I know you’re not the one and i dont mean to let you know my feelings, but i couldnt sleep these nights thinking i wanna kiss you so bad. You’re a wildest dream i should not have reached but turns out when people got drunk, they got funny kind of bravery.
I remember you standing in front of me, while i was on the kitchen counter. And i craved to touch your face. We were talking nonsense to hide what we really meant, and then i said: “its 4AM in the morning, and you gonna miss your chance”
“to do what?” You asked with a smile.
Then i saw you reaching for me, and kissing me. Passionately. Privately.
Your lips were so tender. Your hands pulled me closer. My fingers slipped through your hair, finding their way to your face.
We talked, then kissed, then talking and kissing again.
You asked me if you were a good kisser. Cant remember how i responded to you. I just wanted this moment to last a bit longer.
I have always known you are not the one for me. A boy with a smile like yours has the potential to break my heart if i let you open the door. When im nothing new and you’re walking past me. So I acted like this was just a one night thing, when a boy and a girl liked each other, they kissed and moved on. What else could it be?
But the moment you walked out of the kitchen, i still felt a sense of disappointment.
Did you come to my room that night? Because i could feel your lips on mine. It was not a dream.
The morning, in the room before we left, our friends talking and laughing outside, you gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. We were sober, it was a choice. But I was just looking at you and didnt know what to say.
When we’re back to the reality, will it ever be the same as it was?
P/s: do you know what moment i like best? Its when i woke you up that morning, you slowly opened your eyes and smiled when you saw me, that quiet and sleepy smile. Your hand found mine, sneaky and warm. You should know you look so soft when sleeping, not the confident, smartass boy who always wins in every game.
I think i like you in that moment. And i think thats why i had to let you go.
