The Great Fact

I’m a selfish and self centered alcoholic named Liz and my last drink was Dec 2023

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Alcoholism is a disease of three

The mind, body, and, spirit.

A mind that cant stop thinking about using, a body that cant not use, and a spirit that has hole so wide I almost got it confused with your moms vagina

[leviathan-supersystem]

internet politics and real-world politics have gotten so separated, and pretty soon all this internet weirdness is gonna come crashing into real life and politicians are gonna start throwing around words like “SJW” and “anime communist” and “dark enlightenment” and it’s just gonna be the most ridiculous fucking thing

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date of origin: 13th of april, 2015.

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happy 10 year anniversary!

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[headspace-hotel]

This post.

This fucking post.

It is in some ways, the only piece of evidence I have that there was a time Before.

[rslashrats]

person who goes back in time to try and prevent lincoln’s assassination but they get so enraptured by the play that he’s watching that they forget and he gets shot anyways

[diseaseofthree]

If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely, or if when drinking, you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic

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The Consequences of Alcoholism (Parody to The Promises)

Because we were painstaking during the insanity of our drinking, we were emotionally bankrupt before we were half way through.  Alcohol, the magic elixir, gave us a new freedom and a new happiness.  We didn't regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it until the morning after.  We comprehended the word, incomprehensible demoralization and knew what hell was.  No matter how far down the scale we had gone, our experiences were always the fault of others.  That feeling of uselessness and self-pity were a constant reminder we needed another drink.  We lost interest in our fellows and gained interest in selfish things.  Self-seeking and manipulation were the cornerstone of our life.  Our whole attitude and outlook upon life were based on delusion.  Fear of people and of economic insecurity left us during blackouts.  We intuitively knew how to create situations that would baffle us when we sobered up.  We suddenly realized that alcohol was doing to us what We would never do to ourselves.

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I never resisted alcohol, indulging every desire as sort of passive suicide. I knew it would kill me. I submitted to Jails, Institutions, and Death. I chose death. My insanity did the math and it sounded good.

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Self-centered fear results from a distortion of value and perception as regards to what I have and what I want - the emotion is a prime manifestation of the spiritual disease

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“Fear is a function of the value and the perceived threat to it. The higher the value and the perception, the greater the fear”  

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*Unwhole mind = Insanity = Obsession = A thought that drives out all other thought

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The Bedevilments

-Trouble with personal relationships

-Couldn’t control our emotional nature

-Prey to misery and depression

-Couldn’t make a living

-Feeling of uselessness 

-Full of fear

-Unhappy 

-Couldn’t seem to be of real help to others

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Growing up with functional and none functional addicts is such a fucked experience. Their lack of choice was so obvious, it seems in retrospect, to only me. Molding my belief that it was only an “addiction” when you couldn’t maintain it. When I fully changed my definition of being addicted, my life changed dramatically. “It’s only a problem when there's problems” to “Any sane person with my background would never drink (let alone, again) I must be insane, god help me.”  

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So I experienced anorexia nervosa when I was a teenager and it was fueled very heavily by the ana blogs on here (which I found this time, the same as before, just scrolling) and the community still thriving. I shook off the haunting feeling and moved on. Fast forward a few hours and I seriously just debated “If I develop a really nasty eating disorder I could save a lot of money for my daughter’s extra classes..” thats the insanity of my brain. They say after you’re an alcoholic for so long you can’t differentiate the true from the false anymore and thats just seems to apply to so much more than my alcoholic life.

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[kosmogrl]

what do you mean I can't control everything, why not

[fourofdaggers]

Feelings tonight

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“Our nervous system will upset mental balance and we will eventually die from lack of rest and nourishment”

[whimsifae]

‘take me with you’ ; andrea gibson.

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When the old timer tells you your white knuckling it