we’ll be alright

dip you in honey so I could be sticking to you

[hexsdexs]

By the way one direction inspired an entire generation of young teens to become artists, readers, writers, musicians, animators. 14 year olds were hacking into security cameras. Do you genuinely understand how hard that is? I literally have a tech degree and i still view hacking as too complicated. 14 year olds were in literal stem to watch one direction buy a bottle of shampoo. They have genuinely altered the courses of so many people's lives in terms of careers and long term hobbies. It was never just the music. I literally started reading by reading fanfiction. I am now a very active reader of many genres. I got a fucking tech degree because i wanted to see how it was done. Like its so unbelievably crazy. And they were massively bullied by the media and the rest of the world. They were ridiculed by the music industry. They were the biggest boyband on the planet and the only one that went as global as they did and they had them parody their own song 3 seperate times. They were never nominated for grammys as a group. They were genuinely never taken seriously and they changed the courses of young womens lives.

[dimpledsmile]

Another strange thing that I am experiencing with this parasocial grief is how I almost feel guilty for “moving on” if that makes sense??

All my social media has been about Liam and One Direction but whenever I try to seek other forms of entertainment - I get this guilt that I should hold onto these tributes and repost/involve myself in tributes about Liam as well.

Like I get so scared that the weeks and months will go by and I will stop caring. Not that I would ever forget about Liam or anything but I know my own life has to continue forward. I know I am still growing up and having to deal with bigger things other than mourning the loss of a member of a boy band and that meant the world to me.

I think selfishly this is the closest the One Direction family has come together, and for reasons so awful, but I selfishly am going to weirdly miss this?? Seeing everyone so active again (myself included), seeing the boys have this reunion that we have waited to sing for, hearing One Directions name back in the media…

I feel so guilty for saying that because obviously the reasons we all are together again is to mourn but I guess I’ll missed this sense of community that is so hard to find out in the real world as an adult.

[eminentzayn]

we will all inevitably log out again for a long period of time to live our own separate lives but i hope and pray that we don't have to log in under the same circumstances ever again.

i hope the next we see each other after a long hiatus on tumblr would be to celebrate a 1d reunion. i really really hope that. till then, know that my blog will be up, waiting for that day to finally come.

i love you all so much.

[dimpledsmile]

❤️❤️❤️

[indiaalphawhiskey]

It’s so odd. I’ve spent the past few days submerged in a low hum of sadness, almost unaware of why I feel this way. The pain is dull enough — or has been made dull enough, because it can’t be explained out loud to those who don’t get it — that I can manage.

Manage to go to work. Manage to make lunch. Manage to fold laundry. Perfunctory things. Adult things. Routine, responsible, mundane things.

But then I reach for something that is meant to spark happiness, comfort, entertainment— music, movies, writing — and then the illusion collapses.

Liam is gone and because of that, it’s joy that I can’t manage right now; the only thing I can’t bring myself to be or do or feel — the only thing that’s out of reach.

[dimpledsmile]

I can’t imagine how hard it must have been for the boys having to write out their statements and post it to social media but I am realizing they also are going to be questioned and asked about it in interviews, red carpet events, band anniversaries, etc…

Like I cannot imagine what it will be like when they first have to start publicly speaking about their band mates passing.

[myangelliam]

I think one of the hardest things I’m struggling to accept is that Liam will never get a happy ending. There is no silver lining here. It’s just tragedy all the way around. I know his fans and those that are part of the bigger 1D fandom will remember him kindly, but for a lot of people his name will be tied to the lowest point in his life and the unfairness of that kills me.

[dimpledsmile]

This is exactly it. I still was rooting for his younger self that had dreams of being a singer and entertainer. I know he was going down a wrong path with the substance abuse and I know that isn’t an excuse with his own abusive behavior. But I hoped so badly that one day he would live a sobriety journey. That he would join the “child star” movement and discuss the dangers of being so young in the industry and having to make adult decisions because you want to follow your dream. To be able to apologize and earn back forgiveness. But it’s just tragedy.

[haztobegood]

Just after sunset during the Minneapolis memorial for Liam, someone released five red heart balloons. As they rose up together, one balloon rose higher and faster while the other four seemed to hang back sending it off. To me, the moment felt like these lyrics

You will find me In places that we've never been For reasons we don't understand Walking in the wind

Liam may be gone, but we will continue to find him in many ways as we carry on his memory.

[dimpledsmile]

I wonder how the boys chose the photos that they did for Liam. Were these photos they already had in their camera roll? Did they look them up? Do the photos have an extra meaning behind them we don’t know about???

Because I keep thinking of the one that Zayn and Niall posted of them being young and having fun with Liam.

