"I Can't See My Reflection..."

Jake (Nilspace and normal) Seildirectory parody (Not affiliated with creator) pfp by ItzSkeetPlayz on X

[directory-warden]

"It was the body I left him with."

Hello! Jake (Nilspace and normal) Parody by @mechanical-iridesense Just ask who you want to with these emojis!

Nilspace: 🌹

Normal: ❄️

If not specified I will default to ❄️

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4. Mod is an adult so sending explicit stuff isn’t off the table just not recommended unless I know you!

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HC ARE A WIP

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Medulla and Moonshiner:

[directory-warden]

alright uhhh

( - gives a blanket - )

- Flower / Gardener anon (FORGOT TO ADD THIS IN THE PERVIOUS ASK LOL)

(to 🌹)

He stares at the blanket before just wrapping it around himself and holding it tightly.

“I can’t feel warmth but, thanks anyways”

[directory-warden]

did you sleep??

“…”

Jake look away, tail curling around himself.

“You can’t sleep in the Nilspace. Only drift…”

[directory-warden]

“I yearn too much…”

[directory-warden]

He was standing in the replica of Sean and his old dorm. He never walked out yet. He asked Moonshiner if they could stay longer. At least let him rest for a while.

It was so quiet…

[directory-warden]

" You look rather..Scared. Are you scared, Coullahan? "

@themedullaaskblog

(🌹)

Jake jumped, looking around him and backing up. He started to panic, ears pinning against his head and his tail lashing around himself.

“G-go away-!”

[themedullaaskblog]

[ There was no one around. Not one person. Before, almost out of nowhere, a flash of light before. Oh. Medulla. Inches from Jake's face. The thing was currently in a form with a body, so it was kneeling. ] " Boo. Did I scare you, or are you less sensitive than one eye? "

[directory-warden]

Jake yelped, backing up, away from the entity hastily. It caused him to almost fall backwards. He was sure that he was safe away from it. They told him he would be safe-

“What do you want from me!?”

[themedullaaskblog]

" ...Eesh. You're jumpy. "

[ The thing, instead of staying kneeling, floated mid-air to be at eye level. ]

" I don't want much..Maybe just a simple talk would do. "

[Medulla inched closer to Jake, stopping inches away. ]

" How have you been doing here? Can't be that bad..Hah. I'm joking. "

[directory-warden]

Jake stayed silent and kept trying to make distance. He didn’t want to get close at all. He didn’t even want to see Medulla here. To be fair…he isn’t in Sean and his dorm copy…

[themedullaaskblog]

"Keep backing up, and I might have to stop you. You're very annoying, you know that? You don't seem to do much. I'm sure we could change that, though!. .As long as you're willing to listen."

[directory-warden]

“I’ll never listen to you! I’ll never trust you, never in a million years.”

Man he wished he had a face right now to show how angry he is. Maybe it could hide his fear in that moment…

[themedullaaskblog]

[Medulla seemed to pause as if that comment caught it off guard. It wasn't used to being told "no"...To people standing up to it. It almost seemed to annoy Medulla before the spawn symbol on its head started to spin slowly...then it picked up to a quick speed.]

" Do you really think you'll survive out here alone? Sean doesn't care for you, you have to understand..But I can help you! You just have to be willing to listen. "

[directory-warden]

Jake flinched backward more, trying to create more distance. He wanted to run. He wanted to flee, but they were telling him to stay and wait.

Sean hated him. He knew that for sure. With the amount of times he told him he wanted the other to die it was obvious. But he wasn’t going to let it have him.

“Take a hint!”

Something else was here as well, a presence. But it’s not revealing itself just yet.

