ditzy

19, multishipper, nsfw often, author (sometimes), does not play about kainess or ship order🌹🪄

[ditzyblogs]

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Hihi! I've been on twitter and discord for a while and now I'm finally branching out to here. My interest rn is blue lock and I'm a big kainess/ness fan. Here's my socials and some things about me:

Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/ditzyreads

Twitter: https://x.com/ditzyaps?t=YgpMUKf5BoTKfBPz2hY6kA&s=09

My favorite character is actually rin. People are shocked bc of how little I talk about him but he's my boy💙

I do multiship so I really like kaisagi and nessagi too

I'm fixed kins (top kaiser and bottom ness) and really strict on it. It's already the more unpopular dynamic so I will tag properly and hope everyone else does too (the reverse is nesskai/nski) 🙏

I am a ness fan FIRST. I've been rooting for him for almost 2 years and his time is finally coming 🥹

[ditzyblogs]

this essay is just growing day by day it basically become a mass document on kaiser, ness, their intertwining themes, and their relationship. this is what happens every time I try to write something analytical I can't stop yappingggggg

[ditzyblogs]

I feel like all kaiser conversation is cursed because half of the fandom insists on trying to subvert expectations with his character so hard they make him something he's not. then the other half is still stuck in manshine, where he's super shallow. yes, he's insecure and craves love, but he's still a sadist who lives his life through malice. the two are not separate; one side is not "fake," and the other is "real." so much of the nuance of his character is lost leading to constant mischaracterization so he can fit a trope rather than just honoring his character's themes cohesively. it's really frustrating to see and I'm a shipper of both of his ships, but they play a HUGE role in this.

[miyamiwu]

actually, I think he's a masochist because he can only "thrive in restriction". He doesn't inflict malice because he finds pleasure in it. He does it to create a restriction on himself. Malice is simply a means to this end.

I talked about this in a different post before: By aiming for love while forging ahead through malice, Kaiser dooms himself to never reach love. This is his restriction.

Kaiser thought he was a sadist too (using malice to prove his existence), but then he realized that it wasn’t malice itself that defined him. It was love. It was his desperate need to be loved. So for him to play well, that love must never be fulfilled.

Love is his hunger. Once it's satisfied, what is there left for him to strive for?

[ditzyblogs]

This is what I mean by saying they work together. kaiser projects onto others a fuck-ton (still wish we got more about that locker room scene) and everything comes down to his two childhood dreams forged by his trauma: freedom & love. I'm writing a muchhhh longer piece on it and how it relates to ness but I kind of want the arc to end first because I think if ness doesn't get anything here (fingers crossed he does), there will be some hint of exactly where kaneshiro wants to take the duo and if they're(kaiser in particular) truly doomed or not

[ditzyblogs]

I feel like all kaiser conversation is cursed because half of the fandom insists on trying to subvert expectations with his character so hard they make him something he's not. then the other half is still stuck in manshine, where he's super shallow. yes, he's insecure and craves love, but he's still a sadist who lives his life through malice. the two are not separate; one side is not "fake," and the other is "real." so much of the nuance of his character is lost leading to constant mischaracterization so he can fit a trope rather than just honoring his character's themes cohesively. it's really frustrating to see and I'm a shipper of both of his ships, but they play a HUGE role in this.

[ditzyblogs]

something about domestic kaisagi that heals the soul I don't knowww does anyone have any fic recs for it? I love the fanarts and I think I'm ready to take the next big step.

[suosage]

BASTARD MÜNCHEN #8 ALEXIS NESS

I'll prove you guys wrong! I'll go pro and represent Germany, and someday... I'll become someone who can cast a spell on the whole world!

[ditzyblogs]

I've been neglecting my fics and posting because I'm trying to write an essay about the theme of love and how it connects Kaiser and Ness, and I'm running it by a dudebro so I KNOW I'm not making any leaps in logic based off my own personal desires.

[ditzyblogs]

update! my laptop broke so I'm definitely not finishing today 😭

[ditzyblogs]

laptop is fixed~ I should be done by friday and hopefully ness will be in leaks!

