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I love Thistle from dungeon meshi and will also be posting some old the owl house fanart, mostly of the Collector
#digitalisdraws <— art tag
#not my art <— not my art
#adult thistle <— I see him as a teenager but sometimes people make art/post about him interpreting him as an adult so posts that are like that are tagged with adult thistle
curse of strahd dnd (dungeons an dragons) oc, Luric (they/them).
they’re a dusk elf! no curse of strahd spoilers please; we haven’t finished our campaign yet.
they really miss their kid and wife…
Their design is still a work in progress. I keep changing my mind on whether to make their skin dark blue, black or brown… I like this drawing though! might put it on their art fight page when I make it.
alternative designs for luric. the right one has grey/white hair because they are an older elf (500-something years old when elves live to around 700 I believe). no curse of strahd spoilers please!
curse of strahd dnd (dungeons an dragons) oc, Luric (they/them).
they’re a dusk elf! no curse of strahd spoilers please; we haven’t finished our campaign yet.
they really miss their kid and wife…
Their design is still a work in progress. I keep changing my mind on whether to make their skin dark blue, black or brown… I like this drawing though! might put it on their art fight page when I make it.
curse of strahd dnd (dungeons an dragons) oc, Luric (they/them).
they’re a dusk elf! no curse of strahd spoilers please; we haven’t finished our campaign yet.
they really miss their kid and wife…
Their design is still a work in progress. I keep changing my mind on whether to make their skin dark blue, black or brown… I like this drawing though! might put it on their art fight page when I make it.
thank you for these tags! you are so correct. thistle… such a deeply tragic and interesting character. he wanted to be loved. he is going to save everyone and keep them safe whether they like it or not. no one will leave, not even his enemies, and delgal is just late for dinner (dinner at the table with the soulless husks of the other family members). he will get rid of thieves. pests. everything will be perfect. he is going to save everyone. he is going to save delgal. everything he is is for delgal. everything he does, everything he is. who is he if delgal is gone? who is he now that the demon is eating away pieces of him? to delgal, he is a brother gone mad, to the citizens he is an unhinged tyrant, to the adventurers his death is the key to wealth and glory. to thistle, he is the one that will protect everything. he is his duty.
Thistle (Dungeon Meshi) v. Alan Wake (Alan Wake 2)
Thistle
Alan
Voting ended onApr 22
Propaganda
Thistle:
Thistle: extremely tragic doomed elf. was either abandoned or sold as a small child (in the section of the dungeon meshi adventurer)s bible about elf names it says thistle doesn’t know his bv he was ‘taken’ from his parents too young) and given to the king as a gift. the king was initially disappointed that he was a kid but then took to him and called him a son (but I feel like he probably didn’t see him as a real son, more like a pet or a cute little thing. not a real son). so he was made the court jester.
yeah that little baby elf was taken from his parents to be laughed at because the king wanted an elf to be a cool trophy and make him look powerful but that was the closest thing thistle had to a family now. was either a servant or horrifically enough could have been a slave
he’s the only elf growing up around only tallmen, and the only brown person around white people. he is very lonely except for Prince Delgal, who is like a brother to him. Of course, Thistle becomes intensely attached to Delgal, and Delgal becomes attached to him. Even as Delgal aged past thistle and became an adult while thistle remained a child, delgal looked up to him .
after the first king was assassinated in front of Thistle and Delgal at Delgal’s wedding, Delgal became King and Thistle was made court mage. he was likely a child or teen at this point. thistle also seemed to be an advisor— he was a kid with the weight of a crumbling kingdom on his shoulders.
(DUNGEON MESHI MANGA SPOILERS FROM NOW ONWARDS) plague, famine, enemies on all sides. delgal begged thistle to save his dying son, to them all, so he did: by becoming a dungeon lord.
he put the entire country into the dubgeon to protect them all by using the power of a demon that pretended to be the country’s god. thistle healed everyone, kept them from starvation and death, but nothing was ever enough.
not to mention the demon was eating away at Thistle’s very soul and systematically driving him insane.
