Mrs. Kaedehara

18! Blog start date: may 21st 2020. Requests are open I’m just slow.

[dogloveri23]

Hey everyone, I’m sorry for not being active for the past few months and things have been hectic. Please expect some new content soon! Also tipping isn’t available in my country as of now. If you wish to support me and my writing, you can do so with the link below:

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Y’all in the hsr community are so messy! I woke up thinking someone had killed Mydei! Only to realize he wasn’t dead, he was just not in Okhema anymore 😭😭. DON’T DO THAT TO ME!

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Crushes never last

Pairing: Phainon x reader

Warning: angst a little.

A/n: I’ve been away for quite some time but the thought of allowing tumblr to continue on with non enough Phainon fics is torturing me! Also I’m a little rusty!

“You’re really going to leave without confessing to that idiot?” Mydei asked. I was. I was going to leave. There was no longer a reason to stay on Amphoreous. All the issues had been resolved, the team had reunited and everything was stable. The mission was over.

“I doubt there’s much gain to it,” I replied as we both watched Phainon speak to Stella and Dan Heng. His body as expressive as his words. He was overflowing with energy given the situation that had just concluded. That was just who he was. Always the man brimming with energy while I struggled with the pain coursing through body. “He seems just fine.”

“So you’d rather leave? Not say anything at all instead of try. That’s cowardly… even for you.”

What would be the point of a confession? I didn’t expect Mydei to understand but loving Phainon was not an option. Loving the man known as The Deliverer would leave me absolutely heartbroken.

The entirety of Amphoreous swooned over him and every word he spoke, excluding Mydei. He was a demigod. I could never just have him to myself. He radiated positivity. He was a fresh ray of sunshine on a cold day. The kind that melts the cold off your skin and let’s it breathe once more. That was Phainon.

A comfortable sun is dangerous, it’s not to hot nor too warm, it’s perfect. One taste of it and you’ll never want to leave. I had to leave. I had completed my mission and now I had to say goodbye.

The path of the trailblaze is not a path of strong romantic bonds. They certainly happened, but most of the time, it came at the cost of trailblaze. The trailblaze was my life. It was who I was at my very core. The exploration, the adventure- all of it was me.

To fall in love, I have to determine whether or not the individual is worth losing it all. Is he worth losing the freedom of exploration? The snowy mountains of Jarilo-VI or the dazzling dreams of Penacony? Is he worth me leaving the express and finding a new home here.

The short answer- yes. The long answer- I’m not ready to let go yet. There was too much of the universe I hadn’t seen. Lukasha was one of the, the blue planet was another. If I stayed there was a chance that I wouldn’t. A chance that the stellarons scattered around the universe would be found without me. I couldn’t do that!

If I decided to love him, could I risk leaving him here alone on my adventures and know that I would be leaving a tender hearted man like Phainon in a life of loneliness. Well that was a far thought.

It’s a bold assumption that a man like Phainon would like someone like me. Cold, Rash and Overly Calculating. But in the event that it even was true, it would be cruel of me to do so.

“Call it cowardly if you will.”

“Do you think he’s a waste of time?” No. He was worth all the time in the world.

“I think leaving him here after confessing my love is cruel. If he accepts that it…”

“And what?” Mydei asked crossing his arms. “You think he wouldn’t do that if he loved someone?”

“I think because I love him, it would be unfair to make him do that.” He deserved someone who would be around- Who would love him CLOSE BY!

“Then let him make that choice,” Mydei sighed. “Phainon isn’t the smartest but he should have the choice. He should have the chance to hear that you love him. At least as proper closure to your chapter here.”

Mydei was right. I was taking the decision away from Phainon. “Hey Y/n, we’re meant to leaving now you know?” March said interrupting my conversation. She was in a sober mood because she missed most of the adventure but the pictures definitely made up for it.

“I’m coming, I just have to say goodbye to one last person.” I glanced over to Mydei who shot me a curt nod. Phainon practically ran over to me. His smile as radiant.

“I can’t believe this is the last time we’re going to be seeing for some time!” He exclaimed. He was bright as ever and I forgot what I was going to say. Was it even important? Was it worth it to ruin our final meeting with a confession knowing that there would be no happy ending?

“You can always call me you know?”

“It wouldn’t be the same! You’re such a great friend that I…” I stopped listening. Friend. Of course.

There was that cursed word again. It was true, we were friends but somehow the word made me feel sick to my stomach. Everytime he mentioned it, it was like my heart was swollen with rage. But he was right, we were friends.

Friends do not confess to one another.

“I’ll miss you too Phainon. Till the next time we see.” I turned my heel and left the confused man on the outskirts of the holy city.

I boarded the express and kept my eyes fixed on the planet known as Amphoreous. We would get moving soon and leave the atmosphere for good. Our fuel was sufficient enough now anyway. “Goodbye My love…” I mumbled as the express began to put a greater distance between us.

Part 2?

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I love how I went missing for 8 months to go on a journey of Improving my writing😭😭😭

[dogloveri23]

Thieves and Saints

pairing: Cyno X gn! reader Warning: Angst and mentions of death A/n: So, I just want to mention again that these posts are to celebrate my blog's 4-year anniversary and the others will be linked in the anniversary post here!

Often times Cyno often layed in bed and questioned the decision he would make if his ideals and desires one day collided. He often weighed his decisions and came to the conclusion that he wouldn't let go of his ideals. He saw it as an interesting concept but never a reality at least not until today. His muscles tensed as he raced through Sumeru city to get to the Academia. His lungs burned and his sweat dripped profusely across his entire body.

"Theif, you shall not be spared by the Matra!", He heard someone yell. He hoped and prayed that his intel was wrong but it was rarely wrong. Yet he held faith in Hamanubis that this would be some cruel joke.