[themedullaaskblog]

[ Medulla seemed to tense. It "stared" at Jake before a loud and low growl started to come from it. ]

" You're testing me, Coullahan. You take me for a fool. "

[ Its teasing tone was gone, replaced by a low and no-nonsense tone. ]

" Just hear me out. I wanna give you a choice, but I won't wait to snap you like a twig. "

[ Medulla was lying. It knew, too. It wasn't gonna say anything, though. ]

[directory-warden]

It got cold, causing the new Nilstance to shake. He knew the other couldn’t really do anything to him right now. Not when he was someone else’s vessel now…

“Good for me I’m not a twig then.”

[directory-warden]

" You look rather..Scared. Are you scared, Coullahan? "

@themedullaaskblog

(🌹)

Jake jumped, looking around him and backing up. He started to panic, ears pinning against his head and his tail lashing around himself.

“G-go away-!”

[themedullaaskblog]

[ There was no one around. Not one person. Before, almost out of nowhere, a flash of light before. Oh. Medulla. Inches from Jake's face. The thing was currently in a form with a body, so it was kneeling. ] " Boo. Did I scare you, or are you less sensitive than one eye? "

[directory-warden]

Jake yelped, backing up, away from the entity hastily. It caused him to almost fall backwards. He was sure that he was safe away from it. They told him he would be safe-

“What do you want from me!?”

[themedullaaskblog]

" ...Eesh. You're jumpy. "

[ The thing, instead of staying kneeling, floated mid-air to be at eye level. ]

" I don't want much..Maybe just a simple talk would do. "

[Medulla inched closer to Jake, stopping inches away. ]

" How have you been doing here? Can't be that bad..Hah. I'm joking. "

[directory-warden]

Jake stayed silent and kept trying to make distance. He didn’t want to get close at all. He didn’t even want to see Medulla here. To be fair…he isn’t in Sean and his dorm copy…

[themedullaaskblog]

"Keep backing up, and I might have to stop you. You're very annoying, you know that? You don't seem to do much. I'm sure we could change that, though!. .As long as you're willing to listen."

[directory-warden]

“I’ll never listen to you! I’ll never trust you, never in a million years.”

Man he wished he had a face right now to show how angry he is. Maybe it could hide his fear in that moment…

[themedullaaskblog]

[Medulla seemed to pause as if that comment caught it off guard. It wasn't used to being told "no"...To people standing up to it. It almost seemed to annoy Medulla before the spawn symbol on its head started to spin slowly...then it picked up to a quick speed.]

" Do you really think you'll survive out here alone? Sean doesn't care for you, you have to understand..But I can help you! You just have to be willing to listen. "

[directory-warden]

Jake flinched backward more, trying to create more distance. He wanted to run. He wanted to flee, but they were telling him to stay and wait.

Sean hated him. He knew that for sure. With the amount of times he told him he wanted the other to die it was obvious. But he wasn’t going to let it have him.

“Take a hint!”

Something else was here as well, a presence. But it’s not revealing itself just yet.

[directory-warden]

" You look rather..Scared. Are you scared, Coullahan? "

@themedullaaskblog

(🌹)

Jake jumped, looking around him and backing up. He started to panic, ears pinning against his head and his tail lashing around himself.

“G-go away-!”

[themedullaaskblog]

[ There was no one around. Not one person. Before, almost out of nowhere, a flash of light before. Oh. Medulla. Inches from Jake's face. The thing was currently in a form with a body, so it was kneeling. ] " Boo. Did I scare you, or are you less sensitive than one eye? "

[directory-warden]

Jake yelped, backing up, away from the entity hastily. It caused him to almost fall backwards. He was sure that he was safe away from it. They told him he would be safe-

“What do you want from me!?”

[themedullaaskblog]

" ...Eesh. You're jumpy. "

[ The thing, instead of staying kneeling, floated mid-air to be at eye level. ]

" I don't want much..Maybe just a simple talk would do. "

[Medulla inched closer to Jake, stopping inches away. ]

" How have you been doing here? Can't be that bad..Hah. I'm joking. "

[directory-warden]

Jake stayed silent and kept trying to make distance. He didn’t want to get close at all. He didn’t even want to see Medulla here. To be fair…he isn’t in Sean and his dorm copy…

[themedullaaskblog]

"Keep backing up, and I might have to stop you. You're very annoying, you know that? You don't seem to do much. I'm sure we could change that, though!. .As long as you're willing to listen."

