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a few things i wanted to say: (1) i am deeply uncomfortable with herorps making all of my blogs known, and sharing personal information about me. this behavior is disgusting; i cannot express how uninvolved i was in the things that happened last week, and i’m still frankly confused why i became their scapegoat. (2) i am deeply uncomfortable with any of the anons who have targeted either pocmuzings or herorps with racist language; they are not okay, and i’m similarly disgusted that they would use my recently passed sister as an emblem or authorisation for racist language; she herself was a woman of color, and it is, regardless, abhorrent. i do not want anyone who i know personally to stoop to their levels, and to those who have used slurs and racist rhetorics against them: i don’t want anything to do with you, and i’m not appreciative or thankful to your support. (3) i am?? still unsettled that herorps continues to perpetuate me as a racist when i.was.not.involved. in the recent incident, and continues to dox both myself and those around me. lastly, (4), you both are blatantly ableist. for continuing, for days on end, making ableist remarks, and continuing to mock, bully, harass me and those i know. that is all i will continue to say on the matter, and btw, crowns is still thriving even if, for the time being, i have decided to take a breather on writing ... and btw, em, we know exactly who perpetuated this.

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Calling a disabled person ableist over “delusions of grandeur” (which is an actual phrase) is ableist btw. Privilege privilege privilege.

#you have no real idea what ableism looks and feels like and as a physical disabled woman I pray you never have to 💕

nrps-archived

all i have to say is that i know my character, the people who actually know me know my character, and Allah knows the content of my heart. i have and will continue to apologize sincerely to anyone who i have ever harmed, but the frequently mean-spirited behavior exhibited in this community—the punitive, hateful disposition of so-called antiracists; the refusal to give grace to those learning in public; the insistence that all behavior regardless of scale stems from malice; the disproportionate responses and mob mentality—means nothing to me. this is a hobby; i, like you, am human and not infallible.

it’s very easy to claim you’re opposed to racism. it’s easy to call other people and things “racist.” it’s easy to toss around words like “colonizer,” even if you yourself should know the weight of them. it’s easy to accuse other people of color, other colonized peoples, of abetting “racism.” it’s another matter entirely to do the incredibly hard, complex work of constructing positive change which can actually address the roots of racism—particularly the messy, unintentional, implicit kinds. that requires patience and judgement, a willingness to listen and differentiate, all skills some people need to practice. i suspect tumblr.com is not the place, currently anyway.

i believe in transparence and honesty, so i’m not going to pretend none of this is happening. i’m not going to ignore the comments and criticism—or excuse those allegations which might have been valid. that being said, i refuse to provide an outlet for those who can’t stomach talking to people directly so they may anonymously deposit the vile, presumptuous things that occur to them. i have felt unsafe in my life—many times, in many different situations, since i was eight years old running to save my mother’s life during a violent attack—and i have never once been made to feel unsafe by a roleplay. perhaps that’s my privilege. if anyone has felt unsafe in crowns, then know this is my reference point, and i’m unspeakably sorry you felt that way. it was never our intention to make anyone feel even uncomfortable for any reason and, by countable numbers, we’ve done a decent job.

i can’t say what decisions will be made about the roleplay in the coming days; there isn’t much by way of specific problems to address in this wave of criticisms. however, i know the priority is our community, as it always is. i imagine the intention among those involved today is to chase everyone off of tumblr entirely—that was the purpose of sharing personal blogs, right? blocking is one thing; hateful messages are more effective because they actually hurt—but i have admittedly been drifting away for a while.

i sincerely hope the people involved find peace and resolution in all of this. i hope that, in the messages you’ve sent and statements you’ve made, you have fed yourself what you need to move on. i hope it has been productive and healing, though i can’t imagine from my own perspective how that might be the case.

in sum, this has been a kind of journal entry—perhaps more productive and healing that i expected!—and i feel better now, able to sleep. if you’ve decided that you can’t stand to see my posts or be associated with me any longer, then i get it; i won’t begrudge you unfollowing or blocking me. this blog is more a storage space for me, anyway.

#i love you 🥺💕

me waking up to being called ableist. guess I’ll chuck my walker into the garbage 😞

#me: and another thing—

mm, anyway. i’m not going to continue commenting on the incidents that took place on this blog tonight, though i am nauseatingly disturbed and disgusted by them; i’ve turned anon off and if there’s an issue you want to hash out or ask me about, you can find yourself in my dms. uhhh literally attending my sister’s funeral this week, and don’t need to involve myself in this any more than i have, b/c anything i attempt to say is just going to be misinterpreted by those unwilling to hear it!

#death tw #racism tw #pls .. point me out the ra/cist members in crowns #gn

dailyborgia

LUCREZIA BORGIA AND ALFONSO D’ESTE WEDDING IN BORGIA

#icb tilda made me like her #borgia

abolishing racism by baselessly attacking poc AND one of the most diverse period rps? okay delusions of grandeur and incredible ignorance .....

#society if ...

ivory towers?? abolish the rph class?? girl, you were racist and enabled other racists?? you’re acting like you’re being cyberbullied, not called out for racism. give me a break.

first of all, don’t talk down to me, and don’t you dare call me ‘girl.’ secondly, i was no way involved in the recent incident that was privately dealt with in crowns––meaning i have no room to speak on it. so, no, i’m not a racist, and by the way, who the fuck do you think you are attacking our writers of colours behind the anonymous feature? we’ve defended our roleplay, our members, and our admins time and time again with statistical information about our roleplay, heartfelt apologies for areas where we lacked critical thought, and actual changes put into fruition by complaints brought to us, as admins, in the past. however, all those have been met with rphs like herorps doxxing our members, and causing them to bear the brunt of anonymous attacks that are, by the way, HIGHLY microaggressive in nature. check your fucking privilege before you come at the throat of our writers of colour, and don’t you dare ever reach out to me or my friends like this again. say it with your chest or fully fuck off.

#tbd.#racism tw #Anonymous

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things i would like: as a black rper, to not deal with the micro aggression of being assumed to be white, to not belong in certain spaces like history rps or I am racist and not be attacked for finally being able to write black characters with nuance in a historical sentence

#nor could i comment on the explicit racism those messages entail #but just know – this toxic little cabal is point blank racist. it is disgusting. it is intolerable.

lucytara

#cannibalism tw

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COOL NOW I’M CRYING

if-i-was-a-wyrm

for those that, like me, have no idea what this is referring to:

january 8, 2011, Gabrielle Giffords and several other government officials were attacked at an open forum in Tuscan. Her husband, Mark Kelly, was given false information that she had died in the shooting, but soon learned that she survived.

Mark Kelly is a senator from Arizona, and during the January 6th nazi riots, Giffords was in the same position of concern for her husband’s safety.

attackfish

She wasn’t simply attacked, or a government official. She was a US congressswoman, meeting with her constituents, and she was shot by a right wing gunman. Six people, including a federal judge and a nine year old girl were killed. Gabby Giffords sustained brain trauma, from being shot point blank in the head, and had to spend years relearning how to walk and talk. Her husband, Mark Kelly, ran for senate in direct opposition to the right wing terrorist violence that nearly took his wife from him, and the kind that yesterday he himself faced.