Thistle became obsessive and paranoid, struggling with his mental health to the point he canonically self harms. he ended up killing delgal’s son by ripping his soul out for a ‘time out’ and never putting it back, so far gone he couldn’t understand he just killed delgal’s son.
eventually, delgal escaped by possessing his son’s empty body and fleeing to the surface where he turned to dust. his last words promised the kingdom to whoever killed the ‘lunatic magician’.
yes. Delgal, who Thistle tore himself apart for, asked for him to be murdered.
this is getting really long so i’ll be fast about the next bits.
thistle turned a woman into a dragon to make her form more convenient and starved her while genuinely not realising he was starving her, he had wood impaling his limbs while someone told him about how delgal wanted him dead, Thistle scratched himself so bad blood was all over his head, then Laios (MC) explained to Thistle how the kingdom wanted to be free by telling him about how they couldn’t eat.
thistle was too far gone to understand.
he thought they wanted help eating.
eager to help as always he …… put laios in a force feeding plant and planned to do the same to everyone. he happily thought ablout fixing everything and having fun with delgal because!! of course delgal was gonna come back!!
then the demon pounced on him and slowly licked out his soul in a way that feels like he was being violated.
thistle was terrified of disappearing. he was left a husk anyway. thistle then goes into a catatonic state .
he briefly wakes up when ‘delgal’ (who is not actually delgal but yaad his grandson possessing delgal’s empty husk) is holding him and delgal apologises to him.
but it’s not really delgal. delgal never apologises. delgal died asking for thistle to be killed.
thistle very likely died soon after.
he refused to eat because he ‘didn’t need anything anymore’.
the demon had eaten his desires—his hopes and dreams, his desire to see delgal’s face, his desire to not disappear, his blood wnd sweat and tears and fierce love for his kingdom and the closest thing he ever had to a family, even his desire to eat.
to live.
gone.
someone so deeply passionate torn and exploited until he had so little left to give that he couldn’t even keep himself alive anymore.
no more motivation to live.
to make things even sadder—due to implications in the extra materials and manga, it is very likely thistle was under 16 in elf years (under 80) when he stopped aging and so could still be considered a child when he died. he was probably about 12-15 in elf years. even if he isn’t a kid, his story is extremely tragic.
and THAT is why he is the SADDEST SAD BOY. VOTE THISTLE!!: he deserves to win something .also he is 130cm. TINY. that is average 9 yo size, TINYYY
@fleshmesh
@dykemithrun
can i add more propaganda whatever
ive seen a good few fans talk about how thistle subconsciously made falin into a sort of mother figure for himself. thistle never got to really know his own mother as far as we can tell, and given that we dont even know the house hes from its likely he doesnt even remember her. its such a huge part of his backstory that the adults in his life put him in a position where he had to grow up way too fast, and had so much responsibility put solely on his shoulders when he was still effectively a teenager, so it does feel pretty significant for him to have this woman he doesnt even know protect him in the ways that she does while more or less under his control
also this moment is always so heartbreaking to me… in the midst of the demon devouring his desires he was scrambling for delgal (most likely), while in a state of confusion. but delgal is already gone. and the insanity brought on by the demon had pushed everyone else from the kingdom away too. in his last fully conscious moments there was no one he had to reach out to for comfort, except for a near stranger who hed just been trying to kill. he really didnt meaningfully have anyone else left
that combined with all the previously mentioned obvious backstory stuff (trafficked for the purpose of essentially being a prop to make melini look more official, watching someone who was a father figure to him die in a pretty gruesome assassination, all the fruitless waiting for delgal to return when hed died calling for thistle to be killed, the demon slowly driving him insane before eating him in such a horrific way etc etc etc) makes it clear thistle deserves a win imo! his entirely story is so incredibly sad! vote thistle!!
@fleshmesh
Just look how tiny he is in that last panel too
Like throughout the thistle chapters we are realising just how small he is.
The chapters previously used angles to make him appear larger to emphasise his power, but these later chapters frequently show how small he is.
Him walking beside delgal and just reaching his elbow. Delgal enthusiastically hitting him on the back and he almost falls over! Laios carrying Thistle on his back like a backpack
And finally, this last scene.
He looks so tiny beside Marcille. She is so much bigger than him.
He is so powerful but so small.
He is just a kid.
@fleshmesh
Oh, also you know how it is mentioned that the desire/soul eating scene feels like thistle is being violated? That’s because he is. I looked up the definition of sexual assault and it is actual straight up sexual assault because the demon is clearly getting pleasure from doing it and Thistle very clearly is NOT okay
Alan Wake:
A sad wet man of a writer who's stuck in a hell of his own making and he just wants to get home to his wife.
@thesarkycoder
@mageless
Alan deserves this so fucking much. Sopping wet rag of a man who has been scurrying about the torment nexus for n-thousand years. Absolute wreck of a human being.