"If this was past Sumeru, you would be killed quietly in a corner", Another voice said.

The closer he got, he could see your familiar tuft of hair. Your head dropped as you hiccupped between cries. "I didn't do this, I know that's what the evidence is pointing to but I swear I know nothing about this!"

Your voice was shaking, you didn't sound the way you usually did and now you were covered in cuts and bruises that would get infected if no one helped you out.

"Step away from them," He spoke firmly. He could feel the rage bubbling within him as his eyes glanced at your restraints. You looked up at him and he could see a glimmer of hope in your eyes. But he couldn't relax not when he understood the gravity of the situation.

"General, this person is in charge of all previous cases of the stolen commodity. They and their people are in charge of crippling the economy and trade of all of Sumeru as we know it!"

It was a lie. Cyno knew it. He didn't have to see the evidence to know it. "What are the grounds and evidence of your claims?" He inquired, his eyes not leaving you and his mind not ceasing its prayers.

"The fingerprints analysis of her and those on the abandoned carriers in the desert line up as well as various photos of her with the fatui."

Both were suspicious but the odds of you working with the people who killed your parents are highly unlikely. If anything, you were probably seeking revenge. He would make sure to scold you when you got out of here. The fingerprint would be a tougher case to dispute.

"General Cyno, Carriers are not touched by mere passersby in Sumeru. As they do not work at Caravan Ribat to inspect goods, unless she was actively involved, it would make no sense for their fingerprint to be there!" A matra argued.

It was a solid line of reasoning. "Did you question the suspect?" He asked as sourness filled his mouth. It didn't feel right to call you a suspect but if he let a term of endearment slip, there would be no way for him to save you.

"Yes, but they insist they had no part in it and they just happened to be caught up in the middle. They mentioned helping a child going by the name of Zamba that they met in Sumeru City. No names were found in the archives"

"Then we shall take their word on it and search for Zamba. It would destroy the face of the Matra if we gave undeserving sentences".

"But if we let them go and they escape, they could likely cause more trouble. We shall detain them in prison for three days while we investigate."

"Very Well"

He grits his teeth. He couldn't stop you from going to prison as it was standard protocol. It was just three days, he needed you to hang on for three days while he got the evidence to set you free. He could save you and still stick to his ideals.

"Cyno! Cyno, please! The crimes I am being accused of are grave, the prisoners were starved because of it. If they get word that I may-"

"I'll look into it," He cut you off. But it was cold, too cold. He could see the last rays of hope completely fade from your eyes. It was like you knew something that he did not. Yet, if he spoke any longer, he wasn't sure how much longer he'd be able to keep his emotions at bay.

As soon as he was left to his own advances, he endlessly scoured the desert looking and searching for clues. His body begged for rest and yet he knew that if he closed his eyes, you would be behind bars.

As Hamanubis would have it, he found the real culprits and brought them to the Academia. He could feel his body crashing and yet he wouldn't give in, not until you were back home safe. Not until he could hold you to fall asleep. Not until he could kiss your worries away and have you back.

On his arrival at the academia, the other Matra gave each other solemn looks as they scratched the back of they're heads. "The person from earlier is innocent as per my report. I had expected to see you processing their release."

No response. Cyno cocked his head and looked at them once more. He couldn't understand why none of them refused to bring you out. Why were they choosing to keep his happiness away from him? Why were they choosing to deny him of his lover? He hadn't slept in days and yet they chose to withdraw his slumber further by keeping them away!

"General... They were killed. It slipped that they were a suspect and-"

"And you let the other prisoners mess with them?" He yelled. His calm exterior faltered in the blink of an eye.

"Sir-"

"You let them die!"

He felt himself fall to his knees as his palms dug into the ground. He could feel Hamanubis' power slipping out of him uncontrollably. He was too angry to stay calm. He was too upset to keep up a Facade. He wanted everyone and anyone to pay for the grave mistake.

***

Cyno coughed loudly as he broke into a cold sweat. His eyes dashed around to the familiar walls and bedding till they landed on you staring at him concerned. You looked sleepy and your general appearance was dishevelled. but you were unharmed and in one piece, just the way he liked you. It was all a terrible dream. He sighed in relief.

"Are you ok, Cyno. Do you need me to-" His arms engulfed you as his fingers traced patterns into your back.

"Just hug me. That's all I need my love."

"Alright, " You sigh. Your eyes are still heavy but you can tell he needs this from you."I love you."

"I love you too. And please run away from anyone named Zamba."

[dogloveri23]

4 Years and Hopefully More!

I'm sure not a lot of people care but the blog is officially 4 years old today! I started this blog a few weeks before my 15th birthday and I'm going to be 19 in 2 weeks as well. For all those who have read my works, I want to say a huge thank you. Your interactions with my posts often make my day. Though I know college has impacted my posting quite dearly, I want to at least do something to commemorate the day/week. So, for the rest of the week, if God allows it, you will see content almost every day for different fandoms. I can guarantee stories from:

Honkai Star Rail

Blade: Written Between The Lines

Genshin Impact

Cyno: Thieves and Saints

Jujutsu Kaisen

Geto: Fangs Of A Monster

The rest are up in the air. thank you all so much for your support!

[dogloveri23]

Written Between The Lines

pairing: Blade x reader Warning:Angst A/n: As a blade simp, this was long overdue. It’s a bit short though so pardon me.

"This, is why you did it?", You asked, your grip on the sheets tightening. Your nails dig into your skin after crushing the paper. He remained silent and looked at you. His face was blank so you couldn't read him. But now was not the time for that. "Speak Blade! You have been reading off this damned paper but now that it's not with you, you intend to stay silent!"