[directory-warden]

“I’ll never listen to you! I’ll never trust you, never in a million years.”

Man he wished he had a face right now to show how angry he is. Maybe it could hide his fear in that moment…

[directory-warden]

" You look rather..Scared. Are you scared, Coullahan? "

@themedullaaskblog

(🌹)

Jake jumped, looking around him and backing up. He started to panic, ears pinning against his head and his tail lashing around himself.

“G-go away-!”

[themedullaaskblog]

[ There was no one around. Not one person. Before, almost out of nowhere, a flash of light before. Oh. Medulla. Inches from Jake's face. The thing was currently in a form with a body, so it was kneeling. ] " Boo. Did I scare you, or are you less sensitive than one eye? "

[directory-warden]

Jake yelped, backing up, away from the entity hastily. It caused him to almost fall backwards. He was sure that he was safe away from it. They told him he would be safe-

“What do you want from me!?”

[themedullaaskblog]

" ...Eesh. You're jumpy. "

[ The thing, instead of staying kneeling, floated mid-air to be at eye level. ]

" I don't want much..Maybe just a simple talk would do. "

[Medulla inched closer to Jake, stopping inches away. ]

" How have you been doing here? Can't be that bad..Hah. I'm joking. "

[directory-warden]

Jake stayed silent and kept trying to make distance. He didn’t want to get close at all. He didn’t even want to see Medulla here. To be fair…he isn’t in Sean and his dorm copy…

[directory-warden]

" You look rather..Scared. Are you scared, Coullahan? "

@themedullaaskblog

(🌹)

Jake jumped, looking around him and backing up. He started to panic, ears pinning against his head and his tail lashing around himself.

“G-go away-!”

[themedullaaskblog]

[ There was no one around. Not one person. Before, almost out of nowhere, a flash of light before. Oh. Medulla. Inches from Jake's face. The thing was currently in a form with a body, so it was kneeling. ] " Boo. Did I scare you, or are you less sensitive than one eye? "

[directory-warden]

Jake yelped, backing up, away from the entity hastily. It caused him to almost fall backwards. He was sure that he was safe away from it. They told him he would be safe-

“What do you want from me!?”

[themedullaaskblog]

" ...Eesh. You're jumpy. "

[ The thing, instead of staying kneeling, floated mid-air to be at eye level. ]

" I don't want much..Maybe just a simple talk would do. "

[Medulla inched closer to Jake, stopping inches away. ]

" How have you been doing here? Can't be that bad..Hah. I'm joking. "

[directory-warden]

“W-why would I answer you?”

Jake kept trying to make distance. He didn’t want to get close at all. He didn’t even want to see Medulla here. To be fair…he isn’t in Sean and his dorm copy…

[directory-warden]

" You look rather..Scared. Are you scared, Coullahan? "

@themedullaaskblog

(🌹)

Jake jumped, looking around him and backing up. He started to panic, ears pinning against his head and his tail lashing around himself.

“G-go away-!”

[themedullaaskblog]

[ There was no one around. Not one person. Before, almost out of nowhere, a flash of light before. Oh. Medulla. Inches from Jake's face. The thing was currently in a form with a body, so it was kneeling. ] " Boo. Did I scare you, or are you less sensitive than one eye? "

[directory-warden]

Jake yelped, backing up, away from the entity hastily. It caused him to almost fall backwards. He was sure that he was safe away from it. They told him he would be safe-

“What do you want from me!?”

[directory-warden]

" You look rather..Scared. Are you scared, Coullahan? "

@themedullaaskblog

(🌹)

Jake jumped, looking around him and backing up. He started to panic, ears pinning against his head and his tail lashing around himself.

“G-go away-!”