@icurseyouthomaszane
Alan spent 13 years in a literal hell of his own making to save his wife.
@estelraca
I love Leverage. I love Eliot. But Eliot has his team. He has an opportunity to heal, and love, and support. He's actively working to make the world a better place; to keep more people like him from existing.
Alan? Alan is alone. All those he loves are in danger. Every action he takes to try to fix things makes them worse. Trying to get your life back? Kills a child. Destroys a town. Everyone who knows things talks in riddles to him; everyone who doesn't blames him for powers he doesn't understand and can't control (or that are being controlled by his OCD/anxiety, which... same thing).
Alan is the saddest wet cat of a man who keeps desperately hoping a strong woman will save him, because after fifteen years in the Torment Nexus, memory and sense of self torn asunder, he's pretty damn sure he's not saving himself.
@moose-in-jeans
#PLEASE vote alan he sucks so bad at everything#he's just so sad all the time and doesn't do anything about it besides monologue and touch his typewriter
@kayyymn
#the sadboy tourney#I mean propaganda worked on me in a way that I’m really interested in leverage now#but as for the poll#come on#people write about 13 years but it’s 13 years to the world and us the audience#for him it’s a literal never ending nightmare#bc the sense of time for him is warped he genuinely doesn’t know how long he’s been there#all he knows is he’s trying to escape and he couldn’t do it#try after try after try after try#there’s a sizable portion of fandom that likes to blame alan for lots of things#but ngl I’m pretty surprised he’d managed to keep some type of sense of self after all of this#ps i don’t like people framing it as him being a loser for being stuck in the dark place for so long given how *spoiler* and *spoiler*#were able to navigate it pretty easily#well yes the prison designed specifically for you and unaddressed mental health issues will do that to you#that’s the point ain’t it#alan wake
@cauldronlakefiles
#Sam Lake made his deaths gory and awful so that he could emphasize how much Alan was suffering#NOT so he could lose in the Sad Competition#(Can't remember where he said that so take it with a grain of salt)#But yeah he was trapped in a room#Cut off from the real world and other people for the most part#Except for when he astral projected into his stories (and met Tim hooray)#Had a few fun moments (the musical and Number One Fan)#and I think that's what gets people thinking it was an alright experience#The rest of his time down there was Not Fun#He never slept and was regularly killed in increasingly terrible ways#Went insane when he had long enough time and sense to Contemplate#and presumably lost his memory when he died or blocked it out/disassociated to cope#And the only thing that pulled him out of his deathwish#was Thomas Gaslight Gatekeep Girlboss Seine#terrorizing him with the idea of Scratch harming Alice#VOTE ALAN WAKE#alan wake#alan wake (the man)
@flyingwide
#this might actually be the hardest poll I've ever seen#I love them both so much#BUT I TAKE ISSUE WITH ALAN'S PROPOGANDA#first: you cannot ignore the fact that a supernatural fucking darkness monster#took his wife into its creepy ass clutches#and this man immediately went 'I will throw myself into hell to get her out'#literally something out of myth#I've seen people call him Orpheus but he's Alcestis#(yes this makes Saga Heracles)#(which tracks with the lost child thing)#second: Saga got out of the Dark Place hella fast for the same reason she was able to get through the door to the construction site#she's her daddy's daughter#but Alan is still a wet kitten man#polls
Thistle (Dungeon Meshi) v. Alan Wake (Alan Wake 2)
Thistle
Alan
Voting ended onApr 22
Propaganda
Thistle:
Thistle: extremely tragic doomed elf. was either abandoned or sold as a small child (in the section of the dungeon meshi adventurer)s bible about elf names it says thistle doesn’t know his bv he was ‘taken’ from his parents too young) and given to the king as a gift. the king was initially disappointed that he was a kid but then took to him and called him a son (but I feel like he probably didn’t see him as a real son, more like a pet or a cute little thing. not a real son). so he was made the court jester.
yeah that little baby elf was taken from his parents to be laughed at because the king wanted an elf to be a cool trophy and make him look powerful but that was the closest thing thistle had to a family now. was either a servant or horrifically enough could have been a slave
he’s the only elf growing up around only tallmen, and the only brown person around white people. he is very lonely except for Prince Delgal, who is like a brother to him. Of course, Thistle becomes intensely attached to Delgal, and Delgal becomes attached to him. Even as Delgal aged past thistle and became an adult while thistle remained a child, delgal looked up to him .
after the first king was assassinated in front of Thistle and Delgal at Delgal’s wedding, Delgal became King and Thistle was made court mage. he was likely a child or teen at this point. thistle also seemed to be an advisor— he was a kid with the weight of a crumbling kingdom on his shoulders.
