❛ NEED is a strong word. ❜it sounds cold ; much colder than intended either way. the softest chuckle barely making it through chapped lips, more bitter than sweet, escaping through slightly clenched teeth — much alike a growl. pushing people away is almost a habit ( bad habit, if you will. incidentally, one particularly difficult to shake off ), it’s almost a matter of fact at this point, after all: people who get close to a winchester, him SPECIFICALLY, do not get much of a happy ending ( lord knows the list is long. too long to remember, or rather want to. it’s going through old photos he’s kept for one reason or another and finding nothing but guilty & pain in each one of them, hands clutching into fists and the constant question: what if ? ; what if they never met him. what if he had worked harder to prevent it. what if he had walked away faster … ). he sighs. & it gives off an extremely fatigued vibe. as if he’s been fighting this inner war for too long, since forever. this shouldn’t go on. this thing they have. hunter & prey ——— the limits between one and the other blurred. it’s a disaster waiting to happen, isn’t it ? ❛ i don’t need anyone. ❜ does it sound as much of a lie as he thinks it does ?
