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         if  you  ask  her  what  her  favorite  color  is  she  will  think  of  the  blood  drying  on  concrete  floors,  the  color  that  drips  from  her  mouth  as  she  spits  out  muscle  and  flesh  that  is  not  her  own.  she  will  answer  GREEN too  quickly.     /    ind.     pri.     fandomless     oc.     indelicateloathing.

[dontrelax]

ooc.     first of all i hate you all...

[wishtoconfess]

Do it.

I will write about the following, leave one in my ask box.

Dear person I hate,

Dear person I like,

Dear ex boyfriend,

Dear ex girlfriend,

Dear ex bestfriend,

Dear bestfriend,

Dear *anyone*,

Dear Santa,

Dear mom,

Dear dad,

Dear future me,

Dear past me,

Dear person I’m jealous of,

Dear person I had a crush on,

Dear girlfriend,

Dear boyfriend,

[bountyman]

rp partner: so idk how u feel about really dark threads and violence and gore and stuff but–

me, putting my finger against their lips: i’m in

[hup123hup123slapslap]

[andsoimuse-moved-blog]

                                 I am dangerous                                      I am docile

                                  I am a machine                                I am a human being

                                   I am a demon                                    I am an angel

               ( In the end, does it really matter what I am? )

[dontrelax]

IN CHARACTER JUDGEMENT CALL

RULES : you can only say guilty or innocent . you are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you or asks you . repost , don’t reblog !

Asked someone to marry you ? - Innocent Kissed one of your friends ? - Guilty Danced on a table in a bar / tavern ? - Innocent Ever told a lie ? - Guilty Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have ? - Guilty Ever kissed someone of the same sex ? - Guilty Kissed a picture ? - Innocent Slept until 5pm ? - Innocent Fallen asleep at work / school ? - Guilty Held a snake ? - Innocent Been suspended from school ? - Innocent Worked at a fast food chain / restaurant ? - Innocent Stolen something ? - Guilty Been fired from a job ? - Guilty-ish Done something you regret ? - Guilty Laughed until something you were drinking came out of your nose ? - Guilty Caught a snowflake on your tongue ? - Guilty Kissed in the rain ? - Innocent Sat on a roof top ? - Innocent Kissed someone you shouldn’t ? - Guilty Sang in the shower ? - Guilty Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on ? - Innocent Shaved your head ? - Innocent Slept naked ? - Innocent Made a boyfriend / girlfriend cry ? - innocent Shot a gun ? - Guilty Still love someone you shouldn’t ? - Innocent Have / had a tattoo ? - Innocent Liked someone , but will never tell who ? - Guilty Been too honest ? - Guilty Ruined a surprise ? - Guilty Been told that you’re beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said ? - Innocent Still have communication w/ your ex ? - Innocent Cheated on someone ? - Innocent Got so angry that you cried ? - Guilty Tried to stay away from someone for their own good ? - Innocent Thoughts about suicide ? - Guilty Thoughts about murder ? - Guilty How about mass murder ? - Innocent  Stalked someone ? - Innocent Had a girlfriend / boyfriend ? - Guilty Gotten totally drunk during a holiday ? - Guilty

TAGGED: @samaelnomcre TAGGING: @shriffe, @leadkiss, @lungslinger, @angclpants, anyone really.

[dontrelax]

PRIMARY CANON DIVERGENCES PART ONE.     ( this is just covering the basics for the moment as i’m in fairly serious pain at the moment, bbd as a whole, the car crash, jeremy’s powers, and bobo will be covered in a secondary post. )

powers.     i’m still getting a feeling for the exacts of his powers because hyper empathy isn’t a super power and that word is being slung around a lot by people who don’t understand it ( this is coming from someone with intense hyper empathy, it’s not a super power. ) with all of that said, I know that it’s been established that jeremy feels it in his dick bc lol how funny but i’m scrapping that for he feels it in his pelvis. his pelvic bone was completely shattered in the crash, and when it was reconstructed in the aftermath, that is when most of the conduits that makes his powers tangible were placed. many of these conduits are now fused with the bone because of the fact that he was eleven when they were implanted.

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PRIMARY CANON DIVERGENCES PART ONE.     ( this is just covering the basics for the moment as i’m in fairly serious pain at the moment, bbd as a whole, the car crash, jeremy’s powers, and bobo will be covered in a secondary post. )

powers.     i’m still getting a feeling for the exacts of his powers because hyper empathy isn’t a super power and that word is being slung around a lot by people who don’t understand it ( this is coming from someone with intense hyper empathy, it’s not a super power. ) with all of that said, I know that it’s been established that jeremy feels it in his dick bc lol how funny but i’m scrapping that for he feels it in his pelvis. his pelvic bone was completely shattered in the crash, and when it was reconstructed in the aftermath, that is when most of the conduits that makes his powers tangible were placed. many of these conduits are now fused with the bone because of the fact that he was eleven when they were implanted.

