Why Am I Not Living My Life : A Blog

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[hudders-and-hiddles]

I've never had this. My whole life. I want to. I wanna have it.

[andruillus]

mark s. acrylic on paper (had to play with the colors a bit to get the scan to look like the original)

[kennethbrangh]

Christopher Walken and John Turturro photographed by David Needleman at The Whitby Hotel in NYC on January 16, 2025.

[ophelias-gh0st]

Imagine scarfing down chinese food like a rabid animal only for jeff bezos to come and sit next to you and insult your dead wife, so you go home and get a lobotomy about it

[kennethbrangh]

John Turturro on working with Christopher Walken in Severance.

[lacefuneral]

for my followers who do not watch severance:

dylan's wife cheated on dylan with dylan so dylan threatened to kill dylan so dylan's wife broke up with dylan and went back to dylan and dylan was so depressed about it that dylan killed dylan but dylan's still alive

[comradetoad]

King shit

[spareham]

I OWE MY SOUL TO THE COMPANY STORE | SEVERANCE | 16 TONS

[theterpiel]

The concept of Kier's """twin""" is so interesting when paralleled with Severance. Kier jerked off in the forest and was ashamed of it, so he made up a fake brother to blame the act on. Someone else to take the blame and get punished. It was him who jerked off, not me. He was the sinner, not me. So Dieter got punished, not Kier. The Innies really are just the Outies' punching bags to take the punishments, and bear the consequences of whatever their Outies do. Mark drinking all day and leaving Mark S to deal with the hangovers. Gabriella wanting kids, but leaving Gabby to bear the pregnancy and childbirth. Severed workers not wanting to work, so their Innies have to do it.

[warden-anders]

the way that irving and helly's body language INSTANTLY switched from conflict to comfort as soon as helena switched out was INSANE. he cradled her so fiercely AND SHE CLUNG BACK. irving knew he wasnt going to come back from that, but helly was worth more to him than his life was at that point. all she knows is that she's cold and wet and that irving was there, and of course irving wouldnt hurt her, so she embraces him back! anyway they love each other theyre family and i need to bite something

[succssion]

innie mark is gonna have to watch himself watch petey die and do nothing about it because he doesn’t know him. outie mark is gonna have to watch himself talk to his wife for hours and do nothing about it because he doesn’t know her. mark is gonna feel the love for his wife and the love for helly at the same time. two different people inhabiting one brain. i’m so sick

[flodaya]

CINEMA

[fishpondfish]

severance is like [45-50 minutes of life-altering television that leave you wanting to walk into the ocean or perhaps perform a self-immolation] directed by

[lyraaorion]

Shoutout to my favorite behind the scenes pic

[beetleandfox]

obsessed with the Helena and Irving parallel and what it says about the aspects of our identity we think are fundamental (but aren't)...

Like Outie Irving assumes his Innie is just as radically anti-Lumon as he is. He assumes his hatred of Lumon is something ingrained in his personality! That's why he stays up at night drinking coffee and making paintings, because he hopes that when his innie dreams about the testing floor, he'll say "okay bet" and start exploring. That's what Outie Irving would do, after all. But he miscalculated! His hatred of Lumon isn't inherent--- his desire for meaning and art and spirituality is inherent. That's what his hatred for Lumon is built on. But in a world where there's no meaning outside of Lumon propaganda, of COURSE his innie would become ridiculously devoted to the company.

And Helena!! She is the corporation, that's her whole identity. She presumably assumed that Helly would be just as pro-Lumon as she is. But she miscalculated too! Her devotion to the company isn't inherent, her headstrong and entitled nature is what's inherent! And in a world where she's denied any agency whatsoever, that manifests as rebellion.

It's the same dynamic flipped on its head. They both sent their innies in there with opposite intentions--- one to take down the company, one feed the company's expansion--- only to realize that rebellion and devotion aren't inherent characteristics. Their innies have become the exact opposite of their outie selves, while still being exactly the same!! Because even though your personality is inherent, the values you hold are determined circumstantially. OUGH IT'S SO GOOD.

[consultingfujoshi]

irving b was really out there trying to commit suicide because he thought there was no hope for him and his geriatric boytoy little did he know he would be causing a rift in the guys marriage from beyond the grave never have I seen a yaoi comeback so spectacular as this

[jckielantern]

the b stands for beloved