[directory-warden]

( @durient333rpaccount )

(For ❄️)

🍄‍🟫 [ "Hello uh, Jake, if I remember correctly that is your name. Is there an chance I could talk with you about your Sean fella? Or, thing." ]

“Sean isn’t a thing. Plus idk why you would.”

Jake seems in a bad mood. Defensive. He doesn’t know this person and he doesn’t feel like talking to strangers right now…

[directory-warden]

He ran out of food to stress eat with. Great.

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ A portal appeared in front of Jake. Blue and glowing. . Followed by a loud hiss as a man fell out of it. He groaned loudly as he sat up and looked at Jake. No. No, this couldn't be. THEY were pulling some sick prank. He didn't ask Medulla to be HERE, especially not in front of a JAKE. The more he stared, the faster his breathing got. ]

" You- I'm sorry I didn't- Oh, Medulla. "

[ That sounded like he was censoring himself. ]

[directory-warden]

Jake’s triangular ears perked up at the sound of Sean’s voice, tail going stiff. He turned his head swiftly towards the other, the moon symbol on his face glowing brightly.

“S…Sean?”

He imagined seeing Sean again, his first instinct being to rush to him and hug him but, right now, He felt so frozen in place-

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ Sean stared. Their black wings extending fully as if trying to make himself look bigger than he already was. He slowly stood up and took a second before swiftly pulling out a rather sharp iron spear and pointing it at Jake. ]

" You. You're not Jake. You don't look like him. .You can't be him. I can't handle the thought of him being. . Lost to this hell. "

[ He waved his hand around to gesture where they were. ]

" . .Please don't say you're Jake. "

[directory-warden]

Jake back up, hitting the wall behind him. He was shaking. His ears went down against his head and his new tail wrapped around his leg. Fuck-

“…Sean- it’s me- I swear- Macabre brought me here- There was someone n-named Moonshiner- it’s me- I swear-“

He’s been so jumpy, so anxious and on edge since he got here. He doesn’t know why he can’t stop shaking.

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ Sean stared at him with a wide eye before slowly starting to tear up. He rushed over, dropping the spear and hugging Jake. ]

"No. No, it's not. Don't lie to me. "

[Sean's voice was shaking almost as bad as he was. He was practically hyperventilating at this point. ]

" You didn't deserve this. I couldn't save mine, and yours couldn't save you. "

[ He tightened his grip as he was now full-blown sobbing. ]

[directory-warden]

“Sean-“

He froze, went stiff. Until, he couldn’t handle it anymore and broke down himself, hugging the other Nilstance back, sobbing Sean’s name over and over. He hasn’t been hugged in so long- it felt so nice…

“I’m s-sorry- I shou-should’ve burnt it-it down- the di-directory-“

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" It's not your fault. NEVER think that. "

[ Sean quickly collected himself well enough to actually talk and comfort the other. ]

" You. You didn't know better. "

[Sean's wings wrapped around himself and Jake, blocking out the rest of their world. ]

" It'll be ok. It'll be alright. "

[directory-warden]

“I just wanted to see- see you again-“

His tail unraveled and wrapped around both of them, bringing them closer. The spikes on the sides of his arms flattened so they wouldn’t hurt Sean.

“Now we- we both are d-dead-“

The shaking was getting worse. Jake couldn’t really help it though…

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" It's ok. It'll be alright. You'll be fine here...Please keep your head up, Jake. It's all you can do now. "

[ Sean let himself put his guard down. Nothing was gonna harm them. He was being dramatic, thinking that something would. ]

" You doing alright besides that? "

[directory-warden]

"...I don't know...Everything just feels wrong-"

Jake loosened his hold but refused to let go. He couldn't stop shaking. He hasn't since he got here...he was always so cold...

"All these spikes on my arms and my tail is different- It all feels so wrong-"

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" Fair. I'm not sure how your space works, but mine used to change appearances every..I'd say week? I thought of it like a map regenerating. Obviously, that's not where I stay now, but."

