MONTAIRE

Yes, i took these photos

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IS THAT THE CONVENTION CENTER?? Im late for the whole Last of Us p2 hype but i finished watching Jacksepticeyes play through and the way he played it was so satisfying that i wanted to make something for him and for the people who made such an amazing game. Makes m wish i could do seomthing like that some day.  This is my ever first fan art for jacksepticeye so i hope it does proud, its also my first time doing an edit like this, ngl it was so cool being able to make something like this. I really like how it turned out. What yall think?? Should i make more edits like these?? ALSO NAUGHTY DOG PAY THE PEOPLE!

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Succulents against the Sky

So i did black and white photos for the first time today and let me tell you that it was hard as fuck yet very pleasing, i never realized how eye opening it was to take these and see the world in an entire different perspective for a while, and how i got to see the light and dark of everything, and it let me thinking

Is this what seeing the big picture means? Seeing the light and dark out of everything? Realizing that in order for things to BE there has to be light and shadows in different portions, and that those portions change with every passing minute of every day. If you see everything in shadows you cant see anything right? its all dark and its spoopy, but if you see everything in light you cant see anything either! its blinding and disorienting. There has to be balance, and that balance is never 50/50, sometimes it can be 20/80 in either way, sometimes it could get close to even and get to 40ish/60ish and sometimes it can feel like 1/99 and we all know that that 99 isnt the good kind of 99 in this context and im not gonna sit here and say “OoOOoH AnD tHaTs OoOOK” because its not, no one should feel like the world around us or inside us is full of shadows, it sucks. But you still have that 1, the good kind of 1, and you always will, so hang on to it, Things will get better.

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The last bus ride home

Haven’t been out and keep trying to take photos in home but ive been finding it hard to do, so i searched for some pics i had and had these ones which i took on the last bus ride i took home before going in quarantine. Its crazy how fast the world changed. Times like these show how fragile we as humans truly are.

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Whats beyond me? I’ve always been fascinated about the paranormal and the spiritual, the occult and the “strange”  How everything just works because one just truly believes so, that the mid can create anything it desires physical or not. Demons, angels, gods, spirits, energy, how ever you want to call it. It does exists. Its out there, somewhere, but its hard to find, specially for me. For a long time I’ve had issues with my believes and how i act upon them. I d believe that these things exists, I’ve seen them with my own eyes but desperation and tiredness makes one turn blind on the things that lie right in front of us.  I’ve talked to the sky and the trees, I’ve asked saints and went to churches, I’ve meditated and looked with in (ish) and i just cant seem to understand when everyone around me does.  Am i trying too hard? or am i asking for the wrong things?  I just would like to know whats out there, i would like to know whats the point of my existence or existence in general or if it has a reason at all. All of us will die some day and in a 100 years everyone will forget we exist so why try to be “good” or “bad” Whats the point of it all?  Are we truly spirit or are we just a blob of meat trying to survive.  Everything is weird

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Tomorrow?

Recently things might have become a bit unstable, scary and, honestly speaking, uncertain. Many fear that they might be the next ones that will be infected by this new virus and they’re rightful to do so. it is scary. It might not be compared against other pandemic outbreaks like the Spanish flu or the plague, but in the end it is unsettling and again, uncertain. Uncertain is a scary word. It’s uncertain when are we're going to be able to see the world with our own eyes again, or how much longer the food will last for some individuals, when will we see our friends and family again, or who’s next to, die.

I’m still young, i don’t know much about life, i don’t know much about many things, I’ve got many things to experience still, and many memories to make. And I’m very uncertain about a lot of things. But there is one thing that i do know, and that is that the earth will keep spinning and the moon shall move across the sky and shine up on us all and help us see in the dark. I know that people will work until their dying breath to bring safety towards us. I know that the universe will still be there.

And I know that tomorrow the sun will rise, and so shall we.

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Where’s the Love?

SIAMÉS new album home just came out! and im so stoked and in love with No lullaby, but the part where it says where’s the love got me thinking of many things, including the whole deal with sex.

I feel like people now days have discarded the whole ideology of sex being a sacred thing. Call me old school but to me sex is such a beautiful thing, you put yourself in your most vulnerable to someone and you give your all, body and soul. Two people being the closest they can be and forgetting about the rest of the world for a while. But now days its just one night stands and having sex without meaning and then they just part ways as if nothing ever happened.

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The Day Before Friday the 13th

It was pretty normal, just went to school and “got work done”  Then i went with some friends to eat some over priced hot dogs as we played the Vocho game. I’m surprised our arms didn’t end up bruising. After that i started walking home and encountered my neighbor who kindly game me a ride home. We talked about how the corona virus is spreading and everyone is treating it as a joke and later joked about it as well.  I can hear the cicadas outside as the cool night wind begins to blow. 

Its peaceful. 

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RAINY DAYS

The last few days have been ugh in any way shape or form. 

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CAMPING TRIP PT2 It was so cold up there! our water froze but i almost caught my sleeping bag on fire because i slept next to the fire we started. It was so fun though

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CAMPING TRIP  Recently went camping with a few friends and the place was amazing!  and the best part? There were cows all the way up the mountains!