housing.     following the dissolution of bbd, the payment on jeremy’s motel room eventually stopped, and he was forced to find his own lodging. this wasn’t something he brought up to the others, and he mainly lived out of his car, and showered and slept in the station. when it eventually came out, nicole allowed jeremy to sleep at her place since she spends most nights at the earp homestead. ( this is from mild discussion with @shriffe if i write with another nicole we can discuss otherwise it should be assumed that jeremy is sleeping at nicole’s place and taking care of calamity jane when nicole is busy. )

wynonna.      while wyn and jeremy have never been and will likely never be the best of friends, they are not nearly as antagonistic as the show portrays. they have their differences at times, and their fights, but in the end they have each other’s backs.

          jeremy and wynonna did eventually have a conversation about the events of 2x10 in which he made it exceedingly clear he was not and is not okay with human experimentation. especially not when one of the subjects has been forcibly coerced into it. it’s one of the very few instances in which jeremy was well and truly angry.

          it’s also very important to me that in a universe where dolls died ( i’m going to have split continuities one in which dolls survives and one in which dolls dies ) that while wynonna was well and truly pissed at him initially, that they had a chance to truly and deeply talk about dolls. specifically, jeremy got to talk to wyn and honor his memory by telling her a bit about his shared past with dolls.

dolls.     jeremy has never had and will never have romantic feelings for dolls aside from a fleeting crush in his teenage years at bbd. this in itself was not a true romantic feeling, but more so a superficial attraction due to looks as well as an attraction to the fact dolls was one of the few people he was close to within the organization that did not perpetuate the cycles of abuse and gas lighting. it’s also important to note that dolls likely saved jeremy’s life by campaigning to keep him in bbd. because of his powers, and the fact that jeremy chetri is legally missing, assumed dead, the truth of the matter is that leaving bbd would likely be a death sentence for jeremy who was at the time barely 18, and very aware of the situation. part of his unending loyalty to dolls and willingness to sacrifice himself to save waverly so the mission to save him would remain on track is due to this fact.

          in terms of the events of season 3 and the timeline in which dolls survives, jeremy does manage to synthesize dolls’ medication and stabilization but details of this have to be worked out on an individual basis with dolls accounts as it’s very much affecting their character.

dolls death.    in the timeline in which dolls dies, jeremy very much holds guilt over the fact that he couldn’t save him. the night that he realizes saving dolls is an impossibility, he mourns him. that does not make him quit, but there is a moment when he realizes the end is inevitable and close. while jeremy did not have the time nor resources to honor most of the traditions of his culture, he did wear white to dolls’ funeral, not black. he also did not refer to dolls as dead for a minimum of 10 days after his death. i will likely remove quin from the storyline all together as he does little to nothing to advance the plot and merely provides a white mouthpiece for a story that i firmly believe dolls, or in his absence jeremy, should have been the one to tell.

[dontrelax]

ooc.     hello i am here i am queer and i can’t touch my elbow ( even with a pillow ) without screaming from pain but i am here and i’m going to try to detail jeremy’s canon divergences today.

[dontrelax]

ooc.     i have tomorrow and tuesday off so i can actually get things done here ( seriously i leave work every night feeling like i’ve gone 6 rounds in the ring with an mma fighter ) and i will be detailing my official canon divergences then. ( also @ any wyns who want to help me reconfigure the beginning of this season re: dolls hit me the fuck up )

[dontrelax]

spoilers. jeremy had every right and reason to leave bobo alone in that cell and yet it still felt incredibly cruel and wildly ooc to me. depending how much of the finale i decide to keep, leaving bobo behind isn't something he does.

[dontrelax]

If y'all think I'm not going canon divergent after the finale you're fucking wrong.

[dontrelax]

Ooc. I'm only half way through the finale and I say this with full offense what the actual fuck.

[abuse-suggestion]

my body is a crime scene

[dontrelax]

there’s a bag of pistachios on jeremy’s desk for whenever he gets back along with a tiny little sticky note under it that reads, “a little thanks for the other day.” in sharon's neat cursive (◡‿◡✿)

          the whole bulshar business is exhausting. the invisible weight of something always looming just over the horizon, over his shoulder, at the corner of his eye— something closer. and closer. and closer. sometimes it’s difficult to remember to how to breathe as something thick and heavy hangs in the air. he’s tired constantly. there is not enough sleep in the world to make him feel rested so he subsides on energy drinks as he tries to find a way to make the days longer.

          no sleep. again. the night had rolled into morning into afternoon pouring over volumes trying to find the missing pieces in the puzzle when the greater picture is unknown. when he settles in at his desk he pulls out the notebook of clues that may lead to nothing, something to try to compare and fit together. it’s fumbling for a folder that he notices the bag of pistachios,, reads the note. jeremy smiles a genuine smile, and it’s these spots of light that keep him going. he should probably eat something anyways.

          [ sms: s. carter ]: any time.          [ sms: s. carter ]: i should probably say thank you too.          [ sms: s. carter ]: those pistachios actually reminded me to eat today.

☆ﾟ*・ﾟ @agentxiii — ↳ soft stuff is always accepted.