DIY'ing Therapy

Diagnosed GAD, ADHD, OCD, BPD. I've completed countless rounds of therapy and this is what goes on in my mind.

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"While You Were Out"

What were the biggest revelations you had while writing While You Were Out? And what do you hope readers take away from the book? Shame kills. Don’t be embarrassed to talk about mental illness. People don’t ask to have depression or anxiety or schizophrenia any more than someone with cancer or diabetes asked for their diseases. Those who suffer from mental illness need our understanding and compassion. They should be heard. Love them. Listen to them. Try to understand them. Help them as best you can. And if that’s not enough to heal them, take heart in knowing that you did all that you could.

(AN INTERVIEW WITH AUTHOR MEG KISSINGER)

[motivatedaily]

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I’m a loser who can’t stay sober long enough to do anything about it.

[memeuplift]

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“Live your own truth and it won’t matter how many lies they tell about you. The truth will prove itself.”

— Tony Gaskins

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Getting phantom whiffs of drugs. Def all psychological cause I’m home with only my dog next to me.

I’m starting to realize the only way to stop smoking is to be fully sober 100%. I was getting whiffs of coke earlier. I don’t even do coke anymore. But being at all intoxicated - with alcohol. Makes me want to smoke. And snort shit.

SOBER IS SEXY. WERE GONNA DO IT. (But tomorrow cause tonight is how this post came to be)

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Relationships

Is it possible to have a real relationship with people if they don't know about your struggles and your addictions? If something were to happen to you, would those around you say "I had no idea she was hurting".

How do we tell those around us that we're struggling with these kinds of things without worrying that someone is going to commit you?

[catchymemes]

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Does anyone else always think they can do everything, all whilst thinking they're incapable of everything?

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Addiction is giving up everything for 1 thing. Recovery is giving up 1 thing for everything.

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QUITTING IS WINNING

Let's all be quitters today!! I've been here before but this will be my last time. I desperately need to stop smoking weed.

Why am I quitting?

I want to respect myself again. I want to look in the mirror and not want to cringe. I want to see myself as worthy.

To save my life. I have no job at the moment and smoking isn't helping me find one.

To save my marriage. I'm not actually interested in my husband when I'm high.

We can do this.

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What is the meaning of life?

I ask myself that question all the time. But recently, I realized... there is no answer.

Because the question is really... what is YOUR meaning of life? You're the one that designs your life.

So... What is your meaning of life? I'm working on figuring mine out now.

[quotefeeling]

“Don’t let your struggle become your identity.”

— Unknown

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DIY'ing Therapy

By societal standards, I am an adult. I am over 30 years old, I'm married, I have a dog, I did have a job and will get one again soon.

All of that sounds great. Right? It is! Most of the time.

In the last 5 years, I've been diagnosed with GAD, ADHD, Panic Disorder, OCD, and BPD. I've completed countless rounds of therapy and have all the tools I need at the moment. However, I go through a lot of emotional rollercoasters and sometimes it helps to keep track of them. I always try to journal but it's hard. So, I'm trying the anonymous online blog route. Maybe someone, someday will read some of this and find some comfort.

Anyway, come with me on this journey of life. ❤️