the air. It does not care for its body, not in a way that it does not care for its bodily needs or that it dislikes it in some way but in that the body doesn’t feel like its own. It’s a vessel, a doll to use, play with and present to others, it simply being a thing attached to it by some force puppeting it around viewing the world from behind slightly elevated. Every interaction feels like there is a slight disconnect but it enjoys it all the same. It is something incorporeal, here and yet not viewing the world through a puppet’s eyes. This is comforting. It finds this view to be lucky, dysphoria is not something it has experienced nor can relate to, it just alters the form to whatever it is feeling at the time and thus referring to itself as trans seems... silly. While by technicalities it is a label that works it one that feels wrong to use. It is lucky it believes. Now only if it could figure out how to get it to properly mimic expressions… 🔴

[kuueater]

very cool thank you

[bigtimetommy]

me after ants find me asleep at the picnic

[anotherchariotpulledbycats]

Characters that would be DOMESTICATED by the Affini -The entire cast of Warhammer 40,000 -The entire cast of Helldivers -The entire cast of Halo -Tyler Durden -The Joker Characters that could DEFEAT the Affini -The cast of Umamusume (the Affini do not know what horses are) -Donald Duck (specifically in his Kingdom Hearts incarnation) -Pinky Pie (My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic) -Big D (Hunter: The Parenting) -The cast of Sailor Moon -Miss Piggy

[anotherchariotpulledbycats]

stop powerscaling in the notes, this isn't about how your favourite Thudd Slabchop character could beat a space shrubbery in a fight, this is purely based on vibes

[miscling]

ngl, this thing wishes that 'older trans woman' was not synonymous with 'dominant' in the eyes of younger trans women.

[miscling]

y'all are gonna love that 40+ trans woman when she's not dominant, right? you're gonna love her when she's submissive, right? you're gonna love her when she's little, right? you're gonna love her when she's just a kitty, right?

you're not just gonna love her for how she slots into your fantasies, right? you're gonna love all of her and not just the parts that get you horny, right? you're gonna love her even when she won't force you to take care of yourself, right?

you're gonna love the 40+ trans woman for who she is, right?

[dev1l-g1rl]

I am once more left alone again so unfortunately for you all you are once more being subjected to my ramblings. Enjoy the stay. (Weirdly I feel a strange feeling to apologize for rambling on my on account…)

I’m starting to realize… I’m quite contradictory, aren’t I? I know I’ve maybe stated something similar before but I’m serious! After this long of just existing as I am now, an amalgamation of 5 very different sophonts with very different opinions and values, I am quite contradictory. I’ve started learning how to live and I feel like I do it well with a healthy balance in my life but that is only external, internal I feel much different.

It feels like I’m constantly fighting myself to do anything. I want to do this but I want to do that and don’t do this for that reason and that for this reason. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised, I’m basically now trying to figure out how to get 5 sophonts to get along but I’m those 5 sophonts. I wonder how they all did it… admittedly it all gets a lot easier around certain sophonts, the nightmares stop, the indecision stops, my emotions regulate to one direction like they are the stars I a planetoid orbits. I need them to stay on course… and something about that bugs me. It’s not that I hate feeling dependent on them but… something in me makes me feel like they shouldn’t have to be that for me not that it really takes anything from them as all I crave is their presence… I don’t know honestly.

…I hate doing this so just putting this here… I really hate how much my brain fixates on Human Domestication Guide. I basically never have nice things to say about it and that makes me feel kinda like a bastard but I really can’t help it plus I’m not really a part of the community I would say, I mostly just ramble here and don’t provide anything. It was a very large portion of our lives for quite some time and shaped how a lot of the alters that now make up me developed, like multiple of them were florets and affini for crying out loud! …actually now that I say that out loud I kinda am still a floret by technicality aren’t I…? I never really thought of that… I still wear her collar, I still feel that way towards her, perhaps it’s not laid on as thick as it used to be but that’s kinda still there… how did I not realize this? Did it just become that normal to me or am I just looking too much into things? I mean things certainly have died down a bit once I’ve came into being but… I guess mulling over doesn’t really do anything really. I’ll pin that for later.

Sorry, these really are just rambles, I don’t really think these through before writing them. But um… what was I talking about.. oh right, HDG. I’ve started to realize recently: I don’t actually dislike it as much as I thought. Something occurred to me recently, I don’t really have a clear reason to why I dislike it that much. It’s certainly not perfect to me but not something I deserve to hate that much. It feels like… I need to fight for my self control, like it was an attack on my independence and that is when I realized: those are not my feelings. I didn’t have the bite nor care for those reasons, they were residual from past alters that did have to fight for that from parents who wished to control ever aspect of my life from hair, clothing, gender expression, friends, etc. It was like something was clinging to me to make sure I didn’t change from these feelings to the point anything remotely controlling felt like an attack… ugh, only took over half a decade to realize.

