I'm fine

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[moreauver]

just reread the baltimore scenes and my god. andrew physically having to stop himself from punching neil after he said he was sorry because what do you MEAN you’re sorry???? you’re ALIVE and you’re REAL and IN FRONT OF ME and i’m relieved and devastated and you’re HURT and i didn’t PROTECT YOU and you SCARED ME and you LIED TO ME and the people who did this to you are the ones who SHOULD be sorry NOT you so DONT you fucking dare say you’re sorry, not like this, not right now, not to me

[link-links]

when aaron called the armbands andrew gave neil a promise ring i was like damn. didn’t realize i bought a one way ticket to gag city

[twinyardz]

it's so funny and sad how jean thinks he's this unloveable thing meanwhile he's like the people's princess of the aftg universe. he won cat and laila over immediately and the rest of the trojans are completely obsessed with him. neil, kevin, and renee care about him so much and would do anything for him. andrew begrudgingly respects him and took his heavy-handed advice. thea calls him her little duckling. oh and jeremy knox is head-over-heels in love with him. he really is just that loveable

[dustisus]

[viviandarkbloombartylusversion]

Remembering that one of the bravest things Neil did was stay after running all his life and one of the bravest things Kevin did was run after staying all his life and that they were both equally as brave

[whomst-the-hell]

aftg stuff we as a fandom do not talk about or appreciate enough:

neil punching the shit out of riko and wymack having to drag him off

neil repeatedly wanting to hit someone but not allowing himself because he was trying to stay low profile

neil getting back from evermore, realising riko tattooed him, and immediately attempting to carve the tattoo off his face with a knife

neil fantasising about stomping andrews face in at columbia

neil being experienced with guns

neil specifically liking exy because its aggressive and violent

neil grabbing the racket at thanksgiving with the intention of using it as a weapon, then asking for it back after

" "Need anything else?" "A clear shot at Riko and no witnesses," Neil said. Matt grinned like he thought Neil was joking and left. "

[crisis-exystencial]

Never kill yourself, your favorite trilogy that changed your life and mind at a molecular level can be turned into an 8-book series when you least expect it

[laurasauras]

the thing about neil always saying that he's fine is that he's not hearing the same question that other people are asking him. he grew up not only on the run but in such a way that people were constantly on the very edge of catching him! "i'm fine" means yeah i was shot but my legs still work and i can make it to the car. "i'm fine" means i'm in a lot of pain but i won't scream and give our position away.

"i'm fine" means "i can do what is needed of me without failing you", it means "don't worry about me". there were other priorities. neil saying he's not okay is him saying that he needs help.

i think mary would have dropped everything if he said he wasn't okay, because she taught neil to fucking mean it if he did.

[ladystormverse]

watch as the aftg fandom turns nicky into a sweet little bun, and i think: what the hell? he’s just as troubled as the rest of the foxes. he gets offended and yells if he doesn’t like something. he has his own personal boundaries and limits of patience. he might even get into a fight if someone hurts his family. why not? he’s only human. just because nicky is always smiling doesn’t mean everything is fine. in reality, people like that carry a huge burden of problems, and when they explode, their negativity sweeps away everything in its path. they’re like an erupting volcano; a supernova explosion. and it’s bad, and it’s painful, and it’s ugly, but that’s just how it is, plain and simple.

[tinmate]

Kills me that Jean spent so long isolated and lonely. Hated and tortured by his team. Not allowed or not able to get close to the people he cared about. And now’s he on a team that LOVES him SO MUCH and thinks he’s SO COOL and want to hang out with him ALL THE TIME and will fight you for the chance to hang out with Jean and happily team up to go to all of his classes with him and tail him like ducklings and declare themselves his big brothers and get him gifts and want to play with him like he’s a big puppy and HEY HAVE YOU MET MY BUDDY JEAN isn’t he SO COOL he’s just the BEST man and are kind of annoying actually? Why did Jean want friends again?

[thieves-never-say-die]

I am thinking about a Leverage/All For The Game crossover. In which Jean Moreau is Damien Moreau's son

[thieves-never-say-die]

I'd have to fudge a bit of backstory, but consider:

Damien never really wanted a son, and then his wife died in childbirth so he held an unfounded grudge against Jean and decided to basically force Jean to play Exy with the plan of eventually giving him to the Moriyamas

Eliot was the only one of Damien's enforcers that was ever nice to Jean and felt bad for the kid, but he couldn't do anything once Jean was sent away, but he did keep an eye on Jean all through the years

Fast forward a bunch of years later, Neil's plan is still to sacrifice Jean's family as fodder for the FBI's case on The Butcher, so Neil and Jean meet with the FBI around the same time the Leverage team starts working against Damien Moreau

The arrest that happens during the interview is actually Damien's arrest in San Lorenzo, and there's no extradition but the FBI can still use Damien as a fall guy for their case

Once the Leverage team is back in the US, Eliot goes to find Jean with Parker and Hardison in tow (they wouldn't take no for an answer)

So Jeremy opens the door to this group of strangers, one of whom looks like he could easily murder them all, and Jeremy tries to bluff that Jean isn't there except the other two are convinced he is. Eliot yells Jean's name and Jean comes running, Jeremy is prepared to step in between them (even though he's terrified) but instead Eliot pulls Jean in for a hug, and Jean. lets him??? What is going on???