Louis’ is a sweet embrace with Liam.

Harry chose one where Liam is facing the crowd of thousands of loving fans.

I would love to know the thought process and where the pics are from

(Zayn’s photo gets to me it’s just the sweetest thing ever)

[eminentzayn]

we will all inevitably log out again for a long period of time to live our own separate lives but i hope and pray that we don't have to log in under the same circumstances ever again.

i hope the next we see each other after a long hiatus on tumblr would be to celebrate a 1d reunion. i really really hope that. till then, know that my blog will be up, waiting for that day to finally come.

i love you all so much.

[dimpledsmile]

Thinking a lot about what Cheryl (the mother of Liam’s child) said about how one day, Bear is going to grow up and he is going to find all this information out and possibly stumble across pictures of his deceased father on the internet is just so inhumane and my heart breaks for that little boy.

I hope when Bear grows up - he doesn’t look into the news articles and paparazzi around his fathers death, but is able to see how many people from around the world came together to mourn. How fans gathered together to pay their respects and tribute Liam. How we all showed our appreciation and love for the role his father played in our lives for being in the band. How so many people shedded real tears and have a real hole in their heart because of his death.

Bear is only 7 and it’s crazy to think how the fans since the one direction days were able to love his father and got to know his father longer than his own son ever will. My heart breaks for that boy and I can only hope once he is older she is able to see that our love for his father also extends to him.

[dimpledsmile]

I want to remind everyone to be careful what they read when they look up Liam’s death.

It’s already traumatic to think of HOW he died from falling over the balcony- but to also know that there was a combination of drugs and alcohol puts a pit in my stomach. Also knowing there are photos of his deceased body that people took / are selling to the media is absolutely dehumanizing.

I know curiosity is peaking but please be mindful of what you may read or see may not be easy.

[fuchsea]

cuntiest thing the boys ever did was own the name one direction like they are the sole owners of the brand name one direction and simon doesn't own shit so that at least now i know that he will never be able to profit off of liam's death

[papayajuan2019]

cant believe im letting people online see into my heart. for free

[dimpledsmile]

😭😭

[haveagoodshowtonightbabycakes]

I both envy and pity all the people in the world that saw the news about Liam and didn't have much of a reaction to it besides maybe 'oh that's sad' and were able to carry on with their day without anything changing for them. Envy because they're not currently feeling this deep aching sadness and sense of unfairness, and pity because that means they didn't get to experience the absolute joy and magic and once in a lifetime-ness that was 1d and its members

[dimpledsmile]

I use to use social media / one direction as a distraction from anything negative in my life and now I quite literally can open any apps without the news being blasted in my face.

It’s actually kinda scary to know the one comfort/space space I had is now tainted like what do I turn to now???

How does one feel better?? Like I feel almost guilty actively trying to ignore and scroll pass news about Liam but I know it’s just not good for me to keep having to read, be reminded, and seeing everyone’s goodbye messages.

Thinking about any of you who is also in the same boat as me. This is rough.

[dimpledsmile]

“Do you know what? It’d just be amazing to be remembered like, as a Mom telling her daughter: ‘The boy band at my time, One Direction, they just had fun. They were just normal guys but terrible dancers.’”

.

I have been thinking of this scene so much. I may not have children of my own but I just know that one day I’ll tell them all about this boy band and how happy they made me. One day all the old one direction posters and magazines and CDs that I saved can be used as little memorabilia. One day they’ll look up “One Direction Young” on the internet and see how cute those boys were that stole millions of hearts.

Who knows, maybe the next generation will have a new boy band and I can find some joy knowing that there is a new wave of fans who will follow the same footsteps I once did. I sure hope so. Who knows, maybe one day I might even catch myself rolling my eyes and saying “not as good as One Direction”.

I can’t wait to share these memories someday. And my heart will break a little remembering how soon one member had already passed before I got the chance to teach about him. But his memory will forever live in the hearts of millions that once had posters covering their rooms. And the legacy will continue as we pass along our fond memories of a boy band that once meant the world to us.

[always-aqua]

If there is anything we take away from this, I hope it’s this: say the unsaid while you can. You are not promised another fucking minute in this world. Say the unsaid. Even if it’s scary. Even if it’s painful. Even if it’s messy. Make space for peace, even if that means ultimately walking away - do it peacefully.

Even with the people you love and are in a great place with, say the unsaid. Double down on the things you do say. Tell them you are proud of them. Tell them how happy they make you. Tell them they are doing a good job on their life journey. Tell them you love them. Make it so fucking weird how often and loudly you express your love. Make it so they never question their place in your life.

Say the unsaid while you can, before you never get the chance to again.