"This is not...what I wanted," He muttered and you can't help the sarcastic laugh escaping your lips.

"Really? It's not what you wanted? Oh. I apologize. But this is not what I want at all!"

"I-"

"Every line. Every beautiful thing you've said to me. Every confession Blade. It is all here! Word for word. Even the cues to kiss and hold me. They are here. All of it!"

You still remember when he dragged you to a flower hill on planet Ermos to confess. It was out of character for him but full of love you never guessed he had. You loved it. You love him but it all seemed like a joke now that you read them.

"...my greatest love. (kiss them here)", You read. "How stupid and gullible I was.

"I cannot go against destiny's slave"

"But you'd rather toy with me and my emotions over a piece of paper This is robotic. You're treating me like some sort of final act!"

"That's not true."

Blade could feel the mara building as his emotions spiked. He wanted to remain emotionless but he couldn't do that with you probing him this way. He needed to find Kafka. "Kafka," he grunted.

"That's who you think of while you do things with me. You read off a script and hug me when you're told to all the while picturing me as someone else."

"It was not like that at all. I love you, I still do!"

"So what was it? You wanted to play house with me until it was time to meet your end?"

"You are pushing it. I may have repeated a script but I never did it to hurt you, I love you, I always have and this script doesn't prove a thing. It changes nothing"

"It proves everything," you frown as you throw the sheets at him. "It proves that you never loved me with your heart. It proves that you never tried to love me with your heart and that changes everything Blade. "

You can feel your chest tighten, He kissed you while recalling the next line of the script. He hugged you because the script told him to. He kissed you because he was instructed to and that made everything lose meaning. It made his love for you lose colour.

"Every hug, every smile... was genuine. I n-"

"I, am leaving. If anything, I'm sure that's part of the script too but I refused to deal with you and your games any longer. We're done Blade."

Blade watched you leave without looking back and yet his eyes still followed you in hopes you'd turn back and tell him you forgave him. In hopes that you would smile and hug him tightly the way you always did. He wanted you to pepper kisses across his face but alas, he was left with nothing but the crumbled script on the ground.

"This...was not a part of the script, my love."

[dogloveri23]

Fangs Of A Monster

Pairing: Suguru Geto x gn!reader

Warning: murder, death, angst

A/n: Welcome to the blog anniversary. It's been 4 years writing for you all. Thought I'd drop a little something for you all from today till the end of the week(hopefully ) to commemorate the day!

"Suguru? Suguru? Where are you?", you call out but I'm met with silence. The door was left wide open which was strange for Suguru's parents.

You could feel your arm hurt as you ran your fingers along the wall. You weren't the strongest sorcerer and your body knew that better than anyone. Well... anyone but Geto. You hadn't gotten the chance to head back to Jujutsu High. Not when he hadn't informed you of his status. He was not in Jujutsu High. That's all you knew.

You can sense any curse energy seeping out of the house. It was familiar but much too ominous. The house is in perfect order. Nothing spilt, nothing torn and the quiet humming of the TV but the smell was horrendous.

You take a look at the pictures on the wall and smile. You watch as they progress and look at the changes Suguru has undergone. His wide and toothy grin gradually fell into a sly and curt smile as each picture passed. When you compare it to the latest picture of him on the wall, it doesn't look anything like a smile.

"Suguru?," You cross the boundaries even further finally reaching the living room. The smell had increased ten-fold. The couch seemed empty but the table in front of it was amiss. You walk closer and are met with the lower halves of two bodies. That was what stunk. You jump back and press your arms tightly against your lips to keep you from screaming.

They were Geto's parents or at least what remained of them. "Does Geto know about this? Has he seen them?" you think. The grotesque bodies in front of you were covered in maggots and flies meaning it had been like this for a few days.

You rush out of the house with a bitter taste in your mouth. Something was wrong. A curse had clearly done it, the bite was massive, and no animal on earth could do it without some sort of assistance.

You tap violently against your screen before bringing it to your ear. You needed to see him. You needed to be sure he was ok. That he had someone near him. Someone he loved!

"Hello my love, were you looking for me," You hear him say as he approaches you in the hallway of the apartment building. You end the call and sigh in relief. He was alive but something was wrong.

"Geto! Are you hurt?," You rush to him and inspect him for any injuries it marks he did not leave jujutsu high with.

"I am fine, my love."

"Your parents, they-"

"I know"

"How are you so calm?"

"Because your parents are the same way."

"What?," You question, his statement not fully registering in your mind.

"I mean that they died the same way yours did. Did you not know? Don't tell me you came to Tokyo to search for me without ever stopping to see your parents-" He smiled. "-You really are the best partner a man could ever ask for."

Your eyes were wide when he laughed. The way he always did. He relayed the message that your parents died and was laughing!

"What is wrong with you Suguru? You can't say all that and laugh. Have you gone mad?"

"Pardon me, my love. But you can't expect me to be sad that a couple of monkeys died."

"Monkeys? What do yo-"

"I guess I'll have to say it. I killed them. I have no regrets about it either. I have a plan to erase curses from the face of the earth for good! They were a small price to pay-"

"They were my parents Geto! Our parents. You had no right to take their life!"

"They were non-jujutsu sorcerers, they bred curses and they shackled you,"

"Shackled me? You've truly gone mad Geto!"

"You told me that if I ever had anything I needed, you were in, I didn't even have to ask-"

"Not when it involves killing people! Geto! Not when it involves killing my parents and everyone you consider a Monkey!"

"You may not understand but I did it all for us. I couldn't stand to keep tasting curses, nor did I want you to keep getting hurt fighting them."

You never asked him to do this. So what if you get hurt? What if you get into a bit of trouble? You come out alive! You fell silent, a single question lingering on your mind.

