Sleep To Escape

At night, Thoughts fly (I'm not going to lie, his where I post stuff that's not healthy, I do this as a coping mechanism with hopes of reaching out)

[periperi-the-exotic]

she screm

[goodenoughforjazz]

[feraligatr]

[boneliness]

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

nb people are members of the fae

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

reblog if you’re nb, a member of the fae, or support nb fae people

[devious-freedom]

It's a Long Time

To deprive yourself of such great feelings of happiness is known by many. Some by choice, others don't have it. I'm in the perilous fencing match with my myself. Except, the sabres are not blunted and the points scored are scars inflicted. I've spent a 5 minute period huddled in a ball, squeezing a stuff plush, just trying to cry. Some utterance that will wake the person in the next room. I don't want to wake them actually, just the thought of someone coming and acting as a comforter when they don't know I'm down but can sense it. I hate complaining, I seriously do. It's honestly repulsive to my mind set. I was taught not to, I have everything anyone could want. Love, food, shelter, the essentials to a happy life. I even started school, but something holds me back from enjoying it all. Myself? Fuck yeah I know it's myself. But I'm learning.

[devious-freedom]

They're playing fire flies at the airport and I had to sit my ass right back down. It's 4 in the morning

[the-writers-small-corner]

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[devious-freedom]

The worst part of depression, is the lack of motivation to do activities that you truly love to do.

I remember driving all night just to see a friend, no matter the cost. Those nights never ceased to hinder my positive outlook on life.

I remember eating food and genuinely enjoying the tastes and smells..

I remember nothing all at the same time, just as a thick fog clouds my memories. Allowing light to sail through but never a clear picture.

I remember having energy to do what I wanted with my life! Now, I can't help but feel the ever pressing need to just sleep. Maybe the next will be better.

All I do now is try, sometimes not because I want to, not because it keeps me up at not thinking about the people I'd hurt if I didn't. My own pain may be a lot now, but I can never hurt another with it. And I guess that's what makes it so hard to talk about. I don't want to let people see what I'm feeling or what I feel I've become because I can't watch their faces contort. Whether it's advice, or another tear shed, all I can think about is my bed. My room, my dog, my music, and how I feel I've lost it all. All at the same time. I have so many people that care. So much good, wholesome, advice and support. But, in my debt, or lack of revenue, I found myself pressing forward alone. I know that I'm not, but yet here I am, venting on a platform set for the world to see. Searching for an answer to a question I know is there but don't remember.

*sighs*

I miss being able to feel happy for longer than an hour. If even that. Peace of mind is all I strive for. And even in sleep I awake from night terrors. It's not easy, but I hope that I can still help others and myself. Even if I'm currently not in a good State of mind.

[carbysorangeshirt]

i don’t think anyone fully understands how iconic of a film the princess diaries truly is. everything in that film is iconic. the apartment/firehouse. the scooters as a method of transportation. “get off the grass” in 4 languages. “please don’t crush my soy nuts.” the mustang. the weird neighbor who writes poetry. the m&ms on the keyboard and the pizza. “it’s a wango?” lily’s otter backpack. the whole paolo makeover sequence. every foot pop. stop me i could go on forever the princess diaries is so iconic it’s on the same level of iconography as star wars (1977)

[pennythought]

‘WAIT WAIT FOR ME - not you i don’t even know you’

the power of gravity on cars

‘well, this is as good as it’s gonna get’

corn dogs

‘i can’t do this i’m a girl’ ‘what am i, a duck?’

ice cream attack

‘Voltaire, hair. I, personally, would like to learn about Voltaire.’

‘no. joe.’

‘Gupta. mhm. mhm. mhm - the queen is coming’

‘the elegant European woman didn’t stay for tea. but the promise of tomorrow hung in the air’

‘courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something is more important than fear’

[strongwomenandstrongcoffee]

“This is punishment for driving without a licensed adult”

[sintastein]

metal show w/ bae 🎸

[devious-freedom]

When I learn to take every opportunity, is when I'll truly grasp my own strength and limits. Failures and successes included

[sizvideos]

[spankingmackenzie]

I needed to see this gifset today..

[tobiasxva-deactivated20170810]

fucking amen

[nakomahs-moved-blog]

#OTP

[archivistsrock]

Make Me Choose: →  Anonymous asked​: Matt Bomer: wearing a shirt or shirtless? 

[flowrfeast]

Harry Styles Concert Ticket Giveaway!

hiiii! so i’m going to be giving away 3 tickets for harry’s concert in nashville on june 12th! they are in section 310, row B, seats 15-17.

rules:

•this giveaway is strictly for those who have not been able to afford to buy tickets (which is why i’m not selling them)

•must be following me

•reblog to enter (only one entry per person)

•must be willing and able to attend the concert on june 12th

•must have parent’s permission if under 18 (parents must also be willing to communicate)

•must be willing to meet and communicate with me THE DAY BEFORE the concert to receive tickets

the winner will be chosen on may 29th, giving plenty of time to work out any issues that may occur and to prove that this is a legit thing. please feel free to message me about any questions/concerns at any time!

good luck! ♡

*if the person i choose is unable/doesn’t need all 3 tickets then i am willing to do a second giveaway for the remaining ticket(s). 

[devious-freedom]

Thank you for this opportunity!!

[weareallwickedgods]

TSA Opinions?

I honestly wanted to start a thread for good travel tips. How to stay safe, how to properly travel rather than just going willy nolly to another place. (Which in itself is fun).

[timeladyzelie]

do not allow anyone in your party to bring the unabridged version of les miserables, tsa WILL think it’s a block of heroin or smth and it WILL hold up the line

[devious-freedom]

Too large toothpaste. And when I say too large, I mean regular sized. They'll stop you real quick

[devious-freedom]

Life is about the connections you make and the choice you make to move forward in life and grow

[tilting-windmills-presents]

Tilting Windmills Presents: Just Another School Shooting

We are making a documentary in the hopes to find answers on how to end the school shooting epidemic in the United States. This is very important to us, we feel as thought we must do our part to make schools safe. Tomorrow our crowdfunding page goes live! Please share this and spread the word. This project is so important to us. 

[devious-freedom]

Reminder 👏

I never have had the college experience. I didn't experiment as a freshman, make friends in the same classes, or go out at night to do whatever night people do. And that's okay. It really is. My experiences I've had without college have been just as fruitful. I still learn something new every day, I've made friends that I know will have my back, and I have a decent job. (The pay could better but hey, I'm employed and they treat me well). So, this is a message to me, a reminder, that it's okay that I didn't have the dorm life or make connections in a college. When I push myself to talk to people out in the world, the same will happen. And with the whole experiment thing, it's cool dude, I've got a lot of life left and plan to do it as I grow and mature. I feel like it may be better that way in the long run anyway.

Reminder 👏