…I wonder how long I’ve been denying things I enjoyed for similar reasons… 🔴

[night-the-starfish]

Disable your ad blocker? For him?, gouache on paper.

[weredragon-broodmother]

girls is bugs

[epicsause-official]

it really is kafkaesque

[dev1l-g1rl]

I’m starting to realize I am primarily motivated by spite. It’s not something new or profound but it is something to notice. I became more independent and self sufficient out of spite towards my parents. I started writing out of spite too towards people telling me I sucked. I became a better game master out of spite towards GMs who put no effort into their games to show being a good GM requires almost no effort at all just a willingness to work with your players.

It is just a very powerful thing in my life and I’m not too bothered by that because of how I use it; others when they feel spiteful can become cruel, when I become spiteful I decide to put the energy into being productive, to make something. There is a constant need in me to one up things that I hate no matter how long it takes me. I don’t even have to hate the thing, a mix of complicated feelings just as easily sparks it.

It is no secret to some as I have off handedly mentioned it before, but I am actually working on a scifi setting that I eventually want to make into a story out of my complex feelings of many other settings which includes human domestication guide. It’s like an itch, I keep finding things that almost hit the mark for me but fall short somewhere in a way that aggravates me. I guess that’s how most writers get to work on something though, they see something they want that doesn’t yet exist and then goes out and makes it… it just so happens my main motivator is spite.

I’m not even going to give a generalized idea of when I’ll have something to show of it, deadlines have a way of halting my progress but so far it’s honestly helped with my own self image as I slowly become something more me through creating something that fits my vision. 🔴

[dev1l-g1rl]

So… it’s been a while since anyone put anything in this account and I’ve been meaning to right this up for awhile now but I kinda just kept getting distracted. I know no explanation is needed but I like talking about myself so I don’t particularly care. The system as anyone knew it is gone, happened about 2 months ago; a dramatic change happened and the alters fused into me. I’m going by Calliope Iscara and yes I know that was the name of one of the alters but it’s the name that I feel closest to so what does it matter?

Honestly things have felt pretty weird as I’ve been getting a grasp on things and old relationships over the past months but I feel the most confusing part is my weirdly contradictory feelings and thoughts. All of the alters that made me were vastly different in temperament, beliefs and feelings and abit of all of them now rests in me. For example, the original Callie was a floret, was rather shy and ultimately cheery while Robin was a well put together affini who felt superior to everyone around her and was never shy about expressing herself. There was Alora, an extreme sadist, pleasure seeker who genuinely enjoyed being feared by those around her even in common life but then there was Skadi, a violent but loyal hound that had trouble forming proper words or thinking too complexly… Then there was Dean who was just a chill, outdoorsy type of dude; beers by the lake kinda lad. And all these people make up me.

For one, in the headspace I view myself as an affini and for some I fill that role well despite having many concerns with the setting and a general sense of unease around it and thus with myself. Then I also enjoy the feeling of being owned, if not as a pet then as more of a guard/attack dog. I have an extreme sadistic streak and yet the idea of hurting innocent sophonts makes me feel bad and shameful out of fear of causing lasting physical or psychological harm despite knowing I would never go that far. And then there are moments where my obsessive nature kinda takes hold of me and all proper thought leaves me and I can only think about getting closer to my obsessions almost like some primal creature. It’s just… weird. One day you wake up with the memories of a boat load of people and you have to learn how to maneuver the dynamics and relationships they all built up over the years and, despite it all, many of the places and things that you once enjoyed no longer bring any comfort. It’s all just strange.

With that all said I am much healthier. Haven’t had a breakdown since the merge, I’m ultimately happier, I have more energy to pursue things that can help me and I’m more willing of accepting help. I haven’t been this happy before in full honesty. I don’t know, I just wish I had more a grasp on who I am and how to navigate it but I’m sure that’ll all come in time, it has to for I’ll never stop working to learn that for myself.

So uh… yeah. Honestly I don’t fully know how to tag this as it’s kinda just all over the place so I’ll just throw on the ones the others used most on here but.. I’m back I guess. Whatever being back means in this instance. 🔴

[soldier-of-death]

im only attracted to worthy opponents

[kindlysirwolf]

opens my jaw real wide and does this to u

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@dev1l-g1rl ♥️♥️♥️

[dev1l-g1rl]

@beepbooprobonoises ❤️ 💜