[ He sighed. ]

" You'll be alright. "

[ He repeated more to himself than to Jake. ]

[directory-warden]

Jake seemed to calm down, the shaking didn’t stop though. He let go, just leaning against Sean now. He was too tired.

“Don’t leave…”

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" I. . I won't. "

[ It took a lot of Sean's strength to keep Jake up. ]

" Anywhere to lay or are you gonna make me hold you? "

[ He was obviously joking. ]

[directory-warden]

Jake snickered, tail wagging a little as he leaned more into Sean out of spite. The snow leopard was dramatic as he used to be.

“Maybe you should hold me, you could use the workout”

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ Sean giggled softly, though something wasn't right. His grip just a little loosened. He kept smiling, but the smile seemed to be a little less genuine. ]

" You..Do know I'll have to go soon, right? I can't stay. "

[directory-warden]

Jake went stiff, whole body jerking into a stand still. He just got Sean back- why is he leaving?

“You just said you- you won’t-“

He lifted himself off of Sean and looked up at him with his ears down. He was tired of losing things. He has spent 14 years trying to get to him-

“You can’t just- l-leave me here-“

There was someone else here. Its presence was vague but, it started to fade in as Jake got more upset.

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" I know, and I wouldn't if I had a choice. It's a long and complicated story. . I can stay for a little longer, but if I'm late, it won't be the happiest person on the planet. "

[directory-warden]

Jake stood there for a moment before sighing. Great. It makes sense. He should’ve remembered them

“It’s Medulla isn’t it?”

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" . . .Yea. Yours isn't like mine. Mine is like letting me out for a certain amount of time before dragging me back in. I'm not leaving yet just. . When I do i'll be sure to come back soon, alright? "

[directory-warden]

“…you’ll be okay?”

He looked up at Sean, fidgeting with his sleeves.

[directory-warden]

🪩 Ooc post! Important tho! Moonshiner and Medulla designs for this blog!

[directory-warden]

He ran out of food to stress eat with. Great.

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ A portal appeared in front of Jake. Blue and glowing. . Followed by a loud hiss as a man fell out of it. He groaned loudly as he sat up and looked at Jake. No. No, this couldn't be. THEY were pulling some sick prank. He didn't ask Medulla to be HERE, especially not in front of a JAKE. The more he stared, the faster his breathing got. ]

" You- I'm sorry I didn't- Oh, Medulla. "

[ That sounded like he was censoring himself. ]

[directory-warden]

Jake’s triangular ears perked up at the sound of Sean’s voice, tail going stiff. He turned his head swiftly towards the other, the moon symbol on his face glowing brightly.

“S…Sean?”

He imagined seeing Sean again, his first instinct being to rush to him and hug him but, right now, He felt so frozen in place-

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ Sean stared. Their black wings extending fully as if trying to make himself look bigger than he already was. He slowly stood up and took a second before swiftly pulling out a rather sharp iron spear and pointing it at Jake. ]

" You. You're not Jake. You don't look like him. .You can't be him. I can't handle the thought of him being. . Lost to this hell. "

[ He waved his hand around to gesture where they were. ]

" . .Please don't say you're Jake. "

[directory-warden]

Jake back up, hitting the wall behind him. He was shaking. His ears went down against his head and his new tail wrapped around his leg. Fuck-

“…Sean- it’s me- I swear- Macabre brought me here- There was someone n-named Moonshiner- it’s me- I swear-“

He’s been so jumpy, so anxious and on edge since he got here. He doesn’t know why he can’t stop shaking.

