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I always tell my self I will never be ready 

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I took 8 grams of shrooms 2 months after taking 6 thefirst time I did them I was severely depressed, Like I could not get out of bed I was high medicated with anti depressants and one day I woke up and said fuck it what do I have to loose so I took the 6 grams and tripped hard, After months of reading how it suppose to help and maybe it was just the thought behind all the research I read. I saw a change, I got off medication and changed my daily routine, went back to work and things started to get better but depression is like a circle you always end up where you started, despite the chemical change in my brain I still ended up back where I began so I took them again. I always feel different afterwards my mind was boggled before I took them so I have nothing to loose. My depression has changed my character I am not the same person and I miss my old self I am trying to find myself but it’s been well over a year and I don’t know if I will ever find of fill the lost void I have inside, no matter how much I think about it I’m not entirely convinced it’s worth finding anymore, because this cycle no matter how far you come you always end up in the same place where you began.

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Everyday Disatisfaction

That restless feeling inside wanting to embrace greatness but sabotaging and holding yourself back out of fear. the world is a scary dark place where you will be judged based on social status, Social status acceptance creates fear. How are we suppose to embrace our true potential when social society points the finger at what we have and don’t have. it’s a struggle everyday being accepted. We say were great loving people but others feel unloved and not welcome. I struggle everyday searching for my place in this world for the fear of not being accepted

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Someday’s I get emotional blockage in your throat like you might start crying if pushed over the edge. The mind is a scary place , overthinking and worrying creates unnecessary depression.  

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Before I die.

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Sucks when you know your always someones second choice.

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🖤💣

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photo credit Who’s a book lover?🙋

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I want a room like this.

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Don’t see yourself as weak just because you handle pain differently.

Poets Love Her (via poetsloveher)

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Benjamin Alexander Prescott | @itsbigben

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Love yourself

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I want to drop acid and eat an endless amount of mushrooms and get lost in the forest. 💀

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Thoughts today

 Chronic depression has changed my life for the worst, everyday I work hard to be better than the day before but I never see any satisfying results, nothing is ever good enough no matter what you do. The constant cycle of life is so hard to balance with this illness, everything feels harder than it is. I feel so broken inside, my head spins and my thoughts wander. I don’t feel good enough for the world.

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I feel like an arrow being shot upward through water, all the pressure before breaking the surface and reaching an all time high before falling back down again.

The cycle of getting back up only to fall once again.

What is the point?