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I write mostly snamione, but dabble in other (mostly Hermione-centric) pairings when I get a good idea for a story. I tag judiciously so readers always know what they're in for.
This list contains my longer works only. You can find a complete list of my works on AO3.
Bitch, Hermione x Sirius x Remus, E, Dark Dead Dove/Angst, 44k words
All the Dark Places - Severus x Hermione, E, Romance/Angst, 136k words
I'll be Your Doll - Severus x Hermione, E, Smut/Romance, 27k words
Owned - Severus x Hermione, E, Romance/Angst/BDSM, 93k words
Points of Harmony - Severus x Hermione, E, Friends to Lovers/Romance, 31k words
Forever, Forever - Severus x Hermione/Hermione x OC, E, Dark Dead Dove/Angst, 58k words
Deals with a Devil - Hermione x OC, E, Paranormal Romance/Smut/Angst, series @ 50k words in 3 parts
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Obsessed with @sideprince's theory (can’t reblog, unfortunately, so I’m just going to link) about what Snape was searching for at Grimmauld Place when he last visits it in Deathly Hallows: a method of communicating with Harry. I think it’s entirely plausible that Snape, who knew about the marauders map and the invisibility cloak, would have deduced that an object that like the mirror could exist.
It also hangs well together with Snape’s focus on communicating with Harry in Deathly Hallows; in each interaction Harry has with Snape in Deathly Hallows, Snape is desperately trying to connect with him. The Patronus, his attempts to find him in the castle, his dying breaths—even indirectly, in his use of Phineas Nigellus Black.
I also like this theory because it fits well with one of my own: that Snape’s search of Grimmauld Place was in itself a message.
There's no denying that Snape’s last visit to Grimmauld Place was emotional—we see it in his tears over the letter—and even before that, he was likely rattled. His visit forced him to relive his killing of Dumbledore and underscored how irrevocably he was cut off from anyone who had known his true self. Snape is likely grieving and reconciling with his changed mission and the path ahead, as Harry must do during The Forest Again. (One of these days I’ll sit down for long enough to write how the photo of Lily:Snape :: resurrection stone:Harry… unless someone else has already written it in which case drop the link please!)
Given his emotional state, it’s easy to explain the mess he makes while searching. But why did he leave it that way?
Snape does lash out emotionally. But in most cases, given time and/or a reminder of his mission, he is able to master those emotions and pull himself back to the task at hand. So unless he was rushed, or deemed the house of Black to be below the basic effort of setting it to rights (both very real possibilities, for sure) it is somewhat uncharacteristic of him to leave the house in its ransacked state. Which to me begs the question: could it have been an intentional choice?
Perhaps, in the absence of finding something more concrete with which to reach Harry, he uses the search itself to send him a message:
Beware! The security of the house has weakened; stay on your toes and don’t get complacent. A lesson in defense to anyone who might be inclined to return to the house (how very Snape!) After all, Snape doesn't know that Mr. Weasley has said as much to Harry before he even arrives:
"Well, Mad-Eye set up a couple of curses against Snape in case he turns up there again. We hope they'll be strong enough both to keep him out and bind his tongue if he tries to talk about the place, but we can't be sure. It would have been insane to keep using the place as headquarters not what its protection has become so shaky."
But with evidence that there has been an intruder, the trio could reach the same conclusion. And they're right to be careful; within days Death Eaters are surveilling the house.
But there’s also another layer one could read into this: You're being protected. The intruder, while callous and disrespectful of the house and its owner, has not broken the Fidelius Charm.
Hermione and Ron get very close to reaching this exact line of reasoning:
“Death Eaters, for sure,” said Ron, as he, Harry, and Hermione watched from the drawing room windows. “Reckon they know we’re in here?”
“I don’t think so,” said Hermione, though she looked frightened, “or they’d have sent Snape in after us, wouldn’t they?”
“D’you reckon he’s been in here and had his tongue tied by Moody’s curse?” asked Ron.
