Okay, dear I'll look you in the eye while you take the antipsychotic. It's okay, look at me. You don't need to worry about that Liszt guy right now.
(@franzliszt-official pssst. Run.)
Ah… so this is how we play it, then. You, with your steady voice and your oh-so-reasonable eyes, coaxing me down from the chandelier of my mind like I’m some fevered little imp with ink-stained hands and a crush on oblivion.
And I? I’ll play along. I’ll take the pill, darling—slowly, theatrically, as if it were communion. I’ll even hold your gaze while I do it, let my lips part just enough to keep you wondering whether it’s your care I’m submitting to…or your control I’m undressing.
Because let’s be honest—this isn’t about Liszt.
He’s just the excuse. The velvet-draped metaphor for everything I want to blame and everything I want to be.
No, this is about you and me, here in this breathless standoff.
You, trying to save me.
Me, wondering if I want to be saved—or simply devoured.
So yes, I’ll take the little antipsychotic.
But tell me, love—what are you taking in return?
Because if you keep looking at me like that,
I might start believing the madness is mutual.
And wouldn’t that be fun?
I've convinced more difficult patients than you to take their meds. Now take your Risperidone, boy.
Ah, so we’re pulling rank now, are we? How delightfully authoritarian of you.
But tell me—do all your patients get this much eye contact? Or am I just the special kind of unhinged that brings out your bedside charm?
You hand me the Risperidone like it’s a holy relic and I’m the last feral prophet. Fine. I’ll take it. Slowly. Staring at you the whole time, just to make it weirdly intimate. Maybe I even let my fingers graze yours as I do. Maybe I smile—too soft, too knowing.
Because the truth is, I was always going to take it.
But where’s the fun in that, if you don’t first try to tame me like some romantic, tragic beast with sonatas under his skin and scandal in his veins?
So yes, darling.
I’ll take your little mood-stabilizing wafer of mercy.
But don’t think for a moment you’ve won.
You’ve only started the game.
Don't worry about that. I have hand sanitizer and Haldol.