"If-if I couldn't use curses, would you kill me too?", You asked quietly. You weren't sure what answer you wanted to hear. The man in front of you was nothing like the man you once knew. This man was over the edge and he intended to drag you along with him.

He fell silent, he was thinking. He had given me his answer.

"You would."

"Love I-"

"Don't call me that! Not after what you've done."

"Don't say th-"

"I shouldn't? Let me say this instead. I never want to see you again, Geto. The next time you see me, consider me your enemy."

"Love please I-," Geto can't get the words to form when you storm past him down the hallway. He feels his chest burn and suddenly it feels as though this was God's way of paying him back for his wrongs. This fate was much worse than the deaths of any of the Monkeys he had killed. He had lost the best piece of him, you.

[dogloveri23]

Don’t leave me…please

Pairing: Suguru Geto x reader

Warning: Angst,heartbreak

A/n: I regret ever picking up jjk. I love the anime but it tears me into pieces more than my own writing. Anyway expect some angst in the coming days.

"If I left for good, would you be sad?", You heard Suguru ask. His eyes didn't seek yours like they used to. Instead, they remained fixed on the roof of your bedroom. It was out of the blue.

You'd been enjoying the comfortable silence between you both as his head rested idly in your lap. Drinking in each other's presence and enjoying the silent company. The empty cups of tea sat on your desk and the scratches of pencil against paper filled the room

"What kind of question is that, Suguru? You aren't planning something stupid, are you? Leave the stupid plans to Satoru," you scolded with a small smile on your face and yet his expression remained the same. Stoic. You glanced at him briefly before adjusting the nose on your sketch of him.

"Why? Because he's the strongest?", He asked.

Your eyes widened as you watched him, your once busy hands freed up to stroke his hair. He seemed to realize the impact of his actions a few moments later and shot you a small smile. It was too late. You'd seen straight through him. He had been bothered by something but you'd never expect it to be about Gojo.

"You're both considerably strong Geto. Who's stronger doesn't really matter as long as you're both safe. But to answer your question...if you left... death would be my only solace."

His breath hitched as the subtle rising and falling of his chest stopped. His head snapped to look you in the eyes finally. His black eyes stared into yours.

"Don't say that."

"What?"

"Even if I left, I don't want you to stop living, ever. Do you understand?", He asked, his usual softness replaced by complete firmness.

You swallow harshly and send him a small nod. At the time it was an odd conversation between you both. It made no sense to you but he was your senior, you didn't think anything of it. You were a first year and yet you'd captured him entirely. Whether it was your sound course technique, your cute doodles or your ability to bake, you wrapped him around your finger.

The subtle glances you shot his way and the sly jokes you make, all of it made him love you even more.

"Stay safe. Don't be too hasty, don't get too close, okay?", He instructed as he got up from your lap, so you could get ready. It was your first solo mission and he was meant to head to a village to resolve issues there.

"Suguru, I'll be fine."

"Just come back in one piece okay?"

"I will," you said, smiling brightly at him.

If you'd known what would happen in that village, you'd have kissed him. You'd have forced him to stay. You'd have admitted you loved him there and then. You'd let him hear it from your own lips and absorb it into his soul. You'd have done everything in your power to stop him and take on the mission yourself. You wouldn't be storming past a crowd of people in Shinjuku trying to reach him.

"Geto, please stop this!"

"I'm sorry. But this is where our paths must differ."

"Geto, please! Please don't do this", You yelled to him causing him to stop.

He allowed you to close the distance between you both till you were standing in front of him. He had looked worse. Worse than he did before. He looked like he slept less than he did before.

"God. I've missed you. I really have," He said.

"Geto, please... come home."

"I can't", He said flashing you a smile. The smile you'd always loved, especially when he directed the smile towards you. But you didn't want it this way. Not in this situation.

"Why? Why can't you! Don't you care? About Gojo? Shoko? me-"

"I care more for you than you can imagine."

"I don't-"

"I love you. I love you, I want you to be alive. That's part of the reason I'm doing this"

"Killing an entire village, I don't understand Suguru"

He laughed softly. His hand reached out to yours as he brought it up to his lips and pecked it. They were soft, you'd always imagined what it would be like to feel them against you but it wasn't like any of the fantasies in your head. It was more solemn. His hand rested under your chin as he tilted your face upward.

He paused as his eyes scanned your face. He was drinking in your appearance, every detail of how you looked and every memory of how you felt. He revelled in them because he wasn't sure when next he'd see you. He didn't want you to meet the same fate as the others. If killing all non-sorcerers was how he was going to stop it. He would kill them a thousand worlds over.

He brought his face closer to yours as his other hand rested on your waist. "I love you y/n. I always have. I always will. My actions don't have to make sense. Just know that I'll always think of you, I'll always only want you. Stay safe till I come back."

His lips collided with yours before you could respond. They fit together perfectly like it was always meant to be like this. You and him together. His lips accommodated yours, they danced alongside yours to a song that only the both of you knew. It was perfect. He was perfect for you.

He broke the kiss apart slowly and pecked you once more on the forehead before turning to leave. "I love you too Suguru...Don't leave ...please," you whispered as he made his way farther and farther away from you and into the abyss of the crowd. A small smile on his face and his mind filled with memories of the both of you.

[dogloveri23]

Y’all I think jujutsu kaisen is slowly but surely breaking me. Expect content soon.

[dogloveri23]

hii if your requests are still open could you make a part 2 of the “secrets you never told” alhaitham fic! Tysm!