“Yes,” said Hermione, “otherwise he’d have been able to tell that lot how to get in, wouldn’t he? But they’re probably watching to see whether we turn up. They know that Harry owns the house, after all.”
They don't quite get there because Hermione assumes the only reason the Fidelius has not broken is the tongue-tying curse. Sure, after killing Dumbledore and cursing George, they're not about to give Snape the benefit of the doubt.
But it also seems to be the case that tongue-tying only affects verbal communication; there's no indication that it would stop one from sharing the protected information in other ways. And after all, the location of Grimmauld Place can be shared non-verbally—Dumbledore revealed the location of Grimmauld Place to Harry in writing, and we find out in just a few chapters that the location can be shared via side-along Apparition. So an intelligent wizard bent on sharing the location could very well get around the tongue-tying curse; indeed, the Order aren't discounting this possibility.
Yet Grimmauld Place remains secure until the trio accidentally let a Death Eater in themselves. Perhaps Snape was planting a seed; if the trio were just a little less convinced that the curses on Grimmauld Place were binding Snape, they might consider whether there was another reason Snape wasn't sharing the location with the Death Eaters. A seed, perhaps, that could germinate into doubts about Snape's allegiance and set the stage for future communication…?
I admit there’s nothing really in the text to support this little pet theory of mine, I’m mainly just musing here. But it’s a fun idea to roll around, so thought I’d share :)
There's an aspect to this theory that feels connected to the kind of subtlety Dumbledore used to convey the relevance of the Hallows to Harry? Harry has to really think about it and put the pieces together but if he does he could realize that Snape is trying to reach him. I completely agree that he left a trail in Grimmauld Place to make sure the Order knew he was there. Had the trio kept track of Snape more, even for strategic reasons, rather than just hated him, then after they exposed Grimmauld Place to Yaxley accidentally they would have wondered why Snape hadn't done the same. Of course, even then they would have assumed he hadn't thought to. But like with the realization about the Hallows, after months of odd questions with no clear answers, the questions themselves would have pointed towards an answer together, if that makes sense. Harry figures out the Hallows because of questions like, why did Dumbledore leave him an old snitch? Why did he leave Hermione a book of fairy tales? what's this weird symbol that shows up on a grave and Mr. Lovegood? Without all these questions left hanging in the air, Harry wouldn't have sought answers. The lack of clarity was what fueled his curiosity; it could have been the same with Snape, had Harry considered him worth thinking about.
Why didn't Snape reveal Grimmauld Place to any Death Eaters via side-along apparition? Why did he search Headquarters when he knew it was abandoned? He must have known it was empty or else he wouldn't have gone there. Snape was connected to the sword of Gryffindor by a goblin and Bellatrix Lestrange, but the trio keep assuming someone else put the real sword in the pool in that forest and don't even consider Snape. It also doesn't occur to any of them that Snape has to work in an office where Dumbledore's portrait is hanging. All the times they talk to Phineas Nigellus' portrait they aren't curious about Snape because they've dismissed him and have no interest in him other than hating him.
This is how Snape succeeds as a spy, however. The same treatment that caused him years of suffering and bullying at school becomes his greatest asset. He gives people little reason to like him, and then hides being their biases. His obvious cleverness, talent, and ability to be calculating are overlooked by people who let their dislike dictate their feelings and cloud their rationality.
Post-war Harry Potter is diagnosed with PTSD. After everything the war took from him, no one is particularly surprised.
Nightmares.
Flashbacks.
Hypervigilance.
Hallucinations.
The most persistent one wears Voldemort's face.
...Or rather, Tom's.
He appears in Harry's office, stands beside him during Auror raids, comments on paperwork, and whispers in his ear whenever a mission reminds Harry of the war.
He even manages to ruin a date with Ginny.
Harry apologizes so much afterward that Ginny has to reassure him it isn't his fault. She understands better than most. The diary left its own scars, and she still has nightmares too. Somewhere along the way, their relationship quietly shifts into a deep friendship built on surviving the same monster.