(DUNGEON MESHI MANGA SPOILERS FROM NOW ONWARDS) plague, famine, enemies on all sides. delgal begged thistle to save his dying son, to them all, so he did: by becoming a dungeon lord.
he put the entire country into the dubgeon to protect them all by using the power of a demon that pretended to be the country’s god. thistle healed everyone, kept them from starvation and death, but nothing was ever enough.
not to mention the demon was eating away at Thistle’s very soul and systematically driving him insane.
Thistle became obsessive and paranoid, struggling with his mental health to the point he canonically self harms. he ended up killing delgal’s son by ripping his soul out for a ‘time out’ and never putting it back, so far gone he couldn’t understand he just killed delgal’s son.
eventually, delgal escaped by possessing his son’s empty body and fleeing to the surface where he turned to dust. his last words promised the kingdom to whoever killed the ‘lunatic magician’.
yes. Delgal, who Thistle tore himself apart for, asked for him to be murdered.
this is getting really long so i’ll be fast about the next bits.
thistle turned a woman into a dragon to make her form more convenient and starved her while genuinely not realising he was starving her, he had wood impaling his limbs while someone told him about how delgal wanted him dead, Thistle scratched himself so bad blood was all over his head, then Laios (MC) explained to Thistle how the kingdom wanted to be free by telling him about how they couldn’t eat.
thistle was too far gone to understand.
he thought they wanted help eating.
eager to help as always he …… put laios in a force feeding plant and planned to do the same to everyone. he happily thought ablout fixing everything and having fun with delgal because!! of course delgal was gonna come back!!
then the demon pounced on him and slowly licked out his soul in a way that feels like he was being violated.
thistle was terrified of disappearing. he was left a husk anyway. thistle then goes into a catatonic state .
he briefly wakes up when ‘delgal’ (who is not actually delgal but yaad his grandson possessing delgal’s empty husk) is holding him and delgal apologises to him.
but it’s not really delgal. delgal never apologises. delgal died asking for thistle to be killed.
thistle very likely died soon after.
he refused to eat because he ‘didn’t need anything anymore’.
the demon had eaten his desires—his hopes and dreams, his desire to see delgal’s face, his desire to not disappear, his blood wnd sweat and tears and fierce love for his kingdom and the closest thing he ever had to a family, even his desire to eat.
to live.
gone.
someone so deeply passionate torn and exploited until he had so little left to give that he couldn’t even keep himself alive anymore.
no more motivation to live.
to make things even sadder—due to implications in the extra materials and manga, it is very likely thistle was under 16 in elf years (under 80) when he stopped aging and so could still be considered a child when he died. he was probably about 12-15 in elf years. even if he isn’t a kid, his story is extremely tragic.
and THAT is why he is the SADDEST SAD BOY. VOTE THISTLE!!: he deserves to win something .also he is 130cm. TINY. that is average 9 yo size, TINYYY
@fleshmesh
@dykemithrun
can i add more propaganda whatever
ive seen a good few fans talk about how thistle subconsciously made falin into a sort of mother figure for himself. thistle never got to really know his own mother as far as we can tell, and given that we dont even know the house hes from its likely he doesnt even remember her. its such a huge part of his backstory that the adults in his life put him in a position where he had to grow up way too fast, and had so much responsibility put solely on his shoulders when he was still effectively a teenager, so it does feel pretty significant for him to have this woman he doesnt even know protect him in the ways that she does while more or less under his control
also this moment is always so heartbreaking to me… in the midst of the demon devouring his desires he was scrambling for delgal (most likely), while in a state of confusion. but delgal is already gone. and the insanity brought on by the demon had pushed everyone else from the kingdom away too. in his last fully conscious moments there was no one he had to reach out to for comfort, except for a near stranger who hed just been trying to kill. he really didnt meaningfully have anyone else left
that combined with all the previously mentioned obvious backstory stuff (trafficked for the purpose of essentially being a prop to make melini look more official, watching someone who was a father figure to him die in a pretty gruesome assassination, all the fruitless waiting for delgal to return when hed died calling for thistle to be killed, the demon slowly driving him insane before eating him in such a horrific way etc etc etc) makes it clear thistle deserves a win imo! his entirely story is so incredibly sad! vote thistle!!