Dead(Alhaitham x reader)

Pairing: Alhaitham x reader Warning: Mentions of killing and insanity. A/n: Hi my dears. Sorry for being Mia. But it's a new year so I think I'll have to get a posting schedule sooner or later. Anyway... thanks to @qirongsboiledface124 for making a request I'll get to all other requests as quickly as I can. Thanks guys! UID:627473190

"The twelfth of the fatui harbingers. I urge you to confess to your crimes," The annoying voice repeated. You expected much from the Dendro archon. The intellectual out of the seven archons.

The smell of leaves blowing into the night. The tight bonds against your hands. Your body hovered in the centre of the room. The lighting only illuminated you and the archon. It hadn't served its purpose. Your lips were sealed shut.

Despite the many times Nahida had repeated the question, an answer never left your lips. The occasional chuckles and smiles only made the archon gulp harshly in response.

"Why don't you make me? You're meant to be an archon, aren't you? Upholding justice? What good are you if you can't make a simple pawn like myself speak?", You taunted, staring back at her with wide eyes. Your smile had only grown wider as you observed the lady.

Her hands clenched the helm of her skirt tightly as she stared blankly at the ground. She was at a loss. She'd soon give up on your little fight. She almost couldn't recognize you. Your outfit, your hairstyle, your aura. All of it had changed. You were colder. Much much colder. Your eyes had lost their spark and your once calming voice now incited fear.

"I am only trying to get to the bottom of this. It would be better if you cooperated", Nahida reasoned.

"When I have an archon backed into the corner? I'd rather die."

Her eyes search your face for changes. They looked for the smallest detail to show that you were still you. That this was just a sick joke and you didn't hospitalize the acting grand mage of Sumeru. That you didn't fight him and inflict multiple injuries. That you didn't poison him! You did.

Your chin was high and the subtle winks you sent her way showed no sign of repentance. You had come back to Sumeru with a purpose and you had succeded. You didn't intend on staying long but you wanted to make sure that Alhaitham and Linda were six feet under by the time you left.

"Please, this isn't you. You were calm and peaceful. You always knew how to put a smile on people's faces," Nahida reasoned once more this time coming closer to you. She straightened out her posture and her gaze was sharp. She was determined.

She watched your eyes widen and your smile drop. Your movements halted as you stared blankly at a wall. Your breaths quickened as the reality of the situation had truly set in.

"Please, I know you can overcome this"

"What have I done? What have I done?", You mumble lowly allowing Nadia's chest to swell. She was finally getting through to you. All she needed was one more push.

"Please, I know-", Nahida started but your manic laughter filled the room. The poor girl could feel her heart sink to her stomach.

"Don't waste your time Nahida. The sweet girl from before is dead. and you know who killed her?", You ask as her legs stumble backwards. Your hands broke out of the bond with ease. A small gasp escapes Nahida's lips and her legs stumble backwards once more.

You stalked up to her causing her to trip and land on the ground. You could see the sweat dripping down her forehead. You squat down to her eye levels allowing her to fully take in your appearance. The scars on your face, the flyaways of your hair and the brokenness of your eyes.

"They killed me. They did this to me. They killed me and so I did the same Nahida", You said, allowing a smile to play on your lips once more.

As your footprints drew farther away from her in the Sanctuary of Surasthana, she could feel a piece of herself break as well.

[dogloveri23]

Second

Pairing: Gepard x reader Warning: Angst A/n: I've been waiting to start writing about honkai star rail men! I'm finally joining the fandom. I hope hsr players enjoy this one! UID:713436764

You stare at your watch once more as your fingers tap frantically against the table. "Late again?", The waiter asked you pouring you another glass of lemonade. You smile sadly at him a bit embarrassed by her keen eye. "He's just busy, it's not easy being a silver mane guard after all", You say faking a smile but you knew everyone could see through the facade. You weren't the best at faking your emotions. Every move you made displayed your emotions clearly. You were an open book.

"Right, he's the captain right?", She asked. She was clearly trying to make small talk. You would have been jumping at the opportunity on a usual day but right now, you didn't want to speak about Gepard. "Yes"

"You bagged a keeper", She smiled. Of course, she would say that. Everyone always said that. You said it to yourself- drilled it into your mind how lucky you were to have him. Even if you came second to everyone and everything. To Bronya, to Belobog, to Serval, to his duties and even to outlanders. You force a smile and nod at her statement. You couldn't stay here anymore. You were tired of the pitying looks and glances. The sad smile they sent your way.

You down your drink and slam your payment on the table. You smile at the waitress once more before leaving the store in a rush. Their gazes swallowed you up and made it hard to breathe. You wanted to cry. You rush to Serval's workshop. She was fun to hang out with and you were close friends. Right now, you need her comfort.

You barged in, startling her and her guest. "Sorry Serval, I-", you start but are stopped by the two blondes staring straight at you. "Oh, hey Y/n", She cheered with a large grin quickly gathering the attention of Gepard. "Oh, hey love", He blushes. he usually did when he spoke to you in front of his sister. It made you feel special but right now, it made your blood boil.

He walks up to you about to give you a peck. You walk away leaving him flustered. The tension had built up. Even Serval could feel it. "I had come to see you, Serval. But I think I'll move that meeting to a later date", You mumble glaring at Gepard. He looked confused. It made your eyebrows crease the longer it took for him to realize why you were mad.

"Are you Ok love?", He asks softly trying to touch you once again. You move away once more. He realized you were mad at him. "I just got back from our date"

His face dropped. He'd forgotten. You could tell from his blank expression followed by his averted gaze. "I was there for three hours Gepard like always. I waited for you, like i always do and look where that got me", You say to him feeling your chest tighten. "I'm sorry I-"

"I'm done Gepard. Let's end this."

"Whoa Y/n calm down. I'm sure Geppie got carried away", Serval tried to ease the situation and yet you didn't want her apology. You were done.