Hermione eventually convinces Harry to seek professional help at St. Mungo's.
Twice a week, therapy.
Potions exactly as prescribed.
Grounding exercises.
Exposure therapy in carefully controlled doses.
Harry throws himself into recovery with the same determination he once used to fight Voldemort.
He'll get through this.
He always does.
The treatment helps.
Tom appears less often.
The panic fades more quickly.
Harry even learns to joke about it.
The healer suggests calling him "Tom" instead of Voldemort to lessen the emotional response.
Harry can't help thinking that's funny.
Merlin... if he'd done that years ago, he would've been Avada Kedavra'd on the spot.
And Harry keeps calling him Tom.
Tom still appears sometimes.
Still whispers.
Still sends Harry's heart racing.
Eventually Harry starts talking back.
Mostly sarcastic comments until Tom finally shuts up.
—
Unfortunately, real life isn't giving him much room to recover.
With Voldemort's downfall, the remaining Death Eaters have become headless snakes lashing out in every direction. Terrorist attacks happen almost daily, Auror Headquarters is drowning in paperwork, and everyone is exhausted.
"Your report is incomplete."
"I've been writing it for three hours."
"You skipped page four."
"...."
...Merlin.
Harry even complains directly to Tom about how annoying his followers are.
"Your idiots are making everyone's life miserable."
Tom hears him complaining.
Harry swears Tom almost laughs.
"They're hardly my followers anymore."
—
Aurors are collapsing asleep at their desks.
Some fall asleep halfway through eating lunch.
"You forgot your medication."
"I didn't"
"You left it on your desk."
"..."
...Damn it.
Harry keeps postponing therapy appointments.
There simply isn't enough time.
—
The problem is...
Exposure therapy is supposed to happen in controlled doses.
Harry accidentally turned it into a full-time job.
Every report reminds him of the war.
Every investigation leads back to Voldemort.
Every day begins with Tom standing somewhere in the room.
It becomes routine.
Tom complains.
Harry rolls his eyes.
Tom is there for all of it.
"You call that handwriting?"
"It says the man with no nose."
"I had perfectly acceptable handwriting."
"You had atrocious penmanship."
Eventually...
Harry stops reacting.
He figures that means he's getting better.
—
Tom eyes the cup coffee.
"You've had three cups of coffee."
"So?"
"You'll regret the fourth."
"I'm having the fourth."
"You always do."
—
He stops going out with Ron and Hermione.
He misses grabbing butterbeer with his friends after work.
Most nights dinner is instant noodles, which Tom never lets him live down.
"That's dinner?"
"It's edible."
"I've seen Azkaban prisoners eat better."
"You don't even eat anymore. Your opinion doesn't count."
—
Then the nightmares come back.
He sleeps at his desk.
Forgets to eat.
Starts surviving almost entirely on coffee, potions, and terrible life choices.
The Head Auror tells him to take a break.
Harry insists he's fine.
Everyone is tired.
He's just... a little more tired than usual.
He starts surviving on sleeping potions.
They help him fall asleep.
They don't help him stay asleep.
He wakes in the middle of the night with paperwork still clutched in his hands.
He can't remember the last proper meal he had.
He sniffs his robes and decides they probably don't smell bad enough to wash yet.
—
Harry believes PTSD is simply something he'll have to live with.
He believes the exhaustion, the interrupted sleep, the emotional outbursts, and the hallucinations are all part of recovery.
He has no idea that someone is taking advantage of every skipped therapy session.
Every sleepless night.
Every dose of sleeping potion.
Every moment Harry mistakes the impossible for trauma.
Because Voldemort never truly disappeared.
The connection forged between them survived the Battle of Hogwarts.
A fragment of Tom remained inside Harry.
Patient.
Silent.
Waiting.
While Harry struggles to recover from PTSD, Tom quietly teaches him to normalize his presence.
To stop questioning the voice.
The conversations.