They all get some time to hang out, Cat bonds with Parker over their love of driving fast, they all have a good time, and it ends with Eliot giving Jean his number and saying to call him if he ever gets in trouble

(Bonus points for when the house fire happens, Eliot hears about it immediately and goes to visit and helps wire the kids money to get a new apartment. He Mysteriously Disappears when the FBI show up)

[thieves-never-say-die]

So I wrote the fic

https://archiveofourown.org/works/80696871

[thieves-never-say-die]

I am thinking about a Leverage/All For The Game crossover. In which Jean Moreau is Damien Moreau's son

[thieves-never-say-die]

I'd have to fudge a bit of backstory, but consider:

Damien never really wanted a son, and then his wife died in childbirth so he held an unfounded grudge against Jean and decided to basically force Jean to play Exy with the plan of eventually giving him to the Moriyamas

Eliot was the only one of Damien's enforcers that was ever nice to Jean and felt bad for the kid, but he couldn't do anything once Jean was sent away, but he did keep an eye on Jean all through the years

Fast forward a bunch of years later, Neil's plan is still to sacrifice Jean's family as fodder for the FBI's case on The Butcher, so Neil and Jean meet with the FBI around the same time the Leverage team starts working against Damien Moreau

The arrest that happens during the interview is actually Damien's arrest in San Lorenzo, and there's no extradition but the FBI can still use Damien as a fall guy for their case

Once the Leverage team is back in the US, Eliot goes to find Jean with Parker and Hardison in tow (they wouldn't take no for an answer)

So Jeremy opens the door to this group of strangers, one of whom looks like he could easily murder them all, and Jeremy tries to bluff that Jean isn't there except the other two are convinced he is. Eliot yells Jean's name and Jean comes running, Jeremy is prepared to step in between them (even though he's terrified) but instead Eliot pulls Jean in for a hug, and Jean. lets him??? What is going on???

They all get some time to hang out, Cat bonds with Parker over their love of driving fast, they all have a good time, and it ends with Eliot giving Jean his number and saying to call him if he ever gets in trouble

(Bonus points for when the house fire happens, Eliot hears about it immediately and goes to visit and helps wire the kids money to get a new apartment. He Mysteriously Disappears when the FBI show up)

[thieves-never-say-die]

So I wrote the fic

https://archiveofourown.org/works/80696871

[devi-lishly]

Neil with nerve damage. Neil who has permanently shakey hands after Baltimore. Neil who absolutely hates this fact. Andrew who will hold his hands steady. Andrew who caresses the scars. Andrew who will cover Neil's hands with his own after Neil has been staring at them shaking for a bit too long.

[jhsjykwpdw]

they have never once been normal about each other

[odysseus-day]

cody and jean's friendship is genuinely so important to me, because how often do you think cody ever meets someone who doesn't acknowledge their transness on first instinct? because as a trans person, i can guarantee not once in their life has anyone ever been so nonchalant about their pronouns, and then here comes this 6'3 sheltered french man who most definitely has them internally bracing for questions ("they? but you're only one person." "yeah, but what are you really?" "she— he— oops, i mean they. sorry, it's just so hard for me!") but then they meet jean and all it takes is hearing their teammates use they/them once for him to pick it up effortlessly. jean, who's been sheltered in a cult his entire life. jean, who's too afraid of his own sexuality to even look at jeremy for too long. jean, whose native language has little to no accommodations to be gender neutral. jean would be the first person they'd expect to be confused or hostile, and they probably wouldn't even fault him for it if he was. but he isn't. he treats cody like a human being first and doesn't ask a single question as to why he should.

and then there's the other side of the coin. jean is used to his eating disorder being a topic of discussion by this point, and his fixations with numbers and measurements being scrutinized rather than gently counteracted. cat helps by teaching him to cook, and jeremy and laila try too, but even then he's still surrounded by nutrition facts and labels and calculations to lose himself in. but then cody notices, and they keep noticing, and as subtly as possible they start to find tiny things jean enjoys to brighten up his day. they ask cat what fruits he likes and bring him peaches and buckets of strawberries, snacks without a label to lose himself in or visible numbers to panic over. and they don't force him to have them, but they're visibly elated and encouraging when he does, and when he actually enjoys them. jean doesn't make cody feel like a burden for something they can't control, so cody refuses to do the same. they just want to help, to make sure he eats, and to make sure he enjoys eating.

and fuck, dude, i can't stop thinking about them.

[lorasx]

jerejean in a nutshell

[devi-lishly]

Headcanon that Neil can cry on command. He used it to get out of a lot of bad situations when he was younger, to guilt trip people when he got caught stealing from stores, to make people think he was less capable than he really was. And the foxes found this out when Neil was just trying to stir the pot. He and Aaron had been talking and Aaron had said something he hadn't liked so he'd just pulled out the tears and was like "what the fuck Aaron why would you say that" and walked away. And the room exploded behind him with people asking Aaron what the fuck he had said and Aaron was like "all I said was being a math major was stupid."