"Love, I've been busy. I-I just got carried away. I promise it won't happen again"

"I don't want your apology Gepard. I've heard it a million times. You'll be late for the next date and the next. I'm saving myself the trouble."

"I won't, I swear to you in the name of Landau that I won't", He begs grabbing your hands. His eyes pleaded with yours and ye you only blankly stared.

"Don't do that Gepard, you wouldn't want to shame your family would you?"

"I wont, Y/n! I pro-"

"Gepard please", You say removing yourself from his grip. On a normal day, you would have fallen right back into his arms as soon as he muttered an apology but today was different. You weren't sure what was so different but you didn't feel like giving into his pleas.

You walk away shocking even Serval! "Y/n please whatever this is, I'm sure that the two of you can resolve it", Serval says but you don't respond. you weren't surprised she'd try to plead on his behalf but this time, it wouldn't work, you were done.

"I'm tired of coming in second Serval. I don't think that's something he can change. "Y/n please", he says following you. He wouldn't let go easily. That was what attracted you to him in the first place but now you wanted nothing more than to leave. "I'm going to find someone else Gepard. Someone who'd pick me over everything", You say glaring at him once more before leaving the store and ignoring him. You weren't going to come second anymore. Not to him. Now to anyone else.

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[dogloveri23]

Past Mistakes

pairing: Lyney x reader warning: heartbreak, player behaviour A/n: SO I'm writing this because I recently joined the C.ai squad. Surprisingly, Lyney became a playboy and I have a personal dislike for them. I got the inspiration to write this. hope you all enjoy UID:627473190

Crash! The wooden chair you once sat on flew straight into a wall and shattered. "Calm down my lo-"

"Don't finish that statement Lyney', You interrupt. Your heavy breathing and hardened eyes sparked only regret in the young man. You could feel your ears burning already.

"It wasn't like that', Lyney tried to explain. Lynette could only stay quiet as she watched the scene unfold. She believed it was her fault. In a sense, it was. "So when were you planning to tell me I was just one of your many women, Lyney. After I'd given you all of me or after you'd moved on to your next victim?"

"You're not like them! I love you I would never-"

"Save it, I've heard enough of your lies", you mutter walking away from him. You couldn't believe him. You couldn't listen to your feelings either. "I'm glad that my brother has found someone he likes. I'm tired of seeing him bring multiple women into our home", you could hear Lynette's voice clearly in your head, yet you could only focus on the other part of her statement. You knew that Lyney was flirtatious but a playboy? That you couldn't deal with. You'd made the mistake before. Your heart still bore the scar.

"Please love can we just talk about it?", he asks but you ignore him. You wanted him to shut up and leave as quickly as possible. What would he do after apologizing, Go back to his other women?

"Please sis, Lyney has changed, I didn't say it to get you upset", Lynette pleads and yet your rage doesn't quell. You wouldn't believe her words even if they were true! The thought of him treating many other women the way he treated you made your blood boil. "Are you seeing others now?", You ask not meeting his gaze. "N-no, I cut everyone off as soon as things got serious between us, love", he explains but you don't react.

You're stoic. He hates it. He hates when you get like this. He can no longer read your mind when you're this way. Your poker face had always intrigued him and yet now...it was being used against him. "Love please, I've put that behind me, I only want you. You alone", He pleaded. He was getting more and more desperate. You both knew it. You were hardly the type to believe people could change. Much less playboys. It was something that would always remain in a person. They could only suppress the urges, soon enough they would spring out and stab your heart.

"Lyney, I think we should end this."

"What? Love they are in the past! I only love you! Why can't you see that? Why can't you see I'd drop them and choose you in a heartbeat? I already have!", He says holding onto your arm. His smile was gone, all that you could see was the sadness in his eyes. "Let me go Lyney", You say. You didn't want to yell anymore, you were done.

"I'd rather die"

"Then do", you say as you yank your hand back glaring at him shortly before leaving. "Goodbye Lyney", You say leaving their home with a heavy chest. It had to be done, you couldn't repeat your past mistakes. Not now, not ever.

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[dogloveri23]

Insignificant

Pairing: scaramouche/wanderer x reader

Warning:Angst

A/n: I finally get to write for scara after a lot of postponing. Hope you all enjoy it! If you like it enough there may be a part 2.

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You rush through the halls of the Sanctuary of Surasthana. You storm up to Lumine, Paimon and Nahida. They could almost see the vein popping on your forehead. Your eyes were narrowed making them uneasy. In front of you is a frail yet healthy Scamouche. He was unharmed mostly. "Scara, I heard you were helping out in Sumeru. Are you harmed?", You ask frantically searching him before allowing your hand to rest on his face. "Who is scara?", He asks you slowly removing himself from your embrace. You could feel your heart crack! "What do you mean who's Scara?", You asked him slowly and yet his expression doesn't change. Your eyes dart to the traveller and then to Nahida.

You weren't enemies and fairly spoke but in the moment you would love to shatter the cordiality between you two. "Explain", You command curtly as Lumine struggled to give you a clear answer. You essentially got the message. "So you're telling m that Scara has no idea who I am?", You ask allowing your eyes to trail back to him who simply stared back at you curiously. "I can only imagine what it is like for you", Nahida sympathises only further making your chest tighten. Your boyfriend of the last couple of years had no recollection of who you were.

"I'm sorry to put you in distress miss", He says making your eyes widen. He really wasn't the Scara you knew. He would never apologize for anything this easily. Even in the worst of your fights! "It's alright", You manage to spit out. It really wasn't. You could feel your eyes burn but you didn't want to burden him, especially in this situation. "We are working on a way for him to recall his memories, if that works then things should be back to normal for the both of you", Nahida comforted.