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ Sean stared at him with a wide eye before slowly starting to tear up. He rushed over, dropping the spear and hugging Jake. ]

"No. No, it's not. Don't lie to me. "

[Sean's voice was shaking almost as bad as he was. He was practically hyperventilating at this point. ]

" You didn't deserve this. I couldn't save mine, and yours couldn't save you. "

[ He tightened his grip as he was now full-blown sobbing. ]

[directory-warden]

“Sean-“

He froze, went stiff. Until, he couldn’t handle it anymore and broke down himself, hugging the other Nilstance back, sobbing Sean’s name over and over. He hasn’t been hugged in so long- it felt so nice…

“I’m s-sorry- I shou-should’ve burnt it-it down- the di-directory-“

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" It's not your fault. NEVER think that. "

[ Sean quickly collected himself well enough to actually talk and comfort the other. ]

" You. You didn't know better. "

[Sean's wings wrapped around himself and Jake, blocking out the rest of their world. ]

" It'll be ok. It'll be alright. "

[directory-warden]

“I just wanted to see- see you again-“

His tail unraveled and wrapped around both of them, bringing them closer. The spikes on the sides of his arms flattened so they wouldn’t hurt Sean.

“Now we- we both are d-dead-“

The shaking was getting worse. Jake couldn’t really help it though…

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" It's ok. It'll be alright. You'll be fine here...Please keep your head up, Jake. It's all you can do now. "

[ Sean let himself put his guard down. Nothing was gonna harm them. He was being dramatic, thinking that something would. ]

" You doing alright besides that? "

[directory-warden]

"...I don't know...Everything just feels wrong-"

Jake loosened his hold but refused to let go. He couldn't stop shaking. He hasn't since he got here...he was always so cold...

"All these spikes on my arms and my tail is different- It all feels so wrong-"

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" Fair. I'm not sure how your space works, but mine used to change appearances every..I'd say week? I thought of it like a map regenerating. Obviously, that's not where I stay now, but."

[ He sighed. ]

" You'll be alright. "

[ He repeated more to himself than to Jake. ]

[directory-warden]

Jake seemed to calm down, the shaking didn’t stop though. He let go, just leaning against Sean now. He was too tired.

“Don’t leave…”

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" I. . I won't. "

[ It took a lot of Sean's strength to keep Jake up. ]

" Anywhere to lay or are you gonna make me hold you? "

[ He was obviously joking. ]

[directory-warden]

Jake snickered, tail wagging a little as he leaned more into Sean out of spite. The snow leopard was dramatic as he used to be.

“Maybe you should hold me, you could use the workout”

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ Sean giggled softly, though something wasn't right. His grip just a little loosened. He kept smiling, but the smile seemed to be a little less genuine. ]

" You..Do know I'll have to go soon, right? I can't stay. "

[directory-warden]

Jake went stiff, whole body jerking into a stand still. He just got Sean back- why is he leaving?

“You just said you- you won’t-“

He lifted himself off of Sean and looked up at him with his ears down. He was tired of losing things. He has spent 14 years trying to get to him-

“You can’t just- l-leave me here-“

There was someone else here. Its presence was vague but, it started to fade in as Jake got more upset.

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" I know, and I wouldn't if I had a choice. It's a long and complicated story. . I can stay for a little longer, but if I'm late, it won't be the happiest person on the planet. "

[directory-warden]

Jake stood there for a moment before sighing. Great. It makes sense. He should’ve remembered them

“It’s Medulla isn’t it?”

[directory-warden]

He ran out of food to stress eat with. Great.

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ A portal appeared in front of Jake. Blue and glowing. . Followed by a loud hiss as a man fell out of it. He groaned loudly as he sat up and looked at Jake. No. No, this couldn't be. THEY were pulling some sick prank. He didn't ask Medulla to be HERE, especially not in front of a JAKE. The more he stared, the faster his breathing got. ]

" You- I'm sorry I didn't- Oh, Medulla. "

[ That sounded like he was censoring himself. ]

[directory-warden]

Jake’s triangular ears perked up at the sound of Sean’s voice, tail going stiff. He turned his head swiftly towards the other, the moon symbol on his face glowing brightly.

“S…Sean?”