[bkblaise]

Happy halloween if i turn this into a real game i'll let you know

[fyeahkainess]

KaiNess shippers tend to view Kaiser as either the flirty dominant who tops or as the emotionally-constipated bottom with his guard all up. And that’s fine and all, but just now I had a vision

What if we had clingy Kaiser

I want to imagine that after he’s done with all this malice bullshit (i.e his angsty teenage phase) and he finally allows love into his life like a normal person, he’d wanna get close to Ness because he just craves affection. However, he doesn’t know how to ask for it and doesn’t dare to initiate it either, so instead of just going up to Ness to hug him, he just hovers on the side awkwardly. But when Ness finally gets the hint and holds him, Kaiser is never letting go. (Ness is more than fine with this)

[ditzyblogs]

I find that the fandom does not do vulnerable kaiser much justice because their idea of him allowing himself to be love is just crying and bottoming when there's so much more that can be done with his development. getting profiles and learning that not only is his type someone that's affectionate, but that ness is all about nurturing and focuses so much on emotions felt like a GIFT.

It's honestly surprising to me that I find better displays of kaiser's journey to healing in kaisagi content opposed to kainess when we literally have the character that's made for the role of loving him.

[ditzyblogs]

kaiser not choking ness, but resting his hand over his neck, fingers cradled around the soft skin, wedged deep enough for him to feel a pulse drumming underneath his touch like a musical number with him as the conductor. the essence of life, ness's entire being, existing only at the tips of his fingers.

[ditzyblogs]

I've been neglecting my fics and posting because I'm trying to write an essay about the theme of love and how it connects Kaiser and Ness, and I'm running it by a dudebro so I KNOW I'm not making any leaps in logic based off my own personal desires.

[ditzyblogs]

update! my laptop broke so I'm definitely not finishing today 😭

[t-r99]

Yukimiya Kenyu

The One on One Emperor

Blue Lock S2E4

[jkschanel]

ness canonically being easy to tears has. done something to me

[ditzyblogs]

I'll tell you what it did to me: it watered my crops, it gave my body nutrients, it healed my soul, and (most importantly) it proved me right~

[ditzyblogs]

I've been neglecting my fics and posting because I'm trying to write an essay about the theme of love and how it connects Kaiser and Ness, and I'm running it by a dudebro so I KNOW I'm not making any leaps in logic based off my own personal desires.

[animentality]

I fully and shamelessly admit that I have preferences on who tops or bottoms in the gay fanfics I read, but after 20+ years of living, I can now confidently say, I have one ship where I genuinely don't mind it going either way.

And that's KaiNess.

Kaiser topping Ness is good, because the angst and humiliation potential is there, reminiscent of canon, but Kaiser crying and breaking down or being the world's brattiest bottom as Ness finally gets the chance to put him in his proper place on his kneeeees-

yeah it's just good stuff all around.

no preference. pick your poison.

[ditzyblogs]

this is interesting for me because kainess is the only ship I have where I'm fixed. I think it's because I'm obsessed with them in canon so deviating from that heavily (which nski tends to do) doesn't appeal to me. plus I can get my bottom kaiser fix from any of the other characters I ship him with before ness since it's more canon-like that they would be able to make him submit or even want that from him.

[nessberry]

michael needs to get over this malice shit so bad and just go home to his loving wife

[ditzyblogs]

my mutual put me on so hard to the headcanon that kaiser is quick to come. It fits to me because he's the type to spend a lot of time on foreplay since it allows him to study his partner thoroughly, getting a feel for where they're most sensitive and what sets them off before he starts working on his own pleasure.

ness is such an easy person to crack, and at first, kaiser thinks it's a good idea, those exaggerated reactions being fun to play with until he's a few pumps in and comes before ness even gets the chance to adjust, still whimpering and squirming without realizing that kaiser already finished. it can be insanely funny or deep, but either way, kaiser is sooo embarrassed I can't imagine it