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Often I wonder at my

Own desire for destruction

That sibilant, sensual whisper

I want to die, all lilac-edged

Like my need to self-destruct

Is a field of foxgloves in the spring

When I have spent a winter

Starving

Why is it so hard to remember

The taste of a smile when

The sun disappears

Object permanence impaired

I trace the lines of this

Longing with blistered fingers

I know the forest waits for me

That the sap will run again

archaoism

Darling, I get it. Put it on me and be better off seeking elsewhere what I ain't got. Lover, I shared the depths of me and every time it's too much and I-I know, I should know better by now; when to bow out, when to hold on, when to let go, when to go all in.

Instead I choose to free-fall into the infinite abyss of maybe this time it'll be different.

Searching tirelessly for that Heaven sent and hell bent on being better than I have been, becoming versions of myself I can live with and finally deserve to be loved in return the ways I didn't know how to reciprocate, prior to learning the hard ways: sometimes it's what you let go of that hurts more than what you hold on to. Sometimes it's not.

Lately, don't even know what I've got, don't know what there is to let go of or what there is worth holding onto and if it weren't for the remorse of losing what would've been best while settling for what was worse, it wouldn't be so damn hard for me to just accept some things really just are not meant to be.

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Holy shit is this Audrey Hepburn reincarnated

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I honestly thought that the second I saw this picture

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Kaytranada for Vogue

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Force majeure

There’s no place left in this world where I can go and be without you love as immanence is what keeps you safely nestled in the inkwell of this heart

and it’s true, you were always in my sight underneath all words and clauses, bright as sunshine, the one true force majeure unfolding the future out of my mind

and our fingers, they may still caress the past trace it all upon bare skin, upon our scars all that really matters is this untamed now we mount and ride under the stars

dyinginabedofroses

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Sometimes I don’t know why but I cry Other times I know why I cry and it’s that no matter how hard i try My trying feels like whining and my whining feels like i’m prying what little fleeting happiness some people have left So I try to let my own problems rest, but now I’m restless restless because my memories leave me breathless breathing because somebody told me my life gives them meaning the meaning gets lost to me because my trauma is so demeaning reliving things that leave me teeming with the pain that smothered the old me Hold me, for these things might always control me, console me so maybe I break away from the stoled me, the one who couldn’t break the hold. Maybe one day, I can break out of this mold. But for now I just cry. I cry because I don’t know how much time I’ve spent in my own plight skipping meals and sleeping yet I don’t know why Especially when there’s so many people that want to see me fly Maybe I just need more time. But I still won’t say it, I’m sorry, I just don’t wanna be hated Berated, for this past life makes me feel dilapidated and I don’t want my foundation to crumble over something that’s holding you together, even if barely We all fight to find happiness because it comes so rarely. I’d rather keep to myself just to keep from seeming contrary, Because all these bad thoughts just seem so unfairly pushed onto others. I desperately don’t want anyone to feel smothered They’re trying to be happy, I don’t want them to suffer, just because what’s going on in my head is so cluttered. That’s why sometimes I know exactly why I cry.

shmu-h

I got tired of never seeing love stories that reminded me of myself. so I made one. for myself.

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“I think when I met you, I became myself again. And we stumbled towards this mad world and made sense of it. Together.”

— R.M. Drake

heartofmuse

There is still the thrill of finding you anew

Of discovering your sweet face in the dawn of every new day

Of the butterflies that still fly in my chest every time you say, " I love you."

Of the sweet anticipation of waiting for you and not wanting to sleep just so we can talk a few more minutes more.

Of sharing our worlds and melding them into one

Of the care and devotion that flowers effortlessly in both of us for each other

I love you so much

Sometimes it chokes me up as the words spurt like a torrent of love from my heart and sometimes it sings in the voice of my fingertips as I write you poetry.

I love you everyday a little more,

Every day I discover a new love.

e.v.e.

dillie-dallie

@dyinginabedofroses

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elycwinters

I want to drown in the ocean of your love, so open the floodgates, let me be lost in you. I want to loose myself in the same way I would in a forest or at sea, with no easy way to return nor with an escape route. I’ll forget everything but you.

- Ely C. Winters. | You.