@fleshmesh
Just look how tiny he is in that last panel too
Like throughout the thistle chapters we are realising just how small he is.
The chapters previously used angles to make him appear larger to emphasise his power, but these later chapters frequently show how small he is.
Him walking beside delgal and just reaching his elbow. Delgal enthusiastically hitting him on the back and he almost falls over! Laios carrying Thistle on his back like a backpack
And finally, this last scene.
He looks so tiny beside Marcille. She is so much bigger than him.
He is so powerful but so small.
He is just a kid.
@fleshmesh
Oh, also you know how it is mentioned that the desire/soul eating scene feels like thistle is being violated? That’s because he is. I looked up the definition of sexual assault and it is actual straight up sexual assault because the demon is clearly getting pleasure from doing it and Thistle very clearly is NOT okay
Alan Wake:
A sad wet man of a writer who's stuck in a hell of his own making and he just wants to get home to his wife.
@thesarkycoder
@mageless
Alan deserves this so fucking much. Sopping wet rag of a man who has been scurrying about the torment nexus for n-thousand years. Absolute wreck of a human being.
@icurseyouthomaszane
Alan spent 13 years in a literal hell of his own making to save his wife.
@estelraca
I love Leverage. I love Eliot. But Eliot has his team. He has an opportunity to heal, and love, and support. He's actively working to make the world a better place; to keep more people like him from existing.
Alan? Alan is alone. All those he loves are in danger. Every action he takes to try to fix things makes them worse. Trying to get your life back? Kills a child. Destroys a town. Everyone who knows things talks in riddles to him; everyone who doesn't blames him for powers he doesn't understand and can't control (or that are being controlled by his OCD/anxiety, which... same thing).
Alan is the saddest wet cat of a man who keeps desperately hoping a strong woman will save him, because after fifteen years in the Torment Nexus, memory and sense of self torn asunder, he's pretty damn sure he's not saving himself.
@moose-in-jeans
#PLEASE vote alan he sucks so bad at everything#he's just so sad all the time and doesn't do anything about it besides monologue and touch his typewriter
@kayyymn
#the sadboy tourney#I mean propaganda worked on me in a way that I’m really interested in leverage now#but as for the poll#come on#people write about 13 years but it’s 13 years to the world and us the audience#for him it’s a literal never ending nightmare#bc the sense of time for him is warped he genuinely doesn’t know how long he’s been there#all he knows is he’s trying to escape and he couldn’t do it#try after try after try after try#there’s a sizable portion of fandom that likes to blame alan for lots of things#but ngl I’m pretty surprised he’d managed to keep some type of sense of self after all of this#ps i don’t like people framing it as him being a loser for being stuck in the dark place for so long given how *spoiler* and *spoiler*#were able to navigate it pretty easily#well yes the prison designed specifically for you and unaddressed mental health issues will do that to you#that’s the point ain’t it#alan wake
@cauldronlakefiles
#Sam Lake made his deaths gory and awful so that he could emphasize how much Alan was suffering#NOT so he could lose in the Sad Competition#(Can't remember where he said that so take it with a grain of salt)#But yeah he was trapped in a room#Cut off from the real world and other people for the most part#Except for when he astral projected into his stories (and met Tim hooray)#Had a few fun moments (the musical and Number One Fan)#and I think that's what gets people thinking it was an alright experience#The rest of his time down there was Not Fun#He never slept and was regularly killed in increasingly terrible ways#Went insane when he had long enough time and sense to Contemplate#and presumably lost his memory when he died or blocked it out/disassociated to cope#And the only thing that pulled him out of his deathwish#was Thomas Gaslight Gatekeep Girlboss Seine#terrorizing him with the idea of Scratch harming Alice#VOTE ALAN WAKE#alan wake#alan wake (the man)
@flyingwide
#this might actually be the hardest poll I've ever seen#I love them both so much#BUT I TAKE ISSUE WITH ALAN'S PROPOGANDA#first: you cannot ignore the fact that a supernatural fucking darkness monster#took his wife into its creepy ass clutches#and this man immediately went 'I will throw myself into hell to get her out'#literally something out of myth#I've seen people call him Orpheus but he's Alcestis#(yes this makes Saga Heracles)#(which tracks with the lost child thing)#second: Saga got out of the Dark Place hella fast for the same reason she was able to get through the door to the construction site#she's her daddy's daughter#but Alan is still a wet kitten man#polls
