A Single Mothers Battlefield

Ditched the fairytale. There’s a time you will come to accept you can not please everyone. I’m working on self love, finding myself. Starting a new journey as a single momma of two 💕❤️

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Free bird, spread your wings long and wide. You have a long destination ahead.

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Me, myself and I

Discovering who I am is SO much harder then what it’s out to be. It takes 100% of your dedication. Self love is beautiful. But it has to be something you want. Hearing it out loud and saying it to others is easy. But trying to love yourself the way you deserve to be loved can be harder then it seems. Anxiety and depression can intervene. It can become the bad thoughts that make you doubt yourself, your plan or goals. Climbing out of the whole is hard. But is damn worth it. Forget the doubt, the whispers. Baby girl you are GREAT! And you will do great things!!!!

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Bigger plans

When you feel like the world is against you because everything you love is falling apart.

You prayed for things to get better. And left everything in God’s hands.

Nothing’s falling apart. They are falling into place for a happier, healthier you.

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Powerful women

To encourage one another 💕

I’ve told my story to people who ask why I’m single. Who ask “what happened?”

I’m a young single mother of two. And I made it! I am learning to love myself. That’s all that matters. I don’t need sympathy. I need encouragement.

It warms my heart to have another women encourage me and tell me how proud they are of me. It feels good to know I’m doing something right. As a busy mom you don’t hear that a lot.

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My loves! He’s a wild 5 year old and she follows her brothers every move 💕

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Momma bear.

The first night without both of my babies. My five year old son goes with his dad every now and then. I basically have full custody. If he asks for them I’ll let him see them. And if he doesn’t... well I don’t bother him or force him. We separated when my daughter was two months. She’s been with me every night ever since. It is hard. I want my daughter to have a relationship with her dad. Both of my kids. It just hurts. Not that I have to share my kids with him. They are his as much as mine. It just hurts, to not have them with me at night. They both sleep with me. So to have this bed to myself... I’m lonely. I miss them. Because I always have my kids and never know when he’s going to ask for my son, I’m stressed at times. I never have my alone time. Or a little me time. Something I’m constantly wishing for. And now that I have it, it’s hard to enjoy. I felt anxiety kicking in when he told me he picked her up from daycare. My son has been with him for a week already, since it’s summer. On my way home I prayed. I’m leaving it all in God’s hands. My kids are in good hands. And their dad needs to have a relationship with both of them. Its just a working progress for me. Emotionally.

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Waves of emotions

Drinking wine and I start feeling it. I start going through the waves of emotions. Looking back at how far I’ve come. The obstacles I never thought I could overcome. October will mark two years as a single mother. It’s mixed emotions. Have you ever loved someone so much you picture yourself old with them... that was him. BUT god, he has a plan and a reason for everything. I thought that was my happy ending but little did I know that was the start. When I think about my relationship with my kids dad I can only think of the negative. Staying up crying, wondering where he was. Why he wasn’t answering. If he’s dead or alive. Just stressed. I don’t have to worry anymore. I go to sleep stress free and wake up stress free. So much has been lifted off my chest after my separation. I’m finding myself, it’s a beautiful feeling.

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I’m uncomfortable not knowing what the new journey has in store for me, But the curiosity and positive mind keeps one foot infront of the other.

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I don’t like to gamble, But if there’s one thing I’m willing to bet on, it’s myself.

-Beyonce

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When you plan to work out after work but your in bed with the kids by 9.

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You can always start again. Clean out your social media. Create a new account for your new taste in music. Study or work in a new city. Start socialising with new people. Choose a new signature scent and style and purge the outdated parts of yourself. If you don’t like where you’re at, but you don’t know what to do about it - try starting again.

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