The figure standing in the corner of the
room.
The feeling of never truly being alone.
Little by little, Harry grows comfortable with him.
One morning, waking up with Tom's arms wrapped around him won't even seem strange anymore.
And by then...
Tom will already have everything he wanted.
A body.
A home.
And a second chance to return to the world—without Harry ever realizing he had been helping him all along.
For Professor Severus Snape, Valentine's Day is an opportunity to be especially vicious.
He will teach his students the unethical nature of love potions. How to recognise the effects of the potion and counter them.
Professor Snape will demolish every love letter he gets his hands on. And he would argue that he is doing them a favour - many of the letters are horrifically embarrassing.
Please return us to a world where Notp and squick are used for a ship you don’t like instead of just making up a load of bullshit about how immoral it is or w/e lol
a short selection of concepts and phrases that used to be commonplace in fandom and we’d really benefit from making that a thing again:
NOTP: the opposite of an OTP (One True Pairing). It is a ship a fan strongly dislikes. The word is a portmanteau of ‘no’ and ‘OTP’ and thus is not a contraction of any particular phrase.
Squick: anything that is a deep-seated, visceral turn-off. Squicks may be shared by many fans or be specific to one; one person’s kink may be another person’s squick.
YKINMKATO, or kink-tomato: Your Kink Is Not My Kink, And That’s Okay: used to indicate support for fannish diversity and to distinguish between disapproval or kink shaming and simply having different taste.
DLDR: Don’t Like, Don’t Read: a phrase used to warn against complaints about an aspect of fic or meta. A “live and let live” philosophy of fandom, which places the responsability for avoiding content one doesn’t want to see on the side of the fanwork consumer, rather that on the creator’s.
SALS: Ship And Let Ship: similar to the above specifically about shipping tastes.
YMMV: Your Mileage May Vary: a phrase used to acknowledge that any given individual’s personal opinion on the topic at hand may differ due to their own tastes, standards, values, experiences, etc.
As the OP points out, all of these crucially imply no moral judgment of what they’re designing.
(definitions lifted more or less wholesale from fanlore’s relevant pages)
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Wolfstar has a lot of examples of Remus being a quiet, grumpy lone wolf boyfriend for a more delicate Sirius.
Remus keeps Sirius grounded with a stability he has never had before.
Snupin often features a soft, insistent puppy Remus for a more delicate Severus. Remus initiates and chases, seeking Severus out and drowning him in affection he's never had before.
I'm not into either of these common scenarios because they've changed Remus into something completely unrecognizable.
Remus is NOT going to be the one initiating a relationship!
Nor the one putting in the work to hold it together!!
He is a bitch ass coward who'd rather hurt someone intentionally than wait to 'accidentally hurt them with his awfulness'.
He truly believes others are better off away from him. He gets carried away feeling good for a bit - then pisses the bed in the morning and has a guilt-ridden breakdown.
He isn't stable, he isn't resilient, he isn't emotionally strong, he isn't giving more than he is taking - HE is the delicate one!!!
Tonks offers Remus BOTH stability he has never had before AND drowns him in affection. She chases, seeks him out, initiates and is a strong woman who can ground him.
Remus needs those things from her - and even then he still struggles.
He can't provide them to others...! We have clear example of how he acts in the context of a romantic+sexual relationship - and yet…
Could we have a bit more Remus Lupin acting like Remus Lupin?
That would mean him being an avoidant bitch ass coward.
Self-sabotaging, irritating, wont do the emotional labour - whoever is stupid enough to be into him has to put in the effort, like Tonks did.
Sirius and Severus are VERY persistent, strong, stubborn men. They don't need to be more delicate for a Big Remus to come coddle them.
((This isn't to put a dampener on anyone's fun, or any cool AUs that change up characters - make what makes you happy. Always. I like 'cute picture of remus tail-wagging hugging Severus' as much as the next person, even if its OOC - Its cute.
I'm just shocked at how prevalent it is.))