He imagined seeing Sean again, his first instinct being to rush to him and hug him but, right now, He felt so frozen in place-

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ Sean stared. Their black wings extending fully as if trying to make himself look bigger than he already was. He slowly stood up and took a second before swiftly pulling out a rather sharp iron spear and pointing it at Jake. ]

" You. You're not Jake. You don't look like him. .You can't be him. I can't handle the thought of him being. . Lost to this hell. "

[ He waved his hand around to gesture where they were. ]

" . .Please don't say you're Jake. "

[directory-warden]

Jake back up, hitting the wall behind him. He was shaking. His ears went down against his head and his new tail wrapped around his leg. Fuck-

“…Sean- it’s me- I swear- Macabre brought me here- There was someone n-named Moonshiner- it’s me- I swear-“

He’s been so jumpy, so anxious and on edge since he got here. He doesn’t know why he can’t stop shaking.

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

[ Sean stared at him with a wide eye before slowly starting to tear up. He rushed over, dropping the spear and hugging Jake. ]

"No. No, it's not. Don't lie to me. "

[Sean's voice was shaking almost as bad as he was. He was practically hyperventilating at this point. ]

" You didn't deserve this. I couldn't save mine, and yours couldn't save you. "

[ He tightened his grip as he was now full-blown sobbing. ]

[directory-warden]

“Sean-“

He froze, went stiff. Until, he couldn’t handle it anymore and broke down himself, hugging the other Nilstance back, sobbing Sean’s name over and over. He hasn’t been hugged in so long- it felt so nice…

“I’m s-sorry- I shou-should’ve burnt it-it down- the di-directory-“

[1amachem1calreact1on-deactivate]

" It's not your fault. NEVER think that. "

[ Sean quickly collected himself well enough to actually talk and comfort the other. ]

" You. You didn't know better. "

[Sean's wings wrapped around himself and Jake, blocking out the rest of their world. ]

" It'll be ok. It'll be alright. "

[directory-warden]

“I just wanted to see- see you again-“

His tail unraveled and wrapped around both of them, bringing them closer. The spikes on the sides of his arms flattened so they wouldn’t hurt Sean.

“Now we- we both are d-dead-“

The shaking was getting worse. Jake couldn’t really help it though…

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" It's ok. It'll be alright. You'll be fine here...Please keep your head up, Jake. It's all you can do now. "

[ Sean let himself put his guard down. Nothing was gonna harm them. He was being dramatic, thinking that something would. ]

" You doing alright besides that? "

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"...I don't know...Everything just feels wrong-"

Jake loosened his hold but refused to let go. He couldn't stop shaking. He hasn't since he got here...he was always so cold...

"All these spikes on my arms and my tail is different- It all feels so wrong-"

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" Fair. I'm not sure how your space works, but mine used to change appearances every..I'd say week? I thought of it like a map regenerating. Obviously, that's not where I stay now, but."

[ He sighed. ]

" You'll be alright. "

[ He repeated more to himself than to Jake. ]

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Jake seemed to calm down, the shaking didn’t stop though. He let go, just leaning against Sean now. He was too tired.

“Don’t leave…”

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" I. . I won't. "

[ It took a lot of Sean's strength to keep Jake up. ]

" Anywhere to lay or are you gonna make me hold you? "

[ He was obviously joking. ]

[directory-warden]

Jake snickered, tail wagging a little as he leaned more into Sean out of spite. The snow leopard was dramatic as he used to be.

“Maybe you should hold me, you could use the workout”

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[ Sean giggled softly, though something wasn't right. His grip just a little loosened. He kept smiling, but the smile seemed to be a little less genuine. ]

" You..Do know I'll have to go soon, right? I can't stay. "

[directory-warden]

Jake went stiff, whole body jerking into a stand still. He just got Sean back- why is he leaving?

“You just said you- you won’t-“

He lifted himself off of Sean and looked up at him with his ears down. He was tired of losing things. He has spent 14 years trying to get to him-

“You can’t just- l-leave me here-“

There was someone else here. Its presence was vague but, it started to fade in as Jake got more upset.