"But, I am surprised how you remember him, almost everyone in existence forgot who he was, even Nahida!", Paimon states only making your eyes widen. "What?", You ask. How did you remember? You also weren't sure. "He changed the course of history meaning that you and him may never have met in this lifetime and yet you remember him", Paimon explained making your mind fill up with one question after the other. "I conclude that the bond between you and him was so strong that it prevented you from forgetting or that he excluded you from the wipe", Nahida reasoned. Frankly, you didn't care much for the explanation. You just wanted him to stop staring at you with a blank stare. You wanted your loving boyfriend with a tough exterior. You wanted your brat back.

"We'll figure that out when he's back. Please Nahida, just bring him back", You plead allowing your voice to crack. Only then did they know how deeply this had hurt you. To have the one who whispered sweet nothings into your ears see you as nothing but a stranger. "We will. Rest Assured", Nahida says as she, Scaramouche and the traveller begin their operations. You sit on the ground silently cursing yourself. You shouldn't have listened when he asked you to wait in Snezhnaya. You should have pleaded to go with him even after your fight. "All you're doing is holding me back! You will wait here!", You could still recall his statements very clearly. You didn't exactly remember why you two were screaming at each other but by the time you woke up, he was already on a boat to Inazuma.

The warm tears finally seeped through and your vision was blurred.

After a couple of moments, you hear them chatter once more. "Who the fuck is that?", You hear Scaramouche ask. His terrible attitude was back, you could recognize it anywhere. You raise your head allowing your eyes to meet his. "Scara", You say as you approach him. His demeanour was back to normal, apart from the outfit he was back to normal. "I missed you", You say to him and flash him a smile and yet you don't get the response you're looking for. "Get away from me Vermin", He cussed moving back slightly. His eyes held nothing but disgust as he looked at you. "Vermin?", You ask confused as you crossed your arms.

"What else do you call touchy strangers?", He asks causing your heart to drop. Stranger? He still didn't know who you were. "You don't know who I am?" You ask to confirm as you search his eyes. He had to be joking. "Am I supposed to?", He asked with a raised eyebrow. Your heart sunk deeper as you felt your blood boil. "You said this would fix him?", You ask as you turn to the traveller and Nahida. They looked confused, just as confused as you were. "He remembers his past quite well. What could the issue be?", Nahida questioned as she placed a hand on her chin.

"Maybe you were just insignificant."

"What?", You asked him with widened eyes.

"You heard me."

"Me? You think I'm insignificant? ", You ask again just to be sure. But deep down you couldn't help but weigh the possibility. What else could it possibly be? He remembered everyone! Even Paimon and yet you were the only one left out. What other reason could there be other than him not wanting to remember you? The late-night whispers and touches. All the kisses and nights that were shared between you. They were insignificant to him.

"You are."

A chuckle escapes your lips. That was the height of your anger. You wouldn't yell. What would be the point? "I probably was", You mumble and smile at him. "I apologise, I'll be leaving now", You said bowing. You left immediately after not sparing anyone a glance. As soon as she leave the sanctuary your legs gave out. It was too much for you, you were overflowing.

"You didn't have to do it that harshly Wanderer!", Paimon scolded and yet he didn't respond. His eyes hadn't left the door. It hurt. His chest hurt. He mumbled quietly, his words could only be deciphered by someone with keen hearing. "Goodbye, my love. I'm sorry".

[dogloveri23]

Secrets you never told

pairing: Al haitham x gn!reade

warning: Angst, cheating, betrayal

A/n: I know I've been gone for a ridiculously long time. And honestly, I hadn't been playing genshin through the break. But now I'm back on my ring and decided to start with al haitham. I have a few characters I want to write on but this is my thank-you gift to all those I left waiting. Also note that pc tumble is misbehaving.

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The ride to Snezhnaya was long and tormenting. Sumeru's warmth was long gone as you were now assaulted by the heat of Natlan. Dottore clones talked continuously but your mind was occupied. You didn't hear the plan he had in mind, all your thoughts were on the man you left in Sumeru. Though leaving was a strong overstatement. Leaving is used when the person being referred to cares. The 'he' in question most likely didn't remember your existence.

You loved him but He was cold, too cold for you. Yet you wouldn't give up! You didn't know when to quit. Your puny Sakura references and flower quizzes couldn't keep him. Even if you told yourself you deserved better! Even if you told yourself repeatedly that he wasn't treating you the best! You still stayed! even though he didn't beg you, even though he made no attempts to see you or hang out with you, you still stayed. Holding on to the false hope, the false pretence that he wouldn't have accepted your confession if he didn't love you. You were foolish! And you underestimated him! How far he would go to achieve his plan. You were nothing but a stepping stone to his victory and that hurt even more.

Your father had major ties to the academia and you were an easy way to get dirt on the organization. You were a fool, you knew it and he certainly did as well. You fell for the academia's scribe and became his doormat. It didn't matter to you because he loved you, right? Right? Even if you both had your differences, love would bloom through, it had bloomed through! Love led you down this path and now you weren't so sure whether you could go back to being normal.

It was his love for you that brought this strange woman to your doorstep, that made her confess that she'd been sleeping with Alhaitham for the entirety of your relationship with him and even before it. It was his love for you that made him cheat on you with this woman who seemingly had no shame and spoke as if you were the one who was out of place. It was his love for you that made her tell you not to contact him anymore. That made her call you stupid for believing that the whole thing was real. All the long walks and whispers were nothing, absolutely nothing in the eyes of Alhaitham.

You had slammed the door in her face, you wouldn't believe it, you couldn't believe it. She was just some groupie with the intent of spoiling your relationship. She didn't lie. Not a single word she uttered had falseness in them. She was true to the bone, which attracted Alhaitham to her. He didn't like your sugarcoating or over-filtering, he wanted something raw, someone like Linda was just that. Everything he wanted. Everything he wanted was not you. No matter how many times you complain or lie to yourself it wouldn't be.

He didn't reach out to you either, he had told Linda to go instead. That was your breakup. A 3rd party jab at your existence and intelligence.

You couldn't cry, not when the betrayal was this deep. Your father had been imprisoned by the archon and the next day, your ex was parading around Sumeru with his real lover and was the acting head of the academia. You hated him, you hated how your life had crashed down to nothing in two days. You hated how he had done it all under your nose and made you out to be a fool. You hated how he sent his heartless girlfriend to break up with you in his stead.

This is why you joined forces with the fatui, and had a newly acquired pyro vision resting at your hip. You had gotten it not long after you had chosen the path of revenge. The gods also seemed enraged by your fate and gave you a sign of their blessing. You didn't mind bringing down the academia and the entirety of the Sumeru nation with it. They didn't care about you, they deserted you as soon as your father was imprisoned, and your 'friends went on with it all. You were nothing to them, to anyone! But you would be soon, you didn't care how many deals you had to make for all of them to have a slow and painful death.

"Try to relax, I can sense your desire for revenge burning over here", Dottore's clone yawned. I had been still for hours. But the disgusted look on my face had never left. I was weak, too weak and now they will pay dearly. Once I officially join the fatui, My revenge journey would begin and he would regret ruining me, he would regret all the secrets he never told me and he would most certainly regret being alive.

And since Linda and Alhaitham love each other so much, I'll make them both burn in hell together, in a warm but deadly embrace.

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Secrets you never told

pairing: Al haitham x gn!reade

warning: Angst, cheating, betrayal

A/n: I know I've been gone for a ridiculously long time. And honestly, I hadn't been playing genshin through the break. But now I'm back on my ring and decided to start with al haitham. I have a few characters I want to write on but this is my thank-you gift to all those I left waiting. Also note that pc tumble is misbehaving.

UID:627473190

The ride to Snezhnaya was long and tormenting. Sumeru's warmth was long gone as you were now assaulted by the heat of Natlan. Dottore clones talked continuously but your mind was occupied. You didn't hear the plan he had in mind, all your thoughts were on the man you left in Sumeru. Though leaving was a strong overstatement. Leaving is used when the person being referred to cares. The 'he' in question most likely didn't remember your existence.

You loved him but He was cold, too cold for you. Yet you wouldn't give up! You didn't know when to quit. Your puny Sakura references and flower quizzes couldn't keep him. Even if you told yourself you deserved better! Even if you told yourself repeatedly that he wasn't treating you the best! You still stayed! even though he didn't beg you, even though he made no attempts to see you or hang out with you, you still stayed. Holding on to the false hope, the false pretence that he wouldn't have accepted your confession if he didn't love you. You were foolish! And you underestimated him! How far he would go to achieve his plan. You were nothing but a stepping stone to his victory and that hurt even more.

Your father had major ties to the academia and you were an easy way to get dirt on the organization. You were a fool, you knew it and he certainly did as well. You fell for the academia's scribe and became his doormat. It didn't matter to you because he loved you, right? Right? Even if you both had your differences, love would bloom through, it had bloomed through! Love led you down this path and now you weren't so sure whether you could go back to being normal.

It was his love for you that brought this strange woman to your doorstep, that made her confess that she'd been sleeping with Alhaitham for the entirety of your relationship with him and even before it. It was his love for you that made him cheat on you with this woman who seemingly had no shame and spoke as if you were the one who was out of place. It was his love for you that made her tell you not to contact him anymore. That made her call you stupid for believing that the whole thing was real. All the long walks and whispers were nothing, absolutely nothing in the eyes of Alhaitham.

You had slammed the door in her face, you wouldn't believe it, you couldn't believe it. She was just some groupie with the intent of spoiling your relationship. She didn't lie. Not a single word she uttered had falseness in them. She was true to the bone, which attracted Alhaitham to her. He didn't like your sugarcoating or over-filtering, he wanted something raw, someone like Linda was just that. Everything he wanted. Everything he wanted was not you. No matter how many times you complain or lie to yourself it wouldn't be.

He didn't reach out to you either, he had told Linda to go instead. That was your breakup. A 3rd party jab at your existence and intelligence.

You couldn't cry, not when the betrayal was this deep. Your father had been imprisoned by the archon and the next day, your ex was parading around Sumeru with his real lover and was the acting head of the academia. You hated him, you hated how your life had crashed down to nothing in two days. You hated how he had done it all under your nose and made you out to be a fool. You hated how he sent his heartless girlfriend to break up with you in his stead.

This is why you joined forces with the fatui, and had a newly acquired pyro vision resting at your hip. You had gotten it not long after you had chosen the path of revenge. The gods also seemed enraged by your fate and gave you a sign of their blessing. You didn't mind bringing down the academia and the entirety of the Sumeru nation with it. They didn't care about you, they deserted you as soon as your father was imprisoned, and your 'friends went on with it all. You were nothing to them, to anyone! But you would be soon, you didn't care how many deals you had to make for all of them to have a slow and painful death.

"Try to relax, I can sense your desire for revenge burning over here", Dottore's clone yawned. I had been still for hours. But the disgusted look on my face had never left. I was weak, too weak and now they will pay dearly. Once I officially join the fatui, My revenge journey would begin and he would regret ruining me, he would regret all the secrets he never told me and he would most certainly regret being alive.

And since Linda and Alhaitham love each other so much, I'll make them both burn in hell together, in a warm but deadly embrace.

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Hey guys, so tomorrow is my birthday! (4th of June) and I want to thank you all for supporting me. No I’m not closing my page😳😭. Just wanted to put it out there