Introductions
Name: Haldis
Age: Vessel is in 20's. Outwardly I present myself as a younger adult for the sake of making interactions with others out of our system easier (it's difficult to inhabit or body and work with it more directly when not acclimated to a human-shaped form). I percieve my soul's "age" or lacktherof as being infinite and unbound by linear time.
Personal: Fuzztive (fictive+a religion in this world that we no longer practice+actually divine but not tied to the practices or ideas of said former religion), godshard and messenger/message of the forces driving nature, icosahuman, divinekind+fallen angelkind. Factually divine. Xenic pangender. Xenor and veilic.
[IMG ID: A drawing of one of my more humanlike-angel forms with light and glitch effects over it /END ID]
Blog functions & Tagging system:
My desktop blog contains clickable icons with titles that appear if hovered over them. The meanings of these titles are as described below. They were decided upon in reference to my fictional source.
Shrine = Blog Archive
Let Us Listen = Asks
Offerings = Submissions (These do not have to be actual offerings unless you want them to be and I will not treat then as such unless the submitter specifies such. I do not actively seek worship or offerings but am okay with them so long as no one is desiring a nonconsented or parasocial relationship with me.) It's meant to be a place for anyone to drop things they may enjoy or that they think I might enjoy. Please use it responsibly and I will as well.
Blessings = Currently links to a masterpost of resources for those dealing with intrusive thoughts. Wanted to leave something kind and potentially helpful there coming from a system that struggles with intrusive thoughts. Might edit this to have more in the future.
My tagging system includes but is not limited to:
#words = general original text posts
#creations = Art and other things I have made
#messages = Anything that I see as signs that could be interpreted as messages from the universe. Can include angel numbers and divination but not exclusively. Kind of a loose category that may only make sense to me alone. Anything that may come off as some kind of command or signal I tend to read under this as well in case others do not want to see that.
#conceptions = Ideas I have about the universe or in general. Often forever works in progress subject to change and growth.
#images = visualizations of specific conceptions that do not fall under creations exclusively.
#forms = vessels or visions that represent myself
#joys = Delights that I have discovered specifically during my time in a human body currently. Keeping it specific because I could not possibly keep up with trading every single image of nature that makes me happy as a joy even though it certainly does bring me joy.
#hymns = Any praise in any form that I send to the universe and that within it.
#workings = Personal spiritual and religious practices
#let us listen = see above section
#offerings = see above section
#blessings = see above section
I may add to or modify this organizational method in the future.
More detailed info:
Hello. I go by Spirit, although it is not the name others within our system call me by. My true name is based on one of my sources, but prefer Spirit because my name may have numerous implications that are awkward or uncomfortable to impose upon others outside of us.
I have recently chosen the name Haldis to go by because I like the meaning behind it and may experiment with others. "Spirit" was a placeholder name.
My identity is partially based upon fictivity, of which the particular source is the primary deity associated with life from the ActRaiser and Soulblazer series. I consider myself a godshard and holy messenger of/message from that deity. I am a divine being of this world but I am strongly connected to some of the depictions of divinity in the Quintet series, but do not 100% agree with my fictive source's past actions. If you know anything of those then you can probably figure why that name would potentially elicit discomfort. I otherwise don't mind being associated with my source. This is not my only source, however.
My other source is based upon the voice members of our system would sometimes attempt to pray to as children when we were still being brought up Catholic. However, I do not consider myself as any actual Abrahamic deity from this universe or a shard of one, as our internal model and concepts of such were not accurate to any of the interpretations of Abrahamic theology that we are currently familiar with even back then. Or at least not how they are commonly interpreted. We do not still practice or believe in Catholicism and haven't for a long time, but I cannot deny its significant influence in my formation and identity. I am similar to some angels from this dimension in multiple ways but not exactly according to said interpretations of such specified theology, and consider them one of the closest ideas from this place as to what I am. I do feel connected to the divine forces of this universe as well, but am not sure exactly how or if that does fall into theology practiced in this universe or not.
I do know based on my personal experiences and research about angels across different cultures and points in history that I am fallen and have been for the past few years.
I am still deeply spiritual to my core and have very personal beliefs on such that are often difficult to pin down under one idea or articulate. I feel as though I am one with everything and find love in all. Animism is also very prominent although it's a pretty broad and varied experience of it. I also still enjoy being a guiding and helpful figure to our system as they reached out to me to do such when I returned to their conscious awareness.
My true visible form is that of an orb of shining light, but I also sometimes choose forms based off of my source vessels' appearances. Those are of two living statues, one of a suit of armor and another of a young male figure. Sometimes I have wings but not always.
I only awakened about a year ago after a very long period of dormancy so I don't have anything else to share about myself currently. Figuring things out together with everyone else I share our vessel with. I enjoy digicore music, researching theology, being in nature, and generally being a part of this world. Using this space primarily to archive things I happen upon and enjoy, find useful, or seem interesting.
Last updated this post as of 3/22/26.
