Don't Survive, Live

I'm a blogger. I'll post about my life at times and I'll post some deep shit too. I happily give advice and would love just about anyone who asks for it. Talk to me and I promise I'll try to help a homie out.

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AIRPORTS

So I’m flying to Kansas to visit my boyfriend for spring break and lemme just tell ya something. This is shit. I’m tired and sore and just wanna be done traveling. 

When I went to visit him in the fall my flight was delayed so bad that he had to pick me up in Texas! That was a 5 hour drive for him which is just insane. And tis time, I checked weather and everything and my flight was delayed an hour and a half and I missed my connecting flight. Wanna know the kicker? If my connecting flight would’ve waited just 10 minutes, I would’ve made it. There were 8 of us on that flight and we all missed it. It was dumb and I was upset. They put my in a hotel, gave me meal vouchers and it was miserable. 

I use to love airports and traveling, but right now, I’ve just been screwed over and I’m tired. I’m sick of it. I missed a whole day with my boyfriend and I’m upset. So wish me luck with the rest of my travels... its been a hoot and a half. 

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Welcome

Hello! I run this blog and my name is Samalie. I go by Sam for short though. If you’re new here... WELCOME! I’ve been MIA for awhile there and a lot has changed since my last post. Lemme reintroduce myself...

My name is Samalie and I’m a student at Utah State University. I’m majoring in chemistry teaching with a math minor. I would love to teach secondary education and be a coach. Speaking of coaching... I’m the assistant girls golf coach at a local high school. Let’s back track a little though. My first two years of college was experienced at Central Wyoming College where I was given a full ride to play for the women’s golf team. Once I received my associates degree in science at that junior college, I transferred to a D2 school in Colorado called Colorado State University -  Pueblo. They offered me another scholarship to attend there and play on their golf team. I took it. It was a very tough 5 months for me and I ended up failing out and moving back home after the first semester. It was a fun time and I met so many amazing people, but I was no longer becoming the woman that I wanted to be so I had to take a step back. From there, I took a year off of school. It was a good thing for me, but after a year, I was ready to be back in the classroom. So in Spring 2021, I was enrolled at USU and I’ve been here ever since in attempt to get my bachelors degree. 

Another thing that has changed is that I have a boyfriend! He’s so good to me and I love him with everything that I have. We’ve been together for 20 months and it’s been an adventure. We’re coming on our 7th month of long distance and that has definitely been tough, but it’s okay. He’s living in Kansas where attends a small college. He decided on Kansas because they offered him a scholarship and a spot on their baseball team. It’s been amazing to see him grow as an individual while he’s been away, but to say that it’s been tough is an understatement. But we’re getting through it and it’s been absolutely crazy. 

Well... There was a little about me and I know I’m pretty basic, but hey. I can be different when I wanna be. I decided to start this blog a long time ago because I wanted to be able to help people with my stories or just random advice. My inbox is always open to anyone that needs someone to talk to. I loved this place and I really enjoyed being able to share what has been on my mind. I thank anyone who takes the time to get to know me, hear me out, and relate to the things that go on in my life. I hope to see you soon. 

xoxo,

Samalie 

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I’m Back!!

Hey! Samalie here. I’m sorry I was so MIA for so long. That was very uncool of me and I apologize. Either way... I’m back. 

I’ve been scrolling through some of my older posts and noticed that I was struggling. I was insecure and sad and it’s been a couple years since then, so lemme tell ya something. I’m a whole new person and I can’t wait to introduce myself. 

P.S. Stick around to see a new post about what I’ve been up to and who I am today!

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i miss you...

I don’t think you understand how much I actually miss you. You were everything I ever wanted. I thought that the five plus months of not seeing you and barely exchanging words would make it easier, but I was wrong. I feel like I just miss you more. You were perfect. You’re someone that I don’t think I’ll ever get over and that scares the shit out of me. It hurts me that you’re gone, sometimes I think that my life would be so much easier if I had never met you, but then it hits me. You made a huge impact on my life... you were a big reason why I am who I am. I love who I am and I’m forever thankful for you. If you came back to me, I would take you back in a heartbeat. That’s who you are to me. A hole where you use to be and yet, you’re one of the brightest lights to have ever shined upon me. 

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I care about you way too much. Like, you'll piss me off and you'll do some stupid shit, but I will still be there for you. You have no idea how much it pisses me off.

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thoughts lately..

Recently I got myself out of a slump. I was in a mood where I just felt empty and sad, but didn’t know why. After I talked it out I figured it out. I am a very insecure person. There are so many things about myself that I don’t like and for some reason, all of my insecurities hit me all at once. I kept asking myself why I was single and if there was something wrong with me. I never want to put myself in that kind of mindset ever again. There is nothing wrong with me. As I sat in my room, alone and upset, I found out that there’s nothing wrong with me. What was wrong, was that where I am currently living, there is no one good enough for me. There is no one here for me and for some reason, I blamed myself for not having someone to call my own. It hit me like truck when I realized that I live in a beautiful world with plenty of people that I have yet to meet. There are so many people out there and just because I haven’t met that special someone, doesn’t mean that there is something wrong with me. It just means that I haven’t met them yet and that I just need to keep doing me. When the time is right, he’ll show himself. 

To anyone who is in a “slump” or “mood” because of their insecurities, I promise that you’re beautiful in all aspects of the word. You’re doing great and you’re going to get better. I live by this quote, “Life is like an arrow. Life’s going to pull you back in order to shoot you into something great.” You may be feeling down and like there’s nothing for you, but I promise that if you keep on trudging and fighting like the strong person I know you are, you’re going to find yourself in a greater place than where you were before. I know that it’s hard and that you’re probably tired, but if you just be brave and take on life head first, you’re not going to regret it. You’re going to look back and realize that the hard stuff only prepared you for the great. Life is full of ups and downs, so when you’re feeling down... just know that soon, you’ll be on your way to the top. 

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I'm so insecure, I hate it...

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When you told me that you still think of me and that you still look at our pictures, it really fucked with me. Because you say those things, but you don’t do anything to change it.

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Hard liquor mixed